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MASOCHISM 101: THE STORY OF TS AND VM
This profile is being created by a couple, TS and vm, and will be their story of how they came to meet on collarme and embark on a relationship together that will lead from D/s to M/s.
It will also chronicle the journey of vm, who has vehemently denied being a masochist, and seeing how far into the world of SM she can be taken by TS.
This is a long term, committed journey for both of them so do not expect vm to become masochistic overnight as that is not TS's style.
We will both be making journal entries here from how we first met to agreeing to begin this journey together and the step by step and day by day journey of these two people who will share their insights with you of their journey from both the Sadist's point of view and the masochist's point of view.
VM - v is first initial of name and m is for masochist
novice submissive with approx 4 years experience in the lfiestyle whose bdsm preference is the sensual and erotic arts with no SM experience.
TS - T is for initial of first name and S is for Sadist
Experienced Sadist Master who has owned two slaves and trained others whose bdsm interests is extreme SM
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TS and I talk on a daily basis sometimes twice a day. We are indeed planning to meet in mid July and I am quite excited about that. The more I get to know him, the more I like. He has a great sense of humor which is very important to me. Our conversations are about 80/20 of vanilla and bdsm mix which this early on is good. After all, if we have nothing in common outside of bdsm to sustain the relationship what's the point. I also like that he is willing to take baby steps with me being such a greenhorn at SM.
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TSandVm We have been chating more and more and I am moved by the fact that she is wanting to learn and to become a slave to sadist. She will be collared in time. The steps in the beginning will be small. There will be at the start a lot of exploration of what she can handle. We are planning to meet in July and we will be doing some playing at this time. I and her both will post the results after the first meet. I amso excited that she is wanting to learn, I have met so many so called "masochist" on here just to have them disappear or lead you or find out that they have no idea what you want to do. I know from the outside that she has no experience and so willing to try and learn, This will be a great ride and happy she wants to learn. |
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GREAT MINDS THINKING ALIKE
by vm
Later in the day we met up for another chat at CM. The first thing TS says is "I have an idea to present to you." The idea was forus to conduct an experiment together where he teaches me about SM. I could not believe he was actually saying what I had been thinking during our time away. Then when he added on "...this experiment will take years and years to come to a final conclusion." Well, that was the clincher fo rme. I was sold!!
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I CAN'T BELIEVE I AM CONSIDERING THIS
by vm
After our first chat as I went about my business I kept thinking about our chat. There were a few times during that first talk that I wanted to ask if he was looking for an experienced SM sub or would he consider a newbie with no SM experience but I held back.
That's when I kind of shocked myself. Here I was actually contemplating wanting to become his sub. Now you have to understand something... from very early on in my exploration into bdsm, I was not interesteed in SM and I avoided sadists like the plague! And here I was actually considering this.
From the masochist side, I have always held a low opinion of someone who would willingly allow pain and in some cases heavy pain inflicted on them and actually find pleasure in it. And here I was finding myself being drawn into it by this man named TS.
Like a reporter, I now wanted to learn more about SM at a more indepth level to understand the mindset of both the sadist and masochist. I also wanted to see for myself, with the way I have always denied being masochistic, could I learn to be masochistic and to what degree. I wondered if TS would be willing to take on a new student andusing baby steps bring me along and see what I was capable of.
Now I was not looking for a relationship per se, just a teacher for this experiment of mine.....
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TSandvm entry: This is my first entry in the journal. I am the dom part of this new venture. As she has stated we met through CM and it was my interest in her writings that got my attention. I sent her two of my stories and she sent me some of hers and I liked her writing style. We started chatting about the stories and she started asking me questions. We are planning on meeting some time soon and to see where it will go from there. We have been exchanging ideas and in time will probably have our own web site. She seems to be a pleasent person with a great peronality. Seems to be very eager to learn and try the M's part of the lidfe style. |
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AN IDEA FORMS
by vm
Our conversation eventually turns to bdsm and then to SM. Being a very curious person who likes to learn, I asked TS numerous questins on sadism and masochism. He was very patient, forthright and humorous in answering them.
I had told him from very early on in my getting invovled with bdsm that masochism was not for me and politely declined any sadist's that contacted me. He told me that while there are some sadist's who do not like women and use SM as their way to hurt and abuse them that was not his driving force for inflicting pain. For him, SM leads to intense sex after the pain.
And if I at any time misinterpret what he has told me, he will post it when he makes his entries, of that I am most sure lol!
Priot to this conversation, I was basing his sadistic tendencies on the family discipline story he wrote and in my book he was way too extreme. However, I was seeing a different side to his being a Sadist as we talked.
We both had to go do other things and ended our chat saying we would lookf or each other later on. I spent the whole day thinking of our conversaton and an idea started forming.
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THE TIDE IS CHANGING
by vm
After about a week of on and off exchanges over our writings, I invited TS to chat on CM. Our conversation centered around our writings. As we conversed, I came to realize that TS was not as extreme as his stories would make one believe.
In fact, he was quite the gentleman, very down to earth, very funny and I was finding myself becoming quite intrigued by him. We conversed on many topics - gardening, music, food. I was very surprised at how relaxed and comfortable I was with him even when the topic eventually turned to bdsm and in particluar SM.
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FIRST CONTACT WITH TS
by vm
I met TS through my other profile on CM. He wrote to tell me that he was enjoying my stories and asked if I would like to read one of his stories and I said yes. I knew he was sadist by his name so I expected his stories would reflect that and they did not disappoint.
The first sotry revolved around a teacher and since I teach, it was very enjoyable. The second story revolved around extreme family discipline . Based on the extremeness of this story, I knew to stay away from him as a potential partner.
Our initial communicatons revolved solely around our mutual interest in writing stories. I gave feedback on his stories and said that while I can read and enjoy extreme SM on paper, I could never see myself as a masochist and engaging in such extreme activities. He came back with a thank you and happened to mention that while he wishes he could find someone for the extreme, he lives the extreme through his writing.
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| Age: 33 |
| Hamilton,
New Zealand |
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