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| After much soul searching by both myself and my closest girlfriend (sakidorei here on CM) who is very experienced in the lifestyle, we have choosen to pursue a collar with the same Master. Though this will not be a quick nor painless process, we both know that we would be most happy serving the same Master and hopefully in time that will become a reality. Yes, He is a Master from CM. Yes, He is a Master from CM and yes we are in the process of building a relationship with Him. At this point, no it doesn't matter who He is.
I realize that I don't know enough about this lifestyle yet but I do know that if I am going to be a slave to anyone - it needs to be him. I don't know how long it will take me and I don't know if he will even want me in the end. I know that I have much to overcome. I am still interested in conversing with others to learn more however, I am only hoping for one Master's collar. He knows who he is.
I am a professional woman, new to the lifestyle who is not seeking a master at this time. I am here to learn about the lifestyle and to ideally discover more about who I am. I am definitely not here to learn about kink or to engage in cyber sex or a picture show. I seek intellectual discourse with those who consider themselves to be masters and slaves who have had experience in the lifestyle. I am primarily interested in the mental dynamics of master/slave relationships and how these are actualized on a daily basis in one's life.
I am not interested in high pressure sales pitches nor demands you think you have a right to place upon me. I am here as a student, not a practicing member of this lifestyle. Thank you for your time.
“If a man knows not what harbor he seeks, any wind is the right wind.” ~Seneca
“We all know, from what we experience with and within ourselves, that our conscious acts spring from our desires and our fears. Intuition tells us that that is true also of our fellows and of the higher animals. We all try to escape pain and death, while we seek what is pleasant. We are all ruled in what we do by impulses; and these impulses are so organised that our actions in general serve for our self preservation and that of the race. Hunger, love, pain, fear are some of those inner forces which rule the individual's instinct for self preservation. At the same time, as social beings, we are moved in the relations with our fellow beings by such feelings as sympathy, pride, hate, need for power, pity, and so on. All these primary impulses, not easily described in words, are the springs of man's actions. All such action would cease if those powerful elemental forces were to cease stirring within us. Though our conduct seems so very different from that of the higher animals, the primary instincts are much alike in them and in us. The most evident difference springs from the important part which is played in man by a relatively strong power of imagination and by the capacity to think, aided as it is by language and other symbolical devices. Thought is the organising factor in man, intersected between the causal primary instincts and the resulting actions. In that way imagination and intelligence enter into our existence in the part of servants of the primary instincts. But their intervention makes our acts to serve ever less merely the immediate claims of our instincts.” ~Albert Einstein
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*Kudos to anyone who knows what my nick is in reference to.
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