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Who am I: A man of middle age with a need to explore the submissive side of my personality. I am married and no, my wife does not know. We have been together for over 30 years and I have no intention of divorcing her or including her in this lifestyle. It just isn't for her. We have discussed it and frankly, she finds it abhorrent. We have not had sex in several years but we have a relationship that is otherwise wonderful. I could no more leave her than leave myself. We have two children and several grandchildren together. This is a part of my life that is separate and distinct from my marriage. Over the past several years I have found myself delving deeper and deeper into a need for female supremacy and domination to be a part of my lifestyle. I crave the thought of surrendering that part of myself to a woman who understands my need to be her submissive man. I dream of answering to her, of giving my attentions to her, of waiting for her instructions and following them without hesitation. I mean that sexually and to the extent I am able, in all other ways. I have considered the use of professional dominatrixes, but that is not the sort of connection I seek. I want someone who will own that part of me I am able to give on an emotional and affectionate level. It is not just about sexuality. Who I seek: It occurs to me that out in this giant world there must be a woman who is very much my counterpart: married to a man she truly loves but who does not share her need to control and dominate. Her life is fulfilled in most things but she needs to knw that somewhere there is a man who shares with her the secret of power exchange. I can be that extra something for her. Though I will never draw her bath or massage her aching joints, she will know that her authority over me is something of great value to me. I know she exists. Her age, appearance, physical condition are irrelevant to me. What I seek is her need to control a man who believes in her matriarchical power. What I offer: The answer to that is hard t say, something we will explore and hope that she will derive as much joy in my online servitude as possible. Her needs will be extremely important to me. I need to begin this thing slowly and cautiously. In time things may grow as we become mutually more and more trusting. I can offer nothing at first but complete honesty. Truthfully, that is more than I think most people on here offer.
5/8/2012 2:17:24 PM

I read very often about people who crave either giving or receiving humiliation.  It is a concept I find hard to understand.  The opportunity to show your goddess your complete devotion and obedience to her is not humiliating, it is empowering.  If she chooses to make you wear a shirt that proclaims her ownership of you or tattoos you with her name or whatever she chooses to do with you is an honor to a man.  If it pleases her to underscore her absolute authority over me, it is not humiliation, but an opportunity to show my obedience to her.  Pain too, where it amuses her, is a privilege.

 

A man on his knees before his goddess is not humbled and certainly not humiliated, he is empowered.  

5/7/2012 6:05:45 AM

My phone rings and it is her.  I look around the room and see too many faces.  I have but two rings to give my standard greeting in just the right tone of voice.  Quickly, I dart for the door, hitting the green button as I throw it closed behind me.  "Good Morning my goddess" I speak into the receiver as I look about the exterior of my office.  Nobody is there, I smile at my good fortune at not being exposed.

 

"Where are you?"  She asks from the other end.

 

"I am just outside my office, my goddess."

 

"Are you wearing your chastity tube?"

 

"Yes goddess."

 

""Answer the question properly slave."

 

"Yes goddess, I am wearing my chastity tube."  My voice slows to a whisper at the end of the sentence.

 

"I couldn't hear you."

 

"Yes goddess, I am wearing my chastity tube."  I point my head to the ground as I speak the humbling words louder and deadhead for my car to crawl inside.

 

"Then you haven't masturbated since last Wednesday?"

 

"No goddess, I haven't masturbated since last Wednesday."  My pride leaks out of me as I answer her questions.  She makes me feel like the submissve slut that I am.

callianna
 
 Age: 30
 Wastelands, Netherlands