I'll be in NC the 22nd.

I was born with specific innate abilities like every other person today. Like the kid who dominates the popularity competition, or the kid who tops the scoreboards academically, I was born with an eye turned inside and amazing hand dexterity.

My whole life it has been like magic, how amazingly natural it is to shape ANY physical material in this world into creations spawned by what my eye sees in the reflection of my internal mirror. Since my earliest memories of “I think, therefore I am” I have been honestly grateful and in deepest awe for this gift. I have built my person around it, and it permeates all of who I am. I strive every day to be honest with myself and understanding of all of those around me.

It is Quite obvious that one cannot have any social standing, private or public, without the guise of a snake with its forked tongue. People WANT to be lied to. People WANT to be used and abused. I am speaking for the individual, not masses of society. We all know that’s true for our society, but it’s true all the way down to your closest friends and family.

The right choice, is Wrong. My abilities amount to DOG SHIT. Every relationship, friendship or otherwise, that I have invested in ALWAYS turns on me.

I’m on the Fucking Streets STILL after all these years. Everything I accomplish implodes right in my face. I am emotionally beyond believing that I am DOG SHIT, but I am most certainly WRONG.

I AM FUCKING WRONG to be concerned for another’s feelings and situation;

to feel uncomfortable using others emotionally and physically for my self gratification;

to work as hard as I can and to the best of my ability honestly and with good heart;

to feel an obligation to honor and defend bonds of respect with those closest to me;

to try to live as whom I am honestly.

Because I have NOTHING. No home. No assets. No employment.

FUCK

I know there are others who may feel similar; other tradesmen who has been offered pennies for their sweat and blood, only to have the offers pulled off the table. Time and time again.

TO WHOMEVER IT MAY CONCERN:

I feel the need to inform you that contacting any mother, including myself, with suggestions of subjecting their child to ANY sexual activity will in most cases be severely offensive.

Engaging a child under the age of knowledgeable consent to any form of sexual activity is molestation. 

As a big blue eyed, long blonde haired, fair child cowering in the dark with fearful anticipation of him who would devour my innocence and sow the seeds of defilement and deprivation, I must inform you that these seeds birth demons.

As they inhabit your victims as a vessel, they feed and intertwine into the soul of you both. As the vessel grows, the destructive saps of such demons are adapted to, and overcome in a sense. This process only strengthens it and opens the door for adherence. The demon never goes away, it is as an infernal child that grows stronger than the father. 

As you may imagine yourself deep in the bowels of hell of your afterlife, rubbing your thumbs over the notches that mark the feedings and begotten demonic children in depraved splendor, it will do you well to acknowledge that all things come into entirety. Such is the way of nature, the medium that indulges our existence.

What you take, will be taken from you equally. Like us all, you may need some more time on this earth to truly grasp what this means.

So please, rub your cock to that.