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travelsizegirl

*TAKEN*

Unfortunately I have the odd mix of not possessing the predisposition of submissiveness, but only the desire.  I want more than anything to be able to trust and serve someone completely and beautifully, but I have trouble getting past my own stubbornness and independence.  My Sir and I are currently trying to develop a D/s aspect to our relationship, and are looking for any help we can find.  If you are an experienced mentor, we could benefit from your advice and are open to outside assistance in developing our lifestyle.
5/13/2008 1:14:31 AM
So, I have tested a theory.  I theorized that complying with the request to at least send a 'no thank you' to those I am not interested in would cause more problems than it solved.  I am proven correct.  I have selectively been replying to random non-interests with a simple 'no thank you, best of luck' type message.  Almost every single one has been angry with me for doing so.  So, I can only conclude that you don't want me to send you 'at least a no thank you', you want me to be interested and that is all that is acceptible.  So, please understand when I don't send a thanks but no thanks.  Apparently you don't really want to hear it.
5/2/2008 1:37:30 AM
I've started a blog.  http://submissivecontemplation.blogspot.com/  I wanted to keep a record of my dealings in the alternative world.  I don't imagine many people will read it, if anyone, but it's there. :)
4/29/2008 1:31:18 PM
I'm noticing a pattern here.  It seems *everyone* has been involved in the lifestyle since they were a teenager.  How lucky for all of you.  I figure that probably half of you are lying to me about how long you've been involved, hoping that the larger the number of years, the more seriously I will take you.  Lying is not the way to start our communication.  If you're inexperienced, say so.  I will respect that so much more than a lie.  There is nothing wrong with inexperience.  I'm inexperienced.  As long as everything is done intelligently, and with mental, emotional, and physical safety in mind, inexperince is not a problem for me.  Unfortunately for those of you that are telling the truth, the liars are making it hard to believe you.  Please bear with me on this.  Thank you.
4/28/2008 8:58:23 PM
On the subject of my nickname.  Since so many of you have asked, and as someone suggested, I decided to make a journal post about it.  It's actually not that interesting of a story, but here it is.

I am 5'1".  I'm usually the shortest of my friends.  I was over at my best friend's house one day, and he called me "travel size," you know, like travel size shampoos and stuff.  I thought it was funny and kinda cute, so I made it my online nickname.  And there you have it.  Told you it wasn't that interesting. :P
4/3/2008 3:05:06 PM
Wow.  I'm going to start sounding very jaded in my journal aren't I?  Those of you that talk to me hopefully realize that I am not an angry person, this journal just seems to be a good place to vent.  On that note, here's another one.

To the many Doms who are offended when a sub does not respond to you:  Please realize that (in my case, at least) it is not to be rude, it is simply time management.  If I have no interest in you, and am fairly certain I never will, I am not going to respond to you.  I may even block you, for whatever reason I give myself.  Again, not to be rude.  Time management.  I don't want to hear from you again.  I understand, and appreciate your argument that a "Thanks, but no thanks" takes only a minute or two, however you must realize that I get HUNDREDS of messages a day.  99% of which are from someone I have no interest in.  Lets say I got 300 messages today.  270 of those are probably of no use to me.  If it took me a minute, just ONE minute, to reply to each of those informing them I am not interested, that's 4 1/2 HOURS spent comforting all of your fragile egos.  I'm sorry, but my time is valuable to me.  If you write me a message, please be a person secure enough to handle a non-response.

And please stop creating alternate accounts after I have blocked you just to inform me how hurt you are that I would not respond.  You're now wasting both of our time, KNOWINGLY.  Which makes you an idiot, and me slightly annoyed.  Thank you for listening. :) 
4/3/2008 1:39:13 PM
I am a little confused.  Go figure.  This time my confusion comes from why all of these Doms think that "protection from harm" is something that is specific to a D/s relationship.  I hate to burst your bubble, but the man is typically the protector in ANY relationship.  And furthermore, rarely is it needed, provided both parties in the relationship have their heads on straight.  I'm 22 years old, and in that time I have never been attacked in a dark alley, and have very very rarely been in a situation where I felt threatened (and in those few times, I rescued myself, thank you).  I've never had to be "rescued" by my significant other.  Now, I'm not saying that this won't happen, I'm just saying that:  1) it may never happen, and 2) I expect my man to be protective no matter what the nature of our relationship, be it vanilla or D/s.  So, no, your grand assurances of protection are not impressive.  You're a man.  You're supposed to be protective, just as I am supposed to be nurturing.  Get your heads out of the clouds people; not everyone in the world is out to get us poor little subbies.  And most women (yes, even us subs) are smart enough to stay out of those dark alleys.
4/2/2008 5:21:10 PM
Ugh, the internet is killing me.  Why is it that people on this site (and probably many others) have adopted this particular way of communicating which is entirely unrealistic and frankly rather aggravating?  I'm not going to refer to myself in the third person (unless of course for some reason the man I choose to submit to requires it), I'm not going to capitalize references to you and lower case my own name. 

And no, I'm not interested in an online "relationship" or online "training." 

And stop sending me your dirty fantasies about what you imagine happening between us before you've even said hello.  I don't know you.  I don't even know your name yet.

And please stop letting us subs "know our place" when we specify that we want to see a picture, or have any other request.  We have not submitted to you yet.  I don't care if you're confused about "why a sub is making demands."  I'm NOT YOUR SUB!  I have every right to say that I want to see a picture before I'll talk much with you.  Frankly I can choose not to talk to you for much less than that.  You're a dom, and you're whining because I won't talk to you since you chose not to send a picture when I asked for it?  Yes, that makes you exactly the type of person I want to trust with my well-being.

Anyway, I was just slightly annoyed and wanted to rant.  Doesn't really matter if you read this or not, because failure to comply will result in my usage of the 'Block User' button.  Hope you all have a wonderful day. :)
andresweetie
 
 Age: 39
 Galway, Ireland