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5/7/2010 11:45:51 AM have been in chastity for over a couple months, first to impress a fake, now simply because it arouses me... deeply... looking for a keyholdster to make it more real.. still,.. some people, and i have as well, think one can't come to a climax, or ejaculation,     but as lust increases when time goes by locked away, and the balls become increasingly full, it, for me, doesn't take that much to come...    so it still comes down to selfcontrol, which i maintainted for about a month now, but stumbling across a profile from turkishmistress, i really could not contain myself anylonger, someting snapped and... WOW some paragraphes and phrases in there WOW, i can only envy her slave... hopefully i will find succes in my current correspondence...

4/10/2010 11:59:25 AM How sad is it to miss someone who doesn't really exist ? How soulaching to find my dreamed Goddess is fake I responded to an add from Club Doma early January "mrs A... seeks slave, not soft, for full domination, nothing more to say, break you down into total slave, will take you in house, severe punishment shall be your part.... In almost everything during intensive correspondation, She seemed my dream. To good to be true.. Everything in my power i did to try to impress Her; quit smoking, buy a cb 6000 kept it on for months, so quit masturbating as well, bought some other stuff as well, nice latex/ leather clothing, needles, humbler  Then to find out by accident ( and my good fortune ) She was a he, AAArghh my world came crumbling down... But still having quit smoking, i've now become addicted to wearing a cb-6000, may sound crazy but i like the confinement, and in hope some day a Goddess will hold the key... So, must admit there are still some positive elements from this experience Still, how sad is it to miss someone that didn't exist...