My limited experience seeing escorts had over time made me consider whether there was something more exciting and hard play about sessions while maintaining the intimacy of sessions.

I felt this could be met in BDSM. After finally finding a practitioner I was comfortable with, I began to session and develop my own understanding over the last ten years. As my understanding has developed over time I have naturally wanted the sessions to develop accordingly. I have over the last few years desired for sessions to be reviewed with the hope of development; however the sessions to date have really not moved much further than the very first few session we had ten years ago.

I have since been to see a tantric practitioner who showed what was possible through touch alone. Truly amazing the level of intimacy; yet once again something was missing. I value the mutual position being with an escort. However it can be limiting due to timidness (addressing fantasies taboo interests) and inexperience (in sexual practice).

I find D/s sessions transcends the awkwardness of a 'normal relationship' as the sub is required to comply and the mistress enforce. I am seeking a mistress to find ways of elevating levels of control and autonomy over the sub through expressions of control and ownership. I hope this expression may be of different forms:

1) Power positions - an initiation to elevate the position of the mistress over the sub.

2) degradation - can be an expression of light play or forms of hard play and ownership . It is the state of 'ownership' that interests me; the expressions that could only be appropriate between a dom and sub; expression that would otherwise be offensive; expressions of oppression; expressions of responsibility over the sub; expressions of maternal care;

3) humiliation - experiencing in real time an appropriateness to humiliation of the sub.

4) enforcement - taking responsibility and experiencing ownership by withdrawal of safe words and using/abusing the sub

5) sexually aggressive - Use the sub as a sex slave and be aggressive by inflicting pain to achieve oppressive levels of engagement and again expressing your position of ownership.

I hope that the session achieve a sense of empowerment over the sub; that you feel an appropriateness and entitlement to use and abuse the sub for sexual gain and pleasure. I believe that sexual pleasure is exponentially heightened by a power exchange. I hope that the session tries to develop in the mistress a level of autonomy where pain and torture is perceived appropriate and necessary to assume a state of absolute control over the sub and sexual submissiveness. I see no other relationship that could generate this craving bond between two people.