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| Perspective on life is changing. I just got a wake up call when checked my email and saw my nephew was getting ready to take a test to go to college. Wow!!! Where did the time go?
I think if I was to stop today, and look at the way I want to live life, I would change a bunch of things starting with the whole get a job, get married, and live in the suburbs. I think I would be an adult, grab life by the horns, and say...why? Why do I have to have a traditional relationship...is that part of the process of being adult? Alternative lives of our choosing...making our own path in the world of adulthood?I think living in an artist commune or working on a self-sufficient organic farm could be rewarding. I am a writer and an artist, and I find it appealing to find others with cerebral interests...making pottery, or painting art on canvas...photography....working with animals as a healing process.
Of course, I am divorced, that didn't happen overnight. I was working days, travelling out of town for sales, and my ex was working nights, and our lives just drifted apart. There was no drama...just...I'm leaving when I was half-asleep one night...and then she was gone. My family was not aware of anything...she was just not big on communicating with me. So, I really want to find people that are able to understand open dialogue..even when it hurts...it is nice to know what is wrong.
I moved to Florida...and life just didn't happen the way it was supposed....I think it is finally hitting me....life is happening...and I want to be more in charge of it. I identify with a dom...a nice dom...a daddy dom. The kind that has coloring parties, Netflix nights, pajama parties....or whatever.....and the snuggle pile in the floor is going to be me...I don't see the dominant as being a mean person....maybe a purpose driven person. I do know how to micromanage....I had my life in five minute segments in college....and managed. I know how to do behavior modification....weight loss is not that hard...it is mind over matter....you have to reset the way you think. Relationships are the same way....I am not looking for a one night stand...I want a long term relationship...and I would love to have a dominant or switch partner in crime with me...and I can do the bondage and impact play to my heart's content....but I like it more when I can supervise...a little minxy and sadistic rolled into one...someone that loves using the rules to create a structured environment....and then when things get tough...the love comes from the Daddy. That is the way it is supposed to be, right?
I really see things eventually taking form....I work in a business where I can travel some...and help those that want to explore the sub and switch environment with a levelheaded guy that is hoping to create a safe, warm, fuzzy homelife...and maybe even make it fun and a great place to hang out. I love the backyard barbecue, run to a beach or swimming pool, little league baseball league game nights....and the Dairy Queen nights when people hang out.
If you are able to understand a busy household, love life and feel that you could be of service to a household where you might be occasionally required to do domestic tasks like dishes, vacuuming, and not have a problem making life fun, I would love to chat with you.
A footnote to this: I view the relationships of sexuality something that are not to be taken lightly, but something that can be very enjoyable and desirable within a defined set of rules. The term lesbian, bisexual female, straight homosexual...those aren't as relevant as the words domestic and submissive/servitude.Fuzzy cuffs, sensual play, sensory deprivation, rope bondage, spreader bars...all are just a set of tools in a chest of tools to help explore the dom/sub relationship.
I guess I could add I find it great that we can be cerebral...but it is still in our wiring to see exhibitionism as a sexual thing if it is used correctly. I love the idea of exhibitionistic ladies that love being seen and exposed...and even helpless...but that is just it. I could say my kink...if I had one...was to be seen by a female lover as a sexual being...and not with just her, without her involvement. Does it make a female feel inferior or humiliated if she isn't chosen to be a partner? The younger girl wins the attentions of the man? Or is it the prettier? The more sexual pleasurable? Is there a twinge of emotional pain? My kink is that all women are beautiful...and should be treated with respect....not all of life is pleasurable...but it is rewarding when the female can see herself as she truly is...a sexual person...and worthy of love and respect...even in a sub/domestic relationship with a daddy dom. I think it is called Cuckqueening...women that like to see other women getting pleasure from a lover that they have.
Thank-you for reading my profile, and I wish you the best in networking and finding others with similar interests.
I do see this as a creative work in progress, and as such, view all the words and images I have part of my creative work. I do not give anyone permission to use these as any part of a research project, government program, or any other type of purpose other than communicating with others that are interested in what I have to say.
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