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	this girl's life is constantly changing and evolving...who knows what tomorrow will bring "Keep me rather in this cage, and feed me sparingly, if you dare. Anything that brings me closer to illness and the edge of death makes me more faithful. It is only when you make me suffer that I feel safe and secure. you should never have agreed to be a god for me if you were afraid to assume the duties of a god, and we all know that they are not as tender as all that. You have already seen me cry. Now you must learn to relish my tears." Story of O, Pauline Reage. i am a submissive with a slaves heart....after my former Mistress explained to me what this means, i feel it fits me the most....i feel that i will eventually evolve into a slave, if i can get over my own self assault issues....my own thoughts are my worst enemy, my own fears of failure are the worst punishment anyone could ever give me....but one day, that will disappear, one day...i will be a wonderful slave for a Mistress....thats my greatest desire....to go beyond the submissive, to completely submit to Her not just every day as a choice..but to do it always because thats the song my heart sings.... ok..i totally suck at these things..and i will tell A/all before hand that i am actually exceedingly more intelligent than the way this "about you" will sound.... easy beginnings im 26, new to the lifestyle..have researched it for almost half my life...but only have recently (within the last 2 years) decided to participate..my life is constantly evolving and changing, and at this point, its all for the better, and i love it.... Life im a jane of all trades mistress of none...(and i know mistress is generally capitalized but not when it comes to speaking of myself)i do whatever work i can find and otherwise....my main goal is to go back to school and get a degree that will help me get a job that i love going to.. Likes music, movies...BOOKS (love to read...anything....reading is my passion and my relaxation and..well its my imaginary world..where i can remove myself from everything...im the typical romantic girl....i love doing things for the one i chose to submit to and those i care about that make them go "awwww"....i cant change that and i dont want to..i love making people smile and just making their day just a smidgin easier if possible..even if its just carrying something for them so there is less stress on their body...or doing something big like massages and baths and literally everything being done for them for that day...so they can have atleast one day in their week, month, year...that they had no worries and could be completely calm, collect, and happy...that is why i am classified as a domestic service submissive/slave...i love taking care of people..it makes my face shine and my heart sing..without it, i feel useless and not needed.....dont care what your ideals...i am me and i cannot change myself..adapt maybe..but not change....i have issues standing up to anyone about myself but dont think im willing 2 b a doormat... Goals i am working on evolving on the other areas of a service submissive/slave....but right now, i am working on furthering my education and my training alone...but i will get there..with or without the help of another.... um....thats enuff...message me if u wanna know more

12/25/2011 7:37:27 PM

sometimes i need to learn to stop while im ahead...just saying lol....thank god my goals are just like minded friends right now....cuz otherwise, yeah that was a fail....

12/11/2011 5:36:39 PM

i thought that had the largest group of people that could not read...but am finding that collarme is just as bad....

Men, i am a lesbian, do not message me...You will only get blocked and Your message deleted w/o it being read

Women: just because i am a slave...do not assume that i am YOUR slave...Ordering me to obey You just causes me to want to laugh at You from this side of the screen....

This Lifestyle is NOT a joke for me, so please do not treat it as so, concerning me...