Moved to metrowest today.  Took a break before the last load and went to the munch.  All in all it wasn't bad but I'm getting ahead of myself.

It is at a new place at the corner of gatlin and orange avenue, mc something or other.  Amazingly good grub, can't wait to go there again and eat their food. 

However, when we walked in there really isn't a person to say hi, or weldome.  If I was a newbie, I would have probably walked right bak out the door.  Granted I'm not a newbie, so maybe that is why it was a while before anyone spoke to me.   I was with a friend, but it shouldn'[t have mattered.   Eventually Master Cecil came over and said hey, which prompted another guy to come over and introduce himself, but really, it shouldn't have been this way. 

Didn't even hear the raffle/door prize announce, so if they said who won, i did not hear anything.  it was pretty loud in there with all the convo, but that is to be expected.  My friend was more sociable, she went around and talked to some people she knew, but I just wasn't in the mood to have to be sociable.  It would be nice if someone came up to me. 

I did meet a pretty blk chick who was a dom with her sub, and she just moved back, and they were very nice, and I was happy to see that some people had come up to them to meet them as they were newbies. 

I am actually going to the shed the weekend of the 12th of february, so I will definitely blog about what happens and how it goes. 

next weekend will be at a medieval festival, so I may even blog about that! 

Sorry this took so long.. been slackin!

So, went to sub meeting this past Saturday.  There were plenty of people there, about 10 or so, but it was the most boring meeting ever.  I kept trying to throw out things, discussion points, but nothing was happening. I mean all my convos got many 30 minutes to pass, but man there were some duds at our meeting. 

We are going to have to find some new topics to talk about.  She tried to get us to come up with some ideas, but really we do tend to talk about the same things over and over again, just at different times of the year. 

So I amgoing to try to find some things to dicuss before next month, so I don't sit there wishing I was at home rubbing one out or sleeping instead of being at the meeting.

I have to admit at the end of the meeting, some serious online 2nd life drama came about which was slightly interesting on the drama, oh no he didnt scale, but thankfully I had somewhere else to be so as to not get involved...

Going to woodshed this saturday, so I will give a blow by blow account of that evening. Lets hope that sexy white dude with the boots comes back so I have something to look at!! 

So, last nite I went to the woodshed with my girl Shari.  It was totally a surprize, but I was happy to go.

So I am wearing a sexy striped top and a mini skirt/short. So Of course I look fabulous.  Shari looks super cute in a black top and jeans, and thse hot heels with a skull on the back.

So it was a bit quiet at first, but eventually more people come.  I meet his chick named Patricia, who is mad cool and funny, but oh my garage, that girl has no style.  She really needs to decide what to do with her hair.  Its natural, but not styled.  She has a face she could definitely do a afro nicely.. but she has to do something with it.  She was just wearing a top and some capris.  She is very casual, and thatsok if thats your style, but I would love to dress her up just one nite!  Get some pretty braids on her,  man..

So anyway, here was this guy there, who had on a blk kilt and these amazing red and black boots he bought off of ebay, and his name was hawk..oh man I didn't get a good look at his face with my blind ass, but i liked what I saw.  So did Shari.  She was totally eyefucking that dude.  She went over and asked him about those boots which is how we found out about his name.  But he didn't talk to anyone. He just sat there by himself and then went over to the other side and sat and didn't talk to anyone so either he is a douchebag, he is shy, or he didn't see anything he wanted. Maybe not a chubby chaser.. too bad, cuz I may have wanted a piece of that..

Of course Darcy and Shannon were like what are you doing here this late.. haha yes I actually came and not just for the sub meeting.  Its all good!  I would so be there if I had a ride, at least once a month

Next m onth I will definitely be there for Carnival, which I thinbk is on the 16th or 17th, which sounds like a kinky good time!  Carnival!!!

As usual, I spent plenty of time in the room with the coffee, and was chatting with folks, and met this crazy lil girl with a daddy who beat her like crazy welts.  I know I couldn't have taken half of that.  She was cute and a trip and made some of her own toys, hilarious. 

Ok, thats about it, later all

So I went to the sub meeting today, and it was ok.  A bit boring actually.  I hate it when there are side conversations.  Sany is sweet but she is very soft s poken, and doesn't moderatte as well as she could if she wa s bit more assertive. There was a chickand a dude there who were so soft spoken none of us could hear what they were asking, and sany wasn't repeating it for the group, or asking them to speak up.  So some were having their own discussions in the back, and it was like this one new sub was domineering the whole convo. Yes newbies need help too, but we were totally off topic.

I am wondering if I will find anyone who is specifically looking for what I am looking for.  I don't want a dom, because I refuse to sit at anyone's feet or have anyone tell me what do do or when to dosomething,b ut I do like a man who can put me in my place when necessary, and flog me when I need to be topped, and a bit of kinky rough sex, but sometimes its hard to find a vanilla guy who has a bit of kink, so we'll see. 

Is there an happy medium out there?  I hope so.

Went to sub meeting yesterday.  It was amazing and I had lots of fun. 

This weeks discussion was on responsibility, yours and the communities.  It was a good discussion.  Especially since I have a friend who broke up with a chick dom and its was such a clusterfuck in the sense that the chick dom was a horrible communicator and instead of talking to her sub, she would talk to all her friends about wht situation (mutual friends, which was a mistake), and would write a letter to her sub (who lived in the same house) instead of talking to her directly.  And unfortunately there were those in the community who chooze sides instead of staying out of it, and made it sothe sub doesn't feel comfortable at the woodshed anymore, and it is just infuritating. 

I have not met this chick dom, but she was totally rude to me and a friend one nite so she can suck my ass.  She needs to keep her white ass out of leather pants that are too tight for her.  Thats what she gets when they ripped last time she wore them.  Stupid bitch.

This is one of my issues with people who like to call themselves dom but don't know how to communicate or talk to their subs.  Seriously? Shouldn't there be some kind of certification? Cuz obviouslythis bitch has no clue how to be a dom.

Anywho..moving along.  Pendragon and his fabulous ladies came in from Sarasota.  We all had dinner and had a good time chillin.  He is so amazing, I'm sad I was unable to watch him scene at the woodshed last nite. 

Had an awsome nite, our girl sunshine met us at alehouse and we went over to George and Dragon a fabulous brit pub and did some karaoke and some drink s.  Saw some cute white boys, shame they were gay, lol. All in all a great day! 

Still not wanting a dom, I will just have to find a dude who is a kinkster like myself. 

Went to the woodshed last nite, and had a really good time.  Met alot of cool people and chatted here and there with some interesting people.  There were some amazing scenes, and it was so beautiful that Master Cecil gave a speech for the official 3rd year anniversary of the woodshed.  It is a unique place, an amazing experience, and an amazing opportunity for any who need a dungeon and acceptance.  My only critisim for that nite was that theycharged 21 bucks to my card, and didn't tell me there was a dollar surcharge for using a credit bard.  Bitch is on a budget, yes I would have went to the atm first.  Plus I budget every daollar I have, and would have fucked up my account had I not been so anal as I am and checked my account.

Anyway, more and more I realize I am not really a submissive.  I just prefer men who are a bit more confident or dominant w/o being a dom. Though I want someone who won't put up with my shit, and put me in my place from time to time, I am not a woman who is going to sit down at anyone's feet, or have to wait for them to tell me I can do something or have to have permission, its just not me.  I appreciat and understand women/men who feel that the are submissive, an I wish them luck.  I still plan on being involved in the community and supporting the woodshed as much as I can, but there will not be a dom in my future. 

Later all

I totally forgot to write about my evening at the collaring ceremony at the woodshed, and that evening, watching the scenes.

First let me say that the collaring ceremony was amazing. Watching her get her head shaved byher sir was such a trusting, loving, touching expression of their love. And when he spoke and said how that he had been waiting twenty years to find her, and that she had his heart, oh man, it was amazing and I wanted that in my life more than anything. 

And as beautiful as that was, I can say, I will never shave my head, I am not truly submissive in the truest sense of tha word, and I'm not looking for someone to tell me what to do.  What I"m looking to meet is someone with a bit of dominance and who won't put up with my shit, and who will be head of the household. 

That nite at the woodshed was the most fun I've ever had there, not including the first nite I met Sunshine, lol, but we'll keep that info about that nite to myself..but I watched PennDragon (probably spelling that wrong) scene with Nikki and I's new friend Kimmie, and it was so amazing, sexy, exciting, thrilling, oh man, it was incredible.  I also made friends with this crazy awesome chick named Bunny who I can't wait to get to know better. It was hilarious, Cecil and Darcy were all surprized that Nikki and I were staying for the nite, so we willl have to make it a point to go there more often.  I can't go every weekend, but I will try to go at least twice a month from now on. I may even have to take my little handicapped bus to get there, lol. 

Still looking for a room to rent inthe WP/Mait/Altamonte area, so soon I will only have a computer once a week, and have to cut back a bit, but we'll see if we can make it! Hopefully I can find a DS friendly home. We'll see. 

Went to sub meeting this past weekend, and it was pretty interesting.  Ddn't much relate to me, as it was regarding your attitude as a sub, when doing tasks, knowing what is too much, knowing what service truly means, and what it doesn't.  Since I am not truly in a service type relationship, it was just interesting to hear other's perspectives.   However, there was this one chick who was dominating the conversation most of the meeting which was totally annoying. Do I have to hear specifically about your whole life? Can't anyone else talk, sheesh! 

Anyway, one of my  new associates is having a collaring ceremony at the woodshed soon and I'm quite looking forward to it. Not only a m I going to the ceremony, but I am also going to the woodshed that nite. Cecil was giving me a hard time since my best friend and I are always there for the sub meeting/free events, and aren't regulars at the evening/pay events, so I figure its about time I go and pay.  Hopefully will be a busy fun nite with some great scening.

I totally would love for my sister to come out to the woodshed one nite, she is totally interested in checking things out. Maybe one dayI will get her out there. She is s total dom, lol.  She will love it, and subs would be lined up to serve her I'm sure. 

Going on three months with my man, very hapy still, and looking forward to growing with him.  Will keep you posted..

So, I am still with my "vanilla" man who has some dom tendencies, lol.  its been almost two months, and I'm pretty happy, so keeping with my non looking position on this site.  However there is no ring on my figer so you nevr know what may happen, lol. 

Went to the woodshed for the sub meeting this month, and shock, no one was there.  Apparently they had some merchs coming, but a bit of notice would have been awesome. For us who are not on , who are CM, that would be awesome.

Still looking for a room to rent in Altamonte, havent found anything yet, but hopefully next month will have some more ads in so I can have some real options.  Gotta get away from the fam before I kill them all and end up on snapped, lol.

A new friend is moving here to Orlando, yay, so hopefully will have some more partners in crime to get into trouble with..

Later all..

Went to the sub meeting, and as alwys it was very interesting. Got a few numbers of some kindred spirits. Now that I am in a vanilla relationship, well dating for now, its totally a different scene than what some of the ladies were talking about in regards to finding someone.  However, stillsome valid points.  I know that I have met an awesome guy now, and we really have alot of thingsin common, and he does have a kink factor, lol, but I still need to remember not to jump in with both feet, and just take things day by day.

Last month I was talking bout some dude who was average and had a small one, and I really didn't want to introduce him to any of my friends. This new guy, I don't have that issue at all.  Haven't hooked up yet, but systems indicate that we have any problems!!  HA Ha. And he is so my type and cute, and a bit of freak in terms of dress like I am.  I could introduce him to my friends, we have similiar interests, awesome so far. Hopefully this euphoria will last, lmao!

Laters.

So I am finally getting back to the sub meeting this weekend. Yay!  Looking forward to chatting and seeing what is going on in the local community.

I have met some who is not a dom,and so far really going well.  Will write more about this as it defelops. 

Sigh, some douchebag sent me a message giving me advice on how to work with a man with a small dick. Seriously, wasn't asking for advice. Sheesh.  Just venting.  So for future reference, any reading this, cool, read, enjoy, but dont feel the need to offer advice, won't get a nice reply back, fyi. 

Did I ever mention that I'm looking for a white man?  Maybe that will weed out the black doms sending me messages or eyeballing me. Not likely but whatever.

I am still hanging out with that one dom, but not sure I want anything serious with him. I'm still out ther elooking.  We'll see how it goes, and if he turns out to be what I want oor if he is just a diversion.  Truthfully I'm not sur e if I am just wanting a relationship and he is here and paying me attention and I'm liking it. So have to really take my time and see where this goes.

Haven't been to the sub meetin gin a while since I do not have a ride there, but hopefully soon I will be able to get back there and have some good discussions.  Will miss thismonth as someone has made arrangements for me that saturday, making me go to a "candle" party.. ugh, I will so need to be drunk!! 

Later..

So scandalous actually.  Met a guy who was a dom, and is a great guy to talk to and chill with, and he was not even remotely close to what I like sizewise.. andI don't mean his body type, I mean under the waist.. And as much as I love spending time with him, there is nothing I can do about the size thing. I can't get around it, so we may just have to be friends. Sad but true.  I just hope he is cool withjust being friends.  Of course I did not tell him it was too small.. its funny I know there are those who are like oh that doesnt matter, as long as everything else is good, and thats a bunch of bs!  Sex is very important in any relationship. 

Anyway.. not much else is going on. Met a few cool people on here so far, but no one I would travel the country to meet so far. So many are so wrapped up in the lifestyle, that its the only thing they like to do. Does no one also do the normal stuff like movies or going to a pub or karaoke??

Enough for now..

Saturday we are going to the sub meeting.  We'll see if we have any interesting conversations again. Normally we do, and hopefully some new subs will show up. Its always good to meet people from different areas and different situations. 

Someone sent me a message to not go to the munches or the woodshed to meet someone. But he didn't elaborate on his opinion. Oh well.  I mostlygo there to associate with others, not likely that I will meet anyone there, it will definitely have to be in a different situation.

Met a guy who turned out to be familiar with the community, ironically I am just talking to him as a friend.  You guys know how I am when it comes to men with children, so that is so not gonna happen.  No kids for me. Not me having any or taking care of anyone else's.

Later..

I neglected to write about the sub meeting this past saturday.  I really enjoy disucssing topics at the meeting.  I think its amusing that some look to myself and my girl N as subs to imitate. I have never had a sir, and truly not sure what exactly I'm looking for.  I have had a mentor, who was amazing, but sadly has forgotten me, as he has a disease that is wreaking havoc on his brain. But its ok, I wishhim and his wife the best.  They were both amazing in helping me discover what I liked and what I didnt like.

It is funny thogh, there are women who come to the sub meeting and it seems as if they are fishing for compiments.  There are many women who come that are plus size or bbw, and thenthere are some who are just thik chicks. And sometimes I feel thatsome of these ladies are like oh I look like crap or I hate my body becase they are fishing. Ye there are those with issues with their body and low self image, but sometimes its hard to tell the difference. 

I also ended up going to the woodshed later that nite. There were plenty people playing and scening and it was coo to watch.  I was annoyed cuz I had my phone inmy sock and some chick had to tell me to hide it, and I was like really, it would be one thing if I had it in my hand fuckingtaking pics of people, but seriously I could give a flying fuck about any of those people.. taking pics of them anyone, andI have a shitty ass metro phone, unlikely thati s going to happen..but whatever. I think my visits to the woodshed wil be few and far between, every few months or so. No need for me o be there any more than that, other thanthe sub meetings.

Totally been going after vanilla, and having a bit of fun I mut say. We will see how this turns out.  

Still single, and not finding anyone worth talking to. Online dating is for the birds I tell ya..Yes that is an old expression, but sometimes I feel like an old lady!  I do like young men.. I like beautiful younger white men. I love white men with tattoos.. fully covered. 

Not sure what I'm going to do now.  Not sure if I'm going to keep dating vanilla or someone in the community.  I think I will continue to just find friends and hear about people's experiences in the community, but definitely not changing my profile to looking. 

Thats whats funny about men sending me messages now. I have no interests or anything on here, just my pics and that I'm looking for a dom, and fools are still sending me messages. Tells me that many are all about looks and could care less about what kind of person you are or if you are even slightly compatible.  I understand that being attracted to someone is important, but seriously, I need more than just looks.

We'll see how it goes.