I had to step away a bit and withdraw myself to finish up school so that I could focus. I know I have said it before but once you start exploring and learning and maybe even playing a bit, IT takes over. Consumes my thoughts of being tied up and at someone else's mercy. The thought of someone being able to read my body and it's responses is fascinating for me and scares me a bit even. Scares me because I can see how being a sub can take over your thoughts, emotions, and body responses. Also scary because I have never allowed someone to have that kind of control over me but I keep coming back here and drawn to finding this kind of relationship with someone.
I need to stop running and face my fears... |