Are you seeking someone serious, who knows what they want, and is able to commit? I am a man who has had long term D/s relationships in the past, and is looking to settle down.

This profile is long, but I want to be as open as I can from the start. This may sound like more of plea and confessional than an ad, but that's who I am. Communication is everything.

I am masculine, educated, and radiate male energy. I do not cross dress and appreciate women who want a submissive man who is outwardly assertive or even macho. I am strong in body and mind. No diseases, no dependents.

I have lived submission for years, in several long term relationships. I crave complete subjugation and bottomless immersion the service of One Divine Woman.

I am presentable in all social situations. I dress well, and can entertain with wit and erudition. Inside, I am desperately forlorn without Female authority. My life is without purpose and I can fall into despair if I am left to run my own life. I cannot run my own life and be happy; I NEED a Woman's control. I bond deeply and quickly through mental control and manipulation. I fall into infatuation quickly, and love devotedly.

I am psychologically helpless when I look into the determined eyes of a strong Woman. I am less than weak in Her influence: I am foolish and without dignity. I begin to crave humiliation and tremble with yearning to surrender more control. Obedience sucks me beneath the dark currents of Feminine mystery, and I want only to hold my breath and feel myself being dragged further down, where I will never surface.

Submission is a drug for me. I have no other addiction. I love to feel a Woman's word making me speechless. I love that Her soft touch breaks leaves me dazed like a blow or an intense light shined in my eyes. I love how accepting pain at Her hand is like a kiss, a secret whispered in my ear, a shared prayer, and a dark fantasy. There is only Her word, Her desire, Her divine presence. I only want to become transparent, a conduit for Her will.

I love the process of being broken, having my male ego submerged until it no longer troubles either me or my Owner. I remember the first time, in a relationship, realizing that my opinion was considered, but really didn't matter because She commanded me independently. Because I trusted He, I had no need for a vote. I recall the feeling of deep humility and release when I learned to accept and expect physical and psychological discipline. I wanted to please, and I wanted to feel I will never forget how I learned to orient my vision of sexuality from a male centered selfish approach to one that is a celebration of feminine pleasure and power.

I have been in several long term D/s relationships. The last one ended with Her untimely death at 45. After Her death, I was plunged in hopelessness and nearly chose to follow Her. She had defined me, and there was nothing left of me to continue. Her death ruined me, and I swore off submission because the loss was too great for me to bear.

I tried vanilla relationships but I cannot function well without in any aspect of life without strong Loving Female Authority. Once experienced, there is no substitute. I will now take as much time as is needed to place myself in bondage to a Good Woman. I will sacrifice everything to soak in control, and live and breathe servitude.

I am not concerned about the particulars of my interaction as much as the connection. Complete sexual control has been the norm for me in the past. A certain amount of emotional cruelty and abandonment helps me bind to a Woman. These feelings were generated by cuckolding, sexual deprivation, humiliation and isolation, but other means could be equally effective. The need is psychological dependence and helplessness. The courage to be cruel to me earns my respect.

I have experienced much in the realm of bedroom kink.

The deepest experience of sexuality is to enhance power dynamics. Sex is for the pleasure of the woman and control of the man. Orgasm control, tease and denial, ruined orgasms have been large parts of my sex life. I enjoy foot worship, heel worship, body worship, bathing, pampering, and spoiling my Owner. Ok, I am obsessed with feet and shoes. I am well versed in female anatomy and proficient at prolonged cunnnulingus. I particularly am moved by serving Her pleasures while I am kept in pain and chastity. At all times, I am respectful, and feel I can never truly earn intimacy with a Woman. I love a woman who finds good use of a riding crop during intimacy. The goal of all intimacy is the satisfaction of the female. I hope to find a Woman who thrives on physical ministrations.

I am hoping to relocate to my future Domme'shome. I amnot ready to retire, so I would find work in her city. Details will vary with each situation. In financial matters, the Female controls as well.

I am obedient and take direction well. I try to anticipate needs. When I have been neglectful, I accept correction through pain, isolation, humiliation or loss of privileges well. I have not yet had a conflict or concern in prior relationships over punishment. I assume punishment is appropriate even when I do not immediately see the reason behind it.

I am organized and keep schedules, lists and protocols well. I keep lists and follow them. I perform housework completely and thoroughly. I listen.

Politically, I am not particularly aligned, but I tend to be on the liberal side. I keep up with current events. I am an excellent cook. I am very social, and enjoy time with close friends. I have travelled much of Europe and the United States. I am a first rate chess player. I have a graduate degree, although I am in a career transition at the moment.

I'm happy to answer more questions for those interested.