He has come back in  my life..its hard to trust myself around him.. so if he wants me. he will have to make a better effort.

i so have to remind myself there are some stupid ass people out there.. who push the chat request button and all they wish to do is ask stupid questions.. when you give them honest answers they don't wish to  hear they say, "oh how rude."..okay cry babies. leave me the fuck alone!..oh there is that No chat request button right there!

I have a line of people who want me into slavery!...oh pray tell who shall i pick!?

my switch profile is getting more hits than my submissive profile!.. actually more plausible of meeting such eye candy!

Yes i said it eye candy!

25-40 maybe.. anyone older and you can think about treating me with respect.

Had enough of BS guys, and bad lookin guys..not sucking your dick just because you think you can get away with talking at me ugly!..

OBTW.. i still am owned by my dominant.. everyone is just gonna have to take a number!.

hmm maybe i am going about this wrong way!

perhaps i should be a switch..? hmm there is a thought!

so far the only cum i have truly wanted to swallow is the man i am currently dating who is not scared to be open and very intimate with me.. he has sprayed his cum all over my face, in my mouth, and then has licked my face all over and then has kissed me..

it shocked me at first, but its like candy to me now.

How willing and intimate are you!?

all the dominant i could ever want!good night.

Would you really miss me if i leave!?

i am officially taken in fact if i had my way i would be vacationing to Germany with possibly the premise of moving to Germany.. good night!.. time to attack me some Alexander!

This medium is still my form of entertainment.. I haven't found a Dominant i am comfortable enough from here or actually any site. I don't need anyone's permission to be here, to do what i do.. or to continue browsing!..Oh and btw!..its the sub who chooses the Dominant not the other way around!

not hiding my profile for awhile, but i am still not dating. focusingon my job and kids. everyone else i really don't care about.

I have decided i need to work on my happiness forawhile.. going to hide my profile for awhile, and getting out of the dating scene..No i amnot up to seeing anyone. Don't call me, don't text me, don't message me. I had enough.. I need to "go find myself".

Bye.

Miss those nights wrapped in a Male Dominant arms. warm, protected and wet. then there are times i just wished it was more than one Dominant.Night.lost and confused

just because you think OK is closer to me than half of the cities in TX doesnt mean you think i am going to understand you just want in my briefs.

Not interested

Out of state mails are going to become trash instead of opened Poops

Can't wait to see Steve at the Lounge tomorrow night!.. MM a humping and grinding i will go!.. then him taking me home where the fun never stops. sleeping in his arms til he goes to work!

Sorry out of state emails really do not appeal to me.. even if you think you are coming for a Dallas stay rendezvous with me :). go elsewhere.

stop trolling me cause you think i might like you!.. be honest and sincere!..otherwise fuck you!

There are many ways of saying no.. i end up saying it in so many ways.. some just perceive it as rude.. try me test me. :)

I had my 1st female, female, male action.. let me just say i am addicted.i am still feeling high from the experience. and really don't feel like sharing or writing about the experience here. it has raised questions now does that make me bi sexual, or bi curious.. or how about this.. lets not put a label on me.. I will forever be a pleasure slut. and i like giving pleasure to trusted individuals not random people!.. oh one other thing i still have a slight homophobe against doing it alone.. 3 somes only.. my mind is not there yet for just girl on girl action.. to have entwined flesh of both sexes has become a beautiful art i wish to experience more of.

Imagine going to Freebirds with 2 of the best hung guys i have seen in my world.. I can never order, eat a burrito or look at myself the same way any more!

I have a date! with a guy i have known only in passing for the past 2 yrs!.. He had a free ticket to CombiChrist for tonight!..Imagine that! he wants me to join him!.. How sweet is that!

So i went in.. little excited and full of enthusiasm.. but also Nervous.. it was good to see The leader of the Crue there.. then eventually My dear male friend who is Poly.. to see his smiling face made me calm and full of smiles.. The place i never been in before was slightly feeling homey.. so i had decided on Cherry blossoms. My Exbf who isnt in the lifestyle also met me there.. so i was in male heaven when my Poly friend and my Exbf was there to hold my hand through the process. they both laughed at me when they saw face and felt the rush in my arms..yes they knew i had orgasmed.. they both said at the same time.. I do believe she likes it!.. again laughter in suit!

It was one of the best experiences in my life!.. I am addicted. already planning for the second one.

SO!.. I am going to have Tattoo Cherry Popped!, today!.. i am anxious and overly anticipating this event. Local Tat Parlor here in Dallas for $13. I will be surrounded by the lot of my male friends.

The tattoo for that price is restricted by size and colors..there will be several lists and books to choose from if i so choose to..or i can bring my idea with me and if meets requirements i will have that new tattoo. It being that small i was thinking i shall have them put it near my pelvic area or on my right side near my ass hip area.

My ideas:

BDSM symbol, Ravens, Libra scales, the word "slut", any sexual ennuendos, a raven, a wolf's head, a sword with barbs, a celtic cross,yingyang symbol..or perhaps anything that fits my personality.

Good Luck me!

 hmm.. i think this is quite a stupid conversation.

 He says, " I have a home in plano". Kewl i say.

he says "I want a sub"..i say" nice i am sure you will get one"

 are you local enough? he says.. hmm.. how do you wish me to answer this?..

He says: is that too far for you!?.. I answer too far?.. actually the question is it too far you.?..

Really People.. Be honest.. stop hinting. this cat and mouse game is boring.

Its like asking what is A/s/l.. really!? we really going to go back to one liners?

Yawn!

Good to text or email someone who can hold a non pressured conversation in email!

Think it will be nice to go to bed soon with a smile on my face.

Let me please make myself clear!.. I have been on this site hidden and not hidden since before 05.. I have met a few nice guys on here, and a few jerks and assholes.. I have  enough private experience and public experience in the lifestyle to know and understand what i want in my life and what i want from this site.. so continuously trying to badger me to see your nude pics, and your rude comments  will be followed by me not caring.. with or without you all.. I have my own happiness!.. i will share that happiness with whom or how i shall see fit! :)

actually thinking about relocating down south in the year 2012 or 2013.. only person who could make that happen is the person who can hold my attention for more than a hour :).

I have a very long attention span for some subjects and have a very short attention span for certain emotions.. What i have the most of is endurance!.. Especially for activities i enjoy doing!..Don't fall in the gutter i meant.. Theme parks, and places to go!..Don't try and hold me with your dominance. i won't try to hold you with my coyness. I was told i possibly have not met the right guy to hold my attention because i have to see all the assholes before i find happiness with others.. I have enough Happiness for myself but at times not willing to give it all away..

So what am i looking for!?.. Endurance.

not going to apologize for what i don't do!

well Edgefest was a disappointment... really sick of men.. yeah you heard me!.. no i am not going Lesbian.. staying put right where i am.

finding it curiouser and curiouser.. the people i know or knew in reality are coming to this site!.. ack! run away

Some habits are hard to break!.. Just curious for now..

as i woke up in his arms.. after our nice sex rendevoux.. he woke up snuggling with me.. he really didnt want to leave!.. and of course i wasnt going to let him!.. I was and am going to take full advantage of him!

so with that said.. I am hiding my profile again!.. I have not met a man yet who can hold my attention like he can and can meet the same sexual drive i have and is very understanding of my emotions and needs!.. Bye!

Do you know what i find amusing? Someone i recognize in photos living in my immediate vanilla world looking searching on this site?Funny i hadn't pegged them for being in the lifestyle...Things that make you go hmm!

who are all these freaks coming out of the woodwork?

1. i said if you wanna be a fuck buddy tell me.. doesn't mean i am going to respond! YAY! i got a fuck buddy!.. stupid shit.

2. The refocus is on myself..I choose who i want to fuck with or fuck over!

3. I work too much to be with One Dominant guy much less all the strange people who think they know me!

4. I have no qualms about hiding again!

5. This place is still a form of entertainment and a social medium!

6. Now if you want to get me hot and heavy please do!.. but you aren't going to be seeing the results!

Peace out!

Came back after hiding my profile for a month.. I met a nice Dominant male..went to his place.. had a good time.. but truly he lives far.. I have no idea what i truly want.. I still think if you live blocks near me it would be nicer.. If we had more in common would be evn more nicer.. But i am not looking for anything serious in my life.. I don't want to be serious right now.. Right now i should focus on my job and what i need to do for the every day living.. If you want to be my friend. let me know.. if you want to be a fuck buddy let me know.. but you know i am very good with being indifferent with people lately.. so don't take it personally.

Getting back to an old habit.. staying up late listening to music!.. hey least its better than looking at naughty pics with naughty images playing in my head fantasizing and wishing for things that will stay n fantasy land!..

Yeah i have grown up from old habits!.. going to bed soon for all who care.

Time for bed!..

Looking forward to the immediate future.

granted not looking forward to work. the pressure is on, home office wants me more, they wish to expand me more which will leave my sanity alittle thin.

but afterwards its sunday..been awhile since i gone out.. Monday i am thinking about having that nagging tooth pulled. on my only day off no less.

Crossing my fingers!.. I need a new personal night schedule..i don't need to go back to my old hauntings thinking things will change..oh wait thats insanity!

Staying sane!

Good night sweet prince!.. I can sleep now

With all the recent conversations both online and off line.. that prick  i will call him for now on may not be an awakening dream. slowly feels better in the world.. and i am pushing him out of my mind.

Thank YOU!

Recent events has left me more guarded. though granted i am too busy at work to even care about lot of things but me just being me and whatever mood i wish to put upon my face! :p

Lately i been nursing a toothache.. can't afford to go to a dentist no health or dental insurance... funny but this whole emotional masochism i have put upon myself beats nothing but the pain of my mouth right now.. Iknow i need them either pulled or filled.. either way..its a great distraction.

Staying away from my usual club activities.. i dont need a reminder of his wimp ass face in front of me.. When i feel Physically better then i will go back to my usual activities. Right now.. i had seriously considered my old black book on my phone..granted those old numbers really didnt do me any good either.. yeah i am a picky person. i text or email who i wish to..

the guy i was dating.. broke off our relationship through text.. he for aweek didn't want to talk to me either through phone or face to face.. am i that intimidating or was he just a coward? I apt for his cowardness!..

i thought i had saw potential for this young buck.. but yet again. i vow i am not dating the younger than 30 crowd!.. nor anyone i see the 1st red flag..

it took me 15 dollars to travel to our meeting place because he wanted see me last night.. he had assumed i would be there like any other night.. but i being the nature i am i went there expecting lord knows what.

I let him talk, i let him say what he had to say.. all the time i had asked if we met eye to eye. his body language i could tell he was struggling but so was i. i held strong through his words, and held his hand through some of the tough parts. but when i had noticed as the words came out his strength became stronger. we were over and actually i am very much relieved..

 I dreamt that night actually this morning when i came home when some gfs of mine drove me home. i had a night mare of the past 2 months after he told me our relationship was a lie.. that all the things he did for me he felt obligated to doing so.. it all came out in this night mare.. I woke up ina cold sweat alone..but not abandoned.. I myself can only help myself

 I am even now more wary of the promises of people.. i depend on noone but myself!

 No you dont need to heal my emotional scars.. just be your trueself and i will be mine!.. That is all i ask in a Man!..if you can't handle that get the fuck away from me!

Who is using who when all you need is to forget!? Girl friend suggested i go back to doing the whole dating online again.. and i am twice shy yet again.. i wish to not go back to learning someone new.. I was actually thinking about relearning someone i once knew.. or someone who distracted me for awhile before i got distracted by someone who became real.. My problem is i can't easily travel or go places.. I work 6 days a week. My time is monopolized by people who think i am needed.. but yet.. i dont feel the same kind of need. i am not the type to become lonely for a person.. for me its the reality of their presence ,it has or had become my routine.. i am retraining my life, my emotions, yet again..i need to get back to be able to relax.. or for some to serve.. 

So who is using who!?

if one understands you are welcome to message.

well it doesnt matter that love hurts.. it doesnt matter i took myself out of the equation.. it does matter when a man no matter or a wimp or a dominant if he ever is disrespectful to a woman..he isnt worth it!.. I am done..! fuck love!..

yeah Single again!

I am a woman with many roles!.. I would like to be accepted as just me- a well rounded person.. Just because i am a mom doesnt mean i am just a mom..but please dont dictate my life cause you think you are better than me or think you know what is best for i and my 2 teen-aged kids. 

To the guy i made the mistake of saying i love you too early!.. You saw me as one person, but yet you didnt get to see all of me.. now that you have, you have become fearful of what may not yet to come.. Taking myself out of the equation.. Love hurts!