although i enjoy the aches and tears,
i do not wish You to break me....
or torture me. or make me an object of mere usage.
i need to hug You, to love You, to speak my feelings
and feel safe that i will never be abandoned ---ever.
i wish You to be my best Friend, my Lover,
my Guardian, my Mentor---
i hope for You to guide me, teach me,
discipline me when i am bad
and reward me lovingly when i've been good.
i ache for You to be my Master--- but most of all,
i desperately look for You to be the Man
who will conquer my very deepest core,
Because if i don't trust to surrender completely
Then the submission in me is merely a dream:
One that i will always wonder why the slave isn't in me. |