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| When my journey down the road of BDSM first began I considered myself a submissive and was looking to serve others. As time went on I found myself becoming less and less comfortable serving the uninspired. My obedience has to be earned by men and I serve women willingly in hope of praise. I grew up in the male dominated construction world where men prove their worth by being better that the next. I rose steadily through the field to run my own company and today have extended into commercial real estate and property management. Being an Alpha male in my field has left a trait that makes me compete with other males for the Alpha female, to date there has only been one other man who's personality was so dynamic that it made me the Beta male.
My desire to serve woman on the other hand is so very ingrained, I suspect it must have come from my desire to please my mother as a child. This is where my personality can morph back and forth. If a woman so desires me to be dominant for her pleasure I easily switch and can be the strictest of Dom's. Euphoric endorphin rushes are very apparent during these moments and I do become another person. It's nice to feel the power of total control and I have lost myself a few times during this type of play. (safe words are good to have) Although those moments are very erotic, I still draw as much pleasure working and swetting for that special Alpha female, being her beast of burdon to make her home a beautiful castle. (construction background)
Having been through this process I think being a switch in the BDSM world may be one of the most interesting things to be, certainly not an easy task, but lot's of fun!!
I hope that gives you as good a picture of my personality at this moment in time, R
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