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Submissive equals Relationship with a Dominant Female.The relationship and bond is the "thing" that makes it work for me. Can go very deep into a submissive state with the right person, and have experienced the "flying" state several times.

Fetishist = pain slut, rubber/latex, sexy dress-up, "appropriate" bondage for top's pleasing. Cross-dressing is a ton of fun for me, especially lingerie. Look ok, but not great in make-up! (Scared myself once! Yikes!)

Love anal play/toys.

Pain-slut = Endorphin addict = long play sessions (over one hour, slow builds up to intense levels). This is an enjoyable activity for me, but a relationship with a Dominant trumps the need for satisfaction in this area, and this sort of thing can be "out-sourced" to be administered by others if the Dominant is not into S&M play, should She desire to indulge me in this way as a form of reward.

I'm not as much into the adrenalin high as I am into a deep endorphin high (body's own morphine). Endorphin pusher, in that I enjoy getting others addicted as well.

I'm a very good top. Switch = will top others to get them off (give them intense endorphin high) in exchange for being gotten off myself.

Best Scenario: Need Dominant I can utterly respect and consent to, who is perhaps also a true sadist or another endorphin addict (switch, on top), who possesses lots of endurance, and who can enjoy (that is, really like) giving pain for over an hour in a slow build up to extreme levels of intensity. Love those extreme levels! Dom/me-Space guaranteed!

(Slow build-up is a requirement for me and a hard limit of sorts. You'll have lots of fun in 40 minutes, don't worry!)

Read my "famous" article, "The Endorphin Levels in BDSM" if you want to understand how to do this with little effort on your part. (google: endorphin bdsm, presently fourth entry, at "Frisky") Heck, read all my articles there! The "On Sex" and "Dungeon Zone" articles are all mine.

Again, a Dominant who can utterly possess me and make me experience "flying" is more important to me than a sadistic one. Masochism is icing on the cake for me, albeit very yummy.

Capable of being devoted slave to right person - have "flown". Want to do that often!

Can "adopt" slave mode to see if it is working - will communicate if it isn't working for me. (See Nov. 9th, '09 journal entry below for clarification.)

Bi-sexual in that I love to suck cock and be fucked in the ass. Not attracted to men's asses, so have no desire to fuck another man in the ass. Can entertain very well with anal play toys. Not into kissing men either. (Well, maybe with a lovely trans.) Great cock- sucker, though!

Female G-spot specialist - I can guarantee multiple full-body orgasms, as long as I can actually FIND the spot! (Though one time may seem like it is enough, three are even better.)

(Not kidding or bragging - that is one of my strongest skills. Lots of willing testimonials. Just ask.)

Polyamorous, and will commit to other polyamorous individual(s) for emotional support and partnership.

I work at a sex-toy and adult video store, so I do not have to be discreet at all. I can be discreet, if necessary. I would rather not to have to worry about such things.

I have very long, healthy brown hair. Fun to grab a-hold of!

View all my photos! I uploaded a bunch!

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11/8/2009 9:45:49 PM
Confused.
Having been a bona-fide bachelor for two years, and having learned how to be exquisitely happy without even having a Mistress, I'm not absolutely certain that I have the "craving need" necessary to become a submissive again, at least not in the manner I was before. I just tried with someone new, but I was mostly into evaluating Them more than into pleasing them right off the bat as previously would have been the case.

I think that my "bar" for granting consent has gone up several notches. I used to be very easy with giving consent - pretty much to anyone who demanded it! I was so craving! So needy! That is not present any longer - at least not a kind of craving that is so willing to submit at any moment's notice.

More than ever before, a Dominant has to earn my respect before I will submit to Her. With such respect will come the craving, renewed, built upon respect and trust. Consequently, how I will earn Her respect has become a new kind of problem. Most Dominants evaluate based upon how readily you submit and obey.

Will I meet ones who are patient enough to respect that I absolutely have to respect them first? We'll have to see when the situation arises. So far, that isn't happening, as many of the Dominants I meet recently are so very used to the readily available population of "easy" submissives, filled with "sub-frenzy" and hungers and cravings like I used to be.

It is probably a very good thing that I am presently comfortable in my own skin and happy to remain that way, as a very happy bachelor, and so, wait patiently for the right situation to come up, even if it takes years or never happens at all.


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 Age: 25
 Lewistown, Pennsylvania