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met some nice guys...no Masters...even briefly talked with a good Master until another sub said she was his and this subbie does not play around with someone else's man...oh my i morals...who knew...still looking forward to europe...there for six moths...maybe i will find something there...who knows. |
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a beautiful day and kinda blue for it would be the best day to be tied/cuffed/caged and made to serve my Master. a small smile has been on my face all day for i can just feel my tongue and body being put through the paces by a Master and knowing i was bringing him pleasure while he saw that i was given the same in return... |
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a player...yet again, i have been played,....just got an email from an upset wife. great, i do not play that game...please no more games. |
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talked to several European Masters and was surprised that looks mean nothing to them. that was a surprise and one actually is meeting with me this weekend in Des Moines to meet with me. maybe this time it will happen. |
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had a great Saturday....counting down days until take off for Europe....made another submissives day by explaining what it meant to be mounted...strange neveer had to do that before...lol....hope everyone is having a good weekend. |
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told more people today that they were no longer needed...miss the Masters touch....many wonder why i am going to europe - to put it bluntly to get away from what i do for a living and to see if there really is a Master who wants me...i am tired of being on my knees and not having that one touch from a Master letting me know that it is fine...no one seems to understand that and as bad as it sounds, i am beginning to think that pulling back into myself and just letting the world pass me by may be the best but it hurts both my mind and my heart. |
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beautiful day outside....still wishing to be at a
Masterrs feet showing him how much he is worth...still being played with...went to Chicago and Atlanta to meet with supposed Masters and got played again...is there no real Doms out there...should i just crawl in a hole and let my subservience die? |
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Had a good weekend and am now back hard at work....going to go to chicago for a few days and then back home to rest...looking forward to warmer weatehr and my trip this summer... |
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wow, it is monady and i again got burned by yet another wannabe...met for coffee and found he is in no way close to being a Dom or a Master - was more submissive then me but wanted to be dominant...not good...in other news, i got my new back pack today and looking forward to using this summer. |
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hmmm...like to get to know you first before you order me around...is that too much to ask? yes, i had a great Master in the past who the first time i met him face to face i knew he was my Master...not into players... |
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w0w...scared off another one....what does it mean when you ask a Master if he is married and he suddenly gets upset at you for asking....tells me he is cheating...was trained to not cheat or play with a Dom who has a wife/spouse....yes, sounds like i am seeking the impossible.... |
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enough...was asked for the umpteenth time today how much money i would be bringing into a relationship....just because i am a submissive does not make me your personal whore to put out on the corner to bring money home to you.... |
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snow melting at last....been doing various chores all day and looking forward to warmer weather...looking forward to trip this summer....hoping it is as good as it sounds. |
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I bought my ticket today and will be in Ireland come mid-June. I have met with a couple more submissives and find that there is hope but that it is a tricky path. I miss the feel of the firm hand, the feel of the crop/paddle/flogger....hearing the praise or the words of punishment - it seems that very few outside this lifestyke understand that. Maybe I will find that Master - i can hope - but as always i will be careful. |
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spent the day on Omaha and then came home....working hard and planning for the summer....met with several supposed Masters and found once again that playing around seems to be the norm up here....how can one put it simply - real is what i seek, fakers and players are not wanted. |
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going to Europe for the summer....being played has gotten to be a real downer....maybe i can do better there but seeing how many players are out there i am probably just dreaming..... |
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Back after going across country to help with some training. I have no current Master...am tired of being played by wanna bees. If you are not real or looking for only cyber then go somewhere else. I love and appreciate a real Master not someone who thinks they are real. Being aggressive does not make you a Master, so please do not wate either the time and effort it takes to connect. If you are looking for real, wanting to be served, and actually know what you are doing please contact me. |
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Spent a month in Oklahoma helping to train some submissives...had fun but am happy to be home....hope everyone is doing well. |
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snow and ice today....nice....looking forward to spring and the feel of the sun on my skin....ahh...i wish for warm weather and no snow...lol |
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finally back at home...if you do not like the pic on my profile so be it - safety is a given....met another wannabe from here and was first time i got up and walked away after less than 10 minutes....this is getting to be a repetitive experience. |
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went to Des Moines to help with some training and got stuck in the snow....was funny until someone thought that flogging in the snow was a great thing to do....subzero temps and naked flesh are not a good mix....lol |
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back aftergoing to help with some training....note i am not looking to be part of a poly household so please do not ask...thanks |
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