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I'm a cam model. I will do ALMOST anything on camera if you pay me for it. If you've got weird fetishes and want to see a cute girl do fucked up things on camera, let me know <3
I am very submissive. Very, very submissive. When I have a Dominant, I trust Him implicitly, and I will do anything He asks, not because I must, but because I want to. My submission is a gift. One that very few people will ever be given. I do not submit purely because you are a Dominant or Master type. I submit out of love. And when I love, I do so very deeply.
Ownership is a very different concept for me than it is for most people. One can catch and own me, but only if I let them. The title of "Owner" or "Master" or "Daddy" is a term of endearment when it comes out of my mouth, similar to "baby" or "sweetheart." It's a word that expresses my love. And as a result of my love, I WILL obey my Dominant. Most submissives feel a need regarding the role of their Dominant in their lives. I do not. I feel that it is far more important to be wanted than it is to be needed, and that someone wanting you in their life means much more than someone needing you in their life.
That having been said, I am also a free-spirited woodland creature. I am currently too firmly rooted to my domicile and am trying my hardest to find a way to become the nomadic critter I feel that I need to be, deep in my heart. I feel a deep connection to nature and the earth around me, I need to have dirt under my nails and the wind in my hair, or I feel incomplete.
I have a strong creative drive. I'm an artist and I seek to create beautiful and terrible images. As a rule, I'm a painter, but I do sculpt and make three-dimensional crafts and things.
I am vision-impaired. With corrective lenses, I can see, but my eyesight is worsening, and I will most likely become blind at some point in my life. This fact scares me, but also intrigues me. I believe it will open new paths for me, give me opportunities to learn new things, and make me stronger in the long-run. I'm not sure how it will affect my art, and that's the part that scares me.
I am musical, I just haven't found my instrument yet. I've played the trombone, the piano, the bass and the guitar, and I have yet to find one that fits me well, but I feel that handpans are the way for me to go.
I am a tribal creature, a social animal whose chosen family is small at the moment, but who is always looking to build new bridges, make new connections, and find more family. Kindred spirits are immensely important to me, so if you are one, tell me your story.
I have been a victim of abuse, and I have PTSD as a result. I have night terrors and I sometimes have flash backs. My story is long and sad, it's kind of hard to listen to. Sometimes, I wish I could sleep without being afraid to close my eyes, but no matter what, I wouldn't change my past. It has made me who I am. It has put me on the path that I'm currently on. And so far, I like where I'm going
I need pain. I feel wrong if sex doesn't hurt. I enjoy being beaten, stepped on, kicked, caned, whipped, punched, flogged, pierced and burned. I need pain in my life, on a fairly regular basis. The current realm of pain that I'm exploring is "things that bleed." piercings, flesh-hook suspension, ordeals of all sorts that involve blood are currently on my to-do list. The next realm of pain that I'm going to explore will probably be under the category "things that scar." Branding, cell-popping, artistic cutting, etc.
For me, masochism is a competition, not with other masochists, but with myself, with my own limits, and with my fears. Masochism for me is about pushing myself beyond what I believed myself capable of achieving.
My goals are to build and live in a portable tiny house, travel the country going from place to place, intentional community to intentional community, building my tribe as I go along, so that no matter where I am, I will always have family, and so that no matter where my family goes, they will always have a connection to a group of amazing people.
In summation; I'm a dirty hippie, a submissive, a masochist, an artist, a traveler, and a creature of many roles.
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