sexyeyes84

i am 41 year old female looking to be live in submissive girlfriend im down to earth calm nice caring loyal honest blunt but shy i love outdoors video games comics i love to window shop look at things i can't buy.... im good listener and let you know facts of truth and more I am up to new things i love learning about things ive been in and ouut of the lifestyle for a while 16 years no sex life no relationships nothing its like im left at a point to where I dont trust anyone because of being a victim for to long of verbal an mental an pyhsical abuse I stay to myself away from others because they treat me badly...... I just want a domainte male to show me life is worth living because not having nobody to look up to and being with someone that has respect and hornor me and love me instead of abuse me..... i sense on everything and it scares the shit out of me knowing that idoits just hurt me in every shape and form to the breaking point in my life...... it like im shut down screaming an yelling makes me shake so bad i can't even think move or speak i can't handle much more abuse from normal vanllia people...... i walk away from them and they still dispect me there bullies and more........... I need to be able to feel safe and sane instead of fearing of bad going to happen all the time..... I just want something real somewhere i fit in where i can be me sexual flirt eyes contact kissing hugs touching showing me what love really is I just cant trust and its going to take someone to save me from the abuse i want to be a live in submissive to the right man