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I am here solely for myself - it is highly unlikely that I will answer any of your emails
6/28/2013 8:07:24 PM

The silence and not knowing hurts far worse than any physical punishment You can come up with ..... i just need to know that You're ok please .... i genuinely care about You ... deeply ......

 

 

6/26/2013 4:23:28 AM

damned if i do and damned it i don't ....... i'm lost, confused and hurting .... only You hold the answers, and yet i can't ask .....

 

As Katie says, it's only pain ..................................

4/20/2013 8:05:14 AM

Not sure if i'm experiencing deja vu or if some people on here have dementia ........

4/15/2013 12:47:24 AM

feeling very alone right now .................................

 

i spose at least i'm feeling 'something' huh .............

3/28/2013 4:09:18 PM

i long for the collar of a certain Master .... i come in here to read and look and satisfy a certain yearning to some small extent - however i will not break the trust of that Master or not be loyal to Him .... while i am not yet His, i am.

Happy Easter everyone  :)

ss

2/26/2013 11:05:46 PM

because sometimes all a girl needs is some Bowie ..........................................

 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rfXsdePJrYw

 

2/20/2013 3:38:43 PM

I need to feel the thud of a flogger on my back (it's been too long) - it would centre me again. And then perhaps I could stop all this procrastinating and put the submissive part of me back in her box, and concentrate on my work again.

 

Yep ... being submissive is so damn frustrating sometimes.

 

Going crazy ......

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bd2B6SjMh_w

2/20/2013 9:54:00 AM

Can't sleep, even though I'm tired ............ don't ya hate that ........

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CseO1XRYs9I

 

see? I do have a sense of humour .....

2/20/2013 1:24:33 AM

Without (the rhetorical) you .....

 

Sometimes being submissive is so damn frustrating - and I wish I could turn it off. But how does one 'turn off' something that is a part of them ........ how indeed

 

No-one is responsible for your own happiness, except one person - yourself. I know and accept that. And people (understandably) like being with happy and positive people - I get that too. But sometimes being submissive and wanting, needing to give, well ........ it's so damn frustrating, that's all

 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=doWIkO1GGVo

 

now back to work ...........

2/17/2013 7:59:50 PM

Like I said ... got to love katie ...

 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-UJXPkRMe4I

 

2/17/2013 7:53:51 PM

Feminists. I don't like them as a rule. Sure I shouldn't whack them all into the same box and judge them as 'one size fits all', but then why not? They assume all females want what they want. Think what they think. And it's not true. Not for me anyway. Some say I should be grateful of the changes thanks to some feminists, like what? The right to vote? Vote for who, I ask? Have a good honest look at the calibre of pollies to choose from - sad if you ask me. Like I said - vote for who exactly?

 

Being either male or female does not make one person better than another. And it seems to me that feminists these days go to extremes. They want to be better than males - and then they call that equality. No man should beat a woman, I agree they did good things in that area. But then no man does beat a woman - only cowards do. And no, I am not talking about consensual S & M.

 

I for one love that a man is strong and masculine. I love to feel his strength and his masculinity. I love to feel both safe and completely vulnerable in his arms, in his hold, all at the same time. To me, that allows me to feel more like a woman than any feminist ideas of what I should be and want today. I like the man to be the head of the house. To feel the bliss that comes with allowing him the ability to have me yield to him .... even in the times when I don't particularly want to. I don't like weak men who want me to make all the decisions or allows me to sulk. But that doesn't mean I am either weak or stupid. I like to believe that I am intelligent and strong. I have withstood far greater pain than any whip or cane and I more than survived - I grew. Grew on a level that most people wouldn't even begin to understand or fathom .........

 

No man who demands obedience or gains submission out of fear for him, truly masters any girl. It's when she trusts him and loves him in depths that can't be described, where the need to submit comes from a need to love and give more of herself than she already has, that he then truly controls her and has her as his. When she can't not submit because of who he is and how he makes her feel ...... when she feels that even in the depths of her submission to him, that she still hasn't given him enough - when it comes from her very heart and soul and not from pleasures or pain ...... that's when he truly holds her in the palm of his hand and he can call her his. And he has to earn it. Just as she has to earn his dominance and trust. It's because of who they each are alone and who they are when together, and not because of any games or acts or play sessions. To me, D/s is a far greater and deeper thing than that. It has to be felt with the heart and soul .... meant and not played. And I don't want or appreciate any feminist telling me that this makes me unequal to him or any man for that matter - because it makes me so much more. If only they understood .............

 

Which is why I love to feel his strength and masculinity. I find great comfort in that. A comfort that can't be explained. It's all about feeling safer when with him than anywhere else on earth, while at the same time being totally exposed and vulnerable and having complete faith in him that he will never hurt me (not in the way that most people think of as 'hurt') .... instead he allows me freedom and the ability to fly ................

2/17/2013 3:24:14 AM

because ...........................................

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jySUpMqmzd4

 

 

2/16/2013 4:24:21 AM

Got to love Katie .....

 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SMc7s4PYVHQ&NR=1&feature=endscreen

2/16/2013 4:21:35 AM

And how about that Fifty Shades crap? Where it was insinuated that all Doms were mega rich, young and good looking - not to mention screwed up in the head for needing to 'hurt' others. That to be involved in D/s or BDSM one must have had 'problems' because they couldn't possibly be 'normal' and enjoy or need D/s merely because it was/is a part of them, their make-up, just like being bald or hairy, blue eyed or brown eyed, pretty or plain.

 Although there are definite advantages to the books ...... anyone, any Dom I see refer to Fifty Shades of anything in their name was always a great reason to give them a wide berth. Fifty Shades of B/s, not D/s.

2/16/2013 4:00:42 AM

It's rather sad how in this world we all have 'how to be tolerant' and not racist or ageist or sexist etc rammed down our throats and yet CM won't allow a profile to be created without selecting an age and ethnicity. Should it really matter what age or ethnicity we are? And what's stopping us from lying about it anyway? Like most people online don't lie in some shape or form anyway ...???? lol

Most of us rely in good faith that the people we speak with are genuine and honest and are being truthful ....... it's sad when it starts to become the expected, the 'norm' that the truth isn't being told and the person/people not so genuine. When their goal is to mislead in order to gain from someone else's misfortune or make a mockery of their good faith.

It's like equality. What a misdemeanour that one is. Feminists only want equality when it suits them, meets their needs. And how is so called equality equal when the male species is being downtrodden and treated unequally? How is that equality? For example in mixed gender sport where the girls get 2 points for every try or goal that they score while the boys get only one. Equality? Oh please ..... equality my arse!

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 Age: 18
 Batavia, Ohio