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My lifelong fantasy is to be controlled by a group of perhaps 2-3 women who force me to behave like a wanton slut and perform the most humiliating and disgusting acts imaginable while they laugh and entertain themselves at my expense.
For me, the ultimate degradation is to be used as a toilet and made to feel SELF-CONSCIOUSLY smelly and dirty And to be compelled against my will to wallow in excrement, drink piss and eat shit - even if it makes me vomit :o (And if I do then to be forced to lick it up!!!!) I'm not a "scat" lover, I don't understand how people can do it and enjoy it. This is the most revolting thing I can think of!
Especially as I don't like being dirty or smelly, and I'm shy of intimacy and having to expose myself, physically or emotionally. In fact, I'm not sure which is worse, to be physically naked and aroused or to reveal my emotional feelings - to cry, to beg, or even to be obviously 'enjoying' the experience (knowing that I'm going to feel deeply revolted and ashamed about it afterwards)!
So being turned on in such a way that I involuntarily and reluctantly 'want' the experience is doubly humiliating, especially after I've been made to cum and suddenly realize what I've done - even if I'm been made to do so against my will!!!!
I did have a friend once who played with me in this way. She kept me keyed up through teasing and orgasm control and, by whipping my - cute - ass severely whenever I didn't (or couldn't!) obey her, she forced me to become a docile and willing accomplice in my own degradation. I am shy, sensitive and very responsive - so it will be easy (and fun) to humiliate and embarrass me and make me do revolting, disgusting and degrading things. It didn't happen often because it took me weeks to recover from one of her "sessions" - sometimes involving going out to a dance class or night club together (!) I always felt afraid of going to see her because I knew she would do something dreadful to me that I would later regret. But I sort of forgot what it was really like, and when I got kind of crazy and horny again, I would agree to visit her again.
She also liked to use/abuse my excited body to fulfil her physical and psychological needs. As I am an oral as well as anal person, a sensuous woman will enjoy my subconscious need to lick, suck and smell LOL.
Although the experience was truly awful for me, she relished in the absolute power she exerted over me - an otherwise strong and assertive man! My orgasms (when I was finally allowed to finish) were incredibly long-lasting and intense - and the feelings of shame and revulsion afterwards made me shy and self-conscious in her presence.
Nevertheless, I am hungry for more. For now. I don't usually come online often because it's not something I usuall want or enjoy. I prefer being with vanilla lady friends and I might even dominate them. The mood grabs me every few months. So please get in touch if you will enjoy having absolute power of a strong and usually assertive man.
It will be great fun for you and I might even be grateful - even if it means having to "perform" or be exposed in public (which only heightens the shame and embarrassment of course). You might want to vent your frustrations out on me, or "punish" me for the way I've mistreated women in the past.
I am in all other respects, a charming, good-looking, intelligent, well-dressed and well-spoken professional who enjoys (and plays) music, keeps fit 'n healthy, cooks, and enjoys books, movies and conversation.
I only have the one dark & dirty secret.... :o
Please write. I am keen to meet you!
And I could be a good, affectionate and loyal friend, and fun to be with :)
Yours,
Jerry
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