I'm thinking of changing my profile to say I'm looking for Dominant Women, I'm not into girls but maybe Dommes have more balls and I'll have more luck finding an owner with them. I'm just so frustrated at guys basically wasting my timeand not reading my profile, you don't need to tell me all about yourself, that's what your profile is for I can go read it but the sad thing is I haven't received a message yet that made me want to go and read the guy's profile to know more about him. I don't even mind the ones that are just obivously looking to jerk off I don't think it's a waste of time and while I wait to find a real owner I'm more than happy to help guys here relieve themselves but it's all the meaningless 2 phrases messages that I get that are just annoying.

I've just received two messages in a row basically just asking me hey how's it going? Please, don't bother writing to me if you want to chat about the weather that's not why I'm here I've been very honest about everything even posted pictures of my face and tits so you can see what you're getting and a proof picture and I keep getting messages from people who are just wasting time, I want to find an extremely sadistic owner who will tranform me into nothing but fuckmeat please only write to me if you're serious and can deliver.

oh I've also had a lot of people ask about my aunt's boyfriend and how that happened so I'll write it here. I met him for the first time when she brought him to our family christmas party last year like most men right away I noticed that he was checking me out and he kept looking at me all night we talked a few times and he kept making suggestive remarks at me we both had alcohol so we were having fun and I flirted back until at some point he cornered me when I came out of the bathroom and he said he needed to relieve himself and asked if I would like to help I was just smiling and asked himwhat about my aunt? he said he'd rather fuck my slutty little mouth over her old wrinkly mouth any day I was really shocked when he said that before we were just kind of joking but he really meant it I was kind of afraid for a minute like what if someone caught us but he pushed me in the bathroom and told me to get on my knees so I just did I can't resist a cock I sucked him off and he had me unbutton my blouse and he came all over my tits. He thanked me but then I told him I was the one who should thank him for using my mouth and covering my tits in his sticky cum and he said if only women were all like me he said he hoped to use my mouth again but then him and my aunt broke up not long after and I never saw him again I don't even remember his name. I'll suck pretty much anyone but it was the first time I did anything with an older guy and he knew my family it made it really scary but I'm really glad it happened and I was able to give him some pleasure.

To answer some questions I've been asked many times, yes I'm relocatable even to the US, as long as you can cover the costs of moving me I don't have any money I still live with my parents. Some of you seem insulted by that and I don't want to be rude but the fact that I'm young seems to be the reason some many of you are interested, but there are good sides and bad sides to everything yes I'm young so that means I'm not as financially independant as a woman in her 30s. I'm offering all of myself, but I don't have any money to move so I can't offer something I don't have.

I've also been asked if I have any diseases, no I'm clean yes I'm a slut and I've been with many people but I know that no one wants a diseased fuckdoll I'm careful.

I'm beginning to really question wether I'll find an owner here, so many messages and so many men interested but still can't seem to find anyone who can give me the extreme life I'm looking for. Still get most messages telling me how they want to abuse me and hurt me blah blah blah what does that mean? I know men are generally visual and have a hard time writing things down this way but if you can't elaborate on how you would break me and destroy my spirit and all the things you're saying you're going to do to me, then to me that says you wouldn't know how to do it in real life.

By the way yes, many of you have said that describing things in details would probably just excite me and that would be giving me what I want so you don't want to, and yes you're absolutely right I'm a pathetic whore and I've touched myself while reading some messages but that's not why I'm asking I genuinely need to know the kind of life you'd give me to know if you're the right owner for me so far no one here as demonstrated that they would be able to abuse me the way I need to be abused.

It's frustrating because I have to be in charge here and filter through all these messages when really all I want to do is serve and be used and degraded I just want to find my owner. I'm really not this picky in real life I'll let anyone who approches me put me on my knees and shove their cock in my mouth, but if I'm going to move somewhere and become someone's almost no limit slave expect for death and children (by the way I've had messages from people who want to breed me ew what part of no children don't you get? I don't mind if YOU have children that's not relevant to me I just don't want to have any) then it's important that I find the right person not just the first one with a cock and a promise to "break me" is there anyone out there who could truly do that?

I've had a lot of men ask for pictures of my face and I told someone I was nervous about showing my face and he said something very true to me he said it didn't matter what I want. I was just afraid someone I know might see me on here but I guess it's pretty unlikely that my parents will find this and I think everyone else I know already knows I'm a total whore I even gave my aunt's new boyfriend a blowjob at the family christmas party so I changed my profile pictures to show my face also men asked to see my tits some didn't believe that I could be skinny like that and have a c-cup so I put up pics where you can see my tits and also a pic I took today as proof of who I am.

Also I wanted to write a bit more about me and my previous experiences I've had a lot of people ask and it's a very good question and important things to know about me if you're interested in owning me so I decided to post about it here it's easier than writing to everyone who asked.

First I don't have any experience being owned before I understand if some are reluctant to get involved with me because you think I might not be able to cope with the extreme life I'm looking for but it doesn't matter  if my spirit is broken beyond repair and my body can't take the pain anymore because it's not about what I can take or what I want it's about what I am and I know I'm meant to be a slave. This is the only path for me so I'll endure whatever my owner wants of me and I expect that to be very extreme because I crave complete and total slavery I need to be owned in every way.

I'm still live with my parents so I'm not very good at keeping a house and cooking meals and things like that right now, but I would work very hard at it and learn to be the best at it if my owner wanted to use me in this way. I've never taken much pain and I don't have a very high threshold but I want to be pushed to the extreme and beaten into taking as much as possible, I'm not a painslut as such I don't really get pleasure from pain itself but I want to give myself completely to my owner and I think pain is a big part of that, I need to feel like I'm giving all of myself to my owner. It's important to me that my owner knows he can do everything he wants to me, that I'm just there to obey him and make him happy and if he wants to laugh at me while I'm crying in pain then it's what I'm going to do. As far as sex goes I'm very experienced I was the slut of the high school I love to have a cock in my mouth and I'm very good at sucking. I've also done anal sex, and begged guys to be very rough with me so I've taken rough slaps and been chocked, one of my boyfriends once invited two of his friends over to fuck me but that's pretty much the most extreme thing I've done so far I find sex really boring mostly no one is ever hard enough on me but I've only ever had sex with guys around my age I need a real man. I need to be broken and used like a worthless whore, I want to be nothing but a fuckdoll to be used for your entertainment.

I know I am a pathetic excuse of a human being but I think I would make a very good slave I'm very attractive and a total slut, I know I'm still unexperienced when it comes to the more extreme things but I hope that would appeal to someone who would enjoy being the first to destroy me and shape me into his perfect plaything.

I went away for a few days I'm really overwhelmed by the amount of messages I received I just don't know how I'm going to find an owner going through dozens of pages of messages. I'll try to go back and read them all but it would help if you're interested if you said more in your message than just tell me you're interested, I already assume you are if you've written to me please if you send me a message tell me about your previous experiences and the kind of slave you're looking for, the kind of life I would have if you became my owner so that I know right away if you're really serious and would give me the kind of abuse I crave, most messages that I've read basically just said they would definitely hurt and humiliate me but that's a very easy thing to say I don't want someone who can say they will, I want someone who can tell me how so I know you're real and not someone who just jerks off to the thought of it because I don't want to be on here for months and months I want to find an owner and move in with him as soon as possible so that I can be a slave I know it's what I was born to be it's something I need very badly.