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alwayscumming
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I am a fun-loving, intelligent, articulate, serious life-styler who is looking for that one to serve heart and soul and with utter completeness. I am looking to serve all the time -- that is -- to be the total slave, both in and out of the bedroom. I'm looking for someone who can be stern, gentle, loving, kind, caring, special and sweet, but who knows how to make my bottom bleed should I require it. I am outspoken by nature and most of the time, this is *not* directed at you. It's just the way this chaysa girl is. I'm looking for someone who can tame me, but not break me.
If you're that one, get in touch.
I am blind, so I cannot drive. I may be willing to relocate, but I am blind and my friends, work, parents and doctors are here and that would be difficult for me and my guide dog to get use to in another town.
Get in touch... If you dare.
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You know, I really hate when people see your ad and call you after midnight...don't they have any respect for privacy? How rude.
Yesterday, a guy called me mid-afternoon. We had some things in common, including the fact that he, too, is from NY. He was supposed to take me out to lunch today, but I never heard from him... He claimed he forgot today was a holiday. I ask you, what does that have to do with going out to lunch? He says he'll call again tomorrow. We'll see.
Then, I spent several hours last night talking to a guy who is in to some very extreme stuff...stuff that I'd love to do, but haven't done which makes me a little nervous. He wants to meet, but the problem is, I talked to him once before and I bet once he sees my pic he'll remember.
I think I'm going to create another profile on here as a Domme, because in addition to desperately wanting to serve that person I long to serve, I also have this strong desire to dominate, which is why I have a live-in slave. I may choose one path to follow, eventually, as my slave can't do a lot because of health reasons, and if I found the right Dom, I'd give myself completely to submission, just like I'd give myself completely to dominance if I found the right slave... Since neither has happened yet... :) :)
I hope everyone had a wonderful VDay.
chaysa
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Ok, so here's how today went... I was very nervous meeting Dom #2. We'll call him WhipMan. Things went better than I would have expected and he said he wants to see me again. I'll believe it when I get that phone call. He said there were some things he was "going to punish you for next time" but he wouldn't tell me what they were. Now, I have a Mistress and before I get punished I know right then and there I'm getting punished. I don't think it's fair that he didn't even tell me what the hell I'd done wrong. Still, maybe there's hope? Thanks for all your words of support.
So, if he calls me, I'll be greatly surprised, and if he doesn't...I won't be too disappointed.
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The hunt is on.
Yesterday I met with a lovely dom and his slave. He was considering adding me as a second slave. Now, I've had many such meetings. Before the meeting, I had sent him about thirty pics of me doing all different things including swimming, riding horses, walking and training my protection dogs, training people how to use computers, using a flogger, doing CBT on a male sub, working as a paramedic and so on... I had also sent him video of me doing some of these things. He agreed to meet.
We met and he told me that from his point of voiew the meeting went great. So did his slave. They were both very satisfied. He told me to call him in an hour. I did. I got the usual, "I'm not physically attracted to you..." speech. If he wasn't physically attracted to me, why'd he waste his time after all the pics and videos I sent him? Why?
Is there anyone out there who likes plump, large-breasted women? I may be plump, but I can still live 170 pounds...Not joking.
Will I ever find someone to serve? Will I ever be able to have my desires satisfied? Will the call ever be answered? Is there any hope? I'm beginning to think this is all a waste of time.
I meet another guy tomorrow...maybe. He'll tell me the same thing...He'll find fault with my looks, or the fact that I won't have sex with him the first time or something. I know I have a bad attitude, but this has been the eight rejection I've had in a year... They didn't even want to be friends. Hi, nice to meet you, bye.
I don't know what it is. My Domme friends say there's nothing wrong with me. I dress well, I'm obedient. I'm witty, a good conversationalist... So what gives?
Very discouraged,
chaysa
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Age: 30 |
Pensacola,
Florida |
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