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Hello and thank you very much for taking the time to read about me. Im going to do my best to keep this quick and hopefully interesting. Im a white male, living in the los angeles area. I work as a flash webapplication developer and designer. For fun i race cars, ride motorcycles and sail. I love food, sushi, shabu shabu, japanese BBQ and just GOOD food. Im also a movie and video game junkie. Yes, im a nerd. I have a sarcastic and very dry sense of humor that is lost on most people, the people that do get me think im hysterical. I love those people, we need more of them. I do love to laugh and poke good fun at people, always respectfully. I am actively looking for a dominant woman to serve and hopefully bind myself to for a long term relationship. I have been owned before, i lived as a cuckold slave for over 4 years with my last Mistress, unfortunately that ended but we are still friends. This type of relationship just works for me, it makes sense and it feels like truly where i belong. I have always been happiest when i have been able to serve a dominant loving, cruel and very sadistic Mistress. It fills in the missing pieces of who i am. Im also not a doormat, i dont submit to just anyone, im very picky but when i do serve it is complete, little to no limits. I LOVE and crave that feeling of control, that feeling that my body and mind is no longer mine. Im looking for a woman that understands her power and is able to use it. Someone that can peer into my mind and know who and what i am before i do, she is able to strip away my secrets. Someone that can bring me to my knees sobbing with just a look. Someone that understands being dominant doesnt mean screaming, someone that NEEDS this in there life as much as breathing. Probably the most important element i seek is chemistry, without that none of this stuff works. This is something that has been a part of me since before i knew what sex is, i have always had submissive fantasies and i have always enjoyed catering to others. This is a big part of who i am. I hope i didnt bore anyone to much, thank you for taking the time to read about me. Please take care neil
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Gots me a new friend, check out pics. |
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Ok, in April of this year I got a job working for Electronic Arts doing UI development on the Medal of Honor video game. I'm a big military shooter fan and this is a AAA game. Despite the 80 hour work weeks, learning a huge and somewhat broken framework, coding in AS2, this has been the best experience I have ever had in my career so far. The reason is the quality of the people I have been working with I haven't experienced before. The passion and drive of the people in the team is infectious and truly inspiring. This is going to be hard to top! |
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I have this image of an old 486 computer with a 100 megs of ram sitting in someones closet as the server for collarme, this site is sooooooo freaking slow at times i can't think of any other reason for it. The images seem to be on a cdn, appears to be an issue with how the data is loaded. It's either a stupid long wait time or it will error out. Just gets so frustrating at times.
Sorry, had to rant a little bit, i hope everyone had or is having a great holiday. I spent mine on my couch sucking down percocet's, nursed a dry socket for my holidays and still at it.
Goes a long way to explain my whiny bitchyness right now. I promise i will post a happy entry when i'm happy again.
Take care everyone and have a great new year. |
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I GOT MY LIFE BACK!!!! YAY ME!!!! |
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Been in project HELL for the last month, working 10 - 16 hour days, no breaks, no fun. It's like i'm the projects / clients bitch and not in a good way. Compressing a project that needed three months to complete into 4 weeks.
Times like this i start thinking about other career choices, i could drive a semi and make almost the same money. Problem is i still love doing this crap, i dream code, i have woken up in the middle of the night to try something that i couldn't get out of my head.
Just wanted to vent. I am so so sooooooooo looking forward to finishing this puppy and getting my life back. I CAN'T WAIT!!!
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They need to add stupid people as a hard limit. |
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It's 11:23 and I'm still in bed, is that wrong? |
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I LOVE LOVE LOVE THIS! |
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"Trapped in time. Surrounded by evil. Low on gas" Greatest Movie Tagline EVER! |
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Ok, so I did something really stupid yesterday. Yes, I know many of you are shocked thinking how is that possible. Well I'm bound by the trappings of humanity and do stupid things more often then I would like to admit. This particular stupid thing deserves extra attention.
I made an appointment with this guy to do some work on my car, he is the guru of evo suspension setup and my car right has a pathetic amount of understeer that I'm desperate to get rid of. My set up is all wrong and the car just isn't fun to drive hard right now.
His shop is out in Hesperia, a hundred miles from me and I had to get up early to make it by 11 on a Saturday. Long boring drive and getting up early, two of my least favorite things. So I set my alarm, told friends that wanted to do fun stuff on Friday no because I had to be up early. Drove out to his shop the next day, found two guys there building a race car out of a pinto, im not kidding. They told me he is in Barbados doing a track event. Gotta love that, in the tropics racing cars, bastard! I told them he said he would be back by now, confused I then checked my email and then the date when I fully realized the extent and nature of my stupidity, I'm a full 7 days early! I drove a full 200 miles yesterday for no reason.
Yes, this was pretty stupid. Of course when my friends found out they weren't very supportive. One txt'd me calling me this "Wow your lame ...lol" and my response to him "as much as I would like to make a credible argument in my defense the facts unfortunately do not support such an effort. In other words, yeah." It was actually pretty stupid and pretty funny, the really funny part is I get to do it all again next Saturday.
Hope everyone is having a good weekend. |
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Hello Mistress's and fellow subbies in CM land. I'm back from the land of retired Jews and hanging chads ( some of you will get that ). I flew Virgin America for the first time and I must say my new favorite airline. Most domestic airlines make flying feel like taking a city bus. With VA it felt more like a hip event, even at the ticket counter, they had music playing, good music even, carpet, everyone was super nice. The planes were brand new. Each seat has a touch screen that you can use to order drinks food or snacks, as soon as you order it is brought to you within a minute. You also have access to video on demand, regular tv, tv on demand as well as games and music. Some of it you pay for and some not. On top of all this they had free wifi. I was chatting with friends and surfing the web on my phone.
Best airline I have flown |
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I got Battlestar Gallatica on blue ray, my nerd status is no longer in question |
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On my way to florida tomorrow to observe old Jews in their natural habitat. Actually going to visit my aunt, uncle and cuz for thanksgiving. I'm flying Virgin America for the first time, supposed to be an excellent airline, I will post here with a review.
I wish everyone a great holiday. |
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It is not inertia alone that is responsible for human relationships repeating themselves from case to case, indescribably monotonous and unrenewed: it is shyness before any sort of new, unforeseeable experience with which one does not think oneself able to cope. But only someone who is ready for everything, who excludes nothing, not even the most enigmatical will live the relation to another as something alive.
Rilke
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WOW, haven't made a journal entry in a while, now we can pick fonts and font size, looks like someone at CM discovered CSS.
I know i could do my entries in HTML and past it here but that is to close to work, i'm much to lazy for that nonsense. So i guess i'm more excited then i should be about the font picking and layout controls.
What i really wanted to write about here is to thank everyone that sent me message of support about my job issues. Turns out it was really a non issue, things turned around super fast that i have been working through the last two weekends. I guess i should be more appreciative when it's slow.
I'm also thinking seriously about selling my bike, i know i just got it but i hardly ride it and i'm really wanting to build a Porsche 914 with a 3.0 liter Porsche flat six. I found a place that specializes in doing that conversion with a 260 hp normally aspirated 3.0 flat six. That motor in a car weighing 1900 pounds should get me to sixty in the very low fours. Not to mention very light, mid engined and a whole lot of fun. I was thinking of getting a lotus elise but this is actually more interesting to me. I priced it out for everything, found a good place to do the work so now i'm ready to sell my soul to make it happen, well at least my bike and my car.
Anyone want a 2003 Evo8, never been raced, promise :-)
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Crap, the place i have been working for the last two years is now so slow that i haven't had anything to work on weeks. Not sure how much longer this will continue for so rather then wait i'm looking for a new place to work.
I went and called, emailed, facebooked all my friends in my industry, so far one offered has come up, it is really a good opportunity working with a high-end effects house in santa monica, lunches paid for and doing cool stuff.
Normally this would be call for celebration but they start at 9 am, like in the morning. I have never had a job in this industry that asked me to show up that early. I'm not what you would call a morning person, or even an early afternoon one. I carefully cultivated my career to stay away from anything that resembled a real job.
My buddy that runs the programming dept and made me the offer laughed when he told me knowing full well that this could be a deal breaker for me. I have worked with this guy off and on for the last several years, he knows i'm good and would love to have me and made me a generous offer.
I'm now checking other sources and see if something is out there that better suits my liabilities, i should know more by the end of the week. My buddy said that opportunity will be open for a while. They aren't in a hurry to fill it and he still thinks i'm the best choice.
I'm going to hate leaving my current place, i really like the people and always had fun, not to mention my own parking spot. They are just to unstable now and very little work so i'm just collecting money for almost no work.
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Watching the original Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. Gene Wilder is just deliciously and evily sarcastic.
I love Johnny Depp and wanted to love his version but it just wasn't that good, just didn't compare to Wilder the best Wonka ever! |
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NINE INCH NAILS SANCTIFIED LYRICS
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it's still getting worse after everything i tried
what if i found a way to wash it all aside
what if she touches with those fingertips
as the words spill out like fire from her lips
if she says come inside i'll come inside for her
if she says give it all i'll give everything to her
i am justified
i am purified
i am sanctified
inside you
heaven's just a rumor she'll dispel
as she walks me through the nicest parts of hell
i still dream of lips i never should have never kissed
well she knows exactly what i can't resist
if she says come inside i'll come inside for her
if she says give it all i'll give everything to her
i am justified
i am purified
i am sanctified
inside you
i'm just caught up in another of her spells
she's turning me into someone else
everyday i hope and pray this will end
but when i can i do it all again
if she says come inside i'll come inside for her
if she says give it all i'll give everything to her
i am justified
i am purified
i am sanctified
inside you
as surely as the blades course is run
maybe my kingdom's finally come
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I swear Trent Reznor wrote this about a D/S relationship. I love the second verse, the last line is wonderful "she knows exactly what i can't resist" |
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West Coast Social on the 15th, sounds like fun. I will be there. |
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going to lair tonight with a good friend, haven't been pervertedly out in a while, looking forward to it. |
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Ok, it started innocently enough, last saturday i went with a friend to shop for a new bike for him, i had no intention of buying anything.
We went to Yamaha of hollywood, one of the owners is someone i used to ride with years ago but lost touch, so i figured we might be able to leverage that to get a better deal for him.
We drove by and it looked closed, actually out of business closed, for lease signs out front and so on. But we also saw some bikes in the show room and i saw some people in the back. We stopped and yelled to get someone's attention. A guy came to the gate and explained they were closing permanently in 3 days but if we were serious about getting a bike we can come and look.
Of course they had several brand new 2010 R6's, which has been reviewed repeatedly as the worlds best 600 class sport bike and just an extraordinary machine. My buddy talked with the owner while i drooled over a black and gold R6. I bought a brand new R6 in 2000 and it is still in perfect shape, only about 25k miles on it. Still a great bike. My buddy has asked to buy it on several occasions along with the shop that works on it. I had no intention of selling it.
Now for me being in a motorcycle dealership like this is like me at a pound, when i'm there i want to take them all home.
We both sat down with the owner and finally talked price, retail on the bike was about 10,400, he only wanted his cost about 8,400. NOOOOOOOOOOO, i'm a jew and lack the DNA to defend myself against a deal like that.
My buddy decided he wanted one, but it turned out my buddy has some irs issues that are still on his credit, he is in the process of cleaning it up but for now it stopped him from getting the bike. So he turned to me and puts the final nail in my coffin. "dude, why don't you get one and i will give you the down payment and take your bike?" We quickly decided to sell him mine for 2500 and he gave the dealer the down directly and i took home a brand new 2010 black and gold Yamaha YZF R6. So far i haven't paid a dime for it.
I must say this machine has completely lived up to it's hype, it's more of a homologation race bike. It has been stunning to ride, intuitive, if you think it it does it. I can't F'ing wait for summer now.
Bike Pic 1
Bike Pic 2
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I just want to thank everyone that has written me with support for the loss of my dog. I tried to email everyone back that wrote me and if i missed you i'm very sorry.
I got a lot of emails from many wonderful people showing support, i do appreciate it a great deal, it has been helpful and inspiring.
I will be getting another rescue dog probably in another 6 months or so, towards the end my dog required a lot of support and attention, so taking a break to take care of myself seems like a good idea.
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!!!! |
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I had to say goodby to a special friend yesterday. I had to have my dog put to sleep, his mobility and mental health finally reached a point I had to make that most difficult of choices. He was a truly special animal, one that I miss painfully. I'm happy I was able to end his suffering.
I got him as a rescue about five years ago that I was only supposed to foster for a couple of weeks. He was abused, introverted and sad when I got him. The first time I put food out for him he sat and watched me, it wasn't until I was done and invited him over to eat that he moved, instead of going to the food he walked over to me and shoved his head hard into my lap and licked my face, then moved on to the food. I swear it felt like he was thanking me.
When I got him he was 8 and already had massive arthritis through his front legs, his left rear leg was out of it's socket and was out so long it ground out a new socket, his front left was so bad he could hardly use it and would put his weight on his front right which in turn started to pronate at the wrong place, he was really a mess.
After a short time with me he blossomed, he became very happy, verbal, affectionate, along with stubborn and demanding. He was super cute.
After a few years his mobility issues became worse do to some spinal damage in his lower back, he was slowly losing control of his rear legs.
No matter how bad he got nothing seem to affect his happy life loving disposition, me and the people that knew him called him the energizer bunny, just no stopping him. I had friends and family after they saw him but before they got to know him would tell me it was time to put him down. After they got to know him and spend some time with him they all changed there minds, most couldn't believe his attitude and found him inspiring. The special vet that he would see for his physical therapy and acupuncture told me that she has dogs that physically are not nearly as bad off but also weren't doing nearly as well.
The last couple of weeks he started to go downhill rapidly, he lost that infectious happiness and started to drag around the house. He changed and I felt he was telling me he was done, he would look at me as if to say help but i couldn't, tore me up. I called the vet Friday night and they came to my house Saturday afternoon. A good friend of mine flew down from Sacramento to be there to say good by and support me, she was the reason I got him and I was so happy she came.
It was done quickly and very peacefully.
He will be missed |
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Just saw the movie Legion tonight, the only thing scary In that movie was the writing. I did like the homicidial grandma though, nothing funnier then watching a sweet demonically possesed old lady chew on some guys neck. |
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I have two weeks off from work and have no clue what to do with myself, any ideas :-) |
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Zombieland F'ing ROCKED! Laughed so hard i couldn't breath. |
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Added a new recent pic, it was taken at the vet with this rescue dog that i was seriously considering taking home. I'm bad with animals, i would take them all if i could afford it. |
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I know i haven't posted in a while, i was buried in project hell, this is seriously my first weekend off in almost three months. The project just went live last week but still has more work to be done. We are hoping to win some awards for it.
Love to hear what everyone thinks, just please be delicate and we are still working on it and probably will be for another month or so. Also if you find any bugs please feel free to share with me.
http://www.eatachiquita.com
please take care everyone. |
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found this on another profile here, seriously funny.
http://midwestteensexshow.com/2008/08/04/mtss-18-fetishes/ |
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Does anyone else think that Timothy Geithner is a Vulcan? Every time i see him on tv, news paper or the web my mind just screams at me "HE IS A VULCAN!" The ears totally give him away.
Now having a vulcan as are Secretary of the Treasury is not a bad thing when you look at the financial mess that he will need to clean up. Having some super smart alien helping deal with that can't be a bad thing.
I have to give Obama kudos for finding him, I just want to know where Obama found him? Is he buddies with Spock, Captain Kirk? Is star trek really real?
Does he owe back taxes on Vulcan? Oh crap maybe that is why he is hear. Great our new Secretary of the Treasury is an alien evading his taxes.
Yes these are the thoughts that keep me up at night. |
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I think I'm getting a new iphone today, time for a 3g so I can bug more people FASTER!!! |
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Ok, so what is the deal with fox news and republicans. I swear fox news is the republican news channel, fair and balanced? That is up there with O'Reilly's "no spin zone"!! |
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Oh almost forgot Sunday is SHOWER DAY. Now if I can just find some somewhat clean underwear. |
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Can anyone tell. I'm laying in bed, don't want to get up, no tv and none of my friends will talk to me so I'm bugging all of collarme. :-) |
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Ok, I now really want to go to brunch. Lox and bagels sounds awesome right now. |
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10am Sunday morning, laying in bed, super gloomy outside, cold, raining, Seattle-ish. I really want to go sailing, motorcyle ride or a seriously fast drive through Malibu. I want to go play outside!!
Yes I'm quite done with this winter rain cold crap. Need summer back and need it fast.
Please can someone help? |
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Just downloaded "Taken" off of bittorrent, it is still in the theaters but it turns out was released on dvd and blueray overseas. So i was able to download both a regular dvd version and a blue ray version. This movie just ROCKS!
LOVE BITTORRENT. |
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I forgot, what do you do when your not working? |
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"Lost in Time, Surrounded by Evil, Low on Gas"
Tag line for army of darkness. Brilliant! |
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What is the deal with all the yahoo doms that are spamming now. |
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Fulltime freelancer now and LOVING IT, sorry i didn't do this before. Work has been pouring in, all i had to do was tell a few friends in the business and my phone has been ringing to the point i'm having to turn down work.
Of course this business is usually feast or famine so i'm whoring myself out rather expeditiously at the moment.
Much more flexible schedule now which just FRACKING ROCKS. (yes i said fracking)
take care all.
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Obama began filling out his appointments to his science and technology team, and it is a star-studded cast, promising a sharp break with the Bush administration. Among those who will be surrounding him are a physicist who has won a Nobel Prize (Steven Chu), a physicist and top expert on global warming who will be his top science adviser in the White House (John Holdren), a chemical engineer who has won acclaim for as an environmental leader in New Jersey (Lisa Jackson), a marine biologist is a leading expert on the impact of global warming on the oceans (Jane Lubchenco),. a polymath who heads up one of the most important genome projects in the country (Eric Lander), and a biologist who won a Nobel prize in medicine (Varmus). It doesn?t get any better than that!
This looks so very promising. Do i dare hope for our future? |
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Well, it is looking like taking this new job wasn't a good idea after all, they bought another interactive company and are now pushing the previous one out. That means i'm unemployed in two weeks.
Not a good time to be unemployed, fortunately i have a lot of previous freelance clients that will keep me afloat for a while at least, i'm actually thinking about just going back to full time freelance. I could make more money and i will have my days free again. Just nice to have the steady stable income of a job.
I'm starting to think of a new career path, been teaching myself final cut pro and after effects, thinking about video editing. Still love what i do but i'm feeling like a change.
Sorry, just rambling here. I hope everyone had a great holiday.
Take care all. |
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Going to florida to mingle with the old jews for thanks giving. At least they didn't screw up the last election.
I have been doing a lot of flying lately, i really don't want to go anywhere but if i don't go my family will come gunning for me.
It is rather serendipitous (yes i used a big word) though, getting cold here in cali and florida should be nicely in the 80's. YAY.
Take care everyone and i wish everyone a great holiday. |
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OBAMA WINS!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!! |
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Just put up a few more pics, one of me NAKED. Not scary i promise.
Take care all and please make sure to vote. |
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I put a new pic up, a friend was taking pics of me to update my CM pics, more new ones coming. I thought this one was completely ridiculous and came up with the caption. |
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"As long as there is injustice, whenever a Targathian baby cries out, wherever a distress signal sounds among the stars, we'll be there. This fine ship, this fine crew. Never give up... and never surrender."
Galaxy Quest |
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"I'll kill a man in a fair fight. Or if I think he's gonna start a fair fight. Or if he bothers me. Or if there's a woman. Or if I'm gettin' paid. Mostly when I'm gettin' paid.
Eating people alive? Where's that get fun?"
Jayne Cobb Serenity |
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"Well my days of not taking you seriously are certainly coming to a middle. "
Capt Malcolm Reynolds to Jane Cobb when asked to trade his wife for a gun. FireFly. |
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Currently looking for apts/houses on the west side / west los angeles, santa monica area. I need a one or two bedroom with a garage or some kind of secure parking and it has to allow dogs and also no stairs.
my budget is between 1400 and 2000k, if anyone knows of anything please please please let me know. Might be willing to share a place with the right person.
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Passive Arts tonight, haven't been in a while. Looking forward to getting out with fellow perverts.
take care everyone.
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Venus night at Lair De Sade tonight, anyone else going? |
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ok, middle of my third week at the new job.
So far lots of drama, LOTS of DRAMA. All between my two other friends that got me to come aboard. So, it all came down yesterday when the project manager was fired. Up until that point i was a go between between both of them. They were fighting and didn't talk to each other but through me and emails. So happy i was.
So as of yesterday she was let go. She is a very aggressive woman that just stepped on to many toes. Big surprise me enjoying the company of an aggressive woman. :-)
I the plus side the work load has been very manageable and now we have several long time and talented friends coming on board including someone else we are stealing from my previous job.
I hate that my friend got fired, i wish i could help her but she really brought it on herself. I told her she doesn't play well with others.
So, at this point i would say it is working out for me at least. It is a major career bump for me and could be a home for a while.
Thanks to all those who have voiced their support to me. I really do appreciate it.
Please everyone take care.
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Ok, i MAY have done something VERY stupid. Me you say do something stupid, how could that be???
Well, i got this job about 4 weeks ago, at a place that i really wanted to work at, the owners and my coworkers are people i have known and have been friends with for almost ten years. They finally had a spot open up that was perfect for me. The money was a mild jump and still a little below what i should be making but it evened out with perks.
Ok, so all is perfect.. YAY.
Well, this is where it gets complicated. Another friend of mine that used to work for the place i'm working for now has hooked up with a much larger high end design firm in west los angeles.
The do most of the movie posters you see along with trailers, opening credits and commercials. My friend cut a deal with them to start an interactive arm, he and another friend of mine are running it.
He called me about 2 weeks into my new job and asked me if i wanted to help out. They are building an entire interactive dept and i could hire whoever i feel we need.
This place is really super nice, big, they get you lunch and breakfast everyday for free, full benefits along with a 401k, like a real job. Not mention bringing my dog to work everyday and having my car washed twice a week by the lot guy. Ok this is pretty f'ing cool.
Now the problem is he is a great salesman but can't manage projects, the person he has to do that isn't great and can be a PAIN to deal with, but on the flip side she is also a good friend and at one point i decided if we are to remain friends we can't work together. I have done projects for both of them on a freelance basis and they all ended up a mess, that i had to do all nighters to clean up.
Well, after many phone calls from both of them, many promises along with being able to run things and get whoever i feel we need, a 15k bump in salary and being back on the westside, i hate hollywood. I have decided to join them. I swear right after i told my current job i was leaving i wish i could have taken it back.
I am just horrified that two months into this we are going to be killing each other and i'm going to be working around the clock with those stress monsters, they don't sleep.
I pretty much completely burned my bridge with my previous job, but i'm working for a former employee that stole clients and is now a competitor. They hate each other. I do have several other options if this does go south, one of them is going back to full time freelance, i do actually miss that.
I just so hope i'm not going to be miserable, being happy with your work is usually so much more important then the money. This choice was purely made by opportunity to make a LOT more money.
If this goes as planned within two years i could double my income. I could possibly actually AFFORD a freaking house in LA.
I really really really hope i didn't make a mistake.
that is all, i'm sure i will be sharing more on this as it develops.
please everyone take care |
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"If you're going through hell, KEEP GOING!"
Winston Churchill |
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Added a new picture of me being a HUGE nerd. |
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I had to put my dads dog to sleep yesterday, he was suffering from congestive heart failure and reached a point where we needed to make a decision.
Not my dog but still a dog i grew up with and was a part of the family, seriously like loosing a family member.
I was in the room and held his head until he was gone, i must admit the process was very peaceful, but difficult none the less.
He was a big obnoxious red dobie that was also super affectionate and sweet. He would do that wonderful leaning thing as you pet him. When you stopped petting him he would then start to paw you until you started again. He was huge over a 100 pounds and sometimes really freaked people out. He would also love to curl up in your lap when sitting on the couch. He seriously thought he was a lap dog and made ever effort to fit. Both funny and very cute.
He will be missed. |
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Going to a party tonight at passive arts near the airport with some friends, anyone else going? |
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I'm about to head out of the office to go and vote.
For some reason this election feels different then others. I think because we have all witnessed how bad a bad administration can make things for not just us in america but the rest of the world.
This is also the first time we not only have a woman running for office but a black man. This has made history for us already. I find it exciting the idea of having someone completely different at the helm. Before this election it seems to me at least that we always had the same group of people to vote for.
I feel that it is so very important for all of us to exercise our right to vote now more then ever. Our country is in desperate need of some serious changes, changes that will not only effect us but the rest of the planet.
We have a big responsibility, many people in our history have fought and died so we can have that right to vote. I feel now more then ever in history we need to exercise this right and exercise it responsibly. Who we put in office now can make policies and decisions that will effect us all on this planet for a very long time to come.
Just my two cents.... |
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I took my dog to see a surgeon today, i'm getting different opinions on having surgery for his arthritis and other issues. I got him as a rescue only two years ago, from the time i got him he had serious arthritis problems. They have been getting much worse now, he can barely get in or out of the car without help. He has been getting physical therapy and acupuncture for the last 8 months. This has helped a lot but it is really a band aid. His problems just got worse with a spinal disease that is common in german shepherds.
So, the vet today wasn't encouraging at all at first, i brought xrays, medical history and a list of meds. The doctor basically told me that he is not a good candidate for surgery. I know that going the way he is now he might make it another year. I was thinking surgery was my last option for making him more comfortable and happy.
Well, fortunately i was wrong, the doctor felt that he is an excellent candidate for stem cell treatments. I was shocked, i had no clue that was even available outside of research. He told me they generate the cells from the dogs own fat cells. Who knew fat would come in handy.
One of my biggest issues with surgery was that it is rather invasive, long recovery time and dangerous with no certainty of really being helpful, could possibly be worse.
The stem cell treatment has almost no downside, he does have to have surgery but it is very minor to get the fat cells. Once the cells are harvested it takes about a day to generate the stem cells which are then injected back into the body. That is it. They usually see a 70% improvement in the animal within the first month. On top of all that goodness, it is actually about half of what a surgery would have cost me. Making him feel better and me saving money, made the jew in me very happy.
Since i found this out i found a few other vets that do stem cell treatments, i'm planning on seeing a few more doctors and do some more research on my own. Google is a wonderful thing. I am honestly so much happier with this option then surgery.
If anyone has any questions about this or information please contact me, i will also be updating this journal as he goes through the treatment.
Please wish us luck.
take care everybody. |
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Ok, cool cop story. These guys were seriously cool.
I'm on my way home saturday night from a friends, i decided to take the fun way back. I took this road called sepulveda, it is a medium to fast winding road that parallels the 405 fwy between west los angeles and the valley.
Anyways, i was going at a nice healthy clip, it was late, no other cars out there. Well, accept for the cops, more on that in a bit. As a rule for street fun i stay in my lane, no going into on coming traffic or even into the other lane that is going in the same direction, look as far ahead as possible and i'm very very smooth.
I race cars as a hobby, i have gone to several different schools and hold a STS license with the Porsche owners club. I'm a pretty decent driver and i'm driving a fast car. Ok, yes i was speeding, going over double the posted speed limit. I was even sliding a bit on the tighter corners. My point is i was going very fast by street standards. Fast enough that getting stopped could have landed me in jail if the cops really decided they didn't like me.
Well, i made my run all the way to the fwy onramp to get back on the 405 north. I'm sitting at this freaking light for at least 4 minutes. It is a LONG light. The light just turns green as the cop comes up behind me, lights siren everything. I was thinking i'm in some serious trouble. They must have seen me way back there and they are first catching me now.
I pulled over, they SLOOOOOWLY walked up to my window, the first thing he said was that i was going VERY fast, commented on how fast my car is and how well it handles. Asked me if i was trying to see how fast it would go, to this i of course said no. I gave them my info, always being very respectful and nice.
They took my info and disappeared for about 15 minutes. I was thinking the worst, i was HOPING just to get a ticket at this point.
They finally came back to the car, i was waiting for them to ask me to get out. He told me he is writing me a ticket for no front plate. Yes, a fix it ticket. His partner poked his head into my passenger window and told me he wanted to ticket me for the speeding but his partner talked him out of it.
I was SERIOUSLY shocked. After signing the ticket i asked them why they only wrote me for no front plate. First he said that they are very forgiving guys. Then he elaborated and told me that i was going very fast but they honestly didn't feel i was being unsafe for the conditions. They saw that i knew what i was doing and was just having a little fun. They did tell me if there is a next time I won't be so lucky.
I thanked them repeatedly, i honestly couldn't believe how cool they were. I was soooooo freaking happy, i cranked up some jimmy buffet and sang along the whole way home.
I work hard on my driving skills, it is something i'm passionate about and very good at. Doesn't make my speeding right, if it was 9pm with other cars out there it would have been very different. I wouldn't have been going as fast to begin with but if i was they would have hauled me in and for good reason.
Just wanted to share this very cool story.
you all take care. |
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I'm very entertained by me.. |
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HELL WORK WEEK IS OVER!!
Let the party commence!
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The daily show with John Stewart is back on the air. I almost cried. |
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Happy birthday to me!!!
I'm so happy, at the office, working on my freaking birthday. On top of that it looks like i will be buried all weekend. Sometimes my work really gets in the way of having a life.
On the flip side, i do make my own schedule, work from home when i feel like it, bring my dog in, no one looking over my shoulder and making a very good living. Not to mention the 3 hour lunches, my free iPhone and iPod as well getting to wear whatever i want to work.
I remember having a real job, they actually wanted me to show up, in the morning no less! Plus, i actually HAD to wear a tie, is there no end to this evil.
Ok, i guess my long winded point here is that... Oh crap, i either didn't have one or forgot it, not sure which is worse.
Ok, one more vent here.
It is POURING out right now, i took my dog to the vet today for his weekly massage, acupuncture, hair and nail treatment. I'm not kidding.
I went to pick him up and the moment he got in the car started whining, he had to go. I found a patch of grass in front of the gas and electric building near my work. I love to have him go on their lawn, is that wrong?
So, here i am, outside the car, getting poured on, he is walking around and sniffing EVERYTHING for about ten minutes before he picked his perfect spot to go. I thought i was going to down. My hair and clothes still haven't dried completely.
What have i learned today? to keep a freaking umbrella in the car.
Hope everyone had a great new year. |
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My 43rd birthday is tomorrow.
So, when does growing up happen? |
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Damn, this year has seriously gone blasting by. So funny how time speeds up as you get older, it is natures joke on all of us.
I'm getting my skinny arse out of the office and off to find some fun.
you all take care. |
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Just slap anything on when you see a blank canvas staring you in the face like some imbecile. You don't know how paralyzing that is, that stare of a blank canvas is, which says to the painter, ?You can't do a thing?.
Vincent Van Gogh.
Nice to know i'm not the only one that has gone through this. I would much rather write code then do creative, it is much easier. |
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Put up picture of my dog, he is seriously FREAKING cute. He is only ten though, i might have to get him a fake id if they ask me for proof of age.
I could use my old drivers license, photoshop here i come.
2008 is coming, thank god we are getting closer to the end of the bush regime.
happy holiday and new year everyone. |
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Can i just say that "Crystal Method - Vegas" F-ING ROCKS!
I hope no one minds that i have been using this space for my random thoughts that leak out of my head. |
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"Fortunately, I'm adhering to a pretty strict, uh, drug, uh, regimen to keep my mind, you know, uh, limber."
the dude. |
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Oh, the joys have having a dog, cleaning up diarrhea at 5 am this morning and then another gift when i woke up. Not sure but my cunning super intelligent mind is telling me the left over sloppy joes was not a good idea for him.
So, what i have we learned here, if you give your dog sloppy joes then he needs to sleep OUTSIDE!
I know, disgusting but i just really wanted to share.
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Heading to streets of willow springs this saturday for a track day, my goal was to get into the 1:30's running backwards, i made some changes and think i have a very good shot. But noooooooooo.. it is going to rain. No chance of hitting that but running in the rain can sometimes be much more fun.
Please wish me luck and hope i don't blow my engine AGAIN!
take care all and have a great holiday. |
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I finally got around to posting a short hair pic, i just took this about ten minutes ago on my phone. Iphones suck for taking self pics i might add.
I know this pic is showing no style what so ever. but maybe my lack of style is a style. :-)
I usualy put stuff in my hair to make it do something rather then just look like sonic the hedge hog.
I wish everyone a great new year and holiday.
take care.
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I feel i need to apologize for the behavior of the the so called submissive males here on collarme.
I keep reading journal entries from many of the dominant women here that are just seriously angry and for good reason, because most of you can't take two minutes to read what they took some serious time to write out. It shows no respect or appreciation for any effort they have made to give us a clear idea as to what they want.
If you want to approach a woman as a submissive you need to show them that you can BE submissive, not only follow orders but show respect and consideration for their time as well as pay attention to their wants and needs. After all that is what we want. Some of us at least. The rest should just call keen or a pro.
We are all here looking for something specific, I know i'm looking for something serious and long term. The males on here that aren't able to type with both hands above the desk are ruining any opportunity for the rest of us that have paid attention and took the time to read everything they have to say BEFORE making contact.
I'm angry because i have seen women on here that i wanted to contact and they have either pulled out or are no longer taking in coming emails.
Please, try to make an effort to show some respect, it will go much much farther, hey, you may even finally get what you want. Just please don't ruin it for the rest of us...
I don't normally go off like this, just making me angry.
sorry.
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Ok, this is my first ever journal entry, if you don't like it please don't yell at me, i'm delicate.
I just wanted to say hello to everyone that has looked at my profile and thank you for your time and consideration.
I have just updated my profile text and will be updating the pics in the next couple of days. I have since cut my hair super short, i do think it looks much better and will be posting new pics for that. God knows it is easier to deal with.
Thank you |
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