|
|
|
|
All my life, I've been infatuated with the idea of, not so much having a black girlfriend, but more belonging to a black woman. Being more her property than her friend, a kind of slavery fuelled by my obsession with black women.
It comes, I imagine, from that infatuation, and my submissive nature, an emotional need to feel controlled. Being submissive isn't all about being beaten into submission, there is also a phycological aspect. Words, treatment, and actions can be just as cutting and hurtful as any whip. Being generous with criticism, while being frugal with and limiting praise can be as painful as physical pain, causing anxiety, depression and an eagerness to please.
These are the things I love. Being used more as a servant, or slave, than a friend. Of being expected to devote myself entirely to the pleasure and happiness of another, and woe betide me if I fail to live up to the Lady's expectations.
At my age, sex isn't such a huge issue, however, I do like it to be very one-sided and abusive, I always have.
Lastly, I am real and looking for someone else real. Someone who has is controlling and has a sadistic nature, who expects to be worshipped in the same way a Goddess or Queen would be. As for interests? My interests are immaterial, as yours are the only ones of any concern.
Someone like you, perhaps?
|
|
|
|
