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I almost did not make this entry but due to fearing for other people's safety I am doing what is the right thing to do. If you have contacted or you have been contacted by anyone by the name of MasterSword48 and littleonemissingm they are not safe. I went up to their house for 2 months to be their slave and ended up in the hospital. Granted, I tried to kill myself due to the emotional abuse I endured but was also physically beat up for calling the ambulance when I took and tried to kill myself. I was also dehydrated from where I was told what I could and could not eat. I state this in here for anyone's safety who has any thoughts of being their slave.
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It has been awhile since I have posted in my journal. Please forgive my non-reply. I have been rather busy. I wanted to officially state that as of right now I am off the market. Of course, I was never really on the market to begin with. But I have found the man that I wish to be my Master. If you email me wishing to be more then friends you will be ignored. I am always looking for friends in the lifestyle. You can learn many things from those who have already been there. However, I am getting tired of the emails that ask me to let them spank me, be my Master, etc...so for those who can not read let me make it clear: I AM TAKEN!!!!!!!
portia
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I thought that this would help explain what I meant by someone being your Twin Flame and this is how you will know.
How will you know you have met your twin? Here are some of the symptoms given by others who have had the experience...
- Chances are you've met through a set of unusual circumstances... totally unplanned and unexpected
- There is an instantaneous feeling that you have known the other before
- You felt an immediate and deep connection for one another
- There is an electrifying feeling between the two of you that words cannot describe
- The relationship is immediate... as though no time had been lost since you were last together
- It feels as though you had never lived before the reunion occurred
- You feel a deep sense of unity that you've have never known before
- It brings on feelings you never thought possible
- The two of you are inseparable
- When you look into each other's eyes time and space have no meaning
- There are no barriers between the two of you... the relationship is a totally open one
- Your conversations seem to go on forever
- The two of you have a strong urge to serve humanity in a deep and meaningful way
- You give to the other and never think of receiving in return
- There is a special sacredness to your relationship that transcends anything you've ever experienced before
- You still have karma with your twin (from previous lives) but the two of you resolve it all with total forgiveness and unconditional love
- Neither one of you are dependent on the other for your sense of self
- There is a real feeling of unlimitedness to your feelings... you have a strong sense of eternity
- Your feelings for each other are very spiritual
- There are no restrictions within the relationship... all is freedom without the need for ownership or control
- The two of you know without doubt that you have been brought together for a reason
- You do not compete with one another nor do you pretend to be other than who you are
- In spite of your sameness there is no doubt you feel a sense of completion through the other
- Trust, patience, acceptance of each other's weaknesses happen automatically
- There is a great sense of purpose and meaning to the relationship
- Your sexuality with one another is a sacred act that celebrates the unconditional love you have for one another
- When you look into the other's eyes you see yourself
- You experience a sense of completeness that is without comparison
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Ok, everyone from this point on I am seeking only friends on here to chat with. Since you can never have to many of those. However, the man in question has contacted me and I plan to see what develops. Since my love, loyalty and devotion has always belonged to Him anyway. I do not know what is in store. I just know that I can not turn my back on this no matter what becomes of it, we shall see. *keeps my fingers cross* |
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In case there is any confusion from my other entries I will attempt to clear it up as much as I can. I will not mention names on here since I do not feel that is appropriate. I have emailed both parties in question and that should suffice for now. I realize that some of my entry did not make sense. Forgive me since I am still trying to figure all this out. In February I started talking to this female online and she tried to get me to let her be my Mistress. I politely declined stating that I did not seek a Mistress that I was seeking a Master. All of a sudden she had this brilliant idea of introducing me to her former Master whom she sent me a picture of. I looked at His picture and recognized Him instantly. It was one of those deja vu feelings you have when you recognize someone whom you know you never met in this lifetime and yet they are familar to you. So I agree to start getting to know Him. She was very evasive for awhile but finally gave me this email address where I supposedly could write Him. This was in February. Every day or so I thought I would keep in touch with this person and the more my feelings developed. I trusted this person so much that I even gave them my email password. Several days turned into months and now here it is almost July. 5 months of pouring my heart out on the computer screen. The thing is this person was also not intelligent enough to think I would discover them out. They gave me the password to one of their email accounts and when I got there I found a note a few days ago from this former Master to them. It was the same man that I have a picture of. The same man I have come to love but not the person who has been chatting with me. My guess is that this female was seeking revenge for a relationship that went sour and decided that she just could not accept that I did not want her and neither did He. So she thought it would be funny to act like it was Him and lure me to her using His information. This person has profiles and emails in His name from what I can tell. She threatened to kidnap me, beat me black and blue, keep me drugged mindless and locked in her basement, etc... the list goes on. This girl is not dumb folks. I can smell a rat a mile away. When the time frames did not add up I started to question it even though I thought perhaps I was just being paranoid. The thing is I am not upset that much despite that she is a liar. She has helped me find Him even faster and I truly thank her. She just underestimated my knowledge and my survival skills. Hopefully this has cleared up any confusion. So that is it in a nut shell. Am I owned? Physically no but heartwise definitely. I came here to find one man even if it is only as friends. Otherwise I am not seeking. |
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As promised I am adding another entry. It was so late last night so I decided to wait until this morning. My last entry was filled with emotion and confusion. To give your all to a person that you think is your Master only to find out it may have been all a scam from the beginning. Knowing that this Master is out there and you still have such deep feelings for a man you have not had the chance to get to know. I do not know how many of you have had the experience of knowing that a person is your Twin Flame. Twin Flame is something like a soulmate but different. A soulmate is usually a person you have had karma to clear up with. Twin Flame is your other half. The person who was made with you in the beginning of time to complete a higher mission. Some purpose to help the Earth. I look at a person's Twin Flame like I do a birth twin. Except that your other half is someone you are in love with. That is the best way to describe it. So when someone plays on this deep love you feel for this person that you know is your match in every way it is a deep sadness. Like I said I am not expecting anything from this person. I thought He deserved to know that someone was using His name. That this person could be a psycho luring people to them with His information. He could be blamed if someone gives His name. So I felt it was only right to give Him a head's up. Hopefully we will atleast be friends. I will keep everyone updated what I discover. |
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Well this is my first entry here. Please everyone I wish to inform you to be careful who you think that you are talking to online. There is many creeps or creepets out there. I am beginning to think that someone stole this person's identity that I supposedly have been talking to since February. When the stories did not add up I did some background checks and discovered that the person in question did exist. Which I knew they did because I had their picture. But similarities in how the two people talked made me start to question. I never trust at face value which has been to a fault but I also have found that it has saved my butt on more then one occasion. I am seeking the one right person. Who will be my Twin Flame and my Master. I know the person in question is the person I am seeking but now that this has happened perhaps all we may be is friends. Which is ok I am not expecting anything. It just bothers me that there are people who can play on a submissive's emotions which a lot of times is very delicate already. Especially if she keeps finding the creeps. Enough about that though. A little more about me: I am into everything New Age, being part of a Eco-Village type setting. I love nature and animals. Classical music and 80's music. I was born as an Indigo Child. Which is children that where usually born between 1970 and 1990 if I remember correctly. A lot of these children was diagnosed with ADHD so that the government could have something to label them and drug them. When in actuality these children are very bright and usually have a higher six sense. I also love to read and write. I will attempt to write more later. |
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