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It is His strength that endures the path that He has not chosen to take, It is His strength that keeps Him whole an complete. But i fear that soon His body will starve an His heart will reach for what He longs for the most, the chance to be free with me. His love for another is enstilled in His virtues , His love for another has left me without words to reach Him..i can only be there in silence, pretending not to feel the pain of not knowing how His touch feels, how His lips would feel to caress myne, how His heart would beat for myne, how His eyes would stare without hesitation..i can only imagine and dream of the depth that Oour love would have been...He is the things that i cannot live without ,but have the will to live on without Him.. He is the one thing that can guide my mind back to reality of never being without ..Our friendship..He is the man that i will always love, secretly. but can never have nor feel that love from Him in return.. It is His strength that can overpower me to stay away when i know He is having a difficult time of how much Oour lives are truely ment to be. It is His strength that i seek from Him that only lets me grow into a better person . He is more than a pleasure of my heart, He is the inner setting of my sanitity. He constantly has my thoughts that He may be forever incased in my dreams..A bonded life without Him is a bonded soul mate lost forever. Somethings are better left to destiny an somethings are left to run.. throughout time as lost loves ...than pressured by human race... So many times i have waited to escape my feelings to Him, to show Him how much i do truely care, that i not only deeply have concern ..for Him i feel a certain type of love. So many times i have thought it the right time to let Him know of my thoughts an dreams an fantasies, so many times have i just sat an watched Him smile an hope it only a smile for me... So many times i have just wanted to say how much i need Him an just wish to be near Him closely . So many times have i just wanted to place my hands in His an know that i am safe... His strength gives me the courage to know that one day if at all possible that whatever is between Uus..isnt just lust but a rare form of friendship,love an most of all destiny from the heart that can break barriers an end where time an space never touch. His strength is what is the most amazing thing about Him, His humanity is what keeps Him apart from the rest, His love for passion is what brings me to Him....i await Him always...forever His.... |
