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NOTE: Due to the massive flood of messages/chat requests I got tonight I may not be able to get to them all. :( I appreciate your kind words and interest and I'll try my best to get back to you all after a good night's sleep, but I'm just a tad overwhelmed right now. Hope everyone understands, and thank you! <3 Hey, I'm brand-spanking-new to this kinda thing and am not entirely sure what I'm getting myself into, but am hoping to be pleasantly surprised. On the outside I apparently come off as a meek and sheltered little girl, but that's not the whole truth. I've had a long standing interest in abnormal psychology and sexuality which led me to become extremely open minded and curious about expanding my sexuality in new and creative ways. 

With all the necessities of survival taken care of, why not use this gift of life to learn and experience as many new and interesting things as possible? Most of my friends just want to sit around and play video-games all day, which is super fun and all, but sometimes I just need a little more stimulation than that. 

I'll just cut to the chase, I guess. I'm open to any kind of relationship, be it just a friendship, brief fling, casual relationship or a serious commitment. I'm pretty omnisexual. I just like what I like, as long as I'm not threatening anyone's safety, I feel no shame. But sometimes, I kinda *want* to feel shame. I guess that's where you come in. I associate pain with pleasure, nothing new or unusual there, but it's one craving no man has been able to satisfy for me.

 My demands aren't high. I'm a very chill, patient, low maintenance person, and even in "vanilla" relationships I seem to always fall into the 'loyal and doting servant' type of girl. I love making other people happy, and sacrificing my own needs for theirs, in the right context. People have called me a push over, but that implies I don't do it of my own free will. I just feel most comfortable not being in power. That being said, I still will not tolerate any abuse that I have not consented to.

 Well if you've made it this far, congrats, I tend to be long-winded when I'm not really sure what I'm doing. To make this wall of text (slightly) shorter, here's a list of important things to know if you're actually interested:
  • I *HATE* 50 Shades of Gray!
  • I am completely new to all of this, and even to any sort of 'grown up' life in general, so please be patient with me and show me the ropes. (literally or figuratively ;) ) I'm a fast learner, but I'm shy and a little naive at times, so we're not really gonna get anywhere if you aren't a good teacher that I can trust.
  • EMPHASIS ON SHY. Some people I open up to fast, but only if it feels right. I am very shy. This probably doesn't make me sound very appealing, but I might as well be honest since it's easier to type it all out here than tell someone in a private conversation.
  • If I don't reply to you, don't feel bad. It means I either chickened out or didn't want to hurt your feelings. If you're too attractive or cool, I might find you a bit intimidating. But I'll try to work on that, since attractive and intimidating is totally what I'm looking for.
  • I can't drive, live with my parents and don't have a job, that could change soon, but I guess it's important to know in case it interferes with our ability to meet up? Half the fun would be to get to sneak out of my house and keep this my one dirty little secret, though~
  • I'm looking for people not too old (~35 is probably my cutoff age?) or too overweight (genuinely sorry about that :(), and while I play for both teams I tend to be more dominant over women and right now what I want is to be submissive to a man or FTM, preferably a boyish looking one. Having shaggy hair and a pretty face is a surefire way to get me hot and bothered. Unless you're Justin Bieber. But I know you're not, so that's already a plus for you!
  • I recently got out of a relationship so I might not be looking right away, but I figured I ought to get this page up before I change my mind and I'd prefer taking some time to get to know you a bit before doing anything, anyway. Y'know, just sizing you up and making sure you aren't a serial killer or anything. :P
  • I have no stds whatsoever, got tested plenty of times and have always been clean. I expect you to be tested and clean as well.
  • I really will try most anything (within some degree of reason) so hit me up! <3
8/28/2013 11:46:21 PM

NOTE: Due to the massive flood of messages/chat requests I got tonight I may not be able to get to them all. :( I appreciate your kind words and interest and I'll try my best to get back to you all after a good night's sleep, but I'm just a tad overwhelmed right now. Hope everyone understands, and thank you! <3

cutieamory
 
 Age: 18
 Nyc, Alabama