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So as my screen name says I am looking for a professional dominate. I am transgendered male to female. I am not sure many gals like me have these issues so all I can really speak for is me, my issues and how I hope to solve it. I have a Master that I really am attached to. I will not say or write his name here as some may look down on him for not being able to handle me. I wish it was that simple, it is not. I need to be actually kept and broke and rebuilt in a way that my feminine self will be the controlling self of me. I flip flop from boy to girl. When I am in a female kind of place in my mind I am submissive feminine and sweet. When that fades as it always does the male side comes back and I am male again wanting guy things. I need a real professional dominate to break that cycle in a way that the female side stays and the male fades away. It almost sounds simple, but if it was I would not be writing this now here. I am not looking for a person to yell or spank me (if that is part of the plan well OK then) that doesn't break a person. I am looking for real physiological stuff. Mental and physical drugs permanent change.... be it permanent make up or tattoos. Mental abuse and scaring pimped out whatever. Maybe some of that fantasy stuff but real. When its all over deliver me to my master. Of course I know this takes money. I know this and that is a big part of this. I don't need to learn make up or how to sit tho that might be fun. I need my male side erased and if it does kinda show back up in my mind it won't be welcomed. I will explain more and change up what I am looking for as time goes on. I will be on this site and others. please I will nit waste your time I am very for real.