This is my journal so i guess i can write about anything correct? ok so i always thought and heard that only men had 'wet dreams' well i do believe i had a 'wet dream' the other night. here is what transpired. 

the other morning i woke up and my panties were just soaked. i thought 'OMG did i wet the bed?'...as i got up to go to the bathroom, this wetness was running down my legs LOL i thought my goodness WHF!! as i sat on the toilet i didn't smell any urine on my panties they were just wet. as my head cleared from just waking up i remembered i did mastrubate the night before and i did have an enormous orgasm one of the best orgasm's i've had in a long time. i guess it helps to have the house to yourself so i was able to moan and groan out loud. ( do like to be audible when i cum) oh an having a great fantasy while i was masturbating. anyway if you want to know my fantasy just email me i will tell you. but i think that is what happend. after i orgasmd i layed on the bed for a little bit waited for my heart to go back to normal and then went to sleep. i must have squirted during the night in my sleep. uuumm i have never squirted before...

Being fairly new to the 'scene'  I've been asked this question many times by DOMs and Masters, 'What do you desire' and I usually give them the usuaul generic answer, to be controlled and to give up my control and to serve my DOM or Master.  But as I contemplate it more there is a much more deeper answer and now I think I'm ready to explain what I truely desire.....

I have had enough sessions with various DOMs and Masters to know how a session can intensify. The only way I can describe what i desire is that of an approching storm. First you hear the thunder in the distance and a few seconds later you see the lighting stirkes as you would when you hear the crack of the whip and the pain of the strike as it is unleashed upon your body. And as the storm approches the thunder gets louder and the ligthening strikes become more intense as does the intensity between the Master/slave, DOM/sub. And now thunder and lighting are in unisome together as the rain comes down hard. The pain is so great that I cannot determine what is real and what is magical. At that moment as I cry out in pain and feel presence of fear and I start to give in to my emotions as my mind is swirling and i can hear one thing, my master voice the light in the storm, calmness in his voice brings me back to reality and lets me know i am safe, i am loved, i am in his control and only he has the power to change me to mold me to free my mind to take his dominance and cherish it and honor it as it is he who will save me from the demons in my mind.

That is what I desire.

Iron Slave--Challenge--Resourcefulness

Working with an online Master recently he wanted me to abuse my breast. He asked' "Slave, do you have a belt?" I replied, 'No Master I do not." "Do you have a hair brush Slave?", "yes Master I do", "then use it slave." well it didn't meet his satisfaction and he logged off. So as a slave I felt that I had let my Master down so i started thinking what could i use to abuse my breast with? I found a shoe horn and a spool of cable wire. My mind started to thinking what if I used the cable wire and somehow tie it to the shoe horn. Couple of chats prior the online Master said that i needed to be resourceful. So I did. I made a makeshift flogger out of the shoe horn and the cable wires. Does it look like a flogger? No. It looks like a shoe horn with cable wire tied to it but guess what? that little thing did the trick. Stings like hell and marks even better as proof is in the pic I just uploaded.

So Slaves out there be resourceful your Master may even reward you for it.