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Understand that I am a product of some severe CSA and that my way of dealing with it is recreating it. Sex is my therapy. Abuse is my salvation, my way unto sanity. It calms my PTSD more than any therapy has ever. Also know that I am married to a woman who will not be apart of this. This will not be a romantic relationship between us. I love my wife and she is too much of a gentle soul to ever do half the things I need.
As for me, Im on the fat side losing weight is a struggle for me that Ive been fighting for decades, so please no fat jokes. Ive been on T for about 2 years, so I am covered with fuzz. I do have a beard that is coming in so slowly I want to scream and I do not take serious pictures.
Now that thats out of the way, what am I looking for? To be honest, Im shit at wording what I want, so bear with me as I attempt a coherent explanation. I want a Daddy who will not only use me as his personal pleasure device but will also degrade me, misgender me, and reinforce my inferiority until I make him come, only then rewarded with praise. I want to be forced to come while being treated with disrespect or while being punished via king, flogging and such. I also want to be passed around by a Daddy, this can be your friends, strangers, or at an event. Im also heavily into CNC which can make it all the more appealing for others.
I have very few limits
No scat, blood, or piss.
No ass to mouthvag (The idea of it makes me sick to my stomach and I can almost guarantee you I will end up puking if it happens).
No bruises above the shoulders. Im a caretaker of my mum and dont need to explain anything to her.
No latex as Im very allergic to it and I prefer not to die.
I also need to be blindfolded during most activities as I have pretty bad dysphoria when it comes to looking at myself, plus I like being surprised at whats happening next.
I also will not be able to host as I share my home with others who do not need to know about my sexual activities and you will not meet my wife. She will not be involved in this at any point. Letting me doing this is one thing, seeing it is another and would upset her.
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