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	Hi there, i am new here and i guess reasonably new to BDSM, although i have played around a little. i have always known i was submissive, just didn't know what it meant. Know i do but am still finding out exactly what i need or what i'm looking for. It is nice to find a site that may help me in finding that out. i'll leave it here now and add more as i go, i think. Thanks for reading :-)

10/29/2008 1:15:39 PM

mmmm....what to write...

****life under construction****
and me ****under consideration****

Big changes coming up for me. It's going to be hard...but what is it they say, a little pain, for a lot of gain. It will be well worth it.

I'm more than happy to chat with anyone, but that is all it will be for now and I can't promise I will be too good at that either with everything going on in my head! :-)

10/21/2008 7:15:42 PM

"What we see when watching others, depends on the purity of the window through which we look."
Before finding criticism, it might be a good idea to check our state of mind and ask ourselves if we are ready to see the good rather than to be looking for something in the person we are about to judge.

10/21/2008 4:19:55 AM

What is a Master?
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A Master presents himself first and foremost as a gentleman. He is honest and sincere. He realizes this is not a game but a true lifestyle. A Master has taken the time to educate himself about this lifestyle and he takes his responsibilities seriously. A Master embraces the gift that his submissive gives to him. He is not cruel or spiteful. He is upfront and honest with her. He punishes her when she is disobedient, and rewards her for good behavior. He is not afraid to love or be loved. He understands how important it is to nurture and care for his sub. A Master is unselfish. A true Master will not turn away from his submissive, nor leave her languishing in self-doubt. He is respectful and appreciative of her service to him. A true Master would never leave his submissive wondering what her place is in his life. He realizes that his relationship with her is one of a serious nature. A true Master is a man of his word. He is not afraid of intimacy. He is lover, friend, disciplinarian, teacher, confidant, and counselor. He understands that a collar is more than a symbol of ownership. He is selfless. He is not "mysterious" or distant from his submissives. He is true to the ones he chooses to give his collar to. He knows what he wants and he is not afraid of commitment. He understands that in order to get respect, it must be given as well. He also understand that being dominant does not mean the same as controlling. He is romantic, funny, caring and strong. He is a true man in every sense of the word. He understands that trust is a fragile thing, and must never be broken.

quoted from subbella's profile

5/27/2008 1:35:58 AM

oh and my favourite saying....
"never regret anything that made you smile."
:-)

5/27/2008 1:34:04 AM

Well here we go…the first of my journal entries…

Beware… i love writing, so this could be the first of many long-winded babbles!
Once i get started with writing, i tend to get a little carried away… i apologise in advance! J

i have only been a member of this site for a few days. But i have known about it for awhile and have known and thought about the whole BDSM thing (not a good way to describe it, I know…but do I like the word lifestyle??) for a much longer time.
(10 years, 5 days, 21 hours and about 56 minutes in fact!) well, ok… that is probably a slight stretch of the truth, but i can however, remember the exact day i found out about this ‘lifestyle’ (for want of a better word!!!). i remember thinking ‘wow, this is what i’ve been looking for all this time…’ it seems it has taken me this long to finally do something about it! (Procrastination must be a friend of mine!)

i’m going to write a little about me now… after all i guess this is what this is all about. me explaining me… geez, it may even help me understand me a little more.

Firstly, i am not a nutcase, as that last sentence may give the impression that i am! Lol

i am just a normal girl in the big wide world looking for someOne to lead her the right direction.

i write better than i talk. Sometimes my mouth works faster then my brain (lol). i guess when i write it is truly what i am like as i can take time and the little backspace button is a godsend you just cant use when talking!

i’d like to say i am a honest person. And in most ways i am… i am always honest to others but i am least honest to myself. i have feelings i keep hidden, i have a need that i have never fulfilled, even my closet friends don’t know who i really want to be. Who knows, maybe in some way, this little babble on cyber space may be an important step for me to start being honest with myself??

i am a quiet person (yes, i know its hard to believe if Y/you are reading this jabber… but honestly i am.) my mind is not quiet though as i am a very thoughtful person, forever running things through my mind to assess the situation and my own and others feelings.

i love writing (can you guess?!) and i have written many things, stories and poetry. But as i am quite reserved, i have never shown anyone a single word of those things.

i am a Pisces. i am not into Astrology all that much, but every time i read the ‘said’ traits of a Pisceans, i believe a little bit more. They say Pisceans are emotional, sensitive to others feelings, imaginative, calm, quiet, intuitive and dreamy…me, me, me and me.

Although they also say in the world of a fish, there are no boundaries, just like the sea... and that is why the fish is happy. i love boundaries so that and some other things are what convinces me that all is not quite correct with the make up of the Zodiac signs.

i would like to think myself as reasonably intelligent. i am educated, spent the best years of my life at university and am working in a professional role.

i am someone that like to please, likes to be lead, likes rules, likes to obey, likes to be directed and obviously likes the word likes! lol

And most important, or very important anyway (depending on what You think...???), i am fun, i love to laugh, love to have a good time, love meeting people, love an intelligent conversation and am a good person.

Ok..next… (cause if I say any more about me, there will be nothing for You to want to find out!)

What am i looking for??? i ask myself this question at least 20 times a day.

i guess to be honest, i’m still not sure.

Maybe it’s easier to say what i’m not looking for:

i’m not looking to relocate... or for someOne overseas… i am a bit of a homebody. i love my country. i have travelled to many places around the world… and although i have been to some beautiful places, it has made me more appreciative of this beautiful country here at my finger tips.

i am not looking for cyber sex or anything like that although i am not apposed to building a relationship with someone online (maybe it’s the whole i-like-writing-thing?).

i’m not looking at rushing into anything too fast. i still have certain decisions to make about my life and as i am no one's submissive at the moment, i can still make them myself.
i don’t want to wear Your collar two minutes after i meet You or be Your sub after a few emails.

It’s not what i’m looking for at all. i want to learn. To learn about myself, others and this choice i want to make.

To me bdsm is not just a physical thing… its much much more than that. And that is what i am looking for. Once that is found… i’m all for the physical things! Lol

i have always found it hard to say no. Some say it is a fault of mine… i don’t know if i look at it like that. i feel it is more a need, a need to please and make sure people around me are happy.

But to save me the stress of having to say no, please don’t message me if You don’t think You fit in with the above.

Although in saying that, i am more than happy to chat to people. How else will i learn more about what i want to learn about? (too many abouts, but i'll leave it as that! :-)

Infact, i am going to leave everything here, because i'd be surprised if anyO/one has actually made it to the bottom of this anyway!

If You have, i hope i haven’t bored You too much, or made You think that i’m a little bit nutty! Lol. i did warn You at the start! heehee

If You have made it to the bottom of this jabber… and You think You'd like to know more… please do message me… i am open to all advice i can get and want to learn more about myself and this ‘lifestyle’ (there’s that word again!). and please do tell me if You made it to the bottom....i'll be impressed!

Just don’t be surprised if i’m not all this chatty… it DID take me ages to write this (oh i love that backspace button!) :-)

Anyway, thanks for reading and i hope Y/you all have a great day.