I wish I didn't but I do

My desires are mostly perverted

I wish they weren't but they are

I'm endlessly patient with you

I wish I wasn't but I am

I think you are the most flawed and most perfect person I know

I wish you weren't but you are

I am always angry, at some level deeply angry

I wish I wasn't but I am

I wish I wasn't but I am

I despise dishonesty but live my whole life in lies, constant, endless lies

I wish I didn't but I do

Except with you. I don't seem to be able to lie to you

I wish I could but I can't

If we don't have telling each other everything, every dark thing, every damned thing, every nightmare, every dream, every wish, every pain, every hope, every source of pain and hope, every lie, every imagined sky, we have nothing

I wish it wasn't true but it is

I wish we were bird and wind, artist and brush, writer and dark ink, romantic this and beautiful that, curvaceous ying and expressive yang, corruscating brook and swelling bank, resting the violet's reclining head and so on...

I wish it were true but it isn't

I wish the night would enfold us and wash over us and make us clean and pure and give us heaven's forgiveness

But it won't

But we won't be

I would fix you if I could

I wish I could but I can't

You could then fix me and make me into the thing you imagine I could be for you, the tree, the bay , the mountain, the rock

I wish you could but you know you can't

And then the desire would stop at last

I wish it would but it won't, it never will

And the love would stop in the end

I wish it would but it won't

And the forgiveness and writing and hoping would stop

I wish it would but it won't

I would make you one with me, one expression, one desire, one completion, one story, one song

I wish that could one day be true, but I know it won't and you know that too, better than me probably.

I desire you endlessly

I wish I didn't but I do