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| I'm not very good at writing these things. I always wonder if I've written too much or too little. Whether I've written the right thing, then trying to decide what is the 'right' thing is. It's a viscous circle.
Here it goes...
I want to be bent over your knee as you spank me and make me cry. I want to feel your chains around me holding me down. I want to wake tied to your bed, your fingers trailing over my skin lightly and I can do nothing but lie there and writhe. I want to be opened and exposed to you, for you to use me at your will. I want to hear your voice in my head, guiding me, molding me... shaping me into your desire. I want to feel your belt on my skin when I've displeased you, so I know you care enough to correct me. I want to feel your hands in my hair and you take me, claim me. I want to feel your hands around my throat, holding me in place. I want to kneel at your feet and be completely content there. I want to feel your collar around my neck and know I belong to you.
Well.... that's enough of that.
The other side of me... well, I'm kinda a sadistic bitch really. I like what I like and I'm not afraid or ashamed of that. I'm rough, I'm demanding. I'm sadistic and cruel. I take delight in making and watching people suffer. I like pushing limits, I hate safe words. I'm the kind of dick that will build you up.. Then deny... Over and over again. Because I can, because I enjoy it. Because I want to.
So to the "vanilla" me:-
To start. I'm 25, I've recently moved to South Cheshire. I live at home- by choice. I've got three dogs and nine (yes, nine) cats. I work in home improvements in a call centre (or rather I will as of 16.09.13) and have recently got out of a job I hated and am finding myself getting back to who I was before the Hell job.
I'm out-going and opinionated- once I'm comfortable. I'm good at putting up a 'mask' and good at hiding what I actually feel. I'd like to think I'm funny and intelligent and I am considered quite articulate, in sixth form I was often referred to as a 'walking dictionary', something I have only in recent years come to appreciate.
I change my hair colour often, though at the moment it's on a break from all the bleaching. I have seven tattoos, three piercings. I'm about 5'5 and have blue or green eyes depending on how you look at them. I'm on the large side and I disclose this now because ya know, it's my body, if I chose to carry weight that's my choice and in the interest of full disclosure I feel it important to notify people of this as I know people are funky about sizes and what-not. Your choice, your call... don't push it down my throat. I know it's unhealthy... but again my life and choice.
I like a variety of things ranging from art and music to cooking and reading. I'm not what you would call a social butterfly, I prefer the company of people I like, genuinely like, not people I can tolerate being around.
I've dropped out of university twice... really wasn't for me. Couldn't keep me entertained and didn't hold my attention long enough for me to stay interested.
I drive, I drink occasionally, I smoke. I love animals.
I'm not going to exchange pictures and mobile numbers on a first encounter, I have standards... not many, but I do have them.
I am not really sure what I'm looking for, but I'll know it when I find it.
I have six years BDSM experience and am accustomed to topping women. I enjoy it. They're interesting and the power trip is amazing. Men however... are a different story. I find myself craving pain and impact play in particular. Setting scenes and scenarios is not something I've done but am open to it. I enjoy topping women I'll be honest. my experience with men is limited but I'm open to most things and am curious.
I think in my head I might want a 'Daddy'. I'm not sure why, but I think this is what I want.
Gimme a buzz if you want to chat. Otherwise, good day, and happy hunting.
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