After getting over the craziness of my vanilla life, I need to get some control back in my life.  I hope for understanding of lack of conversation as things are calming down in my professional life.  Thank you all for being understanding.

I am glad that I am continuing this adventure toward learning more about my submissiveness.  It truly is making me so happy.

Nothing like wanting something that just seem to be unatainable. 

My journey still continues.  My life is always changing.  I am still trying to learn about this life.  I would love to submit but trying to find the right balance.

Nothing like a set of stairs to make me hurt so badly.  And no, this is not the good kind of hurt.

Not sure why the little things get to me but it does.  I know that I need to work on this.  I just hope that this won't disrupt my journey of releasing the inner me.

Lets just say that pasta has a whole new meaning for me.

Here is what I have learned in the last 24 hours.  One, my husband is really supporting me with this.  Two, I really cannot be scared by my husband thus the reason for him allowing me to seek outside of our marriage.  Last the idea of being controlled is exciting and I cannot wait to continue this journey.