Last night I had a dream that the place I put the keys fell down the sink. Shelves. ..

I nervously bite my hand. My roommate is walking around and I don't want them to hear the cage shake. 

Almost a week what frustration. I say here shaking the cage for a few moments only made it worse. My privates are also very sensitive.  

So it'll be 5 days exactly today. Since I started chastity training. I had done a few edges to slowly take my orgasm away. I began putting the keys to my device in different rooms. I will also try and get intoxicated then I throw my keys elsewhere. That was a bad idea I lost them for a day. 

My balls have swollen after 2 days. I'm going to do an edging session now. This night has brought me to the conclusion I also need nare so many submissives are very clean. I can't wait then I should be ordering a maids outfit.LLingerie or a uniform like female officer. 

Starting my anal training doing what any desperate sub would do broom...however not banging myself. Just going to fall asleep with it in to stretch me. 

Sleeping locked up & I put the keys in the bathroom so there is no tempation. I'm also sleeping on the floor tonight as well to add a factor I stripped myself of clothes as well. Only one pillow. I tried to find female supremacy hypnosis to fall asleep to but couldn't. 

So I spent the night curled up and weak. I needed it so badly, I eventually fell asleep and woke up in the night I felt so degraded having to use the bathroom was difficult so much so I ended up stopping & continued only squating. I'm living with a female & continue to show submissive behavior I wash her dishes & fold her laundry. It's pathetic. ..to a point but something I like :) 

So I received my chastity device a few days before Christmas I have been wearing to sleep as well. I always have it on. My next project is a massager or sissy clothes so I can clean. 

I just purchased a chastity device with a key & full cage. I'm so excited...I can't wait. I'm nervous but it will be worth it. I know my place :) 

I'm still looking while out & about running errands with a friend i found the need to demasculine my body a little step at a time. I will be shaving my legs & bottom soon. I am thinking of going sissy shopping. I am going to be purchasing a chastity device tomorrow for sure . I made this choice for the simple fact I'm a male & I should begin to get used to it. Now on with the search to find the true 1 in a billion feminist woman. 

Looking for a lifestyle partner for FLR & behind doors tpe.

Looking at the chastity devices and reading the stories...in time it will by my turn, being smacked and begging.