When He has control and you can hear in His touch what His thoughts are about.  What He is doing to His sub, His property, all His.

"I love the smell and taste of you.

Especially that certain feel of your body when I know you've come apart inside…

You have this…thing you do. It tells Me that your searching desperately to get what you think you NEED; to cum.

But, at the end of that, you need more don’t you? If it just was cumming you wouldn't even need Me.

When you begin to unravel though, I’m there to catch you. That’s when O/our real work begins. That’s where My real enjoyment begins. Then every touch is an explosion of pleasure. Every noise you make is filled with longing.  you're dying to hear that little word from my lips to give you release. And when I withhold it you hate Me…

But then there are these moments when I hold you against Me. Grasp you tightly and say that little word to you several times not even waiting for you to get your breath back.

However much you hated Me in that moment you're grateful to Me now, in that moment I whisper ‘cum.’"

(i found this, i do not know who it belongs to, but i loved it)

I do not want to be the leader.

I refuse to be the leader.

I want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness.

I want a man lying over me, always over me. His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life, his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot.

I don’t mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically; but as a woman, oh, God, as a woman I want to be dominated.

I don’t mind being told to stand on my own feet, not to cling, be all that I am capable of doing, but I am going to be pursued, fucked and possessed by the will of a male at his time, his bidding.

~Anaïs Nin

so another episode in the life and times of pleasure made.  Let's start with i am not collared or owned at this time.  then fast forward to the next so called Dom that thinks just because i have made that statement, that i am free game for "oh let's get naked on cam so i can tell you to jump through hoops and turn me on."  as much as it is a turn on for some to have someone to play with on line and on cam, there is a time and place for it.  Usually with that One has intrigued my mind, engaged it to be excited or has collared me and i am His puppet.

For the so called "Dom" that hides behind the screen and doesn't wish to present His face (or dick for that matter) and wishes me to get naked on cam to either prove i am a woman or just to get the jollies off, i am not Your toy.  i have NOT been collared by You and nor do You own me.  if You feel that We should meet and connect on a level of one on one, in real, in person, then let me get to know the real You and let's see where this journey goes to.  but if You feel that just by claiming You are a Dom and demanding that i am to do Your bidding and i am here for Your pleasure (as my name states), You are wrong.  You must be having visions of grandeur.  please keep dreaming big, if it makes You feel that much more important, than please find that one bimbo that will show off her tits or ass or play with You and get Your jollies going.  i will be on cam to prove who i am.  Yes i have gotten on cam and gotten naked and played with myself.  but i don't just drop my drawers for One that thinks just by being over bearing and demanding is what makes me want to do this.  my mind also needs to be engaged just as much as the next person.  

good luck i say.  

today is a day of learning for me.  i am always willing to learn something new and to learn something every day are good days for me.  

since i have been on Collarme a bit more than normal cause Yes i am looking to find a new One so that i may please Him, i have discovered that because i am looking for a new Dom, there are those that think i am just a sub with no mind and can and have tried to confirm i am a female and then tried to confirm that i will obey just because they are Dominant and want to dominate me on cam to please themselves.  

there are many subs out there that enjoy on line domination.  there are many subs out there that are fake and mislead by the Doms that enjoy on line and feel that just by telling a sub to do something it is for both their enjoyment.  Sorry it is only for the enjoyment of the person that may be giving the orders to the sub or the sub if she is following them.  On line is for the fake woman that are men and the fakes that think on line is a good answer to BDSM or even D/s.  On cam is just for those that wish to jack off and have a good cum.  my imagination works very well and i am past the cam playing on line.  i desire someone who is real and wants to be touched and pleased real time.  not fake time.  

my feelings on Domination are true to form.  i enjoy being dominated by a good Dom or even One that understands how to control a good sub and enjoy what she has to offer.  If One can capture the mind of a sub it is true to form that her body will follow.  play with her like she is nothing and a good sub will tell any one to go to hell in a hand basket.  

please know that i will and do prove on cam i am real.  but to play on line is not something i do anymore unless i am collared and it is He who wishes to see me on cam and i am pleasing Him.

Well once again, i am back to announce that i must scare the hell out of men/Doms.  Do i look threatening from behind?  do i make drama attempts in my profile to say that i am going to cause drama?  am i looking to hurt anyone?  do i put down any profile on here and say stupid shit that would make anyone feel less important? 

another email from a looky loo and this time this one happen to say something a bit more past His learning curve or comprehension and doesn't understand something that He just might have to go back to school for.

FROM:  JIMAXEL

7/15/13 4:35 PM

AIDS bitch

and then, He knew enough to block my emails back to Him.  His profile on here and on other website shows that He is a 73 year old fart who i believe to be jealous that i actually have a life with a great Dom or....He's just an old lonely fart and can't find something else to chat about without causing drama. 

Get a life JIMAXEL and grow up, oh wait, You are grown up

i have a life and am enjoying every minute of it.

to the male dominant Romancetoo4U who blocked me so that i could not respond to his email that he sent to me. 

email to me:

200 pounds?  You're fat, uneducated, unemployed, and classless.  He can have you!

first, you have no idea if i am uneducated, unemployed or classless.  you didn't even take the time to get to know me so you have no idea.  as for the fat part, that is neither here nor there important if i am not with you.  and Yes He does have me!!!!

again, some just don't have the decency to just stop while they are ahead.  a light goes on in one's head but the brain just not fully engage or the elevator does not go to the top to distribute all the information that should be delivered so that the brain can go on to full capacity.  You know, respect for one and common courtesy is just one of the simple basic rules that we as children are taught to grow up with as adults.  but clearly you were not taught as a child how to have these things and show them as an adult.  Grow up!

 definition of courtesy

a : general allowance

despite facts : indulgence

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obviously you do not have this trait.  good luck in finding what your chapters state on your profile.  clearly any woman who falls for your falsehood does not have all her faculties about her.

to the male Dominant with the profile name "havetowait", You must be simple minded in order to have to send me an email stating,

"You need a diet and some exercise, fat-ass.  You WISH you looked like the women in those pictures."

well thank You Captain Obvious for stating something that i already knew about my fat ass.  but then You had to take the time to look at my pictures in order to know that one of them was truly my ass.  And then block me from sending back a reply to Your email.  Yes i would enjoy looking like one of the women in my pictures, but it is truly not about someone's outside appearance as it is about how someone feels about themselves or how they present themselves, and since You didn't want to take the time to get to know me or even let me respond to Your email, then i am not the one with the problem of a fat ass, but You Sir have the problem of a fat head (take Your pick of which head).  just because i am a submissive does not mean i don't have a mind and can't use it.  i do have one and am proud to be able to say yes, i do have a fat ass!

i came across a profile that had a journal entry about an ACID TEST.  i enjoyed it so much, i asked permission to copy and He said that it was for all to copy and paste. 

This is interesting but true, i got this from someone on cm who asked that all who are trying to share the knowledge put it on their page. It came from a Dom on here by the name surfdude. He calls it the Acid Test for the male and female subs when it comes to scoping out the fake Dominants on this site. (HNG = Horny Net Geeks)

The Acid Test!

Test #1: When in doubt, throw it out! Don't waste your time with people that make you feel uncomfortable. Even if the guy was a real Dom, if his personality makes you feel uncomfortable, he's not going to be fun to play with.

Test #2: "You'd better call me Sir!" is the mating call of a HNG or control freak. Real Doms don't have to ask for titles, we earn them. Most real Doms will say things like "Please, call me Mike..."

Test #3: "I want you to take my collar before you play with me." This is another common demand of fakes, most often made by control freaks. They have to isolate you from other people and their advice, and sometimes a little ole "cyber-collar" is just the thing! Cyber-collars are worth less than the leather required to make one.

Test #4: If you get an Instant Message that says something like "On your knees you [slave, slut, bitch, whore, etc.]" This person is an HNG. Use some common sense here. Why waste time with somebody that's not even polite? There's a time and a place for these endearing terms, and it isn't online!

Test #5: "I don't have to answer that question!" or "It's not proper etiquette for you to ask a Master that." These are examples of some of the dangerous lies that control freaks and snerts use. This is the Acid test I personally think is the most important! A Dom had better be ready to at least try and answer every question you have, and honestly at that! It's literally your ass that's on the line! Never forget this!

Test #6: "It's my way or the highway!" or words to that effect, are the mating cry of the common control freak. Dom's can have limits too, but it's your limits that count FIRST. Don't let any would-be "Dom" tell you differently. Don't let any of the wannabe subs tell you differently either. Where Male Dom/fem sub play is concerned, it's always lady's choice!

Test #7: Don't bother with online collars. Don't make decisions about a prospective partner based on his online play style. It's a very simple test if you think about it: Would a real-life Dominant waste much time on cyber sex and cyber domination? Please take my word for it; The answer is no. Forget it, once you've done the real thing, cyber is just too damn dull.

Test #8: Ask your prospect if he's ever made any mistakes during a scene. If he says "no," run for your life! If he says, "very rarely," at least be suspicious. Everyone makes mistakes, even if they are experienced and skilled. Sometimes submissives have limits they don't even know about, and even the most careful and skilled Dom in the world will trip over these occasionally. Remember, according to our good friends of the Christian faith, the last perfect guy to walk this planet got nailed to a tree for his trouble. So expect competence, but not miracles.

Test #9: "I'm a [bank president, captain of industry, combat photographer, self-made millionaire... yadda yadda yadda.]" Wouldn't it be nice to meet a rich Dom too? Sure it would! But use some common sense. How many captains of industry have hours to spend in an AOL chat room? Also, think about this personality profile; If this super successful, always-in-control person is really into BDSM, he's likely a submissive! Worse yet, it could very likely mean he is a control freak. I have met a lot of submissives that fit this ambitious profile, but not one Dom yet!

Test #10: "I'm 33 years old, and I've been a Master for 15 years." Gimme a break! What are the odds? When you ask about a Dom's level of experience (and it's a good idea to do so) remember to do the math as well. 18-year-old boys don't care about the intricacies of BDSM; they want to get laid. Trust me on this one Ladies, I was an 18-year-old boy once! I personally believe that people do become what they are (be it gay, straight, Dom or sub) very early in life, but it takes maturity and training to be a Master. What are the odds a person became a Master when they were still using Clearasil?

Test #11: Ask for references! Especially if he claims to be "very experienced." Talk to the references on the phone. Lots of HNGs have female screen-names set up to act as "references" for them! I notice that a lot of newbies seem to have trouble with this concept. Which is understandable since in the vanilla world it's considered rude to talk to a guy's ex-girlfriend. However, in the BDSM scene it's the opposite; experienced Dominants should accept and accommodate this kind of request gladly.

Test #12: "I have three real-life collared slaves right now, but you can't talk to them." OK, when you consider the ratio and all, this sounds possible. What makes this an acid test failed (and failed miserably at that) is the last part. I have met couples (and even triads) that really were looking for an extra person to add to the mix. This is not uncommon at all in the scene. But these couples were looking together. If a "Dom" has anyone already collared to them, you probably ought to talk to her first!

Test #13: "I don't need safewords." Well of course he doesn't! If he said this he's likely a snert and therefore he's never really been in a scene! Of course he might be a predator too, and then he wouldn't need safewords either. Need I say more?

Test #14: "My slaves trust me to set their limits for them." If you hear a "Dom" say this it's most likely because these slaves only exist in his mind. Or worse still, his "slave" is simply the victim of spousal abuse. Even so-called TPE (Total Power Exchange) and other sorts of 24/7 (i.e. full time) BDSM relationships should involve careful and thorough negotiation.

Test #15: "I'm married, my wife can't know about us" If I have to explain this one to you, you've got problems. I have played with many married submissives in my time, but only with the express permission (and more often than not, participation) of their husbands. Safe BDSM requires complete honesty. You can't build a good scene on lies. There are plenty of people that will be willing to tell you differently; but please note, they will all turn out to be adulterers (and hence, liars) themselves.

Test #16: Insert your own Acid Test here: You will learn much from your mistakes and missteps. If you form an online contact with a "Dom" that falls through, analyze why it fell through. Don't make the same mistakes twice if you can help it.