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| About me and my desire to become a slave Hi all.I dont really know how to go about this profile page, but ill keep it as blunt and clear as i can.For the past 4-5 years i have come to realise that what i need most in my life is to become a slave and property for an owner. ever since i was small, i have always needed bondage in my life. submission for me came much later in secondary school but have never fully embrased it, being around other men and being part of 'the' group. When i finally left my hometown to university, The need for submission became ever more intense, and bondage even more. Following beside me along this journey was a hidden secret to the outside world. Locked up in the back of my mind was and will always be my female true self. Something ive had to try and hide my entire life. During university i had the luxury of my very own accomadation where my innerself started to come forward. I realised very quickly that an alien within me started to take over my life, not knowing truely as to what i was doing. exploration into womanhood was rampant and dealing with such euphoria meant i had to find increasingly intense forms of selfbondage. My university course went downhill struggling to pass my degree in an area that i was losing interest in. By the time university had ended, i realised and knew that i couldnt go on with my life the way i was. hiding who iam and what i truely needed. As i embraced femininity, the urge for submission to this day is ever increased, and bondage has got to the most sharp end of what is possible on my own. Its now got to a stage where its unbearable to contain, and im literally bursting at the seems needing to be dominated and controlled. With having said all this. Due to hiding the real me from the world, i locked myself away from my sexuality in the attraction of women. before and during university i avoided anything remotely female. everything upto going shopping just because of the sheer onslaught of women and womens clothes, in visual perspective. Now though, i simply cannot get my hands off them. (not literally girls :) ) So why am i here?...... theres multiple reasons as to why, but the biggest aspect for me being here, is the need to finally become who i should be, as a female slave. My inner feelings towards females in particular force me into submission, whereby my knees naturally give way. I understand now that my life is to be in servitude of a female, and that my aim is merely to please her. I understand that in many peoples eyes, i will never be female, but this is what iam and who i should be. I may not have been born in the right body, but surely i should have the right to be me as i should be regardless of my genitalia and hormones. The other aspects of why iam here, is not just to because of bdsm but also to start fresh, a clean slate. In my current situation, iam unable to truely be what iam, and work is impossible given that i get severely bullied in my hometown, due to knowledge of my gender disphoria. Ive had all sorts of ideas and suggestions as to how iam to get a job and move away, but none of them avoid bullying and concerns having money as a foundation. So to be here, im essentially seeking a new life.
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