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| I don't have an excess of experience but I do know I'm here to be used by Dominant people. I think I've known all my life that all I'm really good for is to be serving others. I don't have a great personality. I'm not smart and I'm not successful. I'm one o f the people who will never develop. With that in mind it seems like the best thing to do is offer myself in whatever way might benefit others.
I do understand that there are winners and losers in life and I am one of the losers who should devote his life to serving and suffering and going without for those who are more successful than me. I also understand that I am not here as an equal I am here as someone who is beneath you. Someone who you will not have deep feelings for but who you will view as a tool to make your life easier. More than likely someone who is here strictly to be used and abused. I know that may sound negative but I think it may be a positive for all concerned.
I realize it may not sound good or healthy but I don't want the Dominant to care about me or my well being. I would hope they only cared about themselves and would use/view me striclty as an object to benefit them or perhaps have some fun with. Maybe like a disposable lighter.
I'll add more to this as I progress in the lifestyle.
Thank you
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