You may like this story,

Bright and early one Saturday morning in June 2000, around 25 men in locked chastity devices scuttled down a castle stairway, into the long corridor of a stable. Each buck naked save for a ragged pair of shoes, neck collar, his device , and set of clanking leg irons, they tripped and stumbled as a line of imperious, gorgeous young women, clad in leather fetish gear, caned them with a gauntlet of long rods. Suddenly, the men burst forth into the warm, sunny air and started to fan out, scattering across an open, 2-acre field. Then, quick on their heels, about 35 new women, likewise clad in domination getups, marched out after the men, carrying with them rods, riding crops, and dozens of eggs.

As the shackled men scrambled through muddy ponds, trying and failing to climb little hillocks, the women lit out after them, hurling eggs left and right. Every time a cold, hard shell smacked into the soft flesh of one of the running men, he stopped, turned, and crawled back to the woman who’d pegged him, sometimes licking or kissing her boots before being dragged back to a holding pen. Once inside, the detained men obediently let the women whip and smack them—and with each blow, the struck man breathlessly and profusely thanked his cajoling, laughing striker.

Few people ever got to witness this bizarre spectacle. Known as the Slave Hunt, that year it was one of many such events commemorating the Celebration of Female Dominance, an annual festival in the self-declared and exclusive sovereign nation known as the Other World Kingdom. Over the years, the celebration featured many types of events, ranging from whipped-ass competitions judged on a woman’s stylistic delivery of blows, to slave auctions in which ladies used the Kingdom’s currency to buy and sell humble men, singing, dancing, and running laps to prove their virility and merit. There were also public trials against men who broke the nation’s rules—failing to bow to the land’s female residents, taking off collars that marked them as chattel inferiors, trying to escape their long term chastity devices, or in any way displeasing one of the Mistresses of the realm.

Every event served to highlight and reaffirm the central values governing the day-to-day affairs of the OWK: Women are the superior sex. Men, although of varied ranks and class, under the Kingdom’s laws are all regarded as “slaves,” destined to servitude. And women of the OWK must control men with forceful punishments—humiliations for which the men will thank them.

It’s so interesting that over the years so many women have said to me that when a submissive male slave has fantasies serving a woman, a Mistress its all about him, maybe it is , but I do not see it that way,

I have posted a Video, if a slave is required to do this, he is serving as a slave,

The Video: http://jzha.com/bbw-facesitting-luck12297.html

It goes like this,

Slave has gone through a Training period, can often be six months, the Mistress wants her slave to accept chastity and long term sexual denial, usually anything between a week and three months.

Too short a period the slave is not so desperate,

Too long a period the salve loses the desire,

Slave attends and is chaste,

Slave deposits everything he is wearing with Mistress including jewellery, he is totally naked,

Mistress will collar him and lock that collar, she may hood him, blind fold him, lock him in a chastity device, but slave has to focus this is 100% Mistress time,

Slave may spend hours relaxing his Mistress, bathing, massage, pampering, then the Mistress may, and I only say may, get excited needing some pleasure.

In this Video Slave wears a chin dildo that is so he can tongue the ass hole bud while the Mistress enjoys full penetration, this also adds to slaves humiliation.

Mistress cums , maybe several times as she is in total control.

Slave cleans her up and himself,

Does the Domestic work, tidying the bed up, cleansing the items used, then he is told to dress,

And is dismissed by Mistress, no sexual pleasure granted,

Mistress gives him his clothing and he is finished,

If a Slave attending expects this, and he is granted anything better that is worth working extra hard to achieve,

So this is about a man who wants to please a woman fully, he derives excitement not pleasure and he is rewarded with the disciplines of having his sex fully controlled.

I have a very healthy mail box from both Dominants and sub missives , please give me a feed back

I have been serving my Mistress for five months now, not a long time, but not a short time either.

I am proud to stay chaste for her and do so from my Training, most submissive men serving a woman need at some time to taste a chastity device but the Mistress I serve uses the Device as a last resort her discipline is so terrifying and corrective that a submissive training to be a collared slave in this Mistresses service is intensely trained to accept total chastity without a chastity device, she has the ability to understand her training slaves and know when to let them have sexual release, yes men cheat and cannot be trusted, but a good Mistress can see through lies, deceit and cheating and such a male is promptly disposed of out of service, yes he will regret this so the moral of this story is when you find a Mistress who is genuine, don’t mess up, never tell lies, admit your failures, and serve with all you have got, serving a Mistress always engages being chaste, you may have long periods of chastity and required to Edge often, daily and can be several times, but to Edge shows your worship and that you are exercising all your will power to hold the cum, never ejaculate and take pleasure when you Edge, if you have been chaste for 22 days and Edged 70 times and not cum beware the build-up can be an after surge , you get a show but it’s a once only and has not the force to travel, it usually just spurts out in one kind of ejaculation but with no sensation, certainly no orgasm,  really the feeling a male gets when prostate massaged and sperm is milked giving the male no pleasure, or sexual relief.

Report your accident immediately to your Mistress, if she is not observing the Edging , explain what happened and how it happened, a real Mistress understands and will take a view on if a punishment is necessary.

I am so desperate to orgasm, but will never dare do so without permission, for me I have accepted to cum and have an orgasm is a reward for pleasing ones Mistress, so its best if a submissive or slave eventually accepts ownership and accept that chastity is part of that ownership, and chastity means just that, without the right Mistress a serious problem for a male.

These rules I believe will interest many women, wives and Mistresses of submissive’s and slaves, I will say the Mistress I serve has far more complicated rules than these but I thought the content would be of interest to many women.

Ten Rules for a Successful Mistress

1.            Control the orgasm, and you control the male.

2.            To make any fantasy work, you must build suspense in your submissive.

3.            Stimulation plus frustration equals service and submission.

4.            Every submissive will try to test the limits of your Rule.  Never let him
               get away

               with anything.  He needs you to be both firm and consistent.

5.            Physical pain alone cannot satisfy a submissive (a masochist, yes).

6.            The more aroused your submissive is, the more pain he can take.

7.            The more effective your psychological Dominance, the less pain you
               will need to

               inflict to control and satisfy your submissive.

8.            All punishment is a balance between intensity and duration. 
               More intense pain

               should last less time.  If you want to prolong the punishment, the less intense

              the stimulation.

9.           Submission increases with time.  As long as you maintain firm control,

              the longer a session lasts, the more thoroughly submissive your
              male will become.

10.          Your control and pleasure are inextricably intertwined with the
              submission and pleasure.

I have not posted for a long time, so its time I started again.

I used to investigate for a famous Mistress with great experience Embarrassing and/or Painful Ways to Make the Mistresses   slave Masturbate

My brief was for Slaves, Husbands, Servants and Submissive fall into different categories.

A Mistress who owns Slaves can have a stable men and women, a slave can have no other relationship or partner only his 100% dedication is to his Mistress.

Masturbation and Masturbation to climax are two different tasks, a Mistress may require a Slave to Masturbate to humiliate, to see his erection , to show discipline control and respect for his Mistress to Edge, to make a cock erect for punishment, or if allowed to climax have it ruined or free spurt but most often the cum is retained in something , the list here is as far as the imagination will stretch.

In a proper Slave and Mistress relationship the Slaves Sex is fully owned, his cock , balls and Cum.

Usually Slaves are not permitted ever to have Sexual Intercourse ( Married Slaves are these days cuckolded )

Slaves should never ejaculate without their Mistresses permission ( The Rules are Never )  

Slaves are either Milked or permitted masturbation to completion and ejaculation

Usually a Mistress will give her slave permission, he may have regular permission, occasional or only in her presence, the latter is usually exercise when chastity is used.

Some Mistresses may choose to make the slave consume all is own Cum, so the Slave will have saved al his cum in an ice cube tray. This mythology is ideal for a Slave who is permitted to cum when not in Mistresses presence, (For a full-sized cube, several orgasms would be needed.) when he is next in his Mistresses presence, Mistress has him suck on the cum cube while he masturbates. he must prove to Her with open mouth that the cube or cubes are completely gone before he is allowed to ask for permission to climax.

At this stage the Slave asks

Mistress may or may not give him permission.

I have been told how I should write an addition to my profile based on my submissive attitude to women and my desire to serve attentively.

I am probably best suited to serve a Mature Domina seeking a male sub over 50 for a monogamous relationship.

I am a very confident but extremely humble Alpha male who will fall on my knees at the one I worship’s  command... for a woman who  adore deep cunnilingus, Queening, breast worship, pussy worship, among other erotic pastimes and seeks to be attentively served , extremely passionate and intense in my service to such a woman.

With no aspirations of sexual pleasure I may be perfectly suited to a woman who enjoys corrective tease and enjoy using for her pleasure , using the cock and balls,  loved, teased and dominated and controlled , controlled for her pleasure only her pleasure matters , sexual and otherwise.

With no aspirations I may ache for sexual release or pleasure to find that such a Dominant enjoys a spanking, orgasm control, or maybe some kinky Domination  with a twist.

A woman who wants occasional relationship that will be cunnilingus-centric, with light bondage, light CBT, light flogging, and maybe there will be some vanilla aspects, to balance everything.

A woman who may be married and seeks a slave in her bedroom to assist her husband in the sexual services and pleasures she craves, maybe to satisfy the husbands concerns a locked chastity device is fitted so the only intercourse possible is with the husband if he so desires, I am just her sex toy to enhance their conjoined pleasures.

I have a willingness to learn, a woman who can teach you what to do and how she wants it done.

A woman who will require me to have excellent endurance and a strong tongue and mouth to please her with. She may wish that I should be knowledgeable or curious about, tantric activities, and experiencing this very erotic activity.

I thank the kind Lesbian Dominatrix who I know from over 15 years ago for giving me guidance, she understands so much and has suggested I am put to good use before I lose it .

I HAVE LOST ALL CONFIDENCE IN THE CREDIBILITY OF MOST ON Collarspace these days, I AM SOMEWHAT LOST IN SPACE AT THE MOMENT.

As a submissive we are so open to abuse and danger through our submissive tendencies, and two months ago I wrote substantial messages to a Mistress, she said all the right things back, I was prepared to go to her interview, but correspondence to comfort the first meeting were short coming not even a decent photographic image, I talk with other subs and Dommes on here and they warned me off following up on this person, those I talk about and to have been on this website years, this person just a few months, so I cancelled my appointment in good time, at least three weeks before, but it’s sad , if that person was real what could have been.

Something good came out of my messages to others via the CollarSpace network, a Mistress I spoke with said that her friend that I had served many years ago wanted to speak with me, I called her and she said bluntly to me, there is only one thing I want, I enquired, she replied “ you between my legs for a night, you know the only you that interests me, the tongue, “ 

That next Friday night when I attended , I found that, she is now married with a slave husband who was packed off in the spare bedroom that she locked him in, it was amazing after all these years that she let me bathe her, massage her, and it was down to her sexual pleasure, for me it was tied balls, a collar is what she wanted worn, and I gave her oral pleasure most of the night, when she went to sleep , I went and slept on a sofa, with a car blanket over me,  I was awake first, felt rather ill really, I stood at the end of her bed until she woke, her husband was whimpering also, in his locked bedroom, when she woke I asked her if she wanted tea or coffee, she said “when I have peed you are back were you left off, slave husband makes the tea,”

She let her husband out, he ran down stairs to make Tea, and I went back between her legs, her husband came up with her tea, and saw me orally pleasuring his wife and Mistress, she made me stop pleasuring her as she drank her tea, I could see her husband was in a locked chastity device, she saw me look and said “ if you want to serve me, that’s what you wear, 24/7/365 , that is why you are history, once you have pleasured me this morning , you can go, untie your own balls as you leave , that’s your reward for my servitude, you have enjoyed having Mistress tie your balls, “ about an hour later she just dismissed me, I dressed and untied the balls, they were sore and red,  they had been tied for 18 hours, the collar was a dog collar no lock even, I was disappointed no sexual pleasure be that I masturbated on the sofa over what might be, but this Mistress was not interested in my cock, or sex, her husband let me out and I wanted to talk to him, I was curious, it seemed erotic in a way, he was naked in a collar and chastity device, he looked so exhausted, he told me that he had no time to talk, certainly he was not permitted to talk, but he said something of great importance, a Mistress can have a sub at her feet within hours, as she commanded me, she clicks her fingers and they come flocking, she can go on Fetbot or collarspace for a day, and have 20 or even 50 messages of would be subs,  she can pick and choose , click her fingers and they come, with arms full of gifts like I took, not Lidyl Champagne but Moet, not Sainsburys flowers but a florist bouquet, and cholcolate must be Hotel at £20 a small box, her slave husband said , and I think this was a big mistake to say, but what he said is how can a BBW woman bordering on SBBW, cruel and horrible, far from beautiful , have men lined up at the door, most who are  handsome and good looking , most half her age, the slave husband was certainly despairing , he was about my age, still younger than Mistress, he said this is not what those in fantasy think about serving a Mistress like this, no sex, no love just discipline and being a slave, he said all this in 30 seconds fearful of talking to me and he stood right behind the door out of site as I departed, I was also exhausted, my mouth ulcers had come back from the acid in the vagina and I had an acrid taste from the anal service she made me do on the morning, I felt quite ill . very tired and wondered what addicted me to all this, I had finished early from work on the Friday to shop for her presents, make sure I was triple showered, genital and ass hairs shaved, I am not able to take time off from work at the moment, so even a half day is a problem, and how can a person as I be expected to wear a Chastity device 24/7/365 impossible, but a sub like I who serves a Mistress can accept her chastity , be trusted, it’s all about honesty, transparency and not telling lies, if a Mistress is fair and she punishes for accidents that differ from compliance , she should scale the punishment for the offence, yes punishments are to correct and control, but a real sub/slave , is punished mentally by not doing as he is told, disappointing his mistress, I am compliant and very well behaved, so to finish this story I go home, go to sleep and wake up late afternoon, killing sores in my mouth, I had sent a message by Text thanking this Mistress, I had a reply, I have kept it in the cellphone system, it read, “ THE ONLY WORTH YOU HAVE IS IN A LOCKED STEEL CHASTITY DEVICE , THE DAY I LOCK THAT DEVICE YOU ARE MY SLAVE” I have replied several times since, but no response from her. So addiction kicks in, those words make a submissive able to masturbate be even worse than before, if it was not for my demanding work, much overseas, I really do not know how I would cope. There are five Mistresses and five or six subs who will relate and understand this message , one of those Mistresses is the one I wanted to attend the interview, the part that commenced this message,  I want her to know that if only I had known her better, I am sure the chemistry was correct, we all need a lot of privacy in this fraternity and I respect hers, that certainly has been the reason that we did not progress, I will say that this story happening helped focus me,  I think I will stick with Torture Garden in future, real people who are real, not so much cloak and dagger, having to hide because of internet technologies, if I need to serve desperately in future, I will visit this venue , it was where I found the very best Mistresses That I ever served, a place that is real.

I HAVE LOST ALL CONFIDENCE IN THE CREDIBILITY OF MOST ON Collarspace these days, I AM SOMEWHAT LOST IN SPACE AT THE MOMENT.

As a submissive we are so open to abuse and danger through our submissive tendencies, and two months ago I wrote substantial messages to a Mistress, she said all the right things back, I was prepared to go to her interview, but correspondence to comfort the first meeting were short coming not even a decent photographic image, I talk with other subs and Dommes on here and they warned me off following up on this person, those I talk about and to have been on this website years, this person just a few months, so I cancelled my appointment in good time, at least three weeks before, but it’s sad , if that person was real what could have been.

Something good came out of my messages to others via the CollarSpace network, a Mistress I spoke with said that her friend that I had served many years ago wanted to speak with me, I called her and she said bluntly to me, there is only one thing I want, I enquired, she replied “ you between my legs for a night, you know the only you that interests me, the tongue, “ 

That next Friday night when I attended , I found that, she is now married with a slave husband who was packed off in the spare bedroom that she locked him in, it was amazing after all these years that she let me bathe her, massage her, and it was down to her sexual pleasure, for me it was tied balls, a collar is what she wanted worn, and I gave her oral pleasure most of the night, when she went to sleep , I went and slept on a sofa, with a car blanket over me,  I was awake first, felt rather ill really, I stood at the end of her bed until she woke, her husband was whimpering also, in his locked bedroom, when she woke I asked her if she wanted tea or coffee, she said “when I have peed you are back were you left off, slave husband makes the tea,”

She let her husband out, he ran down stairs to make Tea, and I went back between her legs, her husband came up with her tea, and saw me orally pleasuring his wife and Mistress, she made me stop pleasuring her as she drank her tea, I could see her husband was in a locked chastity device, she saw me look and said “ if you want to serve me, that’s what you wear, 24/7/365 , that is why you are history, once you have pleasured me this morning , you can go, untie your own balls as you leave , that’s your reward for my servitude, you have enjoyed having Mistress tie your balls, “ about an hour later she just dismissed me, I dressed and untied the balls, they were sore and red,  they had been tied for 18 hours, the collar was a dog collar no lock even, I was disappointed no sexual pleasure be that I masturbated on the sofa over what might be, but this Mistress was not interested in my cock, or sex, her husband let me out and I wanted to talk to him, I was curious, it seemed erotic in a way, he was naked in a collar and chastity device, he looked so exhausted, he told me that he had no time to talk, certainly he was not permitted to talk, but he said something of great importance, a Mistress can have a sub at her feet within hours, as she commanded me, she clicks her fingers and they come flocking, she can go on Fetbot or collarspace for a day, and have 20 or even 50 messages of would be subs,  she can pick and choose , click her fingers and they come, with arms full of gifts like I took, not Lidyl Champagne but Moet, not Sainsburys flowers but a florist bouquet, and cholcolate must be Hotel at £20 a small box, her slave husband said , and I think this was a big mistake to say, but what he said is how can a BBW woman bordering on SBBW, cruel and horrible, far from beautiful , have men lined up at the door, most who are  handsome and good looking , most half her age, the slave husband was certainly despairing , he was about my age, still younger than Mistress, he said this is not what those in fantasy think about serving a Mistress like this, no sex, no love just discipline and being a slave, he said all this in 30 seconds fearful of talking to me and he stood right behind the door out of site as I departed, I was also exhausted, my mouth ulcers had come back from the acid in the vagina and I had an acrid taste from the anal service she made me do on the morning, I felt quite ill . very tired and wondered what addicted me to all this, I had finished early from work on the Friday to shop for her presents, make sure I was triple showered, genital and ass hairs shaved, I am not able to take time off from work at the moment, so even a half day is a problem, and how can a person as I be expected to wear a Chastity device 24/7/365 impossible, but a sub like I who serves a Mistress can accept her chastity , be trusted, it’s all about honesty, transparency and not telling lies, if a Mistress is fair and she punishes for accidents that differ from compliance , she should scale the punishment for the offence, yes punishments are to correct and control, but a real sub/slave , is punished mentally by not doing as he is told, disappointing his mistress, I am compliant and very well behaved, so to finish this story I go home, go to sleep and wake up late afternoon, killing sores in my mouth, I had sent a message by Text thanking this Mistress, I had a reply, I have kept it in the cellphone system, it read, “ THE ONLY WORTH YOU HAVE IS IN A LOCKED STEEL CHASTITY DEVICE , THE DAY I LOCK THAT DEVICE YOU ARE MY SLAVE” I have replied several times since, but no response from her. So addiction kicks in, those words make a submissive able to masturbate be even worse than before, if it was not for my demanding work, much overseas, I really do not know how I would cope. There are five Mistresses and five or six subs who will relate and understand this message , one of those Mistresses is the one I wanted to attend the interview, the part that commenced this message,  I want her to know that if only I had known her better, I am sure the chemistry was correct, we all need a lot of privacy in this fraternity and I respect hers, that certainly has been the reason that we did not progress, I will say that this story happening helped focus me,  I think I will stick with Torture Garden in future, real people who are real, not so much cloak and dagger, having to hide because of internet technologies, if I need to serve desperately in future, I will visit this venue , it was where I found the very best Mistresses That I ever served, a place that is real.

The Question is

Is it Mistress Locked closet or the Cane, I am such a coward and could not take 20 strokes of the cane , so four hours is a life time in Mistresses dark locked closet, this metal shackle ball stretcher, is fitted and locked, yes it hurts, extreme restraints supply them and they are very cheap, wrists are cuffed behind the slaves back , the shackles are fitted and pad locked by Mistress, yes tears to the eyes, the shackles made from  solid steel,  this shackle, can be used with or without a  ball weight and chain (with a snap link) but in Mistresses Locked closet it’s a D ring set in the floor and the snap lock on the chain is clipped on the D ring, and the other end of the chain fits with a snap clip the scrotum shackle, Mistress could also use it as a cock ring to help keep the flow of blood from leaving the penis, but today this is restraint in the closet to focus better behaviour , secured, the light goes out and the Timer set for four hours, as I built this bespoke closet for a Mistress the Timer clock is illuminated and the only light in the dark closet when the light goes out, . These cock and ball shackles chained to a floor D ring is strict confinement and bondage , the shackle comes in two sizes Small (1.5" in diameter) and Medium (1.75" in diameter). 4 hours in Mistresses closet leaves the balls too painful to touch and a slave with a mind-set of far better behaviour, this specific closet is fitted with a short ceiling line and a strong peg, Mistress can hang a pair of panties from the peg that her slave must suck on like a comforter, when the slave is checked on every 15 or so minutes , Mistress expects that gusset to be sucked with gusto , certainly after 4 hours Ariel/Daz clean, the slave is in no position to be caught not sucking with gusto , after just 15 minutes the slave is punished fully in his mind, but must suffer the duration, 4 hours is severe, when I built this closet , I thought 15 minutes sufficient, this punishment exhausts a slave and he should be watered at termination and permitted to sleep, lessons learnt. Some Mistresses train their slaves to perfection as others wonder how they achieve such perfection, the compliant slave knows how.

I may be useless slave material but I am so often called upon to build and design for the pleasure of women who have Goddess qualities and know how to control submissive men.

During this year I have spoken to many Mistresses, of Slaves, sub missives and husbands, Mistresses and Dominatrix who really do not seem to understand that it is not just submissive men that are wearing chastity belts and devices to fulfil the wish of dominant women, Mistresses and Women are buying them for their partners, or subs/slaves of course not using their own money, to insure against their unbelief and also to conquer the man by having absolute control over his erections and ejaculations.

Almost all Dominant women and certainly Mistress engage Orgasm control techniques, but over the last ten to twenty years, chastity and indeed devices are being introduced by almost every Dominant women.

Many women do not realise the terrible pain a male suffers in a locked device, Men have erotic dreams and can wake up screaming in pain as the device is preventing an erection, and most men into middle age and beyond wake up in the morning erect, so once the woman fits her male into a device, he is going to suffer a lot of pain.

My belief is that if a Dominatrix that you are in service to wishes to fit you in a device and lock it, take that control, then most men wish to please their Mistresses, however more men have fantasies about chastity than really suffer it.

It is without doubt a well-known fact about men that they are able to do anything for a woman to reach the orgasm and to have sex. Just a few days of sexual abstinence leads men to frustration, humiliation and total devotion to woman. Men can be driven literally crazy and have a desire to please a woman and suffer for that woman, It satisfies both of them, the man's submissiveness by wanting to please and the woman's domination.

Most situations in real life do not enable the male to be locked in a device for weeks, more fantasy, a sub cannot work properly or even sleep properly locked in a device, many Mistresses who session their subs on an occasional basis, will require abstinence from ejaculation for a period before session, maybe a few days or a week so that when the male attends he is already sexually frustrated and desperate,  these days if the session is prolonged often after teasing the device is fitted, locked and the sub suffers, sexualy frustration and desperation the male is like a jelly very desperate to please.

Woman as a keyholder takes absolute control of her partner, or sub . Men becomes humiliated and forced to behave in a polite, considerate way, very gallantly, extremely submissive he is committed to her and ready to fulfil any of the woman's desires and wishes often this can entail continued chastity and no release sexually. With sexual teasing man can be lead   to complete insanity.

This message is to make it clear that chastity is very painful and a gift to a woman, but chastity can be given by honour and not so cruel, the locked device is very cruel, it takes everything the man has sexually away from him, causes great pain and in reality for a woman not to permit a man his erection is more as a punishment , the erection teases sexually and gives the male a need to masturbate , and masturbation leads to edging, edging leads to a Mistress giving permission to ejaculate,  so a chastity device locked takes this entire scenario away from the male, and in reality makes him a eunuch , in a locked device he is a eunuch, many women like this condition in a male, they become so controllable and very submissive, but women must appreciate that they are causing great pain , the penis can become black and bruised, and the pain in time will make an erection almost impossible to achieve, this excites some women when they know the male is no longer able to function .

Something is happening of Great Interest in my Home Town.

A fetish club where participants could engage in ‘dungeon’ events and role-play has been granted a licence to operate, its an exclusive Club called  The Valhalla Club that has received permission to sell alcohol and play recorded and live music from a Dudley Council licensing committee, this happened just after Christmas as we entered the New Year.

What is amazing is that planning permission for the club in Dock Lane was turned down by council chiefs in December amid concerns it was too close to the town’s leisure centre. What a poor excuse.

I believe that the Valhalla Boss Mr. Clive Thomson is reportedly set to appeal the decision, saying Quote .......the issue has been “blown out of proportion”. Indeed my belief.

 Mr. Clive Thomson went on to say  “With the best will in the world we are not the sort of people to parade onto the road in masks and hats,” then as the Report goes on

“I think people have seen too many Hollywood films.

“We are very, very discreet people. We would never have signs outside as we would only get idiots coming."

“We have got members who work for councils, we have nurses, we have doctors.

“These are not people who are going to go drunkenly staggering around the streets.”

Indeed its amazing what some private clubs have and the Guests and Members frequent, just a small handful of people quoted as just  70 people signed a petition raising concerns about the licence.

What is fortunate is that councillors voted in favour of the business after being promised it would be run discreetly. The committee heard the venue would be blocked from the public’s view and no external signs would be used.

The social club would also be used by groups including dancers and wheelchair users.

In December, councillors rejected proposals from Basic Desires Ltd to turn an industrial unit into the “alternative interest” club. The Press I note have shown the images of two different properties one being the real one, I wonder why, however I think that mattered little, other than to confuse and concern those against these proposals, Chairman of the planning committee Councillor Qadar Zada said: “The planning considerations are very different to licensing conditions and it is right that the two processes operate independently of each other.

So it appears that Valhella will now be operational, and give the Fraternity a better chance to function less underground and hidden away, those interested should look for the Valhella Website and have a look for themselves, all I can say is that I wish it all the Luck in the World and those who frequent the Club and support the Club.

I wrote an article a while back at the request of a BBW who I corresponded with for over six months, but she was more kinky than I, she was married a size 28, had two slave boys, and I was to be a third, but only if I engaged total and permanent chastity, he excitement and quest for life was to be sexually served by men who were 100% chaste, no sex, no intercourse, no masturbation, no orgasm and she could then make them sexually please her .

She wanted me to acquire or build a Queening chair for her, it had t be the ultimate in comfort so that she could sit and watch videos and the TV for several hours and the slave was locked into the head seat. I actually designed a frame that when the slave assembled the chair it revealed a device that secured the wrists and the angles were locked onto a 30 inch spreader bar, the slave would tie his own ball sack trapping the balls, and when the Goddess was ready within 30 seconds he was locked in and captured in this device, all the Goddess had to do was tie the cord of the tied balls to the spreader bar anchor central on the bar, job done , the slave could stay there for a nights TV viewing or a couple of horny videos for the Goddess.

The slave would also be gummy hooded that this Goddess liked or blindfolded, either way that what the tongue served and sucked could not be viewed.

My article is based on the use of the male face, lips, nose and tongue to give a woman sexual pleasure, these rituals were first recorded in Egyptian hieroglyphs. The courts of ancient China also record how long tongued male slaves were specially trained to be used by the ladies at court. Once the slave was in position, the ladies would lift their skirts and use them to cover the entire scenario. Gentle, rhythmic hip and buttock movements enabled them to enjoy private orgasms with others present. Japan too copied this practice in its brothels; and seats with a central aperture were used for the same purpose far back in Persian history, these were called man-face chairs. In India, graffiti still exists depicting similar scenes with gowned girls, obviously in ecstasy, queening male sub missives whilst gazing upon an enormous erection! , however some Mistresses use a 30inch crop to attend to an erection as they are forbidden. The tied balls once smacked soon make an erection in the slave void. Queening also has a long tradition in the West...in medieval times pages would provide 'lip service' under their mistresses' skirts when their husbands were away in battle, thus enabling them to remain technically faithful.

This Goddess also viewed this belief, the use of slave boys to tongue and lick them is not an act of unfaithfulness.

History reveals that this thrilling, delicious sexual practice has an ancient and traditional history.

Many a young boy had his first lessons in sex with his head under Madame's backside, with her quim vigorously riding his face. Many young women still virgins, enjoyed orgasms on a male servant's mouths as the earliest sexual experiences.

Some women prefer the heads of an older man in gummy rubber,  with only his tongue exposed, so they can imagine the slave is young and virile in total chastity.

The slave would be summoned, face-fucked then dismissed casually and serenely. In old Japan, brothels would provide male victims for such use by visiting, paying women and girls.

Mouth and tongue sexual service to the female genitals is 'cunnilingus' or 'cunnilinctus' literally cunt licking/ sucking. Queening properly places the woman on top of the male face, using it ruthlessly and selfishly. The lady commands, the man obeys.

Having the male slave erect, if permitted, frustrated and unsatisfied adds to the sadistic pleasures enjoyed by the woman. The woman’s enjoyment magnified knowing that the slave has not ejaculated or had an orgasm, the slave must glory in giving only void of any sexual pleasure himself.

Some women like to have a mouth-dildo attached to their slave's head, sticking up from his open mouth as a ride able accessory. The slave is taught how to work this perfectly and to give the Goddess her maximum sexual excitement and orgasms.

This method provides pleasant, full, vaginal passage orgasms, but prevents sucking and licking by the male victim. Most  women blindfold their prone slaves, thus deleting any possible visual pleasure they might obtain, and that they do not wish the lips of the slave to touch their vaginas, but often after the ritual the slave licks the dildo clean, slaves must taste the Goddess sexually one way or another if bodily contact is not permitted by her..

A few cruel  Mistress inevitably urinate on to his face after having  had orgasm. Others enjoy demanding mouth service right after enjoying satisfactory adultery with a lover, thus making the victim more humiliated. Most talented queening ladies humiliate, taunt, torment, degrade and tease their victims before and after this enforced cunnilingus.

It is clear the Goddess I wrote for like cuckolding also, and the thought of having full sexual intercourse with her husband or maybe a young male stud,  and then attending the waiting slave locked in the Queening chair so that he could enjoy the mixture of the Goddess and her lovers sperm in submission to her, even if he did not like it, it mattered not, it was enforced.

It is essential that the male slave is more than intimate with those parts of a woman's body which require servicing by his tongue, lips and nose. Kneeling astride his face, with his blindfolded eyes very close to her cunt, is a pleasant torment.

He is able to see mentally only and fear each part of her sexual equipment, mentally staring right up into her vaginal passage and memorising her clitoris, labia and vulva. Of course the mental illusions can be made void with the removal of the blindfold.  Using her fingers to stretch her labia she is able to insist that he looks and learns. He must also examine her anus with respect, in case she decides to have his nose inserted into it.

She must teach him the way to kiss, lick and suck her sexually, with particular attention to her clitoris. He must suck and swallow her sex juices. To add a special thrill to her pleasure, she must make him afraid of her. Painful strokes of the crop to the tied balls or cock usually  instil that fear, and make the slave work harder and not get bored or tired after long periods of service.

The slave  must be in awe of her. He must adore her. He must give her respect, and recognise her superiority. He must worship her genitals. They are his goddess, his fate, his destiny. His life is less important than a single orgasm enjoyed by her. He must learn to enjoy her orgasm, only her orgasm, and her orgasm becomes his own, learn that the slaves cock being chaste makes the Goddess orgasm more intense, so he must never deprive her of that intense orgasm so enjoy the pain of being chaste.

Riding the male face requires careful, skilful experience, as much as is required in learning to ride a horse.

The hip and buttocks movements are the key to success. The careful placing of the cunt on the mouth or nose is, of course, essential, and might require some wriggling adjustment until the male's service parts are properly positioned.

It may be that the lady wishes to have his nose against her anal rose while his mouth serves her quim. She will, of course, be as rough and savage as she wishes at the moment she comes.

After satisfaction she can relax, still sitting on his face and enjoy a cigarette or a glass of wine. When she dismounts she will casually ignore the foolish slave or even punish the cock and balls for lack of attention or good service.

In more recent times, Western governesses and nannies have been recorded as teaching their young male charges just how to please their crotches with their tongues. Many a frightened, cowed Georgian or Victorian boy knew intimately the underside of Madame's skirts and felt the vice-like grip of her gartered thighs round his head. These are historic writings and a reason why wanking by males needed strict control , chastity devices or severe punishments.

Masquerading as a punishment and usually followed or preceded by a whipping, the queening would take place in conditions of discipline and severity. The curt command, the superior, unsmiling demand would be followed by a rustling lifting of black, voluminous skirts, the stripping off of Madame's panties and the heavy, fleshy hot damp descent of her buttocks and crotch onto the young man’s  face.

Heaven help him if Madame did not orgasm satisfactorily. A savage whipping would follow.

So many slaves and sub missives think they can aspire to this kind of service, it takes years of training to achieve perfection, the first step is the Throne, custom built and can convert into a piece of ordinary furniture if in a home, as it was for this Goddess I wrote for, also Ideal as a throne in a Dungeon or playroom, as for I , I did not proceed to custom build this throne, it’s a long story, but permanent chastity in a device is not how I can serve these days, if she had been less demanding  long periods of strict chastity before rituals or session was more sensible, it did not happen so my talent was not engaged sadly, so the story ends as chapter one………………………..???????

MISTRESS STABLE OF SLAVES IN TRAINING PROGRAMME.

Powerful Trigger Hand Pump

Thick walled acrylic cock vacuum pumping cylinder. Internal dimensions: 48mm diameter x 230mm in length (approx. 1.75in. x 9in.). With standard vacuum pump connector.

Applicant Slave submission

Trigger Hand Pump is the most powerful BDSM Vacuum pump available in the UK,  this is not a toy and a serious product that will connect to a vacuum tube and once that tube has had the cock fed into it the vacuum will suck the cock and hold it in place, the cock swells and offers no resistance and is pulled up long ways but also the cock will swell and becomes very painful the only release for the cock will be the pressure relief switch.  The tubes are also very serious not toys and offer no escape for the cock, release is either at Mistresses Pleasure, or after substantial time the swollen cock may wither .

Applicant Slave submission Training Methodology for consideration

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When the cock is introduced to this device , shorter periods are advisable to see what damage if any the cock sustains, if it is just red and soreness, at some stage after a rest period the sore cock can be reintroduced for another session.

2.

Once Mistress is satisfied the cock is not sustaining damage , she can extend the periods , at her pleasure, the device will make the cock once removed unable to maintain intercourse, after a long time in the device - once the cock is removed it will be very sore to touch and will go flaccid, Mistress is taking the slaves ability to have an erection that can enter a woman and sustain remaining erect. The Slave will know Mistress is taking away his manhood this way which is more powerful than locking a cock in chastity , because it is not locked, it is not functioning. A slave with a non-functioning cock can attend Mistress as a cuckold if she has such desires.

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If Mistress is displeased by her slave in Domestic Service not demonstrating total flaccid state, in addition to using the long handled crop on the offending cock, she can use a period of vacuuming , to put him back into hard labour  service flaccid and sore.

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If the slave cannot give Mistress an erection when she requires to see it or need it, she will force a period of erection by a period in the vacuum tube, once released the cock will return to the same state as it was previously flaccid but sore.

5.

There may be a plan to elongate the slaves cock, Mistress wants to have a slave with more length , the vacuum works well with other cock stretching devices , slaves with long cocks amuse others in the fraternity when exhibiting a slave,  some slaves cocks are inexcusable small so need lengthening, so the vacuum can be worked with daily elongation items, that Mistress will require worn daily, as mandatory.

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A very painful punishment can be given if the cock cums and has been drained, the  flaccid cock can then be introduced to the vacuum tube and made erect , this is a punishment to aid orgasm control training and disciplines.

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Notes of Interest :

Vacuum gauge indicator any more than 5in of mercury can risk injury.

Warnings acquired will say that you should never pump areas that have a body cavity at the head of them - this means the urethral meatus, the vulva (except for the clitoris) and the anus - To do so could result in prolapse of the bladder, uterus and rectum, so this training has to be carefully monitored.

Warnings acquired will say If long-lasting or even permanent numbness occurs, It is too late , Nerve-cells are among the hardest to repair for a human body or by a PhD.

Warnings acquired will say one cause of Peyronies disease is overt trauma to the erect penis.

 8. I had included photographic images but these were not reproduced in this journal entry:

It has been 18 months since I served last, and my Mistress at that time was very fair but ill health demanded that she was unable to continue in the fraternity, and it was not until today that I saw a Mistress on CM website that appeared to know how men like myself need to be treated as slaves in a Goddess woman’s service.

I have found that the most controlling and sexually powerful woman of the last few years have been bbw , they know what they want and they know how to control men , some women demonstrate vast power by controlling a stable of men, men are best controlled this way, like a pack of dogs, they often feed the men like dogs drinking and eating from dog bowls, they cage men like dogs, and instead of the methods of controlling dogs by castration, they but the men it powerful chastity devices, and these are getting more sophisticated.

These powerful women adore chastity, they do not permit masturbation, erections or orgasm, men are thus controlled sexually to serve, most men masturbate daily, some more than once a day, often morning and night , these women see this as wasted energy and to control this sexual energy they control the man, and the man will serve very well indeed.

I slave who serves a woman in an intimate way , bathe, massage, as I used to need a more severe device and this can be expensive for the slave when the Mistress demands £300 for a new device or an upgrade device, and the devices are getting more controlling and more painful, the more sophisticated devices demonstrate to a Mistresses friends in the fraternity her power by fitting the more sophisticated devices on their slaves, but these devices are not only more secure they hurt and control totally arousal the slightest murmur is pain.

A device that was being considered for me, as I conducted personal services was a device that is a metal catheter that is shaped to keep the penis in a downwards state, it slides into the urethra that has to be trained to take the insertion, the chastity device is attached and encloses the penis and it is secured, and locked tightly and securely  by Mistress , this is the most powerful device to focus her slave, this slave has this insertion in his body , I was fitted one not so severe that was rubber latex type material , but the slightest arousal hurts bad, and a good Mistress teaches a good slave by giving him tasks that will sexually focus on her worship, and cause arousal and the pain is self-controlling.

A slave locked this way just for a few days, learns that a sexual task for Mistress cannot be a pleasure to the slave, the slave would also feel this intrusion inside him, and realise that he was totally owned , I used to hand wash my Mistress underwear, she soon realised I was filthy and addicted to her gussets and mouth washing of her gussets was conducted before hand washing and this would arouse me and the pain was really bad, and mouth washing became mandatory.

Personal services I conducted as Mistress was bbw and I would be able to cleanse her with care and intimately in her bath, drying her also could arouse me, Mistress did not care because as far as she was concerned I was a eunuch not a man functioning animal, so totally controlled and harmless.

I usually served two or on occasion three days, and had to be chaste 7 days prior to service, the control was such that I would be compliant, I cannot take  serious pain that a punishment would entail, so I behaved, and thus I was an excellent serving slave.

When I left her service, I kept in touch as a friend, but I decided I could take no more chastity, yet it appears real Mistresses demand it these days, to serve a Goddess and a real Mistress you must serve in chastity at some time or during service, male sexual release is either not permitted or controlled totally.

I thought I could never take another day of chastity, yet I have today applied to a Goddess who adores this service and when I applied my first application to a Mistress in eighteen months, reading this Goddesses profile and journals, I understood once again that a woman like this demands respect from her slave and more important a slaves sexual respect and control, and I am terrified she will be interested in me, as I feel unable to take anymore chastity, yet know a powerful woman will fit the device for service and male betterment.

Would a condemned man build a gallows, it has been known, as I have located the most feared chastity device, this device is to be feared, the inner urethra tube will ensure Mistress has got control of the penis and testicles, the penis will stay in a constant curve as it bows down flaccid for its owner, this owner will be sure her slave does not have an erection, he can never masturbate, and orgasm is impossible, the male slave thus is totally owned and controlled.

To serve a Goddess who can own many men this way , is a privilege beyond a slaves belief,  and such a woman with a cell and cages to help the slave focus on his custody and ownership, and reliance on this Goddess , this woman will better men’s behaviour and a man like myself who has been a constant womaniser  controlling many women historically, to be finally tamed this way by a powerful woman will certainly cleanse him spiritually and redeem his soul.

The only time a Mistress contacts me, on this website is when they want something answered, a question.

The exo-belt message I posted interested many, but I have to answer two very important Mistresses who asked about some products origin.

Of course Mistresses have realised over the last ten years the value of chastity devices on men, and also the importance of charging the men for the device, but they locate and purchase it, that is total control, the first time the slave or sub sees the device is when she locks it on.

So to answer some questions, the non custom devices my Mistress acquires , some come from spicesforlove.com and the mouth gag penis dildo, also comes from that supplier.

Another favourite and you can visit

If you want to see an aray of items and clothing first hand visit the renown place in Warwick, my Mistresses favourite supplier.

Women know how much men lie, they tell lie after lie.

A chastity device does not only prevent masturbation but also prevent Men from telling lies.

This device is not for the Faint Hearted, less than 24 hours and I can not tollerate the serious restriction anylonger, far smaller than the devices I have ben trained in, and I believe this device will turn the penis into a clit,

The Exo-Belt V series, can be worn by sissy maids under female panties and it does what is required for sissies, removes the bulge completely, but I am an alpha male type and do not wish to take this route, but it is not the visual thats the problem its the pain, this device demonstrates to the wearer, that his genitals are locked up in a very tight restrictive cage and what is more, it is difficult to pee and keep cleansed.

The Mistress I serve will only consider its removal back to the device I have been wearing the last few months, that I can live with, but the punishment for my disobediance is quite severe so I have to balance one pain and discomfort against another, but for me to post this message is not favourable to users recommending an Exo-Belt, but those who require a device to be worn by their sissy maids will consider this device, especially if the slaves training requires reduction, so I do not know what I will do, I have posted what I needed to say.

I was told to paste this today, as I was fitted with an Exo-Belt V series at 4-00pm today, to continue my servitude

Most women are shocked to learn just how often men masturbate. So why do men masturbate so much?

  Actually, it is not their fault, men constantly have their own biology bombarding them with a physical need for sexual release. As you may already know, the male reproductive system is always building a load of ejaculate or cum, while at the same time the male reproductive organs are sending powerful chemicals to the brain that makes the man "horny".  So basically, men are always under the influence of an aphrodisiac (Spanish fly). Even men who try to fight the urge of a need for sexual release will end up with a nocturnal emission (wet dream). It is natures way of ejecting the load on deck, to make room for a new one.  All men are different, but average men will need a release every 24 to 72 hours.

  The bottom line is most likely your man is masturbating (or having wet dreams) about once a day to every other day. Some men will deny this when asked about their masturbation, and it is understandable that they may be a little embarrassed of their need for sex. Also, the more frequently men have sex or masturbate their bodies will produce more testosterone, which in turn increases the man's sex drive and continues the vicious cycle. With more testosterone the drive will increase and your man will need physical release more frequent.

Quod me netrit me destruit

If you read what I wrote six months ago, and wonder why I have not been writing, the answer is, I disobeyed my long term Mistress, thought I could find a better Mistress, I found a fantastic new Mistress, but my original Mistress exercised my Contract of Servitude, this is complicated and many will say not a legal contract, it matters not, its a Contract of servitude and I am back with my original Mistress.

I love and devote myself to her, and suffer permanent chastity.

So why did I not report earlier, I was not permitted to use the Internet, the rules are now relaxed as I have entered my second phase of chastity being six months served, my reward is I can post again.

My second phase of service has made me a better male, I work much harder for my Mistress, I suffer more for her pleasure, I am more content and settled in my service, which I now adore.

I can speak with Mistresses and Subs, but those I speak with know I am owned, but sharing experiences is always rewarding.

My Mistress said I must post a truthful statement, it is,

Women who can ot put their slaves/subs/husbands into chastity, wearing a secure chastity device for less than 6 weeks have no control over their male.

Any man who wishes to serve a woman, who loves that women, will suffer chastity, but 6 weeks minimum,  is the test, be sure of your male, only chastity really works to bring out the , best in a man.

As I, a man wishing to serve a Goddess and Mistress , I will serve in chastity as my Mistress demands.

Remember Men have fantasies, but most men can not cope with chastity, that is what makes it the only test, chastity is real pain, women must understand that suffering , those women who do, end up with faithful loyal men.

I have just got back from a trip overseas, and my mailbox was full from many who have befriended me, over the years on this CM website.

I have written my Journal for a long period, and through that journal I have been able to exchange experiences with both assertive and submissive people, the later of course make up most of my mailbox.

I have come to the conclusion that the sub must get as much out of this fraternity as the Domme, in my case,  all I have listened to over the years from my own Mistress and other Dommes, is , that it is not about the sub, its all about the Domme, the sub is nothing, and the sub becomes disillusioned and frustrated, feels worthless and loses interest in serving.

Years ago, I served my Dommes to perfection, they were strict but not cruel, they wanted to be served by a slave, not a pain slut, and when the sub got punished, there was a reason behind it, occasionally there would be training sessions, to keep the sub sexually interested and to excite the Dommes, but not torture and pain beyond a subs comfort levels, of course limits have to be pushed and expanded, but only the wisest Mistresses know how to do just that.

My frustrations come from either being a slave working hard labour and nothing to relieve sexual frustrations, or way out scenes that push the slave beyond his limits, even when fantasy comes into play, you know that limit exceeds your capabilities, but some Mistresses even wish to go beyond that.

Once in a relationship with a Mistress, you can no longer talk with her, you have to spell everything out at the beginning, after your service begins, it is far to late, to re-negotiate terms.

My service I ask permission to speak, bow low and wait, nine times out of ten, that permission is not given.

If I talk without permission I am gagged,

I could cope with all this, but a scenario is taking place, like all Mistresses my Mistress likes to use the cane, she enjoys inflicting welts, the cries and screams of her slaves, who suffer, she will argue it focuses the slave to be compliant, abeyance and good behaviour, but really the Mistress derives her sexual pleasure from this, she has moved on from being orally pleasured, by her slaves, she wants to have an orgasm from inflicting the pain that her sub suffers for her pleasure.

So I am going to have to move on, I am not this kind of slave, I will take pain to please my Mistress, but not excessive use of torture and the cane, the marks take weeks to heal, and you can not conduct commercial life when you can not sit down for days.

I am keen to serve a Mistress that I am talking with on a casual basis, and no longer in chastity, I can take no more chastity either, it destroys the male genitals, of course shorter periods to control or for punishment,  but not permanent chastity.

I also have a fine lady, overseas, who wants a Holiday Slave, that is to serve her for a minimum of one week , when she holidays, and she has suggested two holidays a year, she just wants to be sexually pleasured , orally and with toys, no male intrusion other than the tongue, she is a lovely lady, uses a crop whip to direct and control, but is not into serious pain, she reads my journals , so she knows who she is, and I would love to serve her, but I must confess I have an opportunity with a Mistress in the UK, who seems strict, but the wisest I have encountered for many years, if I can cope with her rules and regulations, and training and corrections, I feel very comfortable moving on into this direction.

What ever happens I am moving on, so this CM Journal may soon close, but I will reply to all my mail box, those who I know, within the next seven days.

I have been given a task that is quite beyond me, as I write.

I have got to copy about 600 Videos to DVDs and I just have not got a clue how to do this.

Do I buy a machine, or use computer software, I just do not know.

However in association with this mammoth task,

My Mistress has developed a need to hold in depth inquisitions, of her sub/slaves mind, I have never read about this or come across it , and I fear it.

She has already demonstrated to me , how disgusting my mind is, how filthy my sexual hang ups and fantasies are, and my mind is being investigated with vigour, I am so ashamed.

Recently I am required to watch videos and DVDs, this is to ascertain what excites me.

I am then punished for the offence, the punishments are corporal punishment, and I do not have to explain or spell this out.

As a coward ,to serious corrective pain,  I am terrified and the Inquisitions are getting more intense, and the punishments greater.

Mistress is discovering, in my mind,  kinks, I did not know I had, and some of these disgust me, I thought I was above such filthy fantasy.

Mistress says that the punishments are right and just, once I mend my ways, clean up my thoughts, demonstrate sexual control , then there will be no need for future punishments.

However once Mistress discovers a kink, she finds more material to titillate me, and warns me of the consequences, the punishments get more severe, more intense, and I am lectured on my filthy and disgusting ways.

A sub/slave can not argue with punishment, if it can be demonstrated to be correctional, be it that  , my Mistress,  enjoys the pleasure of administering very severe correctional punishment.

As there is no safe word for correctional punishment, and when one can not cope, one feels like running away, abandoning the relationship, that so much sacrifice has been given to bond such a relationship, male chastity is almost impossible to achieve, over one year is a total sacrifice, that sacrifice I have made to my demanding Mistress.

Mistress has total control of my genitals, total sexual control over me, and now I have been taken to the wall, I have no ability to perform as a man, so no ability to please a woman in a vanilla relationship, I am owned totally.

This latest scenario of cleansing my mind, may be exciting my Mistress intensely but is terrifying me as I do not know what to expect next.

I will try and be compliant with the task, to transfer these videos to DVD, but I am fearful of what the completed task will reveal.

If anyone has any ideas about this mental cleansing training, please tell me, I need help to cope.

An American wise Mistress says,

Woman was created as much superior to man as the name She has received is superior to his. For Adam means earth, but Eve is translated as Life. And as far as life is to be ranked above earth, so far is Woman to be ranked above man.

Once a man accepts this, he can then accept a woman’s will, power and glory.

Chastity means total control for the woman, only the strongest and most committed men can submit to it, often the women who enforce it do not give any sexual pleasure to their sub missives, so a man gets trained to please a woman in an unselfish way.

Indeed Eve, is life, a woman can grant a male species life, if he accepts her control, a man does not have to be a wimp, to accept a woman’s control, often when a woman takes control of her male, he becomes a stronger person.

So chastity is a good option,

Women must be sensible and understand chastity when used on their men, it is not a game, it is serious, and it is painful, in my case very painful, even after years of training, I hate it, yet love it, as I need it, I am sexually weak, my brain driven by my genitals, I just have to be controlled, I am an Alpha male.

As I write this, I can say, I hate chastity, Chastity terrifies me, I love Chastity as I am addicted to it through being trained to accept it, as a male I know it is the only control a woman will ever have over a man, all men should taste the fear of it, all women should have access to it, the test is, if your man will not let you fit it, and lock it, be it a minute, a hour, a day, a week or months, then he is not your man, he as alternative things in his mind.

That said, when a woman fits it on, and locks it, she controls the time and duration, it should not be negotiate able , a good woman will be fair and reasonable, may only try it once, then she may decide she wants to use it more, if this exercise is done with a good heart and attitude, a bond of love strengthens, the male becomes more attentive and less selfish.

I speak with many married men, subs are not all wimps, why should a married man not be locked up in chastity during menstruation suffered by his wife, 2 to 5 days is no big deal, and pregnant women should always lock their men up, certainly sexually control their men, otherwise they stray.

Married Women really are to lazy to mess like this, very few do, but a Mistress sees it differently, she has the expertise and knowledge, and uses it, and the Mistresses life is so pleasurable by utilising such power.

So most men, maybe including myself, wish that women had not discovered the art of chastity control of men, but in the last ten years it is almost top of every Mistresses list of requirements, Men now must surrender and hope that Women will control with kindness and care, sympathetic to Men’s needs in life and in a sexual respect.

I felt total submission when I was fitted on December 24^th with the tightest smallest chastity device I have yet experienced. I did not expect this , I thought that chastity sufficed for a Mistress, but it appears that chastity can take on a new dimension.

Chastity means total control for the woman, only the strongest and most committed men can submit to it, often the women who enforce it do not give any sexual pleasure to their sub missives, so a man gets trained to please a woman in an unselfish way.

I write this because,

A South American , beautiful dominant woman asked

“Is there any sub/slave interested in "woman worship", "perfect gentleman behaviour", "respectful male attitude", "unselfish male sexual attitude", "celebrating womanhood", "female pleasure, amusement and sexual satisfaction" , "pussy worship"? They are all the things that make a woman, truly happy and give a man a proper purpose to be.”

That Purpose to be should be what a submissive male should endeavour to attain, and a woman can soon establish and test if her submissive will try to be all that she desires by introducing him to chastity.

For a man to accept chastity it takes years, so a Mistress should require shorter periods at commencement. A weekend often starts the ball rolling, a clever woman offers unique and powerful release for her sub, his mind is accepting the pain of chastity is rewarded with powerful release.

Training can then begin, the woman can train her males genitals to behave, and a session can be had "celebrating womanhood", a period of training that is rewarded with release once a high standard has been achieved. The higher the womans standards, for her submissive male, the longer the chastity period as to achieve excellence is difficult for the male.

"perfect gentleman behaviour", follows on, and I have been transferred from a chastity device historically to a remote genital shock device for such training, often to support vanilla activities, such as fine dinning etc.

A Mistresses sexual satisfaction" , "pussy worship" comes later, often when the male has been trained not to orgasm, without permission, or not at all. Chastity can take on longer periods and a submissive male is now becoming a slave, he will get his sexual; thrill pleasing his Mistress sexually, and seeks no sexual relief himself.

A quality Mistress often does not engage is sexual activities with her sub male, and most Mistresses have more than one submissive, once the male accepts chastity, and can be trained to serve long term, the woman has got a man totally controlled, and he will accept anything that pleases his Mistress, that is often her need for other men, maybe women also.

The man learns through chastity , that his woman is all that matters on the planet, and how he becomes controlled through chastity is his woman’s pleasure, what ever pleases her must please him.

Men are quite disgusting creatures and once a good educated woman controls and owns his genitals, that man becomes a wonderful person, the male sexual desire needs control, and only the strongest and most assertive women can accomplish this, it does not happen by accident, a woman has to work very hard to train her males, but In my opinion the reward to a woman is total utopia, her sexuality is superior on this planet, and a woman is not complete unless she takes total control.

Women who wish to test any relationship, test it with just a weekend of chastity for your man, most men are excited by the thought until they suffer it, then it is a No No, no man in my opinion is any good to a woman unless he will accept her chastity, even a few days a month in a married situation when she has her period, a rule for married people  should be, if the woman does not seek sexual satisfaction  from her man, he should endure chastity.

Long term relationships and older women, who are not so excited with intercourse, desperately need to adopt male chastity, the sooner the better for their male partners.

Women must be sensible and understand chastity when used on their men, it is not a game, it is serious, and it is painful, in my case very painful, even after years of training, I hate it, yet love it, as I need it, I am sexually weak, my brain driven by my genitals, I just have to be controlled, I am an Alpha male.

I hope this story is a good reply to this wonderful South American Lady.

I felt total submission when I was fitted on December 24^th with the tightest smallest chastity device I have yet experienced. I did not expect this and was in service when I was called upon to be restrained for the removal of my existing device.

In restraint I was left free for about three hours and shaved but I was told that I was now to be fitted with a device 25% smaller than before, I had been warned a month or so prior that an experienced  Mistress will do this, the device will become smaller in time.

Mistress talked to me about the reasoning for a chastity device reduction, and that I would be prostate milked, immediately the device was locked in place.

I can usually control an erection, I believed maybe I could no longer get an erection, but I went erect, and Mistress told me that I would be punished and marked for showing this disrespect and also having an erection without her permission.

My buttocks would be bruised and marked with 20 strokes of the paddle, it was clear this was to pleasure Mistress more than punish me, I was to be one of her early Christmas presents with my suffering.

Mistress sat between my spread legs and applied ice, to my balls and penis, this burnt me, when I thought I could not shrink anymore, she added snow, frozen snow, there was mountains of snow in her Garden and her other two slaves had collected a bucket full.

This metal device that appeared a series of rings was fitted, and once locked into place, and my genitals warmed, pinched me, was tight and uncomfortable, and at times painful. It prevented even 1% excitement, any enlargement would hurt quite badly, and I was feeling that.

I was released from restraint and given some training exercises, to test my submission, this was real humiliation, and yes I was very submissive. What ever I was instructed to do, I did.

I was then strapped over a four leg punishment stool, face down with anus well exposed, and was prostate milked, this went on for eternity, at least 30 minutes and ice cold snow was applied to my balls, my inside was sore, my anal bud sore and I was shocked to see the amount of sperm milked, she poured all this using a small funnel into a bottle of Calvados. This was done in front of my face and I could see the drops looking stringy as they entered the bottle content.

She was so excited, she said that I had pleased here, this represented dozens of ejaculations that I am no longer permitted, she told me that I make her happy as I no longer masturbate or orgasm,  and the penis is used for the purpose to pee only, that is its only function, and that is why I am making a good submissive slave.

I was given my rota of duties and she then told me about the punishment for exhibiting an erection in front of her,  she said you count and thank me for each stroke, miss one thank you, or miscount and you will receive 4 strokes of the cane, for added disrespect, I knew she wanted me to accept her pain and it was going to hurt.

Today is the 27^th, and I still can not sit down, I was punished, and the new device prevents me sleeping, it really hurts quite badly, I am frightened to complain or ask her mercy, because in the mood Mistress is in, I know I must suffer.

One of my duties on the 24^th was to hand wash her, my Mistresses  lingerie, this duty I do not often get, her basket was full of Rigby and Peller knickers, all gusset soaked, of course,  I may have contributed to her excitement in one pair, but not a dozen, a good sub who hand washes knickers knows what  stains mean,  what the stain is, when laundry duties are performed.

The duty for me is a task, I was not sexually excited, I felt quite dead really, it mattered not if I was washing a piece of cloth, a sheet, the fact it was my Mistresses most intimate garment mattered not, no sexual arousal, no sniffing, or tasting as I would have done 9 months ago, I thought how disgusting Men are, we are filthy creatures really to do such acts, as to mess around with a woman’s underwear.

This Christmas I feel owned, my genitals are, I am fully sexually controlled, I am very submissive to my Mistress, the exercise on the 24^th taught me to realise my need for my Mistress, who has two other males in her service.

Today as I hurt, I want to stay in Mistresses service, the chastity is not pleasant but I need it, my experience demonstrates that Men do need Women to keep them in chastity, My Mistress still enjoys regular intercourse but her Men must be under 30 years, virile and very active, constant repeaters,  she has said to all her male subs, me included, Men over 30 become sexually useless, one day over 30 and its chastity for all Men, there days of penetration are over, that is her, that is my Mistresses  belief.

I have not had much time to post of late, in the run up to Christmas, but Mistreses have to be cruel to be kind, chastity is so cruel.

Seasonal Greetings wished to all , sub missives and Dominants alike.

A very painful , interesting weekend that was intense,  for me as from, Friday through till today Tuesday.

I was fitted into a heavy metal restraint on Friday, it looks like a heavy metal tap is locked onto my bottom front torso, ugly, heavy and horrible. This device can not be worn under clothing, its massive.

I and my other two serving subs were stood against a wall, hands on head, abdomen held  in , eyes down.

I knew there was problems, Mistress had a cane, not her usual crop.

I and her husband slave have a bed in a room, separate rooms, the other male sub is in a cage, last week she said that we mutually had not kept our sleeping arrangement tidy, she has,  our Mistress has not been strict enough with us of late, she muttered on about a  secretly recorded mobile phone footage, that has exposed a teacher at a Catholic boarding school in north-eastern Thailand, who whacked dozens of students on the buttocks with a cane wrapped with electrical wire.The footage of last week's caning's was aired on Monday last on Thai television.

The students at this St Mary's School, in a province of Nakhon, Ratchasima made complaints with police over the beatings, meted out as punishment to students who failed to clean their living quarters.

I knew my bed and room was spotless, this was so unfair, as I was gagged as usual, if I dared a protest, it would have been fruitless.

At this stage she introduced a new male sub to us, naked and shivering, in a Tolly Boy chastity device, he looked as if he was certainly going to be the youngest of us subs. I thought four subs in training was also a shock for us, this was not expected, I was desperately not happy.

He stood against an opposite wall, and mirrored our poses. He really looked terrified.

"These pupils , at St Marys, did not deserve punishment, as they had not entered into contracts as you lot have," Mistress said. "Your contracts are clear you are punished for your own good, obedience, betterment and correction."

"You three will each receive 10 strokes, and they will bite. "

It hurt bad, 2 of us 3 cried, the new boy who watched, was terrified.

I could not sleep, I was put to hard labour Saturday and Sunday, Monday also, Tuesday I did office duties, and was worked until 11-00pm , Tuesday, when the device was removed and I was dismissed.

This weekend was , first, the Cane Friday, hard work, nothing sexual, no pleasure but no more pain, but I did copy a Questionnaire one of many we all have to complete before serving Mistress, this Questionnaire had been completed by the new sub, we had seen nothing of him or Mistress over this extended weekend running into a Bank Holiday, so I guess he, the new sub, number 4,  will be her new toy and plaything.

This Questionnaire will interest many friends I have on CM who are subs also,

 

Have you ever...

My Mistress has given me the task, to write, for her explicitly ,  and explain in great detail my Domestic Duties in her service, my first article is care of the most important bed, the bed of a Mistress, there are many tasks that one has to do in her Bedroom , this is only one of many.

The reason for this task, is to keep my mind off the need to masturbate, the excellence in my service is my aim, and were all the wasted energy needs to be employed instead of pulling in a disgusting way, at the appendage that hangs ridiculously from our lower abdomen, all men do it, many times a day, I find myself not looking these days up women’s skirts, but at men, thinking to myself, I wonder when you last were having a pull, and when next, you can be sure of one thing, they have played sometime within the last 24 hours, I feel ashamed.

It is more rewarding writing an essay, than being a disgusting male, and tugging and pulling away, and as my Mistresses pleasure is that I take no sexual pleasure, certainly no orgasms, masturbation must not happen, and since I have been trusted to live without the locked device, I have obeyed and been totally compliant.

As a trusted and very , very obedient sub, I write my essay as follows,

Entering Mistresses Bedroom, I must always knock gently twice, then three times, wait at least two minutes count 150 and knock louder, the sub must ensure he never enters without permission , he can enter if the room is vacant, but the door must be left wide open at all times, to enter when Mistress is sleeping or in a compromising situation is a serious offence a minimum of twenty strokes of the cane.

Once I have established the room is empty and vacant, I can commence bed making, but before commencing the duty, I must enter the exact time I entered the bedroom on the duty rota list, so that my movements in the house can be monitored.

A bed should be stripped down to its mattress daily, or after each usage.

I am required by my Mistress to strip and re-make her bed even if she has a short afternoon sleep.

Linen should be laundered once stripped from the bed, only fresh crisp new laundered bed linen should be used.

I have been ordered to make Mistresses bed , on occasion, once , but on many occasions up to four times in a given day, when Mistress has been sexually active, and I can tell her mood from the bed, on one specific day I suffered badly under her hand, I was ran off my feet, I could do nothing right, and I suffered pain for her pleasure, but the only time I was in her bedroom was to make and remake her bed, there was no sexual pleasure for myself or the two other sub/slaves I serve with.

Of course the three of us, were not privileged to share her bed, maybe we were the wrong sex, as I cleaned up twice , staining from menstrual blood, that I assumed , if not knew, was not my Mistresses.

Most of Mistresses linen sets come with a fitted sheet and a flat sheet. Fitted sheets are easy to put on flat if you put on diagonal corners at a time. Pick a corner, slip the corner of the sheet over it, make sure that the edge of the sheet is slightly under the mattress. Go to the opposite diagonal corner and fasten it. Move to another corner and then diagonal again. Make sure that the fitted corners are securely around the mattress and slightly under the edge of the mattress. Start tidy and neat and you will finish likewise.

Often the flat sheet has a 'right' and a 'wrong' side, example decorative trim, finished edge of the hem, print on one side and not the other, etc. place the finished or right side down on the bed. Arrange the flat sheet so that it is flat and smooth on the bed with an equal and exact amount hanging off each side and at least 12 inches of sheet hanging below the lower edge of the mattress.

Slightly lift the foot of the mattress and tuck the end of the sheet under the mattress, all the way across, make sure it is laying perfectly flat and tight under the mattress. Take the corner of the sheet, which is hanging down toward the floor, grasp the corner and pull it taut away from the bed and then lay it over the top edge of the side of the bed, forming a perfect triangle. Hold onto this tip of the triangle while you tuck the side of the sheet under the side of the mattress, from the corner of the mattress up the side a couple of feet. Then pulling the corner that you are holding taut, pull it down toward the floor at the corner of the bed and tuck it very tightly under the mattress. This will form a hospital corner or fold right at the corner of the mattress and secure the flat sheet. Repeat perfectly to match on the other side.

Fluff the blanket , if you have one, like in winter time, over the bed and secure it with hospital corners exactly like you did the flat sheet. Smooth it out flat. Fold back the upper end of the blanket, at the head of the bed, this must be a perfect fold, so that it is folded toward the foot of the bed and the edge of the fold is approximately at the edge of the pillows. Pull the flat sheet taut under the blanket and fold the upper edge of the flat sheet down over the blanket, following exactly and perfectly the fold line of the blanket, so they are folded together.

The right side of the flat sheet will show where it lays over the blanket.

Pillow slips go on the pillows which are arranged at the head of the bed, flat and with the open ends of the pillow cases toward the outer edges of the bed. This displays any decoration on the edge of the pillow case. My Mistress has large and small pillows, these must be perfectly placed.

The bedspread or quilt goes on next, arranged to hang over three sides of the bed evenly and just touch the headboard. Tuck the bedspread slightly under the edges of the pillow, making sort of a pleat along that edge.

In the summer Mistress only uses a duck down duvet bedspread, fortunately these are cotton and I can press them to a high standard so that the snap buttons clip together very neatly and I ensure the quilt is placed evenly in the duvet, no lumps or bumps, just a smooth even fill, that has to look excellent and presentable when Mistress enters her bedroom.

Mistress likes quality American or Egyptian towels and enjoys the little figures that I make sculpturing them in designs that please Mistress, often I put fresh rose petals on the made up bed and if it is Evening time, a high quality confectionery, I have to constantly find fine confectionery for this task, to please and surprise her.

There is more to making Mistresses bed than changing the bed clothes and sheets after each use,

Care of Mistresses Bed Mattress

A mattress is a thick and strong pad or a cushion and also a main part of a bed. The mattress is the focal point of comfort and Hygiene. The mattress can be made from a variety of materials but today, most mattresses are a combination of latex, polyurethane foam and different fabrics on a metal spring core or framework.

Mattresses can also be made from either natural or artificial materials. Due to their nature and characteristics, mattresses are absorbent and prone to getting dirty and smelly; they may even become a health threat. Sterilization removes dust mites, bacteria, and other allergens that hide on the surface of your mattress.

I or one of my Mistresses two other sub/slaves will sanitize, cleanse and sterilize her bed mattress each week, this exercise has to be logged in the Household Diary,  as an important task.

Why is mattress care so important, some ask, the reason is simple, Mistress sleeps in the best quality bed that the world makes, it has to be taken care of.

Mistress has a Vi-Spring bed , it is a Double size King size, but it is her official bed, Mistresses slave husband has a basic army type bed and is not permitted as far as I know to sleep with his Mistress, also his wife.

It is said that Vi-Spring are very original, designed and built around the way a person sleeps. The spring count, the fillings, the ticking, the stitching; each vital component of Mistresses Vi-Spring bed is as a Goddess would demand it. Indeed only fit for a Goddess.

The bed is an costly but true investment, and should Mistress need a replacement all three of us sub/slaves would have to find several thousands of pounds each for our contributions, The bed is made using copious volumes of fine cotton, pure lambs wool and long-stranded horsehair as well as cashmere, mohair and silk in the finest beds, that Mistress sleeps on.

The V1 represents 6 coils to every spring, luxury beyond belief. The bed and mattress also breathes so care must be taken to care for this bed, the most serious stain being blood, however it may appear from menstrual or other ways, it is not known to anyone other than Mistress, but we subs have to cleanse and keep the mattress and bed as if it was new from the manufacturer.

Place the mattress in an open space and strip away all the sheets and other layers. Make sure that the mattress is accessible to you from all four sides.

Clean the plastic attachment for your vacuum cleaner with luke warm water  and liquid soap. Let it dry completely before installing it back onto the vacuum cleaner.

Plug in your vacuum cleaner and make sure there is enough of the extension cord to go around the whole mattress.

Clean the whole surface of your mattress with the vacuum cleaner. Press the maximum suction button so you can vacuum the mattress as thoroughly as possible. Use slow and straight movements while going over the mattress surface.

Mix water, bleach and antibacterial liquid soap in a bowl and stir it to create foam.

Wipe your mattress with the mixture and a sponge. Clean the whole surface of the mattress thoroughly and check to see if you missed a spot. Leave the mattress to dry completely.

Wipe the surface of the mattress with a few Lysol type wipes. Again, allow the surface of your mattress to dry. If you don't want to pale or fade  the colour of the fabric, don't leave the mattress to dry in direct sunlight.

Sprinkle some baking soda onto the mattress surface and let it stay there for 15 minutes. Vacuum the mattress again to remove all baking soda dust. Note that at this point, the mattress has to be absolutely dry. This process will remove odours in your Mistresses mattress.

My largest challenge is Cleaning menstrual blood or blood, out of mattress, this  is no easy task, as I have written, it has to be done quickly and with great care.

Although a protective mattress cover can reduce the severity of stains, my Mistress will not use one of these, however  the material can't always block the concentration of a blood stain from seeping into the fabric.

A few drops or splashes that happen to get on the mattress aren't so difficult to clean. Serious effort is  needed for a stain that happened during an aggressive sexual session, blood can be everywhere, what Mistress and her cleaning sub must do is not permit  hours for it to settle into the sheets and matress.

Work on removing the stain as soon as it's discovered. The longer the blood is left in the mattress, the more time the stain has to set, which increases the difficulty of removing it.

As I try to avoid a full mattress cleanse, not because I am lazy, but because it reduces the wear life of the mattress.

What I do is as follows,

Blot any excess blood with a clean rag or towel. Lightly press on the cloth to absorb the fluid so you don't push it deeper into the mattress fibres.

Fill a clean plastic spray bottle with cold water. Add two tablespoons of ammonia or white vinegar to it and shake the bottle to mix the liquid.

Spray the stain until the area is completely damp. It's OK if you create a small puddle, but don't let it get any bigger. You don't want to make the stain wider with the runoff created by the cold water.

Blot the area with a clean part of the towel to soak up the liquid. If you have a small stain or one that isn't very deep, repeatedly spraying and blotting it will bring it up.

For deeper or wider stains which is more often the case, after initially spraying and blotting the area, squeeze a few spurts of lemon liquid dish detergent on the stain. Use a small scrub brush to lightly work it into the area. Blot again with a towel to absorb the excess moisture, then spray it to rinse it off. If this is working, keep applying small amounts of detergent, rubbing the stain, blotting it and rinsing it. It takes a lot of time and effort but it has to be done.

For intense or broad stains, add with great care, a splash of hydrogen peroxide. Let it foam up and bring the bacteria to the surface. Blot the peroxide, spray it with the spray bottle to rinse it, and blot away the residue. Add the hydrogen peroxide as needed to pull the stain out.

You must do all exercises slowly in small patches, as the cleansing process can leave white stains worse than the original stain, on bedding but worse still the mattress..

On occasion I find used and worn panties in the bed, these are never of Mistress, but I have also found men’s G-Strings , I always discreetly put them with the wash, wash and iron them, and then return them to Mistress, on the single occasion I reported and handed over a pair of panties , very worn and stained, I was required to suck the linen clean, I will never make that mistake again, but I was lucky, they were from a female.

On occasion sex toys and other instruments are found in the bed, these must be carefully washed and packed in bags , these bags handed in person to Mistress, no questions must be asked , in my case I cannot , I am gagged.

I washed a few weeks ago, a black rubber or shinny type fabric maybe a latex mix, head hood and mask that was fearsome, it attached to the head and the eyes were just small slits, the nose of the mask was moulded to eventually be a mouth gag that was a dildo so Mistress must have one of the other two subs, or someone wear the mask to pleasure her, I found her bed was stripped just for a top sheet and the bottom left hand corner was saturated, as if a gallon of water had been tipped on it.

Of course even in the chastity device, the mind wonders, and I thought it seems all worth while, suffering the chastity, no erections, no orgasm, no ejaculation, not permitted to masturbate, if you are required to pleasure your Mistress in this way, I envied the slave who performed that service.

As a sub, when you have forgotten what an orgasm feels like, and your Mistress takes hers, and another, and another, multi-orgasms you realise and accept her power, and the sacrifice you must make to be able to perform such an intimate sexual act with your Mistress, that makes you very privileged. The sooner a sub accepts that only his Mistress enjoys sex and can take an orgasm, the sooner that sub settles into chastity and domestic service, and that there is no sex for him, only control and pain.

I am now privileged, I can sleep in a bed, this was not the case when I first went into my Mistresses service.

How to make your own bed, if permitted to sleep in a bed.

Never Launder your bedding with the same batch being laundered for Mistress.

Mistresses inspection, is a scene familiar to any fan of military movies, Mistress just like an old sergeant  is pacing the new recruits’ barracks, heels clicking on the floor, of course these are Mistresses heels, eyes bulging as the inspection of the bed and bedding.  Tension fills the air; the sub break out in a sweat. She checks to make sure the sub is standing against the wall, hands on head, posture is just right, eyes down, tummy held in firm, chastity device firm and in place, lock displayed, and such things as his Daily Diary tidy in his locker.

The moment of truth comes when the Mistress, takes a coin from her pocket and bounces it off the bed to see just how tightly it’s made. If it doesn’t bounce, the sub usually has to make it again and do a penance, a second time and expect the cane.

A mistress just like the military drills its men over and over again, in the skill of bed-making, this is discipline.

The subs have to do it just right, and they have to do it in a matter of minutes.

Why the Mistress would make such a big deal about how a subs bed is made. Bed and locker drills are simply a means to an end. That end is developing a subs discipline and attention to even the smallest of his Mistresses details. Plus, it ensures that order is maintained in the Mistresses home, which allows the sub to concentrate on the more important of his Mistresses matters.

Chastity is so important to ensure that order is maintained in the Mistresses home, it focuses the males mind to serve a female, without a sexual reward or sexual gratification, and also ensures the filthy ways of the male are not conducted within Mistresses home.

The subs in the household I serve within, as a sub,  is always naked except for his chastity device, or rubber trunks, I am unfortunately also gagged, I am required to exercise total silence.

I am no sissy maid, yes I do Domestic servitude, but my Mistress chooses to keep me as a male, naked not clothed in frilly items, she is skilled knowing how to make a male serve to his maximum, discipline and order are both things that can benefit all males who care and respect females, to do these things you do not have to be a sub.

When not in service to a female, men looking to get their lives together often want to tackle big goals while the rest of their life is a disorganized mess. Mistresses discipline when you are in service, helps you get the little things in your life under control, when not serving, and the sense of confidence and satisfaction you’ll feel will help you move on the big things. So if you’re looking to move your life out of neutral, when not serving a Mistress, making your bed first thing in the morning might be the best way to start.

So how to Please Mistress almost 100% with your own bedmaking.

Spread the bottom sheet, Most people today use a set of sheets that includes a fitted bottom sheet. You simply spread the sheet and fit the corners around the mattress. If you don’t have fitted sheets, as the subs bed, because your Mistress is old school, you have a few more steps to take. But the pay off is a tightness that you can never achieve with a fitted sheet, that is why she does not permit fitted sheets for subs. I pleased my Mistress as I acquire my sheets from army and navy, as second hand or surplus, and starch them. .

Stand at the foot of the bed and spread the sheet evenly across it. Once you have the sheet spread evenly, you now must employ the bed making secret known by soldiers and nurses across the world.

The Hospital corner, is the secret to a tight bed, the hospital corner is the bread and butter of making a neat bed. Many subs and bed makers  are intimidated by hospital corners, but with some practice you’ll be able to make them in a snap, and in Mistresses household a snap is a definite requisite..

Starting at the foot of the bed, tuck the end of the sheet between the mattress and box springs. Don’t just bunch the sheet between the mattress and the box springs, rather ensure that the sheet lays smoothly between the two.

Go to the head of the bed and pull the other end of the sheet taut. Tuck the sheet under the mattress as you did at the foot of the bed.

Go back to the foot of the bed and pick a corner to make your first hospital corner. Grab the sheet draping from the side about 16 inches from the foot of the bed

Place one finger on top of the corner, lifting the sheet with the other hand

Tuck lower drape under the mattress

Hold the corner in place and bring the sheet over. You want the fold on the top sheet to form a 45-degree angle. That’s standard for the Army and standard in my Mistresses household.

Tuck the rest of the side of the sheet under the mattress, working your way to the head of the bed. Repeat on all four corners of the bed. As you tuck, take your hand and smooth out any wrinkles that may form in the sheet on the top of the bed.

Spread the Top Sheet. Take the top sheet and spread it out over the bottom sheet. The end of the sheet with the large hem goes at the head of the bed. Align the top of the sheet with the head of the mattress.

If permitted a blanket, spread, your blanket on top of the sheet. Leave about six inches between the top edge of the blanket and the sheet.

Back to hospital corners, with both sheet and blanket, make these corners. Now that you have the sheet and blanket spread out, it’s time to bust out some more hospital corners. Start off by tucking in the end of the sheet at the foot of the bed between the mattress and box springs. Remember to make sure they lay smoothly between the mattress and box spring and are not just bunched under.

Pick a corner at the foot of the bed and make another hospital corner as described above. Remember to get your 45-degree angle and to continually smooth any wrinkles that form while you’re tucking. In my service I must go for the Army look with my bed, I do not tuck in the excess overhang on each side just yet.

Fold the top of the blanket and sheet down, go  to the head of the bed and stretch the blanket as close as you can to the sheet hem. Fold the sheet hem over the blanket.

 Fold both the sheet and blanket over approximately four inches. Fold again leaving 18 inches from the head of the mattress to the fold. Now you can tuck in the overhang on the sides. Remember to smooth out those wrinkles.

Place your highly starched pillow on top, Just place your pillow at the head of your bed and you’re done. Now find a coin, I hide one under my dresser,  and bounce it off the bed. If everything is nice and tight, it should bounce right back into your hand.

If you want to really create a super tightly made bed, use this trick. First, gather several  safety pins. Before any step that requires you to tuck a sheet and blanket under the mattress, stick a safety pin through them. When you tuck them under the bed, pin the blanket and sheet to the mattress. Do this all down the foot of the bed and down the sides to about the midpoint on your mattress.  This will ensure that your bed stays nice and tight through the week. My Mistress will not permit this activity, it is a judicial punishment, so I refrain.

I am supposed to strip my bed, each day to mattress, but as long as inspection is acceptable, Mistress turns a blind eye, so the methods to make the bed after a nights sleep is as follows.

Once you’ve made your bed with hospital corners and everything, it’s actually really easy to maintain throughout the week. In fact, you can make your bed every day in less than a minute. My sub brothers make their bed by walking around it and straightening things out as they go.

To make your bed quickly, use this trick ,simply make your bed while you’re still in it. When you wake up, just sit up in your bed and straighten everything out. It’s actually easier to do this while sitting in your bed’s centre than standing on its side. Once you have everything nice and straight, fold the top of the sheet and blanket down and slide out from underneath. When you get out, tuck the sides of the sheet back underneath the mattress.

A few weeks back, I was introduced to a wide leather belt, this goes around the width of the bed, and comes together with a traditional buckle, this is kept rolled up in my chest/locker . When I go to bed, I put the belt loosely around the width of the bed, and loosely buckle the belt, I slide in under the covers and settle, on my back, I must then pull the belt tight around the covers, above the waist and below the neck, and secure it, it must be so tight that I can not get my hands or arms back into the bed, and under the covers.

I sleep with my hands and arms out side of the bed. This is very correctional and Mistress does not often check, but the punishment is a judicial caning if caught sleeping without the arms and hands outside of the bed, and the belt firmly and tightly buckled.

I am required to continue this exercise at my home, when not in service at Mistresses home, this can not really be checked, but Mistress has access to my flat, and could do an inspection. I do continue this practise in my flat, I must not anger my Mistress, so I do not and will not masturbate.

Bed making instils a high degree of discipline, and starch is also a controlling force, it often gives the legs or body a friction burn, it makes a sub know his place and understand the control of a Mistress.

It is the strict rules, regulations, protocol and rituals that make the sub cope with celibacy and staying perfectly chaste, I feel very sexual and are always desperately needing in my mind, my Mistress to inspect, touch, fondle, correct or hurt , soft or hard pain, the genitals. The fact that she owns them, controls them, trains them, punishes them, inflicts pain on them, and makes it clear to me, and others in the fraternity, that I am a sub in training, in chastity, and no longer experience orgasm.

I am perfectly controlled, make an excellent bed, and will try to meet a far higher standard of excellence for my Mistress.

Another weekend served in hard labour, and this wears me out physically so my sexual craving is far less, things are getting a little easier, for me, this weekend the KTB I have worn the last two weeks does not fit well and compliment the black male moulded rubber pants, that I now wear, I guess this is part of my control and humiliation.

These black male moulded rubber pants, are quite hideous, with penile sheath and flushing tube, that dangles in front of you as you walk and work.

The restrictive rubber will not house the penis with the KTB fitted, the rubber penis sheath grips the penis, you pee and that is drained out of the penis sheath by a rubber type tube , to add to my humiliation the drainage tube is so long it is hanging well below my knees.

As there are two other men in my Mistresses service, they have become hostile to me, because they are still in chastity devices, the restrictive rubber, does permit erection that they are not allowed to have because of the solid restriction formed by the devices they wear.

All Mistresses are requiring chastity of the male these days, this is a growing industry, as women realise how they can permanently control the , male , more women are adopting the practice.

Over the last few months, I have been trained and I no longer masturbate when not controlled by a device, I no longer orgasm or take an sexual relief or pleasure other than permitted erections, I know how important to my Mistress chastity really is, not a game, it is a way of life, and to avoid permanent chastity piercing and also the punishment chastity device, that is newly introduced, which is a tube of surgical steel that goes inside the penis like a “sound” , slides in the urethra, once locked on, the penis is fully exposed but controlled from inside, it is a fearsome device that Mistresses are acquiring to instil compliance in their men.

In reality I have been taken to what they call the “wall” , I fought the journey, but I am now totally submissive, not a sissy type, but still totally compliant.

In the trio I serve with, I am the only one gagged, I am not permitted conversation in service, I have had to learn to live with a mouth gag, and the ulcers that are often caused. However this weekend I was introduced to a rubber head hood, this was frightening, it had two tubes sticking out of the nose area, to breath through, this is now to be worn by me, for ritual milking of the prostate and this weekend I was milked wearing this hood and the KTB before I left service Monday night, I had served three full days instead of two, it is a good job my employment permits these intrusions, but I love the confinement of service, it is also very controlling and aids my behaviour.

The only sex I think about is that of my Mistress, I crave to sexually please her, but not myself, and as this weekend as come and gone, nothing sexual has occurred , I have been naked in service, Mistress has been fully clothed , being milked is not sexual, you get no pleasure, indeed only a sore anus, I have been humiliated, but what Mistress has done is worked me hard, and in the last 6 weeks, I have lost almost 15lbs in weight, my pot belly has almost gone, as most of my duties are gardening related, I am tanned to perfection, and I feel fit and well.

I know it takes a lot of bottle to go down the road of learning that I have ventured, but I like being told what I can and can not do, chastity has tamed the beast in me, as it will do in all men, that can accept it. It takes the most powerful woman on the planet to require it, and enforce it, most men will run away, they can not take it.

Many Mistresses on CM wonder why they can not find the quality of men they seek, you can cane and whip , but only chastity controls the male, and the woman must know just how to use chastity. If the woman is to kind, she will fail, if to hard certainly fail, chastity has to be intertwined with ritual, the twin breathing tubes in a rubber hood to be worn when milked, makes a statement, makes the event very important, iced balls demonstrates that no pleasure must be given or taken in the procedure, and if any doubt in that direction, the sub is milked in a chastity device, or the dreaded KTB, milking is for the health of the sub, and the excitement of his controller , the Mistress enjoys this power, total control of all the seed the sub produces, is power.

Well for this sub, I am trusted again, another week free from the device, and I will certainly not fail the trust placed in me, by my Mistress. I will get on with my commercial life, free of the need to be playing with myself in these disgusting ways, if only women really knew how disgusting their partners, husbands, subs and slaves really are , they have not got a clue, the male is really very filthy.

How strange, my Mistress phoned me tonight, usually it is her slave husband who phones me, I feel so privileged.

This is my second week free of Mistresses chastity device, my honour is being tested, if those who read what I write are thinking men like I are sissy types, think again, we are all not like that, I am very much a man, and my submission to a woman, does not make me a wimp.

My Mistress reminds me, that Dominance exercised by an assertive sexy woman, is the ability to create a hunger in someone that is so strong they will do anything, anytime, anywhere just to please her.

My sacrifice is orgasm and masturbation, strictly forbidden by my Mistress,  only she as the Goddess she really is, enjoys orgasms in her poly household.

It is very risky for  Mistress to trust her sub to behave, no male can long term, but I know I must, it is part of my contract of servitude that I entered into with my Mistress.

My Mistress was quite kind tonight and said she does not want to punish me if I can not stay chaste , if I feel I can not handle the torment, I must go to her and she will relieve my lust and place me back into a locked device, this is far better than the serious punishment that I would receive and far worse, be banished from her ownership and her fraternity.

Mistress reminded me, that as I have experienced she is  a safe, strict and extremely sensual Female Dominant . Mistress is  open to both the sensual and physical sides of being served, including role-playing, on her terms, psychological humiliation,  physical discipline, domestic chores, hard labour in servitude, verbal abuse, bondage, cbt, very strict cbt, chastity all aspects of chastity to include permanent chastity and chastity by piercing, spankings, oral servitude, body worship, golden nectar, the list is endless and that is what the sub puts on the line if he risks being dismissed , there is no second chance, ever, so the sub accepts he never will have an orgasm or masturbate again, never means never.

Mistress also reminds me, that I am owned by her, a sub in training, one day I and her other sub will be collared by her, we then acquire slave status, as her husband , is already a slave, all three of us, will serve her, only her, there must be no other female in our lives now or in the future.

Our only purpose in life is to serve her, and suffer for her, and she told me, that she knows how difficult it is for the male not to play with himself, but that is the sacrifice that Mistress demands from us, she asked if I understood and could cope, and what a waste of the past months when I have trained to be trusted, months in a device , all this sacrifice and training could be wasted and lost within a few seconds of pulling at the penis, what a terrible waste of time and effort, and lost aspirations ,all down the drain, lost for ever.

Mistress said that she wants me to cope, she does not want to lose me, I am the best secretary come clerk that she has ever had, but rules are rules, if I play with my self , I will be history.

Now she put the fear of the universe in my mind, she said , just rubbing the fingers up and down the penis shaft twice, she deems as masturbation,  she may introduce me to an item like a wand, a piece of metal with a hoop at the end, the sub puts the head of the penis in the hoop by catching it, he then can hold the penis  out, away from the body, to pee, no hands touch the penis, so no risk of masturbation by a couple of up and down motions. Of course this wand is part of humiliation, something Mistress enjoys.

Before Friday when I serve Mistress next, I have to write a 2000 word essay, all about my Love for my Mistress, how I lust for her, crave her touch, how I understand that to please her I submit to her as if married, my desires are as if I was married to her, but she requires chastity and no intimate sexual  connection , she desires my chastity not sexual intercourse from me, the penis has no use to her sexually, and as Mistress has no use for the penis, she requires through my submission, that I have no use for it, other than a sensitive part of my anatomy, that is responsive to Mistress pain in training and for her amusement and often her arousal.

Be it that the penis, Mistress’s owned penis, was erect or semi-erect throughout the telephone conversation, it was a nice feeling but I   had no intention of playing with it, I must show honour and obedience, and I am very sure that the chastity devices that I hate will soon be locked back onto me, I am a man, and we can not control ourselves, we must be controlled.

I am so tired now, I concentrated so hard on all Mistress said to me, going to bed I am sure I will be asleep within 5 minutes of lodging this article on my journal.

My Mistress introduced me to, this weekend, the ultimate in control, it is called the Kali’s Teeth Bracelet.

I have suffered many months of permanent chastity, suffered and complained like hell, but this control is a new direction.

I was restrained and my chastity device that has locked me away for so many months was removed, I was cleansed with  warm lemon smelling water and then genital  shaved.

Throughout the cleansing I was reminded about my needed to stay in chastity, and this was my next step, to test my love for my Mistress, my resolves and total obedience that demanded strict irrevocable chastity.

The lecture and shaving aroused me a little, and I was washed in water with ice cubes in, to get the penis in a smaller shrivelled state, and this device was fitted using a ring around the balls, and it felt as if my entire penis was locked into a stinging tube, it pricked and tingled a bit, and Mistress made a lot of fuss about locking it.

I have never experienced such excitement from my Mistress, and she was definitely very turned on, I do not know how I was so sure, but I was, and this make me feel so good and with a use and purpose, nothing is more rewarding to a sub, than to sexually turn his Mistress on.

I was so shocked with in seconds I found myself between her legs, she climbed on me, slid the crutch oh her panties to the side, and I was licking at her temple, this was not the way my Mistress performed usually, my mouth was full of her juices, and soon my face was covered, she started to scream as I did, she was having an orgasm and spurting cum, this really is shocking, she was ejaculating, I was screaming in terrible pain, I had become aroused, not erect, and the pain is like nothing I have ever experienced before, I felt as if I was being castrated.

What seemed like hours must have been a minute, but I was really screaming, and I think I was crying, the pain was terrible, I felt as if I would need to go to hospital, Mistress got off me, told me what a good boy I had been, what a good boy I had become, and started washing my penis in the freezing cold water, this reduced the pain, and I went very limp, as limp as  I was originally inserted into the KTB.

Mistress lectured me about the respect that I had shown over the months to her, understanding that only my Mistress must enjoy sex, have orgasms, I please her by not having these experiences, and working hard in her household, serving well and being a true sub. I felt the weight on my genitals from the KTB but the pain had ceased, but it felt as if sharp hooks had pierced by penis, and were still gripping it.

When I was released from restraint and stood up, I felt the weight of the locked device drag down on my penis, and yes it felt I was being gripped by sharp claws , it was a tearing flesh feeling, very frightening.

Mistress said when I was fitted Friday late afternoon, that this week end I will not be doing hard labour in the device, but office duties and I was taken to the Library to start work immediately.

I walked naked except for the KTB behind Mistress, this device I was terrified of, I could never wear this permanently, impossible, I was sore now, in a little pain, but I have never been so obedient.

Mistress sat at her desk, I stood before her, I was told to put my hands on my head, listen and understand.

My mind wondered about how I had been between her legs a short time ago, but my mind was telling my brain , fighting my brain , not to think sexual, I was aware thinking sexual, arousal was going to hurt bad, I just wanted to please Mistress, I wanted to have Mistress train me this way, I was ready to work now, and get my mind of sexual things.

Mistress turned on the computer and Internet, you are free to use this , she told me, look at as much porn as you want, you will soon understand why Mistress forbids you looking at porn, but you have lessons to learn.

She clicked on xtube and xamster, these were video channels, and other sites, all sorts of things came up, I looked only at the keyboard. It was now about 7-00pm and I was told that I must use the computer, to look at sexual websites, and direct myself to them under my own mental state, I was warned to get ready to run for ice water, the device will chop into the cock otherwise, the KTB is constantly reminding the wearer that he must behave for his Mistress, and I can assure you, as the sub wearing it I did.

Just to do as I was ordered , I clicked on a few sites, but did not really look or read, she then left, I clicked on Collar Me, I was going to see if I had any mail, I had 5 inbox, I felt pain in my cock, it was bad and I had not aroused I was sure, I clicked off immediately, read nothing, just got off the internet.

I tried to relax, sat panting and breathing, and it eased, I then started filing and tidying Mistresses office, I liked being trusted, there was some important papers, letters and legal stuff, I realised that my Mistress was an important person and very commercially powerful.

Mistress and slave husband came in to the Library at about midnight, I was asked how I was doing, she flicked through my work and some new files, that I had generated, slave husband was in his chastity device, and looked red faced, he looked at my KTB as I stood to attention, hands on head as I addressed and replied to Mistress. He just looked at the KTB and stared, never taking his eyes of it.

Mistress said I must work into the night if I can, these are my duties this weekend, soft labour.

Sunday morning, I was released out of the KTB, I can not explain how bruised I was, mistress lectured me as I stood before her, hands on head. In the condition I was in, she was not going to refit the KTB and I felt sure no way the chastity device I wear, so what next.

I was the most submissive well behaved man any woman could wish for, if mistress trusts me, out of the device, I will not touch or play, certainly not masturbate, continue as if locked up, I swear on my oath, my honour, my very life. She agreed to let me free, without permission,  I dropped at her feet and kissed her shoes, I hugged her shoes, thanking her repeatedly.

She looked pleased.

I must write 5000 words, based on 1250 per night on how I will stay chaste without enforcement, and my first part of the thesis starts as follows,

Mistress introducing me to the Kali Teeth Bracelet, (KTB) has changed my attitude dramatically. The KTB  is an incredible wearer behaviour modification device, and what makes it so effective is the bed-of-nails. The numerous, small gaps between the spikes capture soft flesh between them, securing the device and preventing it’s removal.

If left alone the bracelet is quite docile, but Kali bites if the wearer experiences and erection or tries to remove it. The slightest arousal causes pain, arousal that is not often noticed otherwise.

When you pull the bracelet forward in an attempt to remove it, the skin in front bunches and the teeth sink-in and bite the flesh behind.

The sensations it creates when you experience an erection is breathtaking, unbelievable pain and teaches you to control your erections. It's therefore both an anti-erection device and a anti-masturbation device. 

Small and some are lightweight, the KTB is highly discreet and unnoticeable when worn beneath pants, but I do not want to receive it and wear it as a chastity device, this is a cruel enforcer that corrects all sexual arousal, with vicious pain.

I do not believe it could be worn long term, it would be to dangerous.

There are many manufacturers, the device I wore was based on the following specifications,

1-1/2” in diameter and are offered in three sizes. The inner diameter of teeth measure:

Mild = 1” (25mm)

Intense = 7/8" (22mm)

Severe = 3/4" (19mm)

The mild version, I believe,  is by far the most popular version sold and is meant for 24/7 long term wear. I can not believe that however as I am of the opinion I was fitted with a (25mm) and I could not wear it longer than the period I spent in that trap.

The intense is meant to be a training device for expanding limits, and the severe a punishment device for very short term use. However, the desired use and intended effect is essentially dependent upon the width of the user's member when at rest.

 As a base point from which to begin, take a measurement of the penis width when at rest/flacid. If it is 1” wide or more, then the manufacturers suggest purchasing the moderate version,  if the intended use is for 24/7 wear. Maybe 24/7 is classified as several days as in my case.

If the measurement is  less than 1” in width when at rest, manufacturers suggest purchasing the intense version for 24/7 wear.

The extreme version is best used on the person who has a much, much narrower than average member/penis , or for advanced training with a super human sub with a very high threshold for pain.

These devices come from USA , or more specific Pacific North West, made from surgical grade steel, to a very high standard of quality.

It was so wonderful Sunday and most of today to be free, I did my Domestic service better because I want to stay free, but today like yesterday it was clerical, and I tried hard in that field to please my Mistress.

I did an hour and a half in training this afternoon, nothing changed , I tried harder to please my Mistress to continue to avoid control through a device.

Late being dismissed, by Mistress,  I have missed a days work, I am lucky my job is flexible, I will make up lost time, this week, with added energy.

I write my journal for many friends I have, who share submissiveness, so the essays I write for Mistress can be incorporated, with my journal.

To close tonight I can say that the KTB has corrected my attitude and I will obey Mistress now without question, if I fail my Mistress now, I fail myself.

A lesson to subs who can not take the treatment and training.

Kali’s stance is with one foot on the thigh, and the other on the breast of her husband, a point made. Her form, Kalis form  is fearsome and vicious. 

I have being crying about my chastity control and training, my Mistress has demonstrated to me that it is required, I know in my heart and soul it is, but I can not take it , month after month.

This weekend I am being introduced to a different device, to be locked on my genitals, just for the weekend I have been told, so that my acceptance can be monitored, I will serve from 5-00pm this afternoon until 11-00am Monday in a Kali’s Teeth Bracelet, it will be locked on, and not removed until my service period is finished.

As I am long term chastity, I will be prostate milked , during this 90 minute milking the device , the Kali’s Teeth Bracelet, will stay in place, so I will give my essence whilst in the KTB.

So what am I going to be locked into,

The Kali’s Teeth Bracelet is an incredible behaviour modification device, and what makes it so effective is the bed-of-nails. The numerous, small gaps between the spikes capture soft flesh between them, securing the device and preventing it’s removal.

If left alone the bracelet is quite docile, but Kali bites if the wearer experiences and erection or tries to remove it. When you pull the bracelet forward in an attempt to remove it, the skin in front bunches and the teeth sink-in and bite the flesh behind.

Kali’s teeth are white, symbolizing purity, the KBT are of steel.

The sensations it creates when you experience an erection is breathtaking, and teaches you to control your erections. It's therefore both an anti-erection device and a anti-masturbation device.  Small and lightweight, the KTB is highly discreet and unnoticeable when worn beneath pants.

The KTB I shall be fitted with has a security ring that fits behind the ball sac, like a cb6000.

Kali first appeared in the Devi-Mahatmya; this explained that she came from the brow of the goddess Durga (who is the slayer of the demons) at some point during one of the battles during the forces of the divine and anti-divine. 

Kali represents the virginal autonomy of the woman warrior who spawned her, making her also a representation of the forceful side of Durga.  Kali therefore is not only the mysterious source from which all life is created, but also the soil from which all things grow and where all things decompose; she creates all…yet she consumes all. 

The traditional representation of Kali is as a black woman who has four arms.  In one of her arms, she is holding a sword, while in another; she holds the head of a demon she has just killed.  Kali’s earrings are comprised of two dead bodies, and she wears a matching necklace of sculls.  She is completely naked save for a girdle composed of dead men’s hands.  Kali’s tongue sticks out very long from her mouth.  She has red eyes, and both her face and breasts are covered in blood.  Kali’s stance is with one foot on the thigh, and the other on the breast of her husband. 

Her form is fearsome and vicious, yet it remains awe-inspiring through its abundant symbols. 

Ÿ         Her black color means her transcendence of all form.

Ÿ         Her nakedness means that she lacks the covering of illusions.

Ÿ         Her is full-breasts represent her maternal nature as never-ending creator

Ÿ         The garland is of 50 human heads.  Each head represents one of the 50 letters in the Sanskrit alphabet.  This demonstrates her vast wisdom.

Ÿ         Her girdle of hands represents karma, as the hands are the main instrument of work.

Ÿ         Kali’s teeth are white, symbolizing purity.

Ÿ         Kali’s long, protruding red tongue symbolizes that she consumes all.

Ÿ         Her four arms show the full circuit from creation to destruction, all embodied within her.  Her right hands make the madras, which means “fear not” and they show Kali’s creative side.  Alternately, her left hands hold a sword that has been bloodied and a severed head, showing Kali’s fierce, destructive side.

Ÿ         The head and sword themselves represent the annihilation of ignorance and the emergence of wisdom. It is, after all, the sword of knowledge that destroys false-consciousness (depicted as the severed head).  Kali also uses this sword to open the gates of freedom, by cutting the eight bonds that bind human beings.

Ÿ         Kali’s three eyes are for the sun, moon, and fire; this way she can see three modes of time:  past, present and future. 

Kali's exists in the cremation ground, which is representative of a location in which the five different elements cease.  As far as Kali is concerned, these elements are considered to be: attachments, anger, lust, and other binding emotions, feelings, and ideas.

I am to learn all about Kali this weekend, the KTB will be removed and my own chastity device refitted, my chastity uninterrupted.

As from this weekend , my Mistress will require me to worship in addition to her, Kali, the Goddess and I am to write a 3000 word essay on how worshiping Kali will help me accept my need of chastity, and stay a pure male, and how I can learn to serve all women better, in particular my Mistress.

This week end past, I as a proud hard working sub, have learnt about the inherent spirituality, healing potential, self awareness and soul enlightenment within BDSM and it’s varied expressions.

I could never have made this journey if my Mistress had not demanded total 24/7 chastity, and many Mistresses are doing excactly this, I have learnt through being chaste for my Mistress and pleasuring her with my acceptance of her ways is the most rewarding experience in my life so far.

For me, and my understanding,  Mystic BDSM is truly a universal term, in that there is no ‘one way; to experience a spiritual or transformational initiation via BDSM. I believe, and will present every piece of wisdom I have learnt on this my journal, that each of us must take full accountability for our own spiritual journey- and no two of us will take the same trip.

This is why, talking about ones own, experiences is so very important.

Mystic BDSM allows us to reconcile the timeless rift of Divinity vs. Conventional sexual, relief and pleasure. Through the practices and philosophies presented herein, we can integrate all levels of our being and walk a unified and empowered path that extends from the dungeon or training room to the work place. In Mystic BDSM, nothing gets shut-off when we enter the dungeon, training room or place of correction, and nothing gets turned back on when we leave. Dungeon or sub/slave training  time is our temple time- it is our sacred session in front of the mirror of the soul allowing us to see the truth of our true selves and out latent spiritual prowess.

Mystic BDSM is a journey that allows us to define (as best we can define spirituality) and embrace that often elusive power we experience when we play, control, surrender or simply be. Becomming a soul-freind, or ‘anam cara’ with the powerful secrets unlocked as we walk this path initiates us into a level of ecstatic being which truly empowers us as modern mystics.

Mystic BDSM is a left-hand path par excellence. We don’t wait for our demons to catch us- we look for them. We experience catharsis as our weakness leaves the body through the medium of intensity and the cracking whip or swinging cane becomes our prayerful repose. Our marks of sanctity come in shades of blue, green and red. Our supplications and petitions are expressed in moments of deep internal reflection and unbridled outpouring of carnal screaming. Our truth lies between the two pillars of spirit and flesh.

Those 2 pillars when conjoined is the strength of our conviction, our submission to our Mistress, and as time goes by, that strength of conviction magnifies.

For I a true red blooded male, surrended my sexual being totally to the control of my worshipful Mistress, she not only holds the key to my ongoing what may be permanent chastity, but that key controls my mind , total body and soul. I as one of the most sex crazed males of the species no longer enjoy sexual pleasure in the conventional sense, the powerful ejaculations, and screams of orgasm, the body sweat of arousal, hours of daily pleasure with the hand masturbating, the ultimate intercourse with a consenting excited woman, all this is history as my training directs me to serving, pleasing, working hard, providing, entertaining, sacraficing, for the pleasure of my Mistress. My Mistresses top priority is chastity that must be served by all her can I say “poly household” male submissive men, I have become one of three and it makes the man.

We are what our Mistress wants us to be, do as she wants, be as she wants , to be owned is a wonderful experience, to be sexually owned is utopia, if you have the right Mistress , soon a real Mistress,  teaches you that,  to serve a woman is not about ones own sexual gratification, it is about hers only, and that may be the stimulant, for her, keeping her slaves, subs and subjects totally chaste, and convert red hot male sexual lust into pure enrergy, not sexually related.

Yes its chemistry, BDSM chemistry,

SO MODERN DAY MISTRESSES WHO THINK THEY HAVE INVENTED THE CONTROL OF MEN, READ WHAT MY MISTRESS HAS ORDERED ME TO LEARN, THIS GOES BACK TO ENGLISH VICTORIAN DAYS, BUT ALSO "Victorian attitudes were not confined to Britain"  THIS IS FACTUAL HISTORY.

BUT MODERN DAY MISTRESSES WITH VICTORIAN VALUES WILL BE INTERESTEED IN THE FOLLOWING ARTICLE.

GET THIS AND UNDERSTAND

male sexual 'expenditure' and especially 'excess' (spermatorrhea) were said to cause enfeeblement.

NOW READ ON

Male anxieties in relation to both physical and mental health in the Victorian era often seem to have concentrated on the supposedly baleful effects of masturbation, which was alleged to cause a wide range of physical and mental disorders, and on venereal diseases, especially syphilis. This brings us neatly into the subject of Victorian sexuality, which has been a continuing topic of debate and fascination.

According to their own testimonies, many people born in the Victorian age were both factually uninformed and emotionally frigid about sexual matters. Historically, it appeared that the licentious behaviour and attitudes of the Regency period had been replaced by a new order of puritan control and repression--personified by the censorious figure of Mrs Grundy--which was imposed by the newly dominant bourgeoisie, steadily permeated all classes, and lasted well into the twentieth century. Then a hypocritical 'shadow side' to this public denial was glimpsed, in the 'secret world' of Victorian prostitution and pornography, and more openly in the 'naughty nineties'. These perspectives were contested by the French scholar Michel Foucault (reminding us that Victorian attitudes were not confined to Britain), who argued that sex was not censored but subject to obsessive discussion as a central discourse of power, bent on regulation rather than suppression. This helps explain why sexuality looms so large in art and medicine, for example, as well as in studies of the Victorian age.

Lately, evidence has shown that Victorian sex was not polarised between female distaste ('Lie back and think of England', as one mother is famously said to have counselled her anxious, newly married daughter) and extra-marital male indulgence. Instead many couples seem to have enjoyed mutual pleasure in what is now seen as a normal, modern manner. The picture is occluded however by the variety of attitudes that exist at any given time, and by individuals' undoubted reticence, so that information on actual experience is often inferred from demographic and divorce court records. Certainly, the 1860s were briefly as 'permissive' as the same decade in the twentieth century, while the 1890s saw an explosion of differing and conflicting positions. Throughout, however, the public discussion of sexual matters was characterised by absence of plain speaking, with consequent ignorance, embarrassment and fear.

By mid-century the Victorian conjunction of moralism and scientific investigation produced ideas of orthodox human sexuality based on a combination of social and biological ideas. Popularly expressed, this amounted to 'Hogamus higamus, men are polygamous/Higamus hogamus, women are monogamous', with the added detail that 'the majority of women (happily for them) are not very much troubled by sexual feeling of any kind. What men are habitually, women are only exceptionally.'

In order to curb men's habitual urges, and in response to Malthusian predictions that population increase would inevitably outstrip food resources, early Victorian social moralists proposed and to some extent imposed a socio-medical discourse based on masculine self-control in support of the bourgeois ideal of domestic life. 'A patriarchal culture which prizes eternal self-vigilance as the key to manliness, moral worth and material success' then projected its sexual anxieties on to its subordinates: women, children, the lower classes and other nations.' In line with the physiological idea of the body as a closed system of energy, male sexual 'expenditure' and especially 'excess' (spermatorrhea) were said to cause enfeeblement. Thus it was seriously held, for example, that sexual appetite was incompatible with mental distinction and that procreation impaired artistic genius. Men were vigorously counselled to conserve vital health by avoiding fornication, masturbation and nocturnal emissions (for which a variety of devices were invented) and by rationing sex within marriage. Even when other causes were present, sickness and debility were frequently ascribed to masturbation--the great erotic subject described as vigorously as it was denounced. 'That insanity arises from masturbation is now beyond a doubt', declared one widely read authority, who also claimed that 'masturbators' became withdrawn, flabby, pale, self-mutilating and consumptive. Ailments afflicting adolescent girls were similarly said to signify abnormal sexual excitation. With punitive therapy in mind, some doctors erased sexual pleasure through barbaric practices such as penile cauterisation and clitorodectomy.

For the same reasons, 'irregular' sexual activity was condemned. There is ample evidence that many working-class couples anticipated marriage (or rather married once a baby was on the way). But the ratio of illegitimate births was relatively low, albeit a constant topic of drama in poetry, painting and fiction--notable examples being the outcast single mothers depicted in paintings by Richard Redgrave and Fred Walker, and in fiction by George Eliot's Hetty Sorrel and Thomas Hardy's Fanny Robin. In real life, social censure was so grave that many single mothers handed their babies to the Foundling Hospital or in desperation committed infanticide.

Changing views of prostitution
Prostitution remained a major topic of social concern. The early, time-honoured view that, like the poor, prostitutes were a fact of life was replaced in the 1840s by a social morality that anathematised sexual licence and especially its public manifestations. Gathering intensity as the urban population rose, and with it the 'circulating harlotry' in the streets, theatres and pleasure gardens, moral panic over prostitution was at its height in the 1850s and early 1860s. In part, this was because it betokened visible female freedom from social control. As daughters, employees or servants, young women were subject to male authority; as whores they enjoyed economic and personal independence. The response was a sustained cultural campaign, in sermons, newspapers, literary and visual art, to intimidate, shame and eventually drive 'fallen women' from the streets by representing them as a depraved and dangerous element in society, doomed to disease and death. Refuges were opened and men like future Prime Minister W E. Gladstone patrolled at night to persuade girls to leave their life of 'vice'. In actuality, the seldom-voiced truth was that in comparison to other occupations, prostitution was a leisured and profitable trade, by which women improved their circumstances, helped to educate siblings and often saved enough to open a shop or lodging house.

The introduction of the Contagious Diseases Acts whereby prostitute women were medically examined and detained if deemed to suffer from venereal disease (in order to protect their sexual partners, mainly soldiers and sailors)--gave rise to one of the era's most successful and characteristic reform campaigns. The anti-contagious diseases (CD) movement, led by Josephine Butler, argued that CD examinations effectively encouraged prostitution; that women should not be thus scape goated or deprived of civil liberty; and that male lust was to blame for public vice. These were important issues; in addition, the emergence of 'polite' women speaking on topics hitherto deemed improper for them to discuss underlined the changing roles of the Victorian period

By the 1870s and 1880s, evolutionary ideas of male sexuality as a biological imperative, which added fuel to many male writings on gender, were countered by those who argued that 'civilisation' enabled humans to transcend animal instincts. This view acquired a public voice through the Social Purity campaign against the sexual 'double standard', and for male as well as female continence outside marriage. Though female Purity campaigners were often ridiculed as 'new puritans' who had failed to attract a spouse, the movement did succeed in raising public concern over brothels, indecent theatrical displays and images of naked women in art--the reason why Victorian female nudes are idealised and air-brushed.

Private sexual behaviour is hard to assess, though there are many hints that 'considerate' husbands, who did not insist on intercourse, were admired, not least because of the high maternal mortality rate. But there is plain evidence that the early Victorian family of six to eight or more children was on its way out by 1901: from the 1870s couples in all classes were choosing to limit and plan family size 'by a variety of methods within a culture of abstinence'. This took place despite the fact that contraceptive knowledge and methods were not publicly available, as the famous obscenity trial of Annie Besant and Charles Bradlaugh for publishing a sixpenny book on the subject in 1877 made clear.

Family limitation was accompanied by challenges to prevailing attitudes to sexual relations from the New Woman and her male supporters. 'But men are different Florence; you can't refuse a husband, you might cause him to commit sin', replies one fictional character when daughter argues against 'conjugal rights'. 'Bosh,' retorts Florence, 'he is responsible for his own sins, we are not bound to dry-nurse his morality.' The New Woman was hard on men, it explained, in order to 'banish the beast' in him.

Visible homosexuality
Although heterosexuality was held to be both normal and natural throughout the period, later years also witnessed a visible increase in homosexuality, mainly in men and especially but not exclusively in the intelligentsia. While largely clandestine owing to laws prohibiting 'indecency' in public (the artist Simeon Solomon was one of those so prosecuted), male homosexual activity was legal until 1885, when gay sex in private was made a criminal offence; this led, most notoriously, to the imprisonment in 1896 of Oscar Wilde, playwright and poseur.

Reasons for the emergence of a distinctly gay subculture within 1890s' Decadence movement include the promotion of 'Greek' or Platonic relationships by some university dons; the extended bachelorhood that resulted from prescriptions of financial prudence and sexual continence; and a counter-cultural defiance of orthodox moral teaching, which gave added allure to the forbidden and deviant. The supremely Decadent drawings of Aubrey Beardsley (1872-98) vividly evoke the atmosphere of this moment.

At the very end of the century, questions of sexual identity were also subject to speculative and would-be scientific investigation, dubbed sexology (1902). Writers such as Havelock Ellis (1859-1939) attempted detailed classification of 'normal' and 'perverse' sexual practices. This led to the identification of a 'third' or 'intermediate' sex, for which Ellis used the term 'sexual inversion'. Writer and social reformer Edward Carpenter (1844-1929), who lived with a younger male partner, adapted the word 'Uranian' (1899) to denote male and female homosexuality, and around the same time, Lesbian and Sapphic came into use as terms for female relationships. Apocryphally, these were also due to be criminalised in the 1885 legislation, until Queen Victoria declared them impossible, whereupon the clause was omitted--a joke that serves to underline a common, and commonly welcomed, ignorance, at a time when lurid, fictionalised lesbianism was often figured as an especially repulsive/seductive French vice.

Today, the best-known lesbian relationship in Victorian Britain has become that of Anne Lister of Shibden in south Yorkshire and her partner with its distinctly erotic as well as romantic elements; other couples include poets Katherine Bradley and her niece Edith Cooper, who wrote collaboratively from the 1880s under the name Michael Field, and the Irish writers Edith Somerville and Violet Martin. In the Victorian period itself, American actress Charlotte Cushman and French painter Rosa Bonheur were well known for their openly 'masculine' independence and demeanour.

In the fields of gender, health, medicine and sexuality, the Victorians seldom lived up to their stereotypes. As with so many other areas of their ideas and practices, they grappled with complex, dramatically developing fields, always influenced by a wider global view.

I have just completed 3 days of Domestic service, I have a one hour drive after being dismissed, driving home tonight I wonder why we subs suffer so much cruelty, I am in work tomorrow at 8-00am, I have a lot of preparation, I was hoping to be home by 6-00pm , not 20 after midnight.

I have been worked hard, usually I love this service, but I am doing mostly hard manual work, this website is full of what we like and dislike, sex, sex, sex, and yet my weekend as seen , certainly nothing sexual other than the three hour massage and bathing session I gave my Mistress mid day between hard labour.

Some may think a sub being kept in chastity is very exciting and sexual, after time, it means little, other than you work harder for the Lady who holds the key, thus controls the subs body.

I have to say the best part of my weekend was today, bathing and massaging Mistress, I gave her a forty minute foot massage, with peppermint oils, I intimately shaved her with great care, that took another half an hour, bathing and body massage totalled over 3 hours, in all. Yes it was the best part of my week end, that is what I like doing, but Mistress afterwards said that I was being to intimate, this was a task of work, not for my titillation, and I received 2 strokes of the cane and 6 with a paddle, this was not true,  I do not want to tease my self being over intimate, because my device controls me and arousal hurts, its painful.

I have been gagged most of the three days, as I am not permitted to talk, so I have no way of explaining myself , I think for me, the punishment was for correction and wrong doing, it hurt, but I know that I do not deserve this, that is what hurts worse, I feel a failure, that I have failed Mistress pleasuring her, not wishing to make her feel uncomfortable.

I know I should not be thinking this way, but this is one way traffic, even a sub must get something out of serving a Mistress, I had not expectations of my Mistress, but I realise indeed I have, I have no idea what the other two men think, we are not allowed to have or hold conversations, one who is my fellow sub, the other Mistresses husband slave, all three of us were very miserable today, almost all day.

When I think about it, all this week, I will do my job until next Friday, and there will be a repeat performance, another week of chastity, hard work, pleasing Mistress, being humiliated, I must think this through , is this right, is this what I want, is this really a subs life.

When I read the profiles of both Mistresses and subs on this CM website, I think that most of  these people can not really be living this life 24/7 365, if I did not get a rest bite, I could not cope, Men who are subs say they want wicked women, women who say they are Mistresses profess wickedness, the real life is not like fantasy and playtime, and all the sexy things everyone says they do and like, is not part of Domestic Servitude in a Mistresses service.

What is a matter with me, I can walk away from this, at anytime, I am a sub not a collared slave.

I must sleep now, I have had many e-mails over the extended weekend, I will answer them all, next few days. My apologies.

I have just been reading SUB TRAINING CURRICULUM from the blog site of a very famous Mentor and Teacher on CM, a true and real Mistress, and I think most subs who are real should spend more time learning how to please and precise etiquette.

I have copied some of the mandatory rules, of course there are many more than this, but this list encapsulates much of what I have been taught , and I think the list is worthy of being considered by subs considering service to a Mistress.

This very famous Mentor and Teacher on CM, a true and real Mistress, goes on to explain Domestic Duties, one she has missed is the one I shall be involved in tomorrow , Wednesday that being Gardening Duties.

I work with my Mistress’s Husband collared slave, and another male sub, we are all in chastity.

We are naked except for big boots, no socks, and we can wear protective gloves, nothing else.

I worked a full day Sunday last, doing Gardening duties, nothing sexual, no play time, just hard labour. Weeding, mowing lawns, cutting branches, getting stung about the body by nettles and brambles, bitten about the body later in the day by midges, this is servitude to a mistress.

On Wednesday all three of us, will barrow load, 20 Tonnes of path gravel and rake into the garden paths,  these are Gardening duties, nothing sexual, no play time, just hard labour.

Those who think serving a Mistress in Domestic Service is all kinky stuff, think again, this is many Mistresses lifestyes.

The only thing kinky, is all three men are kept in chastity, so we think less of sex, and more of service to our Mistress.

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SUB TRAINING CURRICULUM from the blog site of a very famous Mentor and Teacher on CM,

Mandatory:
1. Proper etiquette and Protocol
2. How to greet a Mistress in public and private settings
3. Proper eye positioning
4. Greeting the foot
5. Proper dialogue and Titles
6. The 10 positions of a slave and why they are good for you
• a. kneel up
• b. kneel down
• c. present wrists
• d. all fours
• e. present ass
• f. present ass for caning
• g. present ass for reminder
• h. stand at attention
• i. present to be collared
• j. positions for proper foot service.

I have become addicted to Mistress and her ways, her lifestyle and control, I was summonsed this morning , at my place of work, urgently, I dropped everything I was doing, and was with here within 90 minutes.

I was terrified, what had I done wrong?

Within 5 minutes of arrival I was naked before her, and she checked my chastity device, as if I had found a secret way to unlock it. It is impossible, the device is escape proof.

Mistress wanted to paddle me, I did 5 hours of confessions over the last few weeks, and Mistress said she had been thinking on them.

I assumed the position

Mistress said, count and thank me, and answer my questions, and I got my first whack, it hurt.

“Thank you Mistress, one Mistress , thank you”

She said as from today, you watch no more football, no more world cup, instead you are going to write two essays a day, one about your disgusting fetishes and kinks, the second essay is “why you need my control, and why you are not allowed to masturbate, not to have orgasm, not to have any sexual pleasure, certainly your cock will never enter a woman’s vagina again, and why you must dedicate your life to my service”

I received 20 strokes of the leather paddle and it hurt so much, I was covered in sweat, 30 minutes later I was dismissed.

Mistress gave me a list of fetishes, that I must write about, some are disgusting and not my fetish at all, the pain in my rear made it impossible to sit on my car seat, I have learnt to carry a cushion or two in the boot, it really did not help, I jiggled around for about an hour before I could even sit down.

This will have cost me over half a day in work, so I will have to make that up in overtime tonight and tomorrow, in total this summons today took up 6 hours.

I certainly have become addicted to Mistress and her ways, her lifestyle and control, yes, I was summonsed this morning , she is so wise, I needed this correction, I needed to sacrifice watching football, I liked having my genital prison examined and that she has sentenced my genitals to a life sentence, my behaviour in the past has been disgusting, I now take my punishment and become a better male person, one who shows total respect to women.

Friday the 26^th March 2010 I commenced chastity as a requirement to serve my Mistress properly, it has been so hard to accept, real serious pain, but as my training programme progresses , all I live for is to please my Mistress, for me to feel this way, she has taught me that she must take total control.

Over the last few weeks, Mistress has worked me hard in Domestic service, and I have progressed to understand my service, the last few weeks have been the most demanding in my life, to serve a powerful woman as I do, along with her slave husband, and also an additional chastity sub servant as I am, makes all three of us men so happy in her service, what I am learning that has challenged me over the last few weeks is,

The real  FemDom lifestyle, the man is disciplined by the woman so he becomes a better man and a better servant to her. The man is disciplined in order to be corrected so that he becomes that better husband and or servant. A weekly discipline session is so the Mistress or Dominant Wife can grade the man's performance in his assigned goals and tasks. He is given correction via discipline so that his performance will improve and so that he is properly trained in how to better serve his Mistress or Dominant wife.

Discipline is hated by us subs, when conducted in a genuine way, it is deserved, and trains our minds, it also empowers the Mistress more, all we males live for is to please her.

Mistress then teaches me that a punishment is a judgment or a sentence for the violation of the law that the Dominant woman/mistress has laid down. The man that knowingly has violated one of his Mistresses rules or commands is punished to pay her retribution for his unlawful behaviour.

An example would be, say the Dominant Wife forbids her slave husband or subs access to certain rooms in the home, or he must ask permission to leave her presence, or ask permission to go to the bathroom, If he violates her known rules, he then should be punished to learn his lesson and to pay her retribution for his infraction.

I love to please my Mistress and work hard in her service, this is non sexual as for I, I can gain nothing sexual as this part of my life is controlled, I no longer am permitted any sexual pleasure or relief, I know that I am a better male controlled by Mistress, all my pleasure comes from my Mistresses pleasure, I was going to close down my account on Collar Me, but I have decided when I get a moment to write about my experiences, about three weeks ago, I almost gave up, I could not face another hour in chastity, I was in need of help and advice, I was fortunate, a very worldly Mistress on this website , gave me some advice, she was able to understand through my fear that I really loved being in this lifestyle, as much as I hated the lifestyle, I craved it, she was right, she really understood , she helped me through decision time.

So I will keep writing,  for the many subs I write with, many who failed me in my hour of need, my Mistress on occasion gives me something greater than orgasm or relief, she will play with me, we have what I call a Y bench, secure to that bench, Mistress takes off the chastity device, a wet flannel towel impregnated with lemon juice is used to freshen the genital area, and Mistress may play with me for a couple of hours, G clamps, sounds, erection control, she hurts me, but Mistress is training me, never to consider orgasm, or ejaculation on my part, this demonstrates to me the ownership value, and Mistress explains what she requires of me, how I must please her, and to cleanse my mind and soul through confession to her.

I am usually more tired of her playing with me, and not aroused but in pain, in my mind begging for the release of the frustration by locking the chastity device back on, this is not sex, this is not pleasure, it is being controlled, the few hours that this takes demonstrates to me Mistresses power and total control, and for Mistress she derives pleasure controlling me, and her other male sub , plus husband slave.

She is tormenting our most vulnerable place, when a man is handled this way, he is weak , the most sensitive part of his body is controlled, trained and punished, it is not sexual it is control, for Mistress I believe it is the control and power that is the turn on for her.

This control is more powerful than sex.

I have become addicted to Mistress and her ways, her lifestyle and control, but most subs I speak with are so mixed up, as I was.

As I am now in service and Chastity,

I read on a famous Mistresses Journal , a  Chastity Discussion, and understood it, so well.

For my experience, chastity only works if your Domme wants you to accept it, Mistress wants and demands it,  maybe even more than her sub.

The Domme must be open with her sub, be that he may not be permitted to speak, for me my Mistress told me and repeats this often, not word for word, but everything written below and more, my Mistress mutters constantly.

Mistresses have the most fantastic sexual lives, because they have their own energy and all the energy of their subs additionally, the sexual power is un equalled.

Mistress will say to me, These are her words as I recall them,

As my sub one day you will be my slave.

It excites me, to own slaves , train and punish slaves, train submissives to be good slaves.

It excites me to know you can not date any other women, even meet any other women.

It excites me to know you can not wank, I hate men who wank, I like you as  a sub to suffer the pain, not to wank.

It excites me to know you can not wank ever again.

It excites me to know you can not ever orgasm , you will never orgasm again.

It excites me to milk the sub, as a farm animal, collect the sperm that Mistress owns, and use it as mistress wishes.

It excites me to know you can not orgasm, but enjoy the fact that your Mistress can and does.

It excites me to know you can not have an erection without Mistresses permission, and It excites me to punish the cock and balls if the sub does.

It excites me to know you can not have intercourse with a woman again, that control is permanent and owned by Mistress.

It excites me to know you can not sexually satisfy a woman  with your own cock, but must use a dildo, gag dildo or strap on to pleasure your mistress.

It excites me to know you can not sexually satisfy a woman  with your own cock, but as you are not allowed women, you only have Mistress, and she can take real cock from elsewhere anytime she desires, she has no need for her subs cocks for her sexual satisfaction, and they will never experience this intimate act.

It excites me to know you can not remove your device, ever, only Mistress can.

It excites me to make you void of any sexual inhibitions, or arousal.

It excites me to show you, to others in the fraternity, in chastity, totally controlled, as my sub along with others, so that they can see what real chaste subs /slaves are like.

It excites me to keep my subs naked , in chastity, in service, no jewellery, no footwear .

It excites me to correct and punish, hold Trials and Courts and sentence.

It excites me to control men totally, fully owned and trained to the highest standard.

What excites the submissive,

The fact that Mistress enjoys all these things, this is no game, it is real, Mistresses pleasure , comfort and happiness is paramount, the control is total because it excites Mistress.

So what is in this for the sub, nothing other than what Mistress states, when A Mistress truly believes these statements and is genuinely excited by these statements, for a sub , his sacrifice is very much worth while.

He needs nothing more, he can cope with his chastity.

I will have no more spare time to post anything until after the 17^th June 2010,  in that period I shall enjoy intense Domestic servitude and hard labour , enjoy being a submissive to a wonderful assertive Mistress.

I count the minutes to be in Mistresses presence, some 90 only left as I post.

A quick thank you to a mistress off the CM site who has written to me a lot this week, with superb advice. And a thank you to my few sub friends who follow my progress as I follow theirs.

Things are looking up,

I approached a mature Mistress some 45 mins from my home, she has replied today for me to contact her on my return from my holiday, this Mistress seems kinder , requires chastity, but I am not sure of her rules as yet, but could be favourable. This Lady says she is gentle, but writes one liners really, so I fear maybe quite strict.

Also out of the blue, another  Mistress contacted me, BBW very interested in very intimate body worship, she put it this way, intense vaginal pleasure, she wants her body slave chaste but not in a chastity device, it is basically tease and total denial for the sub/slave, this Mistress is about 5 hours away, very possible to serve, so I will keep in touch and talk with this Mistress a great deal more.

Last but not least, I see Mistress J tomorrow, not for session or servitude or custody, but to examine my genitals to see that no damage has occurred from the shackles and chastity. I talked on the phone for 1hour with her, never spoken so long, I was my usually submissive self, she and strict and understanding. I do not meet her requirements to accept pain, she says I am to fragile, and at one stage I was going to run away, the fear and pain to great. I accept what she says is correct, otherwise I pleased her with my service and her Mistress friend said she would keep me, as she requires only domestic servitude, but long term chastity, why all this chastity I do not know, but these Mistresses talk about chastity in terms of months these days, not days, and the suffering and serious inconvenience to life is to much to cope with.

My business performance usually high, is at its all time low, wearing a device is impossible, outside of serving Mistresses. Mistress J told me the chastity service in a device is non negotiable, men are always playing with themselves or chasing women, a Mistress must be sure her sub is doing neither.

Mistress J said there are 100 subs needing control for every Domme, so the Mistresses can pick and choose, if a sub does not tick every box, he is history, another 99 to take his place. Mistress J said that I am good for gardening work and late May/June if I am ready to have my chastity device fitted, and locked for a few weeks, it will be available to be fitted and I can serve a few weeks hard gardening labour, so I am not completely sacked from Mistress J.

I must say today, I do not feel so rejected, I will now enjoy my holiday and prepare myself to move forward.

I am so Happy Today, I have had 3 invites fom three different Mistresses to serve them, an an absolutely fantastic message of support from a mistress, I do not usually mention names, but I must, this woman is a true Goddess, and to have a message of support from her, I treasure.

Mistress Michaela Bond I worship the message that you sent to me out of the blu, as a practitioner yourself in requiring your subs and slaves to accept chastity, you are fair and understanding of the application, and how to use it on your assets, those like I , humble subs.

As you require body worship, and domestic servitude, you know best how to use your subs in their service to you, and the degree of chastity to use, that was clear in your message to me, and your concerns regarding my previous training that on occassion mirrored animal training.

To me this mistresses view counts, as she is beautiful, young and experienced and a true Goddess that melts the likes of myself, I am far from worthy, and to get a lengthy message from you , as made my year, really it was that important.

I can take my holiday, andstart fresh when I return home, and this fantastic Mistresses words will stay with me, and encourage me to continue to offer my service to Mistresses who may see that I do have some quality.

Those who have given me hope these last few days I thank you from the heart.

I am dismissed

I am released from chastity, my genitalia is covered in sores, my penis red raw, and I was told I can wank for the next two days only, then must refrain from masturbation once again. There was no sympathy, so I understand the rules of a slave, there are non for us, we just accept.

It is very complicated what has happened to me, I am not now serving the original Mistress, I am serving a Mistress that has adopted me, I am comfortable with this , but this is an organisation of people, I fear this may become complicated for me, maybe even dangerous, so I want out of my arrangement, I signed a contract of servitude, I am told there is a clause, be the contract was for 30 days, this can be extended with detention time, that can be up to 100% of the contract. I know there is no legal enforcement, but I have a moral duty to be compliant.

The weekend was ok, I served as an escort on Saturday night, drove Mistress to several friends parties, and was suited, at all times. I stood by the door like a bouncer come butler and ensured Mistress was never without a drink, and attended her when called or gestured.

She introduced me as her slave, indeed one of her slaves, and explained that I was in chastity, and that is how I was to be kept, I was also ordered to keep my eyes down, not to look at anyone, look at your shoes.

It was Sunday, Valentines day at about 3-00 am when we arrived at her home, she is a very large lady, fortunately for I, she was very tired, I took her to the toilet and I scurried off to get undressed and was naked bar the chastity device by the time the toilet was flushed. I drew her bedroom curtains, and stood behind her, and undressed her from the rear, when she had bra and panties on, I got her night clothes, put this on her, removed her bra, I broke my silence, and asked about panties, she said yes, and I removed them, and put her thick bathrobe on, all attended to from the rear, of her, all very decent and nothing sexual.

When helped on the bed, I massaged her feet with aromatic oil, keeping my eyes focused only on her feet, after about 15 minutes she started to snore, then woke abruptly, really aggressive and shouted at me “cage”  I helped her off the bed, in her spare room is the cage, with a baby type mattress and an empty silver dog bowl, used by the last visitor to the cage, not I.

Mistress may I speak, can I have water please, she nodded , and told me to hurry, make her an Horlicks and fill my water bowl up, she was taking her makeup off, with bleary eyes. I returned within just a few minutes, bowed low and gave Mistress the Horlicks, got in the cage, with my water, she locked it with a padlock, and went to bed.

I looked at the crumpled suit on the floor, creased as hell, a bucket to wee in , with someone elses wee still in there, and I felt so miserable, why am I doing this, my penis was burning from earlier urine scalding, I feel sick also, I lay there and I am a real man, I cried, I never cry, I could not sleep I composed myself, and thought about my own kinks, that had got me in this mess, I am not into pain, but wanted to be punished by a woman of authority, I liked Mistress telling people she had me controlled, and my cock was under he lock and key, I did not want to touch myself, I was sore, but it would have been better for me, to have not been sore and want to play with myself, but could not, as I was in Mistresses chastity. I lay there wishing I was circumcised I understood now why this was a requirement.

I must have fell off to sleep, it was light, well past dawn, and I lay waiting for Mistress to release me and give me her orders. It was an eternity, I established later 1-00pm when Mistress came in to the small bedroom, she opened the door, and just barked at me “coffee”

I ran to the kitchen, made her milky coffee, hot milk and half hot water, two and one half spoons of brown sugar, I am supposed to only take water out of the floor bowl, I quickly filled with water a cup, swallowed it and washed the cup, as the milk and water heated for Mistress.

I took the coffee up to Mistress, on a tray, bowed low at the bedroom door, entered, bowed low again in front of her, handed her the cup and saucer, turning the handle round for her convenience. Stepped back, bowed low with empty tray in hand, and waited.

She said, I ought to send you errands, but you can just go to the car, the word is “service gifts” and “presents” , shorts, paper overalls and return to “present”  that meant present to her after taking shorts and overalls off.

I had a shopping bag, croissants for her breakfast, cream cakes, chocolates, red roses, some provisions, massage oils, bath oils and Badedas, fillet steak and potatoes, 6 bottles of red wine, and a bottle of Waitrose Champagne, and her wrapped gift. It was a Glamorise bra, size 50G skin colour, or called Café Crème, what I had done last week, was note her sizes, but they were all over the place, but 50G was the most popular size, that she had, so that is what I purchased off the internet. I was lucky, could not find this size or range anywhere else.

She took my gift, looked at the shopping I had provided, looked not impressed, and in her usual way, one word commands said “breakfast” “coffee” I bowed low, made her croissants with an added plate of jam and honey, and delivered the breakfast back, she had gone back to sleep, but the bra was on the floor, ripped out of the display box.

She woke then, sat up, I served her, she did not mention the bra, “Kitchen Spotless” “trash in the outside bin, overall up only for that”  I bowed low, and went to the kitchen. I started cleaning and Mistress shouted, I ran back up, “coffee” “something else nice, bacon and 3 eggs, raid the fridge, a full house” “coffee first” “and with”

I made coffee, took it up, then cooked breakfast, another coffee, took that up. Continued cleaning kitchen. It was like this all day, I was up and down, even to switch the TV set channel over, the remote was on Mistresses bed. The day progressed , more coffee, cakes, sandwiches,  

At about 4.00pm I was questioned why, kitchen duties were taking so long, I apologised but the real reason was it was trashed, such a mess, and I must have dried my hands and ran up and down to Mistress 50 times, I was to vacuum every room next, and stairs but first feet massage with the menthol oil, I massaged all pressure points of the feet, I was told to take her big toe into my mouth and suck it like a dildo, at the same time massaging her foot. After what seemed an eternity, she said “coffee” and I ran for it.

On my return, I was told that her en-suite bathroom must be spotless, but she had a treat for me, the bath was full of soaking underwear, all hand washed in gentle soap, I added to the bath, to soak, yesterdays knickers that were on the floor from last night, put Mistresses clothes that were on the floor, on hangers, ward robed them and went to the bathroom, to start hand washing the underwear. There was about 12 pairs of knickers and 3 bras, I checked the labels as I gently washed them, and rinsed them well, Mistress uses a fabric conditioning soap like Stergene, I think, must get this right. I liked this intimate job, it did not sexually arouse me, well it could not in chastity, but I soon got that task done, and started cleaning bath, shower and basins, I was called again, and again, it was getting dark outside when I had finished, and then Mistress said she will “bathe” mess it all up, I thought. I prepared Mistress a bath, put towels all ready, and thought maybe she will instruct me to bathe her, this was not the case, she told me to start her supper, but first open her champagne for her, and poor a glass , I ran down, did this, thinking as a male would, I thought she would be in the bath, she was not, I entered her bathroom, door was wide opened but I knocked, bowed low, gave her champagne, she said “supper” .

Off I ran to get her steak ready. The steak is difficult, I have to time it right, I laid one place at her dining table, lit two candles, presented her vase with the roses, in the kitchen prepared the potatoes, she wanted and likes creamed, with lots of butter, French salted butter, potatoes boiling, frying pan heated and oiled with butter, mustards etc on her table, red wine open, champagne still in fridge, it seemed almost an hour, and I was shouted, I ran to her, she was leaving the bathroom, “champagne” I ran down got her glass refilled, ran back up to her, gave it to her.

“Mistress may I speak”, she ignored me “ flick the channels” still in her bedroom, in her bathrobe, I clicked through the channels. She lay on the bed on her stomach watching the television, as if I was not there, “Mistress may I speak”

What I have learnt fast is, every time you run an errand, turn all cooking or gases off, I just stood in Mistresses bedroom, “massage my calf’s” I ran for the oils in the spare bedroom, and commenced massaging the lower calf muscles, I ran two more times for champagne, and then was ordered to get “supper on the table” .

Once done, I went up to beckon Mistress, I was going to ask “permission to speak” but she just waved me back down stairs, following me. I prepared the chair for Mistress to sit, poured her red wine, and ran to fetch the champagne to refill her glass. I got back and she had drank the glass of red wine, I filled her empty champagne glass, and sat on the floor by her feet.

No sooner had I settled, she wanted to finish off the champagne, I rose and filled her glass, she was ready for desert, a fresh fruit trifle, this occasion Marks and Spencers, I had purchased a family size, put an adequate portion in a bowl, and I brought it to her. I poured more red wine.

She ate that and wanted more, and more red wine, 4 journeys to the kitchen and the trifle was all consumed, and she wanted her second red wine, I swear this is the truth, that is now two bottles consumed one champagne and one wine.

She was getting more friendly but very assertive, with me, more talkative but said frightening things to scare me. I now had to serve cheese and biscuits, and was attending to her needs every few minutes.

Seeming a bit drunk now, she said that when she retires, she will go for a sleep on her bed, I must gently massage her, feet, lower and higher legs, neck muscles and breasts, she said that as her slave she will trust me with the intimate breast massaging, if she falls a sleep I must cover her up, to sleep, and continue work.

That was changing bulbs, and a list she had written down, that was never ending, some things I did not understand.

I had sipped water all day, had no food what so ever, and I dare not ask.

Mistress was so brazen, she took her bathrobe off, and was wearing waist high knickers, her breasts were massive, and so was her tummy, after so much supper I thought go easy on the tummy, so I concentrated massaging arms, neck, ankles , feet, legs and I kept well away from her lower torso.

Within 20 minutes she was snoring, I took a duvet from the next bedroom and covered Mistress and continued my duties.

My servitude was non sexual, I was aware every minute of my nakedness and the chastity device, and my hunger now, made me feel a bit randy, but during the day, Mistress had barked occasional orders to me, and an erection stirred, but being so sore there, it was short lived, but I was understanding that anything sexual being a slave was in the mind, it is the actual humiliation of slave, or possible slave, and the orders and control that Mistress has over you, that is erotic.

I worked hard, and after about 3 hours Mistress was shouting “coffee” I ran to her, and provided coffee, chocolates, biscuits, brandy , Grand Marnier, followed over the next, few hours as she watched TV, and I massaged her feet. Mistress was now back in her bath robe, and it was time to be caged “cage” she shouted.

I was locked in the cage, and she muttered drunkenly that this is “lock up” she could not have slaves wondering around at night when she slept, up to mischief, lights went out, door slammed.

Today Monday, much the same, I must have fell off to sleep, it was light, well past dawn, and I lay waiting for Mistress to release me and give me her orders, as yesterday. It was an eternity, once again, or so I thought, Mistress came in to the small bedroom, she opened the door, and just barked at me “coffee” it was just after 9-00am.

I did breakfast as yesterday, Mistress bathed, I was permitted to shower, and dry off my chastity with a hair dryer, this did burn me today, as Mistress was calling me, and I desperately wanted to get dry between my legs.

I was required to make her bed, down to the mattress strip it, rebuild it , loads of washing for the washing machine, the door went and Mistress was receiving visitors, I hid out of the way until I heard Mistress shout, “wine slave” I ran down stairs, got the wine, opened it, and gingerly went to the lounge, but looked round the doorway, body concealed in the hallway, Mistress glared at me “wine slave” I made my image visible to those in the room, bowed and took the wine in, found three glasses and bowed before Mistress, poured her wine, then did likewise to her guests, two women, I was so nervous and red faced, I am not sure if they were old or young, but my device hid every thing between my legs, quite decent really,  it just showed Mistresses visitors that I was in chastity.

I returned to bedroom cleaning, and Mistresses guests left, I was ordered to open another bottle of wine, and I continued to do my working list.

I served much more wine, cakes, chocolates, fruit, and steak again for Mistresses supper, best fillet cooked to perfection, I am not so good at other cooking..

At about 8-00pm my original Mistress J arrived with Mistress B, and another woman, and I poured all 4 with my served Mistress red wine, this was the fifth of the six, but Mistress had more bottles of her own. I was back and forward like a yo yo. Mistress J said that the detention served added on to this day, was to round of 7 days of confined servitude in my last 28 days, as the contract I had signed permitted, I had been in chastity from the 7^th January in reality, as I had not masturbated since then, but the device had been fitted for some weeks, 29^th January to be exact,  I knew to the hour,day and date, off by heart,  Mistress J just passed off as approximates.

I filled all the Ladies glasses up, my six bottles had long gone, the seventh bottle , the first of Mistresses own stock, consumed, I opened a second from Mistress.

I was told to stand in front of Mistress J, she unlocked my device, and told me to remove it. I did and what I saw terrified and shocked me, my shaven genital area was covered in short hair growth, pimples everywhere, I was raw red, and my penis was swollen red, I thought I needed hospital treatment.

Mistress J laughed, go wash this device with Dettol, dry the device, then shower yourself, dry yourself, and fill our glasses on your return, we will then talk.

I was so sore, when the water splashed on me, I screamed, I was swollen, what a mess, I had never seen myself in such a mess. I eventually returned and Mistress J was annoyed, it had taken so long, “pour our drinks slave”. They did not care about my condition.

Mistress B got out a jar of Zinc and Castor oil cream, I was told to turn my back on Mistress, and open my legs, and bend forward to touch my toes, I can not touch them, but I bent over as far as I could.

Mistress put two hands between my legs, full of white zinc and castor oil cream, held my swollen penis and just saturated me , my entire genitals and balls with the cream, I was yelling in pain, and for once Mistress was being gentle.

She repeated the exercise, and the full jar had been consumed on me. She dried her hands off on my buttocks and told me to fetch her a towel, I ran to the bathroom and returned, then I was ordered to fill up there glasses, chocolates and the fridge was being raided by me to satisfy their stomachs.

I was naked in front of four women, and not ashamed or embarrassed of my male bits, but the visual unclean site of hair stubble, a rash and pimples, I was a mess, I knew it, I was disgusted with myself in my own humiliation.

Mistress J said that I was disappointing, I am a slave wanna be, part of being in slavedom is accepting pain, understanding that I have no rights, accepting permanent chastity, I was told to stand in front of the women with my hands clasped behind my neck.

Mistress J said, that they have no interest in my penis, it is the tool of control, unless I accept permanent and total chastity, I can not serve them. They are not happy with my personal baggage, I must be available 24/7/365 not just 20/30/40 days a year , being a temporary slave is of no interest.

Mistress J said, if you want to be our slave, fetch that device, it will be locked back on you. You will accept to serve anytime we call on you, for however long, you will never take sexual pleasure again as a male takes sex but you may be introduced to sexual stimulation from the prostate, and you will learn to accept pain for your Mistresses pleasure.

I learned that moment that the Mistress I had served last week and this was Gee, Mistress G.

Mistress J said has he served well, Mistress G responded , he is a waste of space, to old, to fat and not agile enough. He thinks he is better than he is, he has attitude problems, big headed and look at his cock, it should be easy for him to take permanent chastity, the cock has seen its end.

Mistress J said, “well slave, get your device” 

Maybe if my genitals were not so sore, with the built up testosterone and my desperation to serve, I would have put the device back on, but I just wanted free of chastity, if Mistress had said shorter periods, or just in service, I could have coped, but the Mistress was not joking, it was for real. I could not have refitted the device either, I was raw red sore, but the cream was soothing me now.

“More wine”  I ran and got another bottle opened, ran back and served them, constantly bowing for a change of mind.

“Ok sub” Mistress said, you will tell the world and its dog, you are not a slave, or slave material, tell people what a waste of space that you are, I will let you dress and go home, you write this experience up on your forums and message boards, and anywhere we tell you. You have wasted our time and disappointed us, we had aspirations using you.

I dressed, picking my suit up from were I had dropped it Saturday late afternoon, my underwear hurt me to put on, and I could not zip my fly up, my genitals were so sore. I went down and stood in front of the women, my full modesty restored be it that my fly zip was open.

Mistress J said, come to me on Friday at my home, we will finalise this, you will have no obligation to us, we have non to you, you have to accept that you are not what we want and expect, we want virile young men to train as slaves , you hide behind a smart business suit, you get your energy and aspirations from that uniform, we strip you down to what you really are, and you are nothing.

I kissed all the hands of the four women, I bowed low, and left, got in my car and drove away towards the motorway, and I cried. I cried all home, and I never cry, and usually I would not tell people but I must to settle and finalise this.

I knew before I went this weekend that I could not cope, as they wanted slaves, I had not got the credentials. I can not make the commitment, if only the Mistresses had agreed to take me as I had served this weekend, no food, little water, poor sleep, hard work, nice presents and service gifts, I had contributed for my accommodation and purchased items, why am I of no use, I can not see what I did wrong, I was servile and submissive, and I accepted my worst fear chastity, that is the worst torture a male can endure.

I have written this article up, it is as it happened, as I remember, I have written the whole story, not just the bit were I am rejected. It’s the early hours now, Tuesday and I will shave my genitals tomorrow and treat these pimples that I have found to be in growing hairs, maybe take a cheapie holiday in the sun, to get some colour back and maybe leave this fraternity and close CM profile and Journal down.

I will say that I will always obey women in future, they are the true domineering and controlling species, I am from this day forth submissive to every woman , even if she is submissive.

I am out on my arse again, I had approached an understanding new Mistress,  she told me tonight that I was not worthy, the BDSM element is far stricter than I had been led to believe, subs even if not serving as a slave 24/7/365 must be available, and I think real Mistress all use chastity, and seriously mark their assets, so I think maybe I am to weak and a coward for all this, the wisdom of experienced Mistresses soon evaluate me, and I do not possess the credentials.

The Mistress who turned me down tonight, I respect so much, if she reads this, I hope she will let me keep in touch on occasion, I spent 2 and one half hours writing this report, its about me, and I guess that is all wrong.

Maybe some Mistress may have a need for a reject, this report will certainly not help me, but I am required to write it, as I may depart CM, soon when I have taken a lithe holiday to think things through.

MASTER D , WHO IS MY MASTER AND CHASTITY SUB TO MY MISTRESS J SENT THIS MESSAGE TO ME, TONIGHT.

I HAVE BEEN IN CHASTITY SINCE THE 7^TH  JANUARY AND I GO INTO MISTRESS J CUSTODY AT THE END OF THE MONTH, SHE HAS ARRANGED A SLAVE AUCTION ON THE SATURDAY NIGHT, AS MISTRESS B HER FEMALE PARTNER MAY WISH TO ACQUIRE ME FOR HER PERSONAL SERVICE.

ASTHIS IS ALMOST THE CASE, I HAVE BEEN TOLD TO READ AND UNDERSTAND THIS FOLLOWING ARTICLE,

OSODD? Oral Service On Domme's Demand

So simple, so alluring, so complex, so effective.
It is a tool for breaking and training the adult sub male
into total submission and useful service to a Woman.

The author states that she has led many a poor boy down
that path .. the path from pig male play to the bliss
of servitude .. a boy on his knees, OSODD.

OSODD is how its done .. read boy, read.
forewarned is forearmed, indeed.

OSODD, as developed today has 13 Stages,
below .. each in but a single word.

Stage 1 .. Priming
Stage 2 .. Doing
Stage 3 .. Liking
Stage 4 .. Wanting
Stage 5 .. Needing
Stage 6 .. Addiction
Stage 7 .. Power
Stage 8 .. Indeed
Stage 9 .. Golden
Stage 10 .. Crimson
Stage 11 .. D&s*uality
Stage 12 .. Clean-up
Stage 13 .. Destiny

She states that her first formal mentor in Fem Domination
was a Black Woman whom she knew only as Madam Domme, who
told her right up front that white males were far more
likely to be sub male slave candidates than black or
Hispanic males.

Madam Domme lived in a large older home on the outskirts
of New Orleans with family of several generations.
Among them just about all the time were one or more
white males, conspicuous for their white skin, collars,
and subservient demeanour. They worked in and outside
the house, usually nude and collared as the house was
well off the road and shielded by trees and brush.

The house had a basement complete with slave rings that
she implied dated back to the early days of the Old South.

These white males were her slaves. Some seemed to be there
just about all the time, but others only from time to time.

(THIS IS THE SCENARIO IN OXFORDSHIRE AT MISTRESS J )

Apparently their slavery was voluntary, that is, they
willingly presented themselves to serve. But once they
arrived, freedoms disappeared and they served indeed as
she dictated. When released they invariably begged to be
allowed to return at a later time.

(THIS IS MISTRESS CONTRACT)

Black Women ruled in Madam Domme's compound. The white male
slave was always referred to as the "white boy" or simply
the "boy". And the white boys would drop to the knees with
hands behind the back whenever a Black Woman entered the room.

( MISS B IS JAMAICAN )

Black males of age were normally unzipped with genatalia
hanging out .. a not so subtle reminder to the white boy of
his sexual inferiority.

When Madam Domme was asked just what was the secret to her
control over these white boys, who ranged in age from the 20s
to the 60s and more. She smiled and said it was by training
them to provide oral sex on her demand.

She smiled and said that while they willingly began providing
it, they would soon become hooked on it .. and that was the
key to enslaving them. She would laugh and say "enslaved,
sure, but really just enslaved to their own desires".

( CHASTE4DOMME HAS SUFFERED THIS ADICTION )

Madam Domme explained that ego made it more difficult for
the "brother" to accept submission to feminine authority and
the same, she supposed, for the Mexican male, it was that macho
thing either way.

She said that small cocks and penis envy had a lot to do
with the white boy (adult white male of any age) accepting
and embracing submission.

OSODD can work for any woman who understands the basics and
sets her mind to it .. but Madam Domme was Black, so her
examples often were in Black and white.

The white boy slaves would drop to the knees when a Black
entered the room. The Black males with their typically
large cocks exposed .. and the women in full skirts.
Older Women, too.

You see, Madam Domme explained that Black Women retained
sexual vitality much longer than most women, often into
very old age - maybe right up to the end. This would
present two problems for the older Black Women. The first
being that Black males, while willing to oblige them, were
just too big and rough for their advanced age and somewhat
diminished physical endurance. While the older woman took
advantage of the same attributes in her earlier year, she
needed something smaller and softer, more controllable,
now that she was in the older stages of life. And that
presented the second problem, grazing or finding such
suitable male - the white boy, as you may have seen coming.

Younger and prime-age Dominant Women recruit, supply, and
train new boys for the older women.

Those full skirts .. if an older woman or any woman wanted
service, she merely walked over to the white boy (kneeling,
you remember) and flipped that full skirt up and over him.
Part of that OSODD training, it was.

Under that full skirt there might be panties, but more often
than not, there was not. The boy was required to lick in
either case - not just if he wanted to.

Domme's Demand, not his free choice.

White women can sometimes be so bland as to be "tasteless"
but never a Black Women. The Black Woman, said Madam Domme
can range from rough and animalistic to sweet, juicie , and
downright intoxicating. She also contends, however, that
if a boy licks and sucks long enough - the former condition
will transform into the latter. And once the boy experiences
that, he is eager to work for that reward no matter how long
it might take. And will beg for the opportunity.

Madam Domme said that Black Women had another advantage over
the white woman with the white boy. And that was the long
practice of Black Nannies caring for white babies. Especially,
the wet nurse nannies. That would lead us to Stage 1.

The term OSODD was later coined by some bright woman,
described as an excellent means of training and gaining
control over the white male. It can work for the
Dominant White Woman too, "just easier for the Black Woman",
Madam Domme would say with a smile.

So, you boy, you white boy out there, are you still smiling?

I DO NOT QUITE KNOW WHAT TO MAKE OF THIS , AS MISTRESS J SAID AS HER SUB/SLAVE SHE HAD NO INTERREST IN MY ORAL QUALIFICATIONS, BUT I AM BEING PREPARED FOR SOMETHING.

I WEAR AS ORDERED A SCROTUM COLLAR 24/7 NOW, THIS IS TO PREPARE MY SCROTUM FOR A STEEL SCROTUM SHACKLE THAT WILL BE FITTED WHEN I ARRIVE FOR MY SERVICE AS A SLAVE.

I SIGNED MISTRESS J CONTRACT TONIGHT ALSO, I AM NOT PERMITTED TO DISCUSS THIS , IN PUBLIC, BUT IT IS VERY FRIGHTENING. THERE ARE CLAUSESTHATTERRIFY ME, BUT I CAN SAY NO MORE.

I HAVE PERMISSION TO WRITE ABOUT THE “OSODD”, BUT I DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHAT IT IS ABOUT?

I have written this entry in parts over the last two days, so I am posting it , very late.

Master has just messaged me, that my chastity commences at 00.01 hrs 07.01.2010 , this is chastity by control and honesty, without a device, very difficult, but as I have seached hard and long to serve Mistress J and this Poly family, I would never cheat.

What I am very dissapiointed in, is that Mistress J promised me in early conversations that she only used the cane or this kind of punishment for serious offences, I was told today that if I do not stay 100% chaste, no masturbation or pleasure taking, until the 29^th I will be given 1 stroke of the cane for each day that I have offended, I do not know how that works, but Master said , if you masturbate on the 7^th, Mistress will give you 22 strokes, in addition to the 6 you have already to receive, this terrifies me, I have been told that one stroke will break the skin.

I was then told by Master that by protesting, this demonstrates to Mistress J that I will break the trust and not do as she orders, part of the pleasure that Mistress J will get from my service is milking my sexual frustrations, Mistress expects the sperm and seed to be stored for her removal and use, she does not want weak sperm just a few days old, she demands stored up sperm full of testostrone.

I did not expect these added burdens, and I asked why the chastity date had been changed and a longer time given, Master said that is what Mistresses do, suffer and enjoy.Master said it appears it is all about you, as a sub, what you want, so all that you have written about service is bull shit, you are failing before you start, what is more you are going to be pleased with the urinal hood usage.

Each of the 4 mornings you are in Mistresses custody, you will be strapped into the hood, and consume both Mistress J and Mistress B overnight urine, champagne to you, nice and dark and strong. You stay in the hood until all is administered a minimum of 1 hour what ever the time it takes to consume, on the 29^th you are in the cell, you will be hooded in there, the other 2 days as you go about your duties, and the final day, before your discharge. Any spillage or attempted objection will result in an offence being recorded, that will mean certainly restraint, and Master said with his knowledge of Mistress, she will increase more of what the slave dislikes, that is what training is all about, you are learning to serve your Mistress.

During my service, on the Saturday and Sunday I serve tea, at 4-00pm, I must make fresh canapes, cut small finger bite size, tea to Mistress and her guest liking, that could mean several teapots, loose tea brewed, strained with care using a tea strainer, and this is served in Mistresses lounge which under normal circumstances is out of bounds to slaves. There is a dress code, as I will be in a chastity device, I weart a tight waist apron, tied tight at the waist, Mistress or her guests must not be offended by the sight of the genital region,the slave must ensure that is completely covered by the apron,  a black dickie bow is worn about the neck, a crisp clean tea towel must be folded and draped over my left arm, and I must wear white emaculately clean gloves. I have been told to practice as only perfection is acceptable, you asnwer only yes or no sir, madam or Mistress, you pour, milk and sugar tea as instructed, and serve cakes and canapes with silver tongues, and with grace. Eyes down always, never look at guests or Mistresses faces, bow low before each person before and after serving, when service has been conducted, stand by the door, eyes down, focus on your feet, hands clasped neatly in front of the pinner/apron, wait instructions. This is how I serve on this occasion, but on somne occassions I wear a full butler outfit , a complete uniform with shoes , but that is for later.

Master will help me prepare the tea/canapes  but once I start to serve, I am on my own, he will spend a few hours practising prior to serving on Saturday, I was warned, do not think this is not real, your every move will be scrutinised, only total perfection is acceptable.

In serevice this will become a regular requirement, on occassions also serving cocktails as a Butler, but that comes in later training. Master will also teach me to cook certain things, to assist him, as he cooks most of the food, I was told Mistresses never cook anything, they just direct.

When cleaning, I as a slave is not permitted in Mistress J or Mistress B, or Master D bedrooms or bathrooms, the Lounge or main house door Hall, no slave is ever allowed to enter or leave through the main house door, I am allowed in the library and Computer centre with permission and this is a badge on a neck band , the type one wears at exhibitions, and there is a route around the house that slaves must use, Mistress does not wish to see slaves other than when they are direct serving, being trained or punished by her. I have been told I must listen for Mistresses movements, and avoid meeting her anywhere,  always wait behind a door until she has passed or gone by, if I meet her or Mistress B by accident, stand still, feet together, clasp hands behind my back, bow at 90 degrees, hold that position until she has passed, never speak, keep quiet, if spoken to answer short replies, yes Mistress, no mistress, thank you mistress, never attempt to pass the time of day, to do so shows severe disrespect, expect severe punishment, with out change for constant disrespect, expect permanent dismissal.

Master runs the household, obeys the same rules, bult on over 30 years of service, married to Mistress J and is a 24/7/365 slave, he wears Mistresses Collar, with that collar all other subs and salves are fully submissive to him.

I will add since writing this, I am in trouble again, as I have pourchased a scrotum leather collar but single buckle not double, I am not big enough in the scrotum to take a double buckle that is required, what is more , I have worn it 9 hours and become very sore, this does not fit well under my suit trousers, and with snow on the ground in the City, I have been more active than usual .Master has warned me that the Dungeon scrotum shackle is by measurement two buckles wide, and heavy,and it will be fitted, no excuses. I have since worn my scrotum collar over night and now about 12 hours, in addition to the 9 hours,  but my balls hurt, I exercise chastity from midnight tonight and  until I go into service,I am dissapointed that all messages are relayed through Master, Mistress J does not speak or communicate with me, Master says mistress will not get familiar with me, until I am a proven slave. Master has also told me that I ask to many questions, I am not presenting myself in the right spirit or with the right attitude, Mistress is very exacting and only the very best serve her, I must make more effort in my preparation, so I am a bit down today, I have written my thoughts and feelings, and I am looking forward to my servitude but the butterflys in my stomach are only overtaken by scotum pain, I finally add to this journal that I will now stay chaste, I will no longer play, I want Mistress J to understand I am taking this seriously, and I want to really please her in my service.   

MISTRESS MONITORS MY JOURNAL ENTRIES, THEY ARE NOT CENSORED BUT WRITTEN BY ME, KNOWING THAT THEY WILL BE READ, BY MY MISTRESS, AND I ADOPT IN MY WRITINGS, MY UNDERSTANDING OF MY POSITION, THAT CERTAIN THINGS I MAY WISH TO WRITE ABOUT IS CENSORED, SO I DO NOT WRITE IT.I HAVE TO KEEP A VERY DETAILED DIARY AND JOURNAL FOR MY MISTRESS AND THIS ENTRY FORMS PART OF WHAT I AM REQUIRED TO RECORD, IT DEMONSTRATES MY UNDERSTANDING OF THE RULES AND LAWS, LEGISLATION AND REGULATIONS OF THE HOUSEHOLD THAT I SERVE. MY MISTRESS SAID THAT I MUST MAKE IT KNOWN THAT I AM VERY MASCULINE, AND VERY ASSERTIVE TO THE OUTSIDE WORLD BORDERING ON AGGRESSIVE, IN MY MISTRESSES SERVICE I AM THE MOST SUBMISSIVE MALE POSSIBLE, I AM A SLAVE BECAUSE I SERVE AS A SLAVE, IN MY SERVICE I HAVE NO RIGHTS, I HAVE SIGNED THEM AWAY, TO MY MISTRESS,  WITHOUT ANY CONDITIONS. MY JOURNAL IS AN EXPERIMENT THAT MY MISTRESS ENJOYS, AS I AM IN SERVICE THIS COLLAR ME ACCOUNT SHOULD BE NOW CLOSED DOWN, BUT MISTRESS WANTS TO SEE SOME OF THIS SLAVES HUMILIATION MADE PUBLIC FOR THE OBSERVATION BY OTHERS, JUST BECAUSE SHE IS CURIOUS, AND ON OCCASION EXCITED. I AM A VERY WORTHY SLAVE NOT WORTHLESS AS MANY SLAVES WRITE,ABOUT THEMSELVES,  I HAVE A GREAT DEAL OF VALUE TO MY MISTRESS, BUT I AM INFERIOR AS A MALE, AND ACCEPT IN MISTRESSES HOUSEHOLD MORE INFERIOR THAN A FEMALE SLAVE, BOTTOM OF THE PECKING ORDER.I THANK MISTRESS FOR ACCEPTING ME INTO HER SERVICE AND I WILL CONSTANTLY STRIVE TO PROVE MY WORTH. MY MATURE MISTRESS TOLD ME IN THE EARLY DAYS THAT THERE IS NOTHING WORSE THAN AN ILL TRAINED MALE, FOR A SLAVE TO BE A SLAVE, IT IS NOT ABOUT SERVICE, ITS ABOUT STRICT AND TOTAL SERVITUDE, I AM IN THE RIGHT STABLE NOW, WITH A MISTRESS WHO HAS LIVED THE LIFESTYLE OVER SEVERAL DECADES AND KNOWS EVERY TRICK IN THE BOOK AND VERY SOON HER SLAVES REALISE THIS.

Following on from my journal entry yesterday, I will reiterate what I wrote then, as I surrender my liberty for 4 days at 8-00am Friday 29^th January 2010, I have seen Mistress J’s Dungeon and cells, the one cell has a stone floor, and a real thick lead type prison door.During my custody period, I will be punished for my lies, after arrival and shower I will be fitted with a steel shackle with hex-lock which fits tightly around the scrotum, on this occasion only lined with leather, two chains are attached to two metal loops on the scrotum shackle, and these will be tethering to the other full body shackles, wrists, ankles and collar and wall fixings secure movement in the cell. My sentence in the cell is 12 hours, 9-00am through to 9-00pm, I will be checked on every hour and given a dog bowl full of water, a bucket to pee in, and contemplate the error of my ways.

Naturally I want to talk about this new experience and avidly question my immediate Master, who seems in control of me,for the Mistresses pleasure. Master enjoys explaining in detail events from his experience, and I enjoy learning about my fate, as it is clear master knows how his Mistress must be pleased, he sacrafices to please her, and so must I. I asked if Master who resides with Mistress if he is always in chastity, he said yes, but only kept in a device, his device when serving slaves are in the home, both male and female, that accounts for almost 365 days in the year. Some odd days he is free but not permitted to touch his penis. The locked device and its enclosed penis is power shower washed more than 3 times per day, and dried with a hair dryer, it is important that no moisture remains in or on the device, if he is ever free it is because of soreness or rashes. The Master craves castration, and would have it done if Mistress wished.

Master tells me that they do not expect me to last the 12 hours without stomach pains or sickness in the Dungeon cell, the scrotum shackle causes a lot of pain to the restricted testicles, and the two chains are drawn between my legs at my rear and attched to cell wall steel hoops 8ft up the wall, a white line is painted 2/3rds across the cell stone floor, and the chains are adjusted to permit the slave to touch that white line, so the nearer the slave keeps his rear to the wall , the more comfortable the sentence is. As I am a more mature slave, Mistress permits knee pads but the way to suffer least is to get the backside buttocks touching the cell wall, and then lie on one side, a blanket is provided, so in this position the scrotum shackle is painless, but when someone enters the cell, the slave must get on all fours with fingers on the white line, that is when the scrotum shackle pulls and hurts.

It matters not how painful it feels, or how ill you feel, no part of the chain must be touching the cell floor, all the chain weight is taken on the shackle locked onto the scrotum, if it is mistress who enters, she will be pleased to see the full balls being squeezed and punished by the heavy chains, and often will stand and watch , I have been warned, as a slave I have been warned eyes down at all times, never look up at Mistress, certainly do not speak, but answer truthfully when asked a question, keep answers short, if no questions asked, keep silent, if in pain make no noise.

If the slave does not complete the full sentence, for any health or safety reasons, then the sentence commences at another time, the time spent is totally lost. I was warned that the worst as yet to come, if I complete the sentence, I have the srotum shackle removed in what they call the white room, this hurts badly and the slave is restrained, what hurts far worse is that the testicle bag is shaven, when a full body shave is given, expect to scream or cry, often both, this is real pain. Both Mistresses will sit and watch and enjoy this part, Mistress J will then watch closely as the Master greases the penis and fits the chastity device, my first time in this new device, Mistress then locks it and retains the key.

At this stage the pain in the testes is such that as a slave you do not care that you have been desperate to cum for several weeks, and you were exploding, you now do not want to cum, it hurts so much , but then Mistress will milk the prostate and the penis will spill its sperm , the penis fully flacid, locked in a tube that prevents erection, Mistress will drain her slave dry of all his seed and sperm.

You will have served your purpose, Mistress will let you sleep, and you commence hard domestic labor thereafter, done well you avoid punishment.Master tells me for him, this is how it all started, he was just a sub, then was hooked as Mistresses slave, what a fantastic life he has had, she controls his sex, so he is free of a mans burden, he lives to serve both Mistresses, and he understands how a woman looks and reads daily life and events, very few men understand a woman, because they do not have the ability. I question Master about why he should wish to be castrated, he tells me that he orgasms ilke a woman, this is the greatest gift that his Mistress could ever give to him.

Speaking with Master today, he suggested I ask Mistress in writing if she will exchange the 6 strokes of the cane for a Urinal hood that will be specifically purchased for my training, at a cost of £165 from Fetters in Warwick, this BDSM store is about half an hour from the home and property I am to attend, the 1mm Latex Urinal Mask with removable forward front mouth funnel and a O ring gag, is suitable for Mistresses training methods, and he thought it was possible that she may consider my submission to this as a punishment against the cane that I really fear so much. Mistress had promised me that the cane would only be used for serious offences, she deems what I am being punished for, as a very serious, offence. Mistress is very angry and not replied to my request, but via Master said that when she does, if she does, for my arogance the hood will be purchased and it will be worn in my service and used as it as been designed for.If I can not afford the new hood,  one of three different types they have at the moment will be used, I have also been warned to not make any more requests, I attend as summonsed and feel lucky I have been accepted to serve.

I must now say as I have been instructed, and reiterate what I said yesterday,  that I must make myself clear, I have found the Mistress that I will serve, I am happy to serve the second Mistress and a Master in the same poly family, I am happy with the contracts of service that I will enter into, based on serving 30 days and 30 nights in custody as a slave, the period to be reviewed and also conduct myself 365 days as a sub to Mistress when not actually serving as a slave, but I have found as close to what I needed to offer my submission to a Mistress, be it that this Mistress is not interested in any personal services that I was qualified to offer and give, only my naked body in service is required and an understanding that I will be sexually controlled, I will be used for hard labor and domestic services, to entertain and accept training in the service and pleasure of a long term very mature Mistress who understands my low pain threshold and weaknesses, and cowardice ways, understranding my commercial lifestyle differs greatly to being submissive, and Mistress will encourage my assertiveness outside her home, and estate were my service will be conducted. I have also learnt that this my Mistress has made it clear to me, as a serving slave that my genitals are for her control only, they have no other purpose, any sexual gratification is at her pleasure and permission, but all her slaves are trained to enjoy genital pain to overcome sexual pleasure, the male genitals are also how Mistress restrains and to train the scrotum to accept shackles or collars or any device that Mistress may wish to lock on the scrotum, to secure or leash her slave, or to externd genital discomfort to the balls so when not in a chastity device, a scrotum collar is worn at all times , 365/24 a scrotum rubber, leather or steel collar must be worn, initially to start with loose, but secure, and I have been ordered to acquire a leather scrotum collar, twin buckle  and be wearing it within 7 days.

Mistress is interewsted in my submision to her authority as I percieve it, and at the moment is permitting these writings,now I come to my apologies,

A very superior Mistress from Australia, this divine Mistress says my writings are verbal braggery, and I have brought shame on myself by writing to her, I have written an apology and I am indeed ashamed.

With respect to this divine Mistress, I looked at her profile only, I did not make contact, this divine Mistress messaged me, asked me a question about how I artistically design the towels when I service bedmaking.

I answered Mistress, but then added some personal remarks that I thought complimentary, I accept I had no authority  to over step the mark, this mistress saw it as I was expounding my virtues , as a Mistress is never wrong, I am not saying this with arogance, I say it from my heart,  I assume as usual I did not explain myself in  a proper way, so I am once again shamed. I have suggested, to my new Mistress, that  I close down my account here with Collar Me, as I expected Mistress to order that in any event, but I have been told to continue writing for the moment, but this divine Mistress from Australia replying to me, in this way, will no doubt get me into more trouble, I am not doing so well in my new service.

What ever I am looking forward to 8-00am Friday 29^th January 2010

MISTRESS MONITORS MY JOURNAL ENTRIES, THEY ARE NOT CENSORED BUT WRITTEN BY ME, KNOWING THAT THEY WILL BE READ, BY MY MISTRESS, AND I ADOPT IN MY WRITINGS, MY UNDERSTANDING OF MY POSITION, THAT CERTAIN THINGS I MAY WISH TO WRITE ABOUT IS CENSORED, SO I DO NOT WRITE IT.I HAVE TO KEEP A VERY DETAILED DIARY AND JOURNAL FOR MY MISTRESS AND THIS ENTRY FORMS PART OF WHAT I AM REQUIRED TO RECORD, IT DEMONSTRATES MY UNDERSTANDING OF THE RULES AND LAWS, LEGISLATION AND REGULATIONS OF THE HOUSEHOLD THAT I SERVE. MY MISTRESS SAID THAT I MUST MAKE IT KNOWN THAT I AM VERY MASCULINE, AND VERY ASSERTIVE TO THE OUTSIDE WORLD BORDERING ON AGGRESSIVE, IN MY MISTRESSES SERVICE I AM THE MOST SUBMISSIVE MALE POSSIBLE, I AM A SLAVE BECAUSE I SERVE AS A SLAVE, IN MY SERVICE I HAVE NO RIGHTS, I HAVE SIGNED THEM AWAY, TO MY MISTRESS,  WITHOUT ANY CONDITIONS. MY JOURNAL IS AN EXPERIMENT THAT MY MISTRESS ENJOYS, AS I AM IN SERVICE THIS COLLAR ME ACCOUNT SHOULD BE NOW CLOSED DOWN, BUT MISTRESS WANTS TO SEE SOME OF THIS SLAVES HUMILIATION MADE PUBLIC FOR THE OBSERVATION BY OTHERS, JUST BECAUSE SHE IS CURIOUS, AND ON OCCASION EXCITED. I AM A VERY WORTHY SLAVE NOT WORTHLESS AS MANY SLAVES WRITE,ABOUT THEMSELVES,  I HAVE A GREAT DEAL OF VALUE TO MY MISTRESS, BUT I AM INFERIOR AS A MALE, AND ACCEPT IN MISTRESSES HOUSEHOLD MORE INFERIOR THAN A FEMALE SLAVE, BOTTOM OF THE PECKING ORDER.I THANK MISTRESS FOR ACCEPTING ME INTO HER SERVICE AND I WILL CONSTANTLY STRIVE TO PROVE MY WORTH.

Lady A is Mistress J, I can now put it that way.

I have had a succesful interview, and been accepted to Serve what appears in a poly household, Mstress J, Mistress B, their sub and husband to Mistress J, Master D, my master.

This arrangement has been set up, with a master also, because Mistress J has identified from my correspondences that I have homosexual tendancies, I was not aware of this, but that is what I have been told, so the male sub becomes my Master also.

My interview was a served period in custody, so I know or have an idea of what to expect, that is perfect for my skills and ability.A chastity device must be worn in service and Mistress J has arranged one for me, I have paid for it, and I have been measured for it, it is custom made and will be delivered to Mistress J in about 14 days. I was hoping that chastity was not part of my new journey , but it seems that all serious women demand chastity and devices these days, so it is only to be expected and one must be endured.

Mistress is not on collar me, or any of her poly household, or visiting subs, but they have examined what I have written, I am permitted to continue writing, but all my writing is now censored, if I disobey any of the censorship demands or requirements I will be made to close down my i.d. and account.

I have been told that I must publically tell everyone that I have not told the truth, I have not explained that I have homosexual tendancies, and have fantasy about being a slave to a master, suffer for a master, accept a masters chastity, pleasure a master sexually, so I am comanded to reveal this.

I have never took part in any homosexual acts, but may have misled some male masters, I have been told I must write this, but in my heart I did nothing intentional, Mistress J says I have misled a few male masters with what I have written, and she will punish me for telling lies, this punishment will be to also teach me her rules, and the law and orders of how her sub/slaves must conduct themselves.

I surrender my liberty for 4 days at 8-00am Friday 29^th January 2010, I have seen Mistress J’s Dungeon and cells, the one cell has a stone floor, and a real thick lead type prison door.During my custody period, I will be punished for my lies, after arrival and shower I will be fitted with a steel shackle with hex-lock which fits tightly around the scrotum, on this occasion only lined with leather, two chains are attached to two metal loops on the scrotum shackle, and these will be tethering to the other full body shackles, wrists, ankles and collar and wall fixings secure movement in the cell. My sentence in the cell is 12 hours, 9-00am through to 9-00pm, I will be checked on every hour and given a dog bowl full of water, a bucket to pee in, and contemplate the error of my ways.

Once released I will be taken to the white room, a clinic type set up, and given a full body shave, in my case below the neck, all hair is removed, this is because I have to protect my commercial vanilla identity, and I am bearded and need to keep my head hair also, Mistress have granted this concession.

Once this has been done, I must shower, and wait Mistress J who will fit on my chastity device for the first time, in her service, once this has been done, I am to be secured to a bench and receive 6 strokes of the cane on my backside, and count and thank Mistress, I have been warned that this will hurt bad, this is the second part of the punishment, and to satisfy the offence, full and final, and total punishment for that offence. Mistress J will then prostate milk me, the penis trapped in the chastity device must give sperm and seed , without erection or pleasure, to add to my discomfort I am not permitted to masturabate, orgasm or ejaculate after the 14^th January 2010, so that I can live up to my name being chaste 4 domme, I have a copy of Mistress J rules and the punishment for offences when trusteed to control oneself. After milking my service starts , I can sleep through till dawn, then I do hard domestic service, I am worked through till dusk, and then caged with a duvet. I will be worked and in custody through until dusk Monday 1^st February, 2010 when I am released and given my clothing and belongings back.

I will be under the immediate control of my Master, sub to the Mistresses, but he is in chastity also, so I do not fear him, as I do Mistress J. 

Speaking with Master tonight, he suggests I ask Mistress in writing if she will exchange the 6 strokes of the cane for a Urinal hood that will be specifically purchased for my training, at a cost of £165 from Fetters in Warwick, this BDSM store is about half an hour from the home and property I am to attend, the 1mm Latex Urinal Mask with removable forward front mouth funnel and a O ring gag, is suitable for Mistresses training methods, and it is possible she may consider my submission to this as a punishment against the cane that I really fear so much. Mistress had promised me that the cane would only be used for serious offences, she deems what I am being punished for as a very serious, offence.

Also speaking with Master tonight, I questioned him, how I would have to be submissive to him, as he is in chastity most of the time, in a variety of devices, he said it was for Mistress to direct and decide, but as all male subs are not permitted intercourse,that is intercourse with male or females,  I need not fear his penis in my rear, that is just not permitted. Once in Mistresses service all male subs are never permitted intercourse ever again, the penis must never enter the body of another.

I am to post this on my Journal, I was in correspondence with about twenty people , Doms,I now confess to,  Dommes and Mistresses, other slaves and subs, I am having to explain myself to Mistress and explain what I wrote about, and why, some in Canada and the USA I had considered visiting, that is the truth, my real lie, is that I took personal gratification writing to Doms, that Mistress believes was done more for personal gratification than being genuine with the reciprients, and I have had to confess that to serve a Dom, had sexually turned me on, and I did confess that directly to the main Dom in question, but there was also another Dom who had interests in me.

I must now say as I have been instructed that I must make myself clear, I have found the Mistress that I will serve, I am happy to serve the second Mistress and a Master in the same poly family, I am happy with the contracts of service that I will enter into, based on serving 30 days and 30 nights in custody as a slave, the period to be reviewed and also conduct myself 365 days as a sub to Mistress when not actually serving as a slave, but I have found as close to what I needed to offer my submission to a Mistress, be it that this Mistress is not interested in any personal services that I was qualified to offer and give, only my naked body in service is required and an understanding that I will be sexually controlled, I will be used for hard labor and domestic services, to entertain and accept training in the service and pleasure of a long term very mature Mistress who understands my low pain threshold and weaknesses, and cowardice ways, understranding my commercial lifestyle differs greatly to being submissive, and Mistress will encourage my assertiveness outside her home, and estate were my service will be conducted.

Many I have not written to, I will once Mistress gives me permission.If permission is not granted please understand.

THIS IS A FOLLOW ON, TO MY JOURNAL ENTRY BEFORE THIS,ONE, " LADY A" IS THE NAME I HAVE BEEN TOLD TO USE, IT IS NOT THE PERSONS REAL NAME I WRITE ABOUT.

I am to be trained in analinguis, I spoke with this Lady for one and a half hours yesterday, and I was told what an exciting sub I will make. After six months my Service Contract will be to discharge 25 Litres , this Ladys measurement of time and what I will sign in my slave contract.

My accommodation will be a human slave cage , one of two that she has in her residence, in my apprentice period, that may last for ever, the penis is only used for the discharge of urine and a tender area of punishment, it will have no other function. The penis will always be in restricted heavy rubber, that will prevent erection, the slave contract does not permit erection, or any pleasure to the penis.

The Lady has erectile slaves to serve her, these are strong healthy penises of young age, virile and long staying, they are joined in service by oral subs, these subs pleasure and clean, all orifices as the former rampantly fill , the young virile men are chosen with ability to repeat, thus they can use their erections to pleasure the Lady, while they rest, the oral subs pleasure and clean, this is what we all train for.

So the chastity shorts, are worn in service 24/7 , they are cleverly made with a strong cod piece, reinforced pushing the flaccid penis downwards to function like a vagina and the shorts, cover over another pair of flushing pants, these are thinner rubber or tougher quality latex 0.4 mm with a sheath and drainage tube, the penis goes into a tube that is part of the pants and fits like a condom, at the end of this larger tube, is the thin drainage tube, all urine passes out and through this tube, the Ladys clip or urine lock is attached and the chastity sub asks permission to drain. A good sub does not need his drainage tube clipped, but the Lady will clip it on occasion to make her sub, concentrate on devotion.

The Lady told me in a conversation a few moments ago, half way through writing this journal that the flushing pants can be purchased cheaply at   thelatexstore

And she wants me to get used to the feel, and the sore penis from the scalding urine, she tells me that once she fits on the thick rubber over pants they are locked on, and stay on, no matter how I might cry with a scalded penis, I will learn to cream the penis well before wearing the pants, that first creaming is so important. The Lady also told me tonight to refer to her in my scribbles as lady A , as she is not my lady, I am not her sub, to keep my writing at a distance.

Lady A was not in such a good mood, she has viewed my photograph and is pleased with my body frame but not my beard, I either shave or be tight rubber hooded, if she accepts me, the hood will be attached to a collar that will have her lock  fixed. She warned that if she goes down the hood route with me, there will be more than one hood, one will be a urinal punishment hood, she also warned that her hooded slaves suffer more chastity, for longer periods.

Lady A was very nasty in this conversation, I have upset her somewhat, I have been honest and several other Dommes, and Dom/Dommes are speaking with me, and have an interest in my services.

She said that if I remember she has two slave cages, that means I serve with another sub, also caged, be it that one cage is in the shed and one in the home, but she may experiment , and put the two cages together for this experiment, one on top of the other and the top sub will have his drainage tube fitted into the lower subs hood, the lower sub will consume, and this discharge from the lower sub will not count against the litrerage accumulation and total discharge count that has to be achieved for release from custody. This could add a half or full day to a subs confinement, in custody.

This punishment will be given as a choice for the cane or the urine hood, and if you are accepted as a sub, she snarled, you will expect this. I have had erectile problems because of enforced chastity but my erection was intact throughout most of the conversation, I was told to journal more, and all about my opportunities to serve, as this will be my last opportunity to write , up to my interview with her, because if I am accepted my collar me account is immediately shut down,.

I asked a silly question really, about this method of time, a sub can not discharge more than he drinks, and what he drinks is controlled by his Domme, I was told that I can drink from all I am given, Lady A is only interested in the 5 litre bottles being filled to the brim, my contract of confinement to start with will be for 3 x 5 litres, upon receipt the Domme will release me, but as time goes by consumption gets easier, after 6 months that will be a contract of servitude and confinement to produce 5 x 5 litres to achieve my release. This will be a real slave contract, the slave has not rights, only a right to freedom after discharging the submission urine to determine his time of sentence.

When the conversation ended, the Lady A said, avoid the hood, shave off that beard, you are a good looking man with an acceptable face, but not with a beard. You are also only borderline for acceptance with a beard, she requires short hair or shaven heads, minimal body hair, once accepted as a sub in the future no body hair. The “lady A” said that she will feel like being more cruel to a slave bearded, certainly extended chastity periods, and certainly permanently hooded in service and contracted slavery.

Lady “A” is now interested to see my journal as I am required to post the serious interest in my service from others, so I have got to edit and rewrite, to ensure those interested in me, are not identified.

At the moment I think I can serve Lady A, I confirm that on my journal, and I will start to learn how to use flushing pants, Lady A has also helped my penis function more as it should, she requires me to gently masturbate during telephone conversations, this is to humiliate and control, as on any day she speaks with me, I must not ejaculate or orgasm, that day or the day afterwards. She warns me that once her sub in training, even when not serving in contract, permission for orgasm/ejaculate must be asked, and often a period of time is given, but the conversation rule is mandatory, a sign of submission and respect, an offence that carries 5 strokes of the cane, per offence. Lady A tells me she has a rule list annexed to the contract, there are over 200 offences punishable by the cane, the cane is administered on the buttocks, hand, back of legs, soles of feet, the hand that touches or masturbates the penis without permission gets the cane, what is strange lady “A” did not talk this way a month ago, I would have ran a mile, but I feel her control when she talks with me, I feel a need to please her, yes Lady “A” I want to be one of your slaves.

I have written for about a month with a very attractive , very assertive, quite mature lady, who has to be addressed as Mam, we now also speak on the telephone, and I have permission, from her, to write this for my journal.

I invite other subs or slaves who have experienced Latex or Rubber, as I have limited experience. This Lady is interested in my services, but I am required to wear rubber shorts with a drainage tube, these I wear in service instead of a chastity device, and at night , I will be caged and the drainage device is connected to a tube, or fits into a tube that collects the urine outside of the cage, and that discharge is measured. During the night I will be required to discharge 2 litres of urine, to gain release.

During the day, I fill a large container by inserting the drainage tube into this container, all urine is measured and collected. This Lady expects 3 litres during the day.

Domestic servitude is not measured in time, but by filling her 5 litre containers, this seems weird yet erotic, based on three days and 2 nights, she requires , 3 x 5 litre containers filled, then I am released.

I sign a contract to that effect, I am kept her prisoner until I complete her task, I am required to serve with another sub, her vanilla partner.

I am to do yard and garden duties, cleaning, bathing, massage, computer work, and menial duties, I wear these rubber shorts and a pair of flip flops only. This Lady likes the idea of the surrender of all clothing and apparel , and this is given back on my release. The only benefit I am given is use of my mobile phone for ten minutes per each day and this will kept by her when not in my use, switched off.

After 100 litres of urine discharge, I will be taught to orally serve, if I am deemed of sufficient interest to excite this Lady. That usually takes 20 days or so or 6 or 7 custodial visits.

Erections are not permitted at anytime, chastity in service is total and 7 days before being taken into her custody.

I must buy my rubber shorts, made in Germany of strong rubber, that restrict erections and the sub playing with himself, they are hand made and cost 295 euros, at night when the tube is connected a plate of some description is also connected that prevents the sub giving any pleasure through the rubber to his penis , that is an additional 100 euros and is also a chain that locks inside the cage. The pants have a waist band that locks another 125 euros , that stays on and is locked by the lady.

The rubber pants can only come off , when unlocked by the lady, for Number 2 purposes, the lady watches at all times, and you are permitted only at that occasion to wash your anus with soap, pull the shorts back up, and the Lady will secure them again. I asked about washing the penis and balls, this is not permitted, the sub is not allowed to touch them in service.

I asked about rashes, sweat rash , I was told yes, you will sweat, you are in my service to work, your rash will soon clear up, you are allowed to shower when dismissed.

Torture and punishment is not administered at the early stages, the punishment is being discharged for good, kicked out for good, if you do not shape up, there is no need for  Torture and punishment until later service, that becomes more sexual and after a few months, training begins, that is  to serve sexually the lady, and she refers to other sexual applications,  but this lady is not interested in the penis, it will not be used, she has no need for it, so the training I have had over the years suits her.

Accommodation is a heated shed in her garden, the garden is private, I work the garden when weather permits and it is warm enough, in the winter it inside the home, and I have been told that I am required to work hard. The Steel cage is kept in the large shed and is stocked with bottles of drinking tap water, a mattress and quilt. Food is fresh bread that is plentiful, no other food permitted, and I am required to pay for 15 litres of water at 15 euros per litres, towards my accommodation cost.

The clever twist , this is a really kinky lady and I say this with great respect, the garden shed is fitted with a TV and DVD system, she requires 9 hours of viewing by the sub, or 3 hours a day, the television is outside the cage, the sound is to be loud so that the viewing can not be escaped, the sub has no choice but to watch, the DVDs are designed to stimulate, excite the sub and the titles are chosen by the lady, she has warned that she always finds material to excite her subs, she will buy or import this material in and the sub contributes to this cost, based on 10 euros per hour, this cost being 90 euros.

This Lady is not on Collar me, but will visit the website to read this, so I say to other subs, tell me about rubber and latex, this lady is really into it, she told me that her sexual oral service will not be required for several months, but her apprentice subs will taste her rubber, latex or on occasion leather knicker gussets, the subs will be taught how to clean these garments, and when she talks about this her voice quickens and sounds exciting.

I have asked her thousands of questions, one being, why does she collect her male subs urine, she has said that when she discharges her sub after service, he may throw his own waste down the toilet, or she may if the mood takes her, or to punish, make her sub lie in the bath when his shorts have been taken from him, and pour 15 litres of his own urine over him, and his naked body and smelly penis. In later training if he performs well, and by progressing in future months, her sub may be bathed in his own and other subs urine, to help him learn excellence, that standard his lady expects.

This lady is not a urine fetishist, urine is used as a training aid, to measure time, to punish, but she is a rubberiest at heart. The down side for me is that I am ready to be interviewed by this lady, she is not ready as yet, she wants to learn more about me, and suggests my first interview with her in late February 2010, if I am excepted, she will require 100 litres from me before 2010 ends, so is she as real as I believe, I know so, we have written thousands of words, made many hours of phone calls, and I have exchanged a dozen photographs.

This Lady is strict, no compromise, her rules are written, the contract is written, she is real living the lifestyle. Rubber is very new to me, but I have experienced from what I have learned how controlling rubber is, and how rubber permits others to control you. I am excited and hope this lady accepts me.

Finally a few days ago , a sub/slave wrote me, who also serves a Mistress/Madam into rubber, what an opportunity for me to learn, he serves a very serious demanding Mistress and  I hope we can start writing, this mature sub works as a servant, domestic service, in total chastity, maybe also 24/7/365 and I have suffered short periods of chastity, it excites me, I hate it, I fear it, it controls me, removes my manhood, women who have discovered chastity for men, will control men 100% for ever. Once a woman requires chastity the sub is locked into her service like a drug, if it is done gradually the sub will be soon in the spiders web, once in that web, there is no escape. Women really have found the holly grail, all women who contact me these days want chastity in their control, men once sexually controlled in chastity will permit their woman to introduce more men, into the family, a poly family evolves , the woman has found utopia.

So it seems my new direction maybe to serve the rubber fraternity of Dommes. I will search the internet now, rubber, rubber, rubber but someone to converse with will be far better.

 I have had many dozen people of all gender write me, or reply to my messages, and at last I feel comfortable on this site.

I was asked by a wonderful mature Domme to tell her how my training would benefit her if i was as she said her occassional "BOY" she is from Canada, if a sub finds a real Domme who is quite happy to be served a solid 1 month out of a year, by the sub taking 4 flights a year and serves a week on each occassion, that is real servitude.

Canadian and American women certainly like to have a "Boy" in service, I write to a Domme who has a cage waiting for me, but she knows who she is, as she reads my journals, but her training methods are to harsh, far beyond my limits, but she still cares to write with me, that is nice.

Another Lady who seeks to know more about my talents and has already invited me to Canada, asks about my skills, and the following letter I wrote her a few weeks ago. This is a very strict but very nice Lady, and I may visit her next year if she does not change her mind, I am sure I will make a perfect "boy" for her, and I can handle her strict rules,

I wrote as follows, of course the name of this Lady, is not included but she is on CM.


With respect,

This is not topping from the bottom, this is just talking about experiences,

DEVOTION AT BEDTIME.

YOUR SUB HAS BATHED YOU,

He will dry you, gently and with care,

You may wish to lie on your bed, lie on your side back to your sub,

Warm sensual oils, perfumed with  essential essences from the spice isles , this sub knows every hidden sensual and pressure point, the neck, the shoulders, the spine, each digit to be teased to delight, the buttocks, those inner muscles that hide within the buttocks, top thigh and inner thigh, those calf muscles that need unlocking, delving strong fingers to vibrate those muscles with care, the ankles and feet, the toes and the 101 pressure points hidden within each foot, and your sub makes the return journey,back to the neck,  nothing  sexual just pleasure, unless ordered otherwise.

You may feel the urge, to command that your sub goes straight to your vagina, and sucks avidly, lifting the clitoris gently with the tongue, searching your G.spot, or maybe not, you want nothing sexual ,just to relax, a scented candle, quiet music, and an attentive sub.

Patience is one of those attributes, shown to a Goddess,  that you cannot learn by reading about it. It’s a quality that can only be acquired by persistent, enduring, practice and for me it’s a drill that I go over, and over, and over again!

The original Webster’s dictionary offers this definition of patience: “the suffering of afflictions, pain, toil, calamity, provocation or other evil, with a calm, unruffled temper; endurance without murmuring or fretfulness, from a kind of heroic pride, or from a Christian submission to the divine will.”

Reading this definition two things really struck me – first, “endurance without murmuring”. I, for instance, used to get so frustrated sitting in a traffic jam… counting the wasted minutes when I could have been doing something useful! Yet, what an opportunity for me to choose to quench the inner fumes – and use the delay to work on my patience, patience I need to have and demonstrate to my Domme!

The second thing that really hit me was, “a subs submission to the divine will, of his Goddess, his Mistress.” How many times are we placed in a difficult position, or forced to deal with an “impossible” situation? Or perhaps, an “impossible” person? These circumstances are always opportunities to grow in patience – or to learn to submit to ones superior and her  providential will, and often, to minister to her, in some special or unique way.

Is my patience being tested today? Great! Remember, love is (first of all) patient. Writing to a wise woman , assertive yet kind,  is training me toward how to serve unconditionally . With so much work to be done, an attentive dedicated sub  is really wanting to work this quality into his serving and submissive  character now,  to perfect his servitude and submissive  love, and with that he will transform himself, to be that submissive person , that is one day possibly qualified, to be accepted  to serve such a wise and perfect Domme.

It is such patience within the sub, that needs rules, his Goddess falls asleep from a wonderful experience and total relaxation. The sub has to know what the rules are.

Assuming a sub has been accepted, and trust placed within him, does he gently cover her up.

Must he quietly clean down the used bathroom, is her permitted his own shower first, when he has done his duties, can he sleep, does he sleep at the bottom of his Dommes bed, or a sleeping place, what time does he set his alarm to serve his Dommes tea, and breakfast. What are his early morning duties, a sub needs rules so that he knows he is pleasing all of the time.

The sexual part as he is a male being driven by testosterone, his he in chastity, if not can he play, what does his Domme wish him to do, he has served well maybe she will let him masturbate, maybe not, if she is in the mood maybe she will want to play with him sexually, maybe not, maybe she enjoys keeping him frustrated, maybe not, but when a sub knows how his Domme ticks, that he is pleasing her, he serves well, it is all about her.

Usually this sub massages his Domme to sleep, they forget they have a vagina, the sub is frustrated wishing to sexually serve, and they are thus then snoring in heaven.

The frustrations of a sub,  that needs rules to focus on, grip onto to aid his patience and control his sexual frustrations.

END

This letter written with devotion, is sincere and how I will serve her if and when we ever meet, she is aware that being free of a chastity device now for over a year, as helped my male sexuality to return, and this Lady is more flexible and is not threatening the device and I feel that I will may be serve better in the future, free of the device in service.

I have included this letter that I sent, because this is what I do, when permitted to serve a true woman.

Learning Protocol to pleasure ones Domme

The use of the male face, lips, nose and tongue to give a woman sexual pleasure was first recorded in Egyptian hieroglyphs. The courts of ancient China also record how long tongued male slaves were specially trained to be used by the ladies at court. Once the slave was in position, the ladies would lift their skirts and use them to cover the entire scenario. Gentle, rhythmic hip and buttock movements enabled them to enjoy private orgasms with others present. Japan too copied this practice in it's brothels; and seats with a central aperture were used for the same purpose far back in Persian history, these were called man-face chairs. In India, graffiti still exists depicting similar scenes with gowned girls, obviously in ecstasy, queening male submissive's whilst gazing upon an enormous erection! Queening also has a long tradition in the West...in medieval times pages would provide 'lip service' under their mistresses' skirts when their husbands were away in battle, thus enabling them to remain technically faithful.

There is nothing quite like a beautiful, assertive woman riding their subs face for her own pleasure.

Queening is, basically, the use of the sub male face, mouth, and nose and tongue, as a substitute for sexual intercourse and masturbation, by the dominant woman. This is an ideal way to focus a sub, who may not be worthy of sexual intercourse, or as a male sub, a Domme would not want his erect penis or sperm to enter her body, it not about the male, its about 100% the woman's pleasure.

It places the man in the most slavish, subservient position, under the woman's buttocks and crotch.

The Domme is in total control, the male will serve her for as long as she wishes, be it while she watches TV, a DVD, or reads a book.

There are very comfortable seats about, strong to seat a powerful woman, be that she may be slim or a BBW, and a semi-comfortable head sling to support the subs head, so that he is positioned for her pleasure.Most Queening seats these days come with restraints so that the sub can be confident he will serve as his Domme desires.

She sits on his face, or has his head trapped between her thighs, usually, but the Queen seat has a new dimension, of comfort and pleasure for the Domme, I have for years provided such toys for my Dommes, custom made or purchased from quality makers, beautiful pieces of furniture , that can become a subs worst nightmare..

The whole event of Queening is devoted to her pleasure, only her pleasure, her orgasms, and her time schedule, be it a minute, an hour or a day. The male subs pleasure or pain, satisfaction or frustration, desires or fears are of little importance, no importance he is there to serve and pleasure only , a piece of furniture, a human dildo, to maintain a high standard or be replaced.

The woman's / Dommes clitoris, vulva, labia and vagina demand service, and the sub is positioned well to keep his Domme comfortable by consuming all surplus vaginal juices, in time the sub will crave this nectar. I will write more on pleasuring my Dommes by providing the accessories, in this case a Queening stool or chair.I pay from about £300 onward, a custom made throne in elaborate gold and gilt finish, a piece of art, can cost £5,000 maybe more.

SUBMISSIVE vs SLAVE

This distinction appears muddled, misunderstood and generalized by a great number of the people that I converse with. First I would like to make a point. Language at it's best shifts from area to area. Within this one continent we have many variations or dialects of usage. This can be seen in terms like sweeper meaning vacuum cleaner etc. So, many words used within a community can mean different things to different people based on the 'age' of the person, their background and the common usage of the area they live in.

The submissive is a volunteer.

The slave is not a volunteer.

This is the core and substantial difference between the two terms. Within the BDSM community this can be interpreted in this way. The submissive individual may be lightly, moderately or heavily submissive. The submissive has a desire to submit to the direction of another person which in this community we call the Dominant or Top. Their submission may be quite limited in range, for example, they may only want and desire to release their submission in a limited fashion, for short amounts of time and within tightly confined arena's. This type of submissive will generally carry a long list of rules, boundaries, limits, requirements etc. which they require the Dominant to agree to prior to engaging their submissive aspect within the relationship. Other submissives will have a more moderate (this is the largest group) approach, a stronger desire to submit for longer periods of time with fewer restrictions, limitations and requirements. A small percentage of submissives will be heavily submissive. They desire and look for a full time partner to live with on a full time basis. Their nature is to seek to express their submission as often as possible with the fewest restrictions upon their chosen Dominant as possible. Generally their list of limitations, rules and requirements may be verbal, short and flexible.

Additionally there is the person that calls themselves submissive who prefers to seek out only casual contacts. This person is willing to submit only so far as to address their personal needs. Their orientation toward 'serving' the other person is almost nonexistent. They will have a list of personal needs and requirements and in large part do not care who fills them. These persons tend to be called the "DO ME" subs. In my opinion they are not submissives at all, not having the basic criteria of a 'desire to serve for the pleasure of another' that is the fundamental trait I identify as submissive and Dominant. For me personally, the 'do me sub' in my eyes is a vanilla person with a kink fetish desire.

There is one other category that needs to be mentioned here. This is the terminology of bottom and masochist. In general terms a bottom is not necessarily submissive but a person who enjoys scening from the bottom position. This bottom may or may not consider themselves to be a submissive, many consider themselves to be neither submissive nor Dominant but more accurately a switch. You will note that I do not consider a bottom to be a 'do me sub', their attitude, orientation and motivation are distinctly different. In my opinion they are usually very open and honest about the submissive aspect and by virtue of that fall into their own category. I have scened with many bottoms and found them to be excellent for demo's, workshops and to help out or assist where multiple persons are useful for the fulfillment of a scene. The masochist also plays in here, a masochist is a person that enjoys pain being inflicted upon them. They do not need to be submissive at all, (similar to a bottom). However, many submissives are strongly masochistic. The masochist also is sometimes called a 'pain slut', they generally are most similar to a bottom in clarifying their distinctions from the label or identification of submissive. This form of honesty is what in my opinion makes both of these choices valid.

The SLAVE ~

The slave is beyond the last level of the submissive. The slave vacates limits. To be a slave is to offer of self fully and without reservation. From my perspective very few individuals fall into this category. Those that do, that I know personally are generally with their Dominant for a very long period of time. Trust has been long ago established, limits and range discovered and a relationship of personal strength has emerged which allows the submissive to transcend to this level. This is a level without safewords, without limits. The slave lives with their Dominant on a full time basis and may or may not have a life external of serving their mate. The slave generally selects a Dominant with parallel limits. By this I mean that the final action of trust is the vacating of set limits. In order to do this the individual must fundamentally know that their partner shares the same 'natural' or 'inviolate' limits as they do. A Dominant has limits just like a submissive. That which falls within their natural range and desire is their arena.

Many people use the term 'slave' interchangeably with submissive. I myself enjoy calling my sub's 'slaves' because it thrills them. However, I know in truth that they are not slaves, they fall within the field of the submissive. A submissive without choice (limit's - safewords) becomes a slave. They have passed that final threshold of personal trust.

One final thing to really confuse things. I have a category which I call the 'Authentic Submissive', I also call these persons 'full out or true Submissives'. This is the submissive who is auto responsive. When in top space they can and may appear to be at any level of the submissive listed above. Upon entering sub-space they lose the ability to do anything but obey. This is an automatic response. They are unable to control the response. It has been my lifelong opinion that these submissives are the 'natural slaves', they have a capacity and range far exceeding the non-auto-responsive submissive. By the way, when I find one of these quite rare authentic submissives, I am instinctively very protective of them. They are the most vulnerable members of this community.

Ok, to address a few more misconceptions. There is sometimes rampant discussion on the who is real question. Any person who states that they are submissive, switch or Dominant should be taken at their word until through action, word or deed they demonstrate otherwise. Respect is not given by virtue of having any aspect but is earned or inspired by consistent action, word or deed. The amount, number, placement, design of brandings, piercings, tattoo's etc. can but do not necessarily identify any individual by virtue of in community status. These ornamentation's are used across the entirety of the community and can be seen upon any individual regardless of Dominant or submissive status.

The easiest way to discover a person's placement within the community, be it through gender, sexual orientation, top, bottom, sideways etc... is to politely ask them. You can simply say, "What way would you prefer to be addressed?" This offers the individual the choice to tell you what they prefer so that you will not appear discourteous. By the way...courtesy is the key. You are not required to respect any unknown person. You are required to use common courtesy. Additionally, there is no right or wrong to being or believing yourself to be anything. It is not better to be one thing or the other and people should not be discriminated against for those choices they make. I offer common respect to all persons until and unless they take an action that I find disrespectful. At that point I generally elect to have no further converse with them.

One final note. There is what is loosely called a 'submissive network'. This network is a system which has existed probably since the origination of the SSC credo (safe, sane and consensual), wherein submissives within a community share information. This becomes important if you are a new person. A Dominant is only as good as the reputation they maintain within their local community. There are persons within this community who use the label Dominant, Top and even Sadist to cover their activities of non-consensual abuse. If you encounter someone who is abusive or breaks the SSC credo. Identify them in their local community. This is in real life. If you are a Dominant and you encounter a submissive who is unbalanced (mentally), by this I mean erratic, violent, abusive...share this information as neutrally as possible with the other Dominant's in your locale who may encounter this submissive. There are some persons who call themselves submissive who will turn after a scene and accuse the Dominant of abuse. Generally they have not dealt with prior, long term or life long experiences with abuse. You are not required to medically diagnose, just be open and honest. Submissives also live by their local reputation. When encountering or beginning a new relationship be honest about any occurrences which may reflect poorly on your reputation. Establishment of trust requires this. A Dominant may be accused of abuse and a submissive accused of being cracked or insane without substantiation. Imput the information and take the time to get to know the individual before making a judgment!

SUBMISSIVE vs SLAVE

This distinction appears muddled, misunderstood and generalized by a great number of the people that I converse with. First I would like to make a point. Language at it's best shifts from area to area. Within this one continent we have many variations or dialects of usage. This can be seen in terms like sweeper meaning vacuum cleaner etc. So, many words used within a community can mean different things to different people based on the 'age' of the person, their background and the common usage of the area they live in.

The submissive is a volunteer.

The slave is not a volunteer.

This is the core and substantial difference between the two terms. Within the BDSM community this can be interpreted in this way. The submissive individual may be lightly, moderately or heavily submissive. The submissive has a desire to submit to the direction of another person which in this community we call the Dominant or Top. Their submission may be quite limited in range, for example, they may only want and desire to release their submission in a limited fashion, for short amounts of time and within tightly confined arena's. This type of submissive will generally carry a long list of rules, boundaries, limits, requirements etc. which they require the Dominant to agree to prior to engaging their submissive aspect within the relationship. Other submissives will have a more moderate (this is the largest group) approach, a stronger desire to submit for longer periods of time with fewer restrictions, limitations and requirements. A small percentage of submissives will be heavily submissive. They desire and look for a full time partner to live with on a full time basis. Their nature is to seek to express their submission as often as possible with the fewest restrictions upon their chosen Dominant as possible. Generally their list of limitations, rules and requirements may be verbal, short and flexible.

Additionally there is the person that calls themselves submissive who prefers to seek out only casual contacts. This person is willing to submit only so far as to address their personal needs. Their orientation toward 'serving' the other person is almost nonexistent. They will have a list of personal needs and requirements and in large part do not care who fills them. These persons tend to be called the "DO ME" subs. In my opinion they are not submissives at all, not having the basic criteria of a 'desire to serve for the pleasure of another' that is the fundamental trait I identify as submissive and Dominant. For me personally, the 'do me sub' in my eyes is a vanilla person with a kink fetish desire.

There is one other category that needs to be mentioned here. This is the terminology of bottom and masochist. In general terms a bottom is not necessarily submissive but a person who enjoys scening from the bottom position. This bottom may or may not consider themselves to be a submissive, many consider themselves to be neither submissive nor Dominant but more accurately a switch. You will note that I do not consider a bottom to be a 'do me sub', their attitude, orientation and motivation are distinctly different. In my opinion they are usually very open and honest about the submissive aspect and by virtue of that fall into their own category. I have scened with many bottoms and found them to be excellent for demo's, workshops and to help out or assist where multiple persons are useful for the fulfillment of a scene. The masochist also plays in here, a masochist is a person that enjoys pain being inflicted upon them. They do not need to be submissive at all, (similar to a bottom). However, many submissives are strongly masochistic. The masochist also is sometimes called a 'pain slut', they generally are most similar to a bottom in clarifying their distinctions from the label or identification of submissive. This form of honesty is what in my opinion makes both of these choices valid.

The SLAVE ~

The slave is beyond the last level of the submissive. The slave vacates limits. To be a slave is to offer of self fully and without reservation. From my perspective very few individuals fall into this category. Those that do, that I know personally are generally with their Dominant for a very long period of time. Trust has been long ago established, limits and range discovered and a relationship of personal strength has emerged which allows the submissive to transcend to this level. This is a level without safewords, without limits. The slave lives with their Dominant on a full time basis and may or may not have a life external of serving their mate. The slave generally selects a Dominant with parallel limits. By this I mean that the final action of trust is the vacating of set limits. In order to do this the individual must fundamentally know that their partner shares the same 'natural' or 'inviolate' limits as they do. A Dominant has limits just like a submissive. That which falls within their natural range and desire is their arena.

Many people use the term 'slave' interchangeably with submissive. I myself enjoy calling my sub's 'slaves' because it thrills them. However, I know in truth that they are not slaves, they fall within the field of the submissive. A submissive without choice (limit's - safewords) becomes a slave. They have passed that final threshold of personal trust.

One final thing to really confuse things. I have a category which I call the 'Authentic Submissive', I also call these persons 'full out or true Submissives'. This is the submissive who is auto responsive. When in top space they can and may appear to be at any level of the submissive listed above. Upon entering sub-space they lose the ability to do anything but obey. This is an automatic response. They are unable to control the response. It has been my lifelong opinion that these submissives are the 'natural slaves', they have a capacity and range far exceeding the non-auto-responsive submissive. By the way, when I find one of these quite rare authentic submissives, I am instinctively very protective of them. They are the most vulnerable members of this community.

Ok, to address a few more misconceptions. There is sometimes rampant discussion on the who is real question. Any person who states that they are submissive, switch or Dominant should be taken at their word until through action, word or deed they demonstrate otherwise. Respect is not given by virtue of having any aspect but is earned or inspired by consistent action, word or deed. The amount, number, placement, design of brandings, piercings, tattoo's etc. can but do not necessarily identify any individual by virtue of in community status. These ornamentation's are used across the entirety of the community and can be seen upon any individual regardless of Dominant or submissive status.

The easiest way to discover a person's placement within the community, be it through gender, sexual orientation, top, bottom, sideways etc... is to politely ask them. You can simply say, "What way would you prefer to be addressed?" This offers the individual the choice to tell you what they prefer so that you will not appear discourteous. By the way...courtesy is the key. You are not required to respect any unknown person. You are required to use common courtesy. Additionally, there is no right or wrong to being or believing yourself to be anything. It is not better to be one thing or the other and people should not be discriminated against for those choices they make. I offer common respect to all persons until and unless they take an action that I find disrespectful. At that point I generally elect to have no further converse with them.

One final note. There is what is loosely called a 'submissive network'. This network is a system which has existed probably since the origination of the SSC credo (safe, sane and consensual), wherein submissives within a community share information. This becomes important if you are a new person. A Dominant is only as good as the reputation they maintain within their local community. There are persons within this community who use the label Dominant, Top and even Sadist to cover their activities of non-consensual abuse. If you encounter someone who is abusive or breaks the SSC credo. Identify them in their local community. This is in real life. If you are a Dominant and you encounter a submissive who is unbalanced (mentally), by this I mean erratic, violent, abusive...share this information as neutrally as possible with the other Dominant's in your locale who may encounter this submissive. There are some persons who call themselves submissive who will turn after a scene and accuse the Dominant of abuse. Generally they have not dealt with prior, long term or life long experiences with abuse. You are not required to medically diagnose, just be open and honest. Submissives also live by their local reputation. When encountering or beginning a new relationship be honest about any occurrences which may reflect poorly on your reputation. Establishment of trust requires this. A Dominant may be accused of abuse and a submissive accused of being cracked or insane without substantiation. Imput the information and take the time to get to know the individual before making a judgment!

It is time I posted a Journal Note.

I must thank the many wonderful people who have either contacted me, or who have replied to me when I have contacted them.

That said, I am under standing the web site CM better now, learning my mistakes.

what I have established is different Mistresses and Dommes train in different ways, there is a kind of protocol, that I have failed on occasion, the first being how you address a Domme.

If one chooses to add Mistress, or any of the fancy titles that a mistress will permit, and I say permit,  you to use, get permission first.

Many real mature Mistresses will be seriously offended if you do not approach them as Mss, madam or mam, I have been corrected again, recently, and I am now very compliant.

I served previously as a Contracted Slave, 21 days a year, that was a custodial sentence of servitude, I was a slave, I was permitted as a slave to call my Domme Mistress.

Some Mistresses will say that until you are a 24/7/365 slave, you can not use this title, my training differed , I was told that once a sub passed to slave status, be it by any contract, he was to address his Domme as Mistress.

I am so sorry, as I am not any ones slave, at this moment, anyone I called Mistress, I have shown serious disrespect, I know better and I am disgusted with my attitude.

My situation explained,

It mattered not that the slave was not 24/7/365 as long as a Contract of slavery and confinement in slavery, and that the sub/slave was taken unconditionally into a Domme/Mistresses custody, to serve as a slave for a defined period of time..

As I entered into a limited slave contract, I was categorised by my Dommes as a slave.

Thus as a slave, I addresses my Dommes as Mistress.

I recall,  I was justly as I deserved,  punished by the cane, buttocks and hand , for calling  my Domme Mistress not mss, before I signed my annual slave contract. That was in 2001.

Now as indeed then, one must reflect on rules and protocol,

There is a void in the English language which, with some diffidence, we undertake to fill. Every one has been put in an embarrassing position by ignorance of the status of some woman. To call a maiden Mrs is only a shade worse than to insult a matron with the inferior title Miss. Yet it is not always easy to know the facts... Now, clearly, what is needed is a more comprehensive term which does homage to the sex without expressing any views as to their domestic situation, and what could be simpler or more logical than the retention of what the two doubtful terms have in common. The abbreviation "Ms" is simple, it is easy to write, and the person concerned can translate it properly according to circumstances. For oral use it might be rendered as "Mizz," which would be a close parallel to the practice long universal in many bucolic regions, where a slurred Mis' does duty for Miss and Mrs alike.

Often a sub, realising as I do the importance of a Domme, reflect the above definition, and get our mannerism of how, we address a Domme very wrong indeed.

I was taught by my ex Domme, many hours of training, to remind me as her sub, the frailty and imperfections of a subs nature, that have to be perfected, laziness is offensive to a Domme, thus I was taught through corrective punishment is handed out by a subs Domme for repentance and reformation, not to pleasure the Domme, pleasure from a subs submission and suffering is a different issue.

I have been fortunate many Dommes have approached me, sadly most from the USA and Canada, several are prepared to consider me, to serve every 4 months for a week, in their custody, I am lucky to have acquired this attention, and have considered the air travel as part of my submission.

I have been very transparent, and complaint and wrote thousands of words, sent many photographs, but what is clear is these Dommes are very busy, and on occasion I sense I am being drawn out to titillate the recipient , one very strict , but I thought with respect, to young for her credentials, wanted me to travel out to the states immediately, I will add to my journal 2 very important messages that she sent to me.

The clear definition of a Slave.

Her contract, commencement of one month/ 30 days to be served as a slave, based on the clear definition of a Slave.

The nominal communication made it impossible to commit, in reality impossible to commit, how could she know if the chemistry was there, she liked the photographs that I sent her, all approved,most Dommes will interview you maybe several times, before discussing servitude.

I have decided to write my Journals, that way, if any domme is interested in my services and submission, she will read all about me, maybe they do, so many write and choose later to ignore, I guess a Domme can be rude or ignorant to a sub, subs have no status, pity really. 

I have been asked by a Domme, about bathing, how I serve , how I have been trained.

I thought it may be a good Journal entry, so I have done just that.

In my service, I was required to ensure the bath was spotless and clean both before running Mistresses bath and after she has bathed. Often I was so busy serving that the cleaning was done late at night when Mistresses slept.

My Mistress and her sub, my Domme, had different rules about bathing, the temperature of their bath is a personal choice, and for the most part it is. The temperature of a Dommes  bath or shower can create physiological changes.

I was trained that a Hot bath or shower consists of a water temperature ranging between 96 F to 105 F. Hot baths or hot water showers can stimulate the immune system and increase circulation. By soothing nerves, hot water calms and relaxes the body. Hot water baths lasting two to fifteen minutes are employed in the treatment of chronic rheumatic manifestations in joints, fibrous tissue, and muscles; for the relief of muscle spasms, and of colic in the gastric, intestinal, gall bladder, or urinary tracts. Hot water can also cleanse the skin, and moisturize it too; pores are opened and take in water. Hot baths with temperatures above 101 F put a strain on the heart as it works to dilate blood vessels in order to cool the body. A good sub in service should know all these rules, and again A Domme suffering from heart disease or conditions that effect the arteries or the central nervous system need to avoid these water temperatures.

I purchased a thermometer to get the temperatures always right, both before she entered the water and during the bathing.

My Domme would enter the bathroom, and feel the water, sub should stand hands behind back, feet apart, eyes down. The bathroom should smell sweet and sensual and bath oils should be used. My Domme liked perfumed candles and these were lit and placed in the required positions.

Sub should never show any sexual excitement, I was always locked in a chastity device so erections were painful.

I was taught to remove my Dommes clothing, or first bath from her rear, as she was ssBBw I would support her by her waist, and lift her legs in one at a time, then take her weight as she positioned herself in the bath. She liked to enter at about 90 F and I would carefully introduce hot water to bring the temperature up to 93 plus.

I would spend about 15 minutes massaging her back, but my Domme had a private little hidden secret, between  her and I, her sub. She would get on her knees and all fours in the bath face down, and I would soap and cleanse her rose bud. I would immerse my longest finger in Vaseline and insert it full length, into her anus, then gently massage in and out, my back would ache, she was so demanding and would take many orgasms.

When she was satisfied, in that position I would gently wash and massage her vagina, ensuring my hands and fingers were spotless and clean after the anal stimulation. She would turn over and her front and breasts would be bathed, and with warm fleecy Egyptian towels, I would support her out of the bath, and dry her.

This could be around 9-00am in the morning, she would go back to bed, to read or watch T.V. My job was often to pleasure her, I would suffer great aches and pain, getting into positions and staying in positions, to get the exact positions she liked for oral servitude. She would get very wet in orgasm, my face would be soaked.

She enjoyed gentle wet stimulation, I used to work with my tongue on her clitoris, it was difficult to get my tongue inside her as deep as she liked, her demands were constant and lengthy. Occasionally, I was ordered to get her refreshments, snacks and drinks, that she would consume as I recommenced my position of pleasuring her.

In service I could only eat sliced white bread and water, this was to focus my mind on serving, I always served in a state of hunger. The home was full of tempting food, and the fridge bulging, but the Dommes were wise, a sub serves better when hungry.

This Domme may take another bath at Lunchtime and again before bedtime, bathing was always the same routine, other than when the Mistress/Domme was home in the evening, I would not anally pleasure my Domme, the sub Domme to her Mistress, my supreme Mistress.

Bathing my Mistress/Domme was different, it was sexual, she would direct me with her 30 inch crop, and remind me of my Eunuch status. I had to learn all about water quality to bathe my Dommes,  the Cold bath or showers, which consists of temperatures varying from 50 F to 70 F may be used to, stimulate a woman’s metabolism, but not in my Dommes home.

My Mistress/Domme liked Cold baths and showers, for her sub, she would say it  can wake both you and your muscles up during morning hours, revitalize the body after work.

She would sit with crop in hand, after bathing , and wrapped in warm towels, shout at me to enter the shower, she would say often , you had better hope that your heart, arteries and blood pressure can stand the shock. Now you will enjoy the sudden drop in body temperature, the increase in pulse and respiration, as well as the dilation of blood vessels.

This is your submission to me, eunuch have no libido but you are not a fully subscribed eunuch yet, so we will cool your libido down, so that you can continue to serve sexually for your Mistresses. I knew that this temperature should only be used for more than short periods of time, not over 3 minutes, more as a dip than an actual immersion. She would watch my discomfort and after a short time, depart the bathroom. I would immediately jump out of the shower, shivering, and after such a cold water experience, would always towel dry completely and quickly. Within minutes I would be called to do my next task.

We used to have question and answer times, one question asked was , what would you prefer when I have to punish you, the cane or a cold shower?

This sub would always say a cold shower.

Bathing your Domme, if a sub, is a wonderful experience, you gain your pleasure which is non sexual from her pleasure, which can on occasion be sexual for her.

Last year I had to draw up my own control agreement and contract, I was told what was expected, by my Dommes and they had great excitement researching it for me, and future subs.

I had domestic duties, and sexual duties for my Dommes. There was 4 punishments and controlling aids.

“Negative punishment,” also punishment by contingent withdrawal, this occurs when behaviour response is followed by the removal of a favourable stimulus.

In my case it was extending chastity periods for the slightest infraction, and also withdrawing some rights.

“Positive reinforcement” occurs when behaviour response is followed by a favourable stimulus that increases the frequency of that behaviour, in my case it was to give me a convenient outlet for my energy, massaging and bathing my Dommes, oral servitude for long periods, and domestic service.

Positive punishment, called punishment by contingent stimulation, occurs when a behaviour response is followed by an aversive stimulus. In my case it was the cane or painful electric pulses, I feared the cane, so electric pulses were used. They are very painful and harmless, but would focus me.

Negative reinforcement occurs when behaviour response is followed by the removal of aversive stimulus, therefore increasing the behaviour frequency, that was to introduce a longer delay to an existing automated , brief, painful, electric pulse cycle. Very harmless but painful.

So a remote electric shock device was introduced, periods of chastity increased , to 14 days before I served, then additionally throughout the custodial period, weighted parachutes to elongate the scrotum, to house a smaller ring, erection control exercises to encourage a flacid penis, yes the DOMMES WERE CASTRATING ME.

With remote technology, an electic pain can be given to the genitals locked away, the sub can not get to the pain giving device, as he can not get to his cock, this takes a new dimension, a sub can be told to dance, sing, sign a document or even a cheque, stand, sit, beg, bark, punish himself, fetch, carry, any command at any time, 24/7 carried out to the Dommes 100% satisfaction, all she does is sit with her feet up, or lie in her bed, and press the remote.

We go back onto “Positive reinforcement” occurs when behaviour response is followed by a favourable stimulus that increases the frequency of that behaviour, in my case it was to give me a convenient outlet for my energy, so with a remote, a Domme can keep her sub burning the energy he would be using if he was wanking, all that testosterone and endorphins, retained in his male body, will now make the sub work better. Work he must, menial and hard labour, and fear the next terrible pain to his cock, or often both cock and balls. A remote can also be worn just on its own, or with a parachute and weights, this has a clever twist to it, if the sub can take it off, my Domme classed this as a very serious offence, it is disrespect for the owner of the cock, who is the Domme, when you are in her service, subs should focus more on this, in service be it one hour or several days, weeks or 24/7/365 days the Domme owns your cock and balls, and your male sex.

When the remote cock device was introduced last year, my Domme introduced a fine of £500 and 30 stokes of the cane, or £250 and 60 strokes of the cane, for removal of any remote punishment device, or to try and remove anything fitted or locked on by her. I understand that there is a need for punishment to control a sub, but last year my Mistress Domme, changed got more mercenary and more into the scene, and was introducing more subs both male and female into her life and home, as she had Domme friends with several subs.

One humiliation Dommes should think about is the Power fixation of a sub that a Domme has, if a sub is in service or training with one or more, who suffer chastity, it adds to a subs submissiveness through competition. A mistress for example can hold a party with 4 or 5 subs that she trains at different periods and times in a year, bring them all together, and demonstrate her power, a Mistress with many subs serving her at the same given time, 100% controlled, all cock owned, by just one very woman, is extremely powerful training of the weak male.

I have been encourage to write about the secrets behind closed doors, that are kept sacred, by a wonderful Lady, I have met just these last few days, so I hope other subs will compare their experiences and Dommes understand how the mind of the sub is working, many Mistresses who are true Goddesses say they are not interested in what there subs think, my experience begs to differ, to manipulate the male properly, is mind has to be explored as well.

I am not into serving as a sissy maid, but a good Domme can make a male do anything she bids of him, I am best suited as a slave boy /man, of course will accept correction, discipline and pain through punishment, but I am not able to serve as a pain slut, to take pain for my Dommes excitement , orgasms often and pleasure. I know how to make my Dommes orgasm through pleasure of their bodies, not pain to my own.

I have been accused of topping from the bottom when I have said this before, but if you are not a pain slut, that is nature, and a good Domme will accept that limitation, if it does not suit her, she kicks the subs back side out and moves on, it is all about a Domme, this sub accepts that.

Just like Sun Yaoting, a victim of the whims and intrigues of a cruel emperor, I was reminded as I was named “UNI” by my previous Dommes, that I too was a willing and consenting victim of the cruel whims and intrigues of the Dommes, I served with pride, and the time I spent with them gave me excitement, as I gave them excitement, it was fun time with a purpose.

It as only been since I am no longer in this lifestyle that I have reflected on what I have missed but the legacy remains, my Dommes, were through chastity, making me a  eunuch, I served their household in a way as a eunuch, I was devoid of use of my manhood.

Driven by need to serve a Domme, or Dommes, this was fate, I was quite content with my 7 years service, but as all Dommes should I guess, they need to continue to expect more, in 2 days since I have been on Collar Me, I have established that I was lucky, I was never introduced to their dildos, other than oral submission when the two were playing. I feel very fortunate but realise that the long periods of weighted parachute training was to stretch me to accommodate a more escape proof chastity device, one with a smaller ring, I did not realise as I thought it was just to keep that area a bit painful and once removed a 24 hour ache.

If you are chaste it makes you very desperate to serve your Domme, and for myself I served really well, as I was naked it keeps you humble and aware that you are chaste, for the Domme she can see that the chastity device is doing the job intended, preventing erections, preventing self pleasure, and most important preventing ejaculation.

As the sub, this focuses you to pleasure your Domme, what ever makes her happy, when serving in custody of a Domme, for days, and you sexually pleasure them, several times in that day, the orgasms they take make you feel so wonderful and excited, and how powerful they are , and through your frustration being chaste, your submissive mind really wants you to accept being a type of eunuch, and as a submissive mail give up your own sexual pleasure of ejaculation and that sexual relief, as that experience the Domme is giving you is far more powerful.

I have read some Dommes on here are developing poly families, with some subs being kept in permanent chastity, I am quite sure the route my Dommes were taking me was towards that  because it was wonderful when the key came out and my Domme removed my chastity device, they both watched as I washed , then with excitement and very stern faces the talcum powder was liberally dusted and the parachute clipped on, as a sub you realise that in this service , they own your cock and balls, and it is a nice feeling.

My Domme always slapped the penis head with her crop if I showed any erection, and the lead weights are fitted, pain shoots through the balls, and you want to rip it off, but dare not, such wonderful power, and to serve your Dommes like this in acceptable pain focuses the mind, but certainly stretches to accommodate a smaller  chastity device ring.

I am also interested in some real Dommes who discuss the financial aspect, my Dommes were ordinary people, Number one and the head of the household worked daily driving a van, on occasion a lorry, her partner was a stay at home, as a SSBBW that really was not the best place stay at home, as she gained more weight annually.

I served 21 days a year, usually 3 days at a time, it was fair as if you are accommodated even in the Dommes custody, you should expect to pay your way, so my rent was £150 per day, I think that was really fair of them, but I did serve well.

I was required to take my submission and serving gifts, usually quality bath oils, massage oils and essential oils, foot creams, always a sex toy like a G spot vibrator, always SSBBW  panties , the Mistress Domme wanted me to concentrate on her sub, my Domme. Right or wrong, I took cream cakes, that I would cut up small and serve her with , fresh fruit like grapes, confectionery, she loved smarties and she played a game with smarties, when in my parachute after dinner, I would have to, for about one hour cross the room with a smarty, bow before her and place it in her mouth, then return for another smarty. The Mistress Domme kept the chastity key and I was only released out of it when she was at home, and for what she called her training. When in their service I took with me, cooked and served them each night, a fillet steak, the only thing I could cook, but I did it always to perfection. I would stand as they ate, and serve them quality wines, afterwards cheese and biscuits with Port, and the sub Domme loved her sweet, so I was back and forward to the kitchen like a yo yo. I was always attentive . My food was only sliced bread and water that I must take when preparing their meals, out of their site, usually one sliced loaf and tap water kept me going for three days.

On my third night, after the Dommes had been satisfied, my journey was some one and half hours home, Mistress Domme would go to her car, bring in a suitcase with my clothes in, remove my chastity , tell me to get dressed, give me back my mobile phone, before I was dismissed she would put the next servitude date in her Diary, give me instructions, and I was chastity free , I would not hang about to shower, because this happened once, and my clothes had been taken back by them, they wanted to play, and they wanted my oral services, Mistress Domme fitted the chastity back on, and I served them until after midnight before release.

Otherwise this seemed a perfect arrangement, no heavy stuff or Dungeons, and No serious pain, just humiliation and being taught how to please a woman, properly in my case two demanding Dommes. My Dommes had other subs so when I could not extend my servitude periods and take on their new demands I was dismissed, this side of women I find so difficult to accept, this is a woman being most cruel.

Since I have been on Collar me just two days, my erectile dysfunction seems to be improving, I can see that most lifestyle Mistresses use chastity, and it is something a sub hates, often terrifying yet craves if he is in the service of the right Mistress or Domme, who enjoys her sub serving her sexually knowing that the sub can not achieve any sexual satisfaction, from her or at her expense.

My experiences has taught me that through control,  fear and pain during when in the service of a fair but strict Domme, it is a taste of what Sun Yaoting, suffered during his eight years within the red walls of the Forbidden City and thereafter, when he was forced into a society that regarded eunuchs as less than men, and ideal creatures to serve a demanding women her sexual pleasures.

MY FIRST ENTRY, ADDITIONAL INFORMATION ADDED TO MY PROFILE.


NOT MY FAULT, I HAVE EVOLVED, I AM SHY, ASHAMED , AT 52 YEARS I FEEL DISGUSTED BE IT I LOOK 45 YEARS OLD,  A PROUD SMART MAN CRUSHED, SMART AND ATTICULATE, PRESENTABLE AND GOOD LOOKING, DECENT STATURE, DEVASTATED TO BE PUTTING UP MY PROFILE, I AM QUITE LOST AND CAN NOT UNDERSTAND MY PLIGHT.

WHY CHASTE4DOMME?

Read my profile you will understand, I offered my services of submission to a couple 7 years ago, I could never imagine how life changing that was, I was taken from quite a macho man to a whimpering sub.

So Chaste, I served my Dommes, one to three days a month, over the years, I was taught by my Dommes to control all sex, masturbation and certainly orgasm with ejaculation, as of last year when I arrived to be incarcerated for a few days, I was required to have not masturbated, ejaculated or had an orgasm, for 10 days, prior to arrival, as the years progressed my abstinence period was extended. I did as required and avoided the punishments I feared.

And 4 is for, Domme

I am no longer serving, I will post my story soon.

Trained for seven years by two strict Lesbian Domme/Domme.

Served 24/7 naked in chastity device.

Was taught never to display an erection, when serving naked.

Penis was taught to respond to the hand only, so mental chastity enforced an ability not to be able to pleasure a woman through intercourse.

I was Lesbian taught that my penis had no use, other than as a controlling aid, for them , a healthy good 8 inches was reduced to half that  to always drop flaccid, in service and at all times.

Was taught masturbation and hand relief could be taken by me, when permission granted.

Was taught to pleasure a woman orally for many hours.

Was lesbian taught to bring a woman to multi-orgasm , and consume all cum.

Was taught to behave and follow orders fully and accurately.

Was taught woman as the supreme being, all women.

Was taught how to serve and understand SSBBW and BBW.

Was taught how to bathe, massage, and care for superior women.

Was trained to do basic domestic service, personal services took priority.

Was required to always be sun tanned and genital shaved.

Was required to do 21 days and nights in servitude per year, spread over the year from 2 day periods to 5 days.

That is all I have to offer, that at the moment is my sorry profile.

So why am I seeking, my Dommes  became very demanding as they have got older,  both women as partners, one my butch Domme, the SSBWW was submissive to Lu (the butch) but very Domme to me.

They have a male sub now, and a female sub also, and the butch partner was getting very demanding and experienced in training, my servitude in their control and custody was to be upped to 40 to 50 days per year. I have commitments so what they really wish for is 24/7/365 and to make me slave status, that is also to financially support them and their lifestyle, as Lu the butch wanted to spend more time in developing myself and other subs , with strict training, ongoing slave maintenance, and the worse was to come, permanent chastity, permanent denial of orgasm, permanent denial of hand relief or masturbation, I was to be prostate milked only in chastity.

Lu was serious, and I had to agree in a 3 day punishment session, my nipples were to be ringed, my genital appropriately ringed, this is a small disc that hangs below the testicles that is permanently attached with a piercing , and slave details are stamped on this disc, and I was to be fitted with a P.A. and Guiche for chastity in “lu’s” personal service.

This is real, because I have been given a photograph, anyone wishing to see it, please ask, and I will pass it onto you.

Lu told me in this punishment session , as I sported Lu’s parachute with weights that hurt, and not permitted, even if I could sport anything else, as my erection buy now was certainly not permitted, and illegal, and over the last three years “Lu” has brainwashed me, by his Domme “Barb” making my illegal erection, and “Lu” with his stinging crop, correcting me, back to flaccid. They have done this training for hours until an erection is impossible, as I am so sore. If I Orgasm or ejaculate it is the cane or rod, and “Lu” will really hurt me, so I prefer my painfully blistered penis head than the cane. I actually welcomed in later years “Lu” painfully cropping my penis to flaccid as I feared the cane so much.

“Lu” said there is only one cock in this house, and you suck it clean , that is my strap on, seven years ago my penis was hard and strong and could stay that way for hours, I was good in bed with women, my seven years of erection denial training by “Lu” has ensured in hangs down low, always long and flaccid and before I finished in their service, I was wearing a testicle parachute with weights, in my service, more than the chastity device, because my penis was now behaving for “Lu” and there was no need for the controlling device to prevent my erections.

My Dommes had lost it, now I have lost my servitude and a big part of my very private life serving two very demanding Dommes, one a BBW, that was “Lu” and one a SSBWW. If they read my profile these Dommes know who they are, I have changed their names , but only slightly.

My Dommes were most subs dream, for me, I was not so submissive, they have worked on me for seven years, I have no regrets because they have taught me how to serve, I am not into Dungeons and Torture, but I do understand a woman has a liking to correct and train men, and adding a little discomfort to ensure good behavior pleases a woman.

I have been trained to bathe to perfection a SSBWW, I can massage and if required sexually please a SSBWW or a BBW , I understand that I am not to get any sexual favors and can please to multi-orgasm, A Domme can enjoy my services holding the key and controlling my pent up frustration. I have served naked in a chastity device for seven years, it makes me work harder through my humiliation, as I have been trained to do.

I can do all intimate shaving and oiling, work slowly with care, and to ensure my Domme, Dommes or Mistress is really pleased.

I have been made to serve at my ex-Dommes parties, as a Butler and waiter, in my chastity device and a Dickie Bow , and white gloves. Several times a year, one party involved 15 people.

I have experience in serving older Dommes, last year “Lu” had me pleasure  a woman who was late 60s into 70, she had not had any sexual contact for ten years, she was a Lesbian so loved me in chastity, she wanted oral stimulation and nothing to penetrate, what was meant on the first occasion a ten minute oral, lasted over one hour, she had me wear a mask, and kept her knickers on.

The second occasion, “Lu” told her that this sub has no cock to worry about, and suggested she require me to service her with a weighted parachute, she declined the parachute but chose to borrow “Lu’s” crop, I served her naked, and she was pleased that I stayed fairly flaccid and well hung low, certainly no erection. I had to wear a mask, and on this occasion she removed her knickers, she was much wetter than last occasion, and kept me sucking, licking at her clitoris, for about 2 hours. Every so often she would hit me with the crop, and it hurt. She ended up kinky at almost 70, she said that for being able to pleasure her, I was to have 6 strokes with the crop on my balls, she told me that she was going to hurt the balls, and she wanted me to take her  knickers as a gag.  She hurt me, and I knew if I had not taken this from her, “Lu” would have given me worse.

I did not know older ladies were like this, she took her knickers out of my mouth, put them on, and took off my mask. I was required to service her again, but I believe she was taken quite ill, I hope it was not the excitement. This Lady did say that she wanted a handy man, not for sex, but to do hard gardening work, and fancied a naked slave in chastity, and said she enjoyed punishing me, more than the oral service, so I was not to keen to proceed with her, but would have done, if it was ordered by “lu” so I have an understanding of an older Lady, so I have that value.

I believe I would be excellent for a Mistress, with a sub partner, married or not, I know from serving my Lesbian Dommes that one man can not satisfy a really sexy woman, I am no threat to such a relationship as I was no threat to the Lesbian relationship, also a woman in an ordinary marriage would maybe not have experienced what I have been taught to do, sexual as well as body massage, oils and creams, my aim to make Mistress have wonderful orgasms. I am no threat to any marriage, I have been taught that I take no pleasure, I can wear chastity and hot up the marriage bed for the Mistresses partner, as this is what I had to do for my Dommes, I excited “barb” for “Lu” , I did all the work, and in my chastity device or later weighted parachute watched them having unbelievable sex, often for many hours.

I was able to rest the lead weights on a chair seat, on numerous occasions, without “Lu” noticing, for an hour on end, as they were so engaged in sex. My balls used to be blue with pain, waiting to have the parachute removed by “Lu” , this and the cane were my worst nightmare, “Lu” did not cane me often, in 7 years maybe 3 times, she hurt me badly on each occasion. Last year I had to wear a chastity device for 36 days or receive 25 strokes of her cane, this was because I was in service during menstrual period, and I did not serve well. The 36 days was the second menstrual show, I was summonsed and got released from chastity and served without question. So I have all the talent these ladies have given to me, in their teachings.

I have been approached by a Dom, who has learnt about me via the Dommes I served network, he is very experienced, and wants me to sub for him and his wife, they are professional and quite heavy in to BDSM. All this Doms requirements sounded fine, he told me that he had the only cock in his house, I as a sub would always be in chastity. The Dom said like my previous Doms, the only use he had for my appendage, that is what he called it, was to control me in his service, my appendage had no other purpose other than to pee, with his permission. He explained that he wanted to continue the erection denial program in Dungeon, he thought it was my wish to achieve permanent flaccidity, as a eunuch, he wanted me to serve as a eunuch , this was worse than the Dommes.

I have since found through my desperation to serve, that the Dommes were quite mild, my head has been in the clouds the last 7 years, most are interested to cause a sub a lot of pain, they expect a sub to take a lot of pain, but for pain sake.

I thought pain was to be expected in correction, please and please well, and you avoid pain.

So I am quite lost, my training is wasted at the moment, my private and confidential life is a curse, in real life, I am a smart man , a businessman, do a respectable job, and outwardly I am that , nice guy from the Pru, do you remember, smart and trustworthy.

I can and have traveled to serve over 150 miles, so really distance is no problem.

I seem to get hooked with Lesbian couples, I served a nice couple 9 years ago, for 18 months, before I met “Lu” they were nice, I just spent a day at a time every few months, I wore only Doc Martin , or were they Catt Boots, to do the gardening in all weathers, my reward was a bath and to orally serve the Madam, for about 3 hours before leaving. Of course I was not permitted to use my permanent erection when serving her, but Madam would come into the Garden, earlier in the day,  tell me to stand back against a tree, open my legs and masturbate me, she did this countless times, when I was near cumming she would produce a bramble twig or bunch of nettles,  and tell me to hold back or feel her wrath, yes orgasm control, it was only playing, I cum and she would laugh and walk away.