6/27/2010 11:59:37 AM: I can be the most talkative girl in the room, without really ever saying a single important word. I can take the ugliest situation or person and find irrelevant beauty in it and them, much less capable when self reflecting. I'm patient beyond understanding when I love someone. I am rambunctious, and reckless... with my own feelings, yours aren’t even obvious to me, in that very moment I hurt them. I’m careless and thoughtless and selfish with my time, my words, my money, and my heart. I don't mean to be. I mean well, I've just been hurt once too many. often times I end up making the wrong decisions, choices, or perceptions, in most situations, be it with friend or foe. I have hope, that I am supposed to abandon, but I secretly hold out for that one slight miracle. I always let go two minutes too soon in some situations and two years too long in others. I love socks, pajamas, and laying side by side in bed with someone while watching television. I dislike cuddling so much that I become impossible to hold. I have learned how to communicate openly, honestly, and verbally, even when I know I wont fair well, nor be favored for my words, nor in the out come; which by the way, I no longer get to arrange to my liking either. I’m stubborn and will try my way two dozens times until I admit defeat and ask for help, or I'm owned. I still love with the same heart I always have. I still love with the same vigor and innocence as a curious child. But trust is now an earned privilege. I am not just any man's toy. I knew the last man that hurt me was going to the day I laid eyes on him, and I jumped in with both feet anyway. I'm not bragging, I'm reminding myself. I've hurt innocent people by their own expectations of what they think I need, want, or should be willing to settle for. I'm not currently looking for my next ex, but if they happen to show up, I don't want to be caught unprepared. So I mostly avoid that whole dating scene. I love my friends for supporting that. So if I ignore you, maybe the pull is too strong for me and/or not enough at the same time. Sending me three quick emails in succession to see if I got number one email is not needed. Eventually, I come around, or I just don't. I receive several emails from well meaning gentlemen, and am grateful they appreciate my "honesty, integrity, and my balance", my "carefree refreshing aproach to this lifestyle", and several have expressed a desire to meet me, have coffee with me, or know me in some much deeper manner. I am not available for that in my personal life currently. When I'm not working, there is little else I enjoy doing. I am not expressing this as some sort of challenge, nor do I want sympathy for it, merely stating a fact. I will enjoy being s.i.n.g.l.e, no matter how much I may hate it.

5/26/2008 11:26:43 PM: checking in...so far I have found several people local to me and couldn't be happier. Went to my first munch in 6 years, and played at the following private party. Its been a good couple of weeks.

5/10/2008 3:35:22 PM: Having reconnected with a few friends, I feel as if I am getting closer to the pit so to speak. I missed the lifestyle and am so elated that I get to return. The desire never left, and the teens are now grown. Being a prodomme is hard with kids...especially curious ones. If I look familiar...message me and remind me where we met. Currently I am looking for play partners, and am serious in my pursuit. I live a stones throw (an hour) from kink capitol. Finding old friends that I met years ago and lost contact with on mIRC, would be the icing on the cake. I still have the same name, and I still have my collarme page. The picture of my face is fairly current. The other pic is from a fetish site. 2002. I don't play a bad school girl marm, and I play an even better catholic brat. thanks for readin.....Kitti

5/3/2008 7:45:42 PM: Returning to the lifestyle after a 5 year break.  Looking to hook up with like minded friends in northern california, email me.

5/21/2005 1:07:49 AM: OK Let me narrow it down a little more. I am not into cyber-sex, and I don't want to know what sexual favors you can do for me.  I alone meet those needs and will never need your help. I am not interested in pursuing anything sexual w/anyone, so quit asking.  I love to play. I play hard. I play soft. It is up to you to decide. We all know the bottom holds all the cards, but its fun finding out how many they'll play. I enjoy playing with new people, and I love playing w/oldtimers. I believe you should always introduce something new to the senses. If you have the imagination to dream it, live it.