Just looking for friends at this point! My name is Zair. I am a switch from Washington state. However it seems that I may be making a very profound transition into complete Domme' .I have been in the BDSM lifestyle for over 7 years now. Most of that time has been spent as a submissive, however, about 2-3 years ago I discovered that I quite enjoyed things from the other end of D/s as well. Though not near enough to completely give up my place as a submissive.
As a matter of fact until recently I have said many times that I would be perfectly willing to give up my play as a Dominant all together to settle into a M/s relationship as a slave. But recently I have been doing quite a bit of soul searching and have realized that I am just too damned strong willed and free spirited to be constantly in the service of someone else.While I still very much enjoy play as a submissive... I must admit that I have found a subbie boy that has brought out in me something that I never knew existed. I have found many "subbies" that just wanted me to tie them up... beat them... and screw them... This pet... he submits... TRULLY submits and I have a very real need to accept that submission and take control... to guide him... and mold him... take him as mine... and possess him entirely.I have always been a Dominant person... and while I have been a "submissive" in the past... I know now that I honestly never submitted to anybody. I was compliant enough, and did as they asked... but inside I was never content with serving them.
With this pet I honestly now feel very comfortable... and simply... right... Just right. *sighs* anywho... That is me... that is where I am...
5/23/2008 6:21:32 AM
Well, I have spent a few journal entries making clear what I'M NOT LOOKING FOR! Now I will have one telling a bit about what I AM LOOKING FOR!!!
It is simple enough really. I am looking for like minded people within the lifestyle to have simple conversation with, to possibly meet and develop friendships with.
I want to be able to talk about techniques and practices within the lifestyle... and be able to talk about all the vanilla topics that come up as well...
I have approached a few people on the site for this simple thing. And it seems that most people here are just as quick to dismiss messages from people not interested in being their next plaything/tormentor as a great deal of people here are to pump out as many copy and paste jobs as they can in hopes of speeding up their search for the same thing.
I realize that for most everyone here the main focus is finding your perverted partner/s of your dreams... but really... is it such a waste of time to simply MEET, TALK WITH, AND GET TO KNOW PEOPLE?!?!?!
I have made it clear that pursuing conversation with me will not lead to any type of play... but it may well lead to a relationship... that relationship my dear fellow deviants... is called friendship.
Ok, my rant is over. I hope everyone is having a great week, and wish ya a pleasant weekend! Be Well!
5/17/2008 12:10:07 PM
I AM NOT LOOKING FOR ANYONE!!! NOT EVEN YOU!!! I really don't know how much clearer I can say it... I'm not interested in another submissive... I am not looking to switch so long as I am with my present slave... I AM NOT LOOKING!!! PERIOD! I doubt very much that I will see a decrease in messages from people who don't seem to be able to read... or manage more than copy and paste messages... But what can I say, I'm a wishful thinker.
5/1/2008 4:42:25 PM
I have decided after much consideration and soul searching to start a relationship with my submissive... not only collar him as my slave... but also take him into my life completely as my friend, lover, and companion... I am trully happy with him on all levels of our relationship thus far... I have little doubt he will continue to make me happy in the future. Wish me luck.... though I think I have all the luck I could need at this point. I know how frustrated so many of you are (I was up until recently right there with ya.) It is hard enough to find someone based on similar romantic chemistry.... but then to throw in the intricasies of the BDSM lifestyle and still have a good match.... It was infuriating and most times disheartening.... But it is POSSIBLE!!!! I wish you all as much luck as I have had... Be well :)
4/16/2008 2:51:41 AM
For the time being I am not looking. I have found someone that I want to focus on... Oddly enough he is a submissive... I know I have stated in the past that I had no interest in collaring a slave for my own... but there is something very intreuging about this pet that has quite changed my mind. Unexpected.... but welcome... We are currently in negotiations... However, I have little to no doubt that he will soon be my live in collared slave.
4/12/2008 7:48:12 AM
No pics for a short time... replacing some of my least favorites with some new ones... should be up and showing soon :)
3/18/2008 11:31:27 PM
*sighs* living in a fairly large, yet conservative town is starting to wear on me slightly. I keep comming across very fascinating people on here... but with myself unable to travel presently... and them not willing to travel to me... I feel like wonderful possibilities are just out of my grasp... *sighs*
2/20/2008 11:37:33 PM
I am not interested in Dominating online... so please dont ask... I will however consider sessions online with the right Dominant..
2/19/2008 6:13:50 PM
Hurray... new photos... and I didnt even loose em for a few days due to a brainfart :D
2/17/2008 8:50:46 PM
The photos are up... and I'm not fiddling with them ANYMORE! lol... I cant seem to do it without messing it up... grr. Anywho... there I am... yay.
2/16/2008 6:34:20 AM
I do not understand how I did it again.... I did the exact same thing as last time... and now I am stuck without a main pic... again... until it approved... *sighs* I really must pay more attention to that!
1/29/2008 9:06:31 PM
grrrrr cheese... do you ever feel like a walking brain fart? Waiting for my photo to be approved.. and it finally is... good reaction from the other users... go to upload more... and end up wiping out the one that just got approved.... Gee golly I love being bright :P
