I will not do long distance. Long distance may work for some but it has never worked for me and I am done trying. If you are over 2 hours away be serious about relocating or if I seriously find the right one, I MAY relocate, however you will need to visit me first. (More then once) If you want me to relocate then you have to be willing to come spend time with me before I will even consider it.
I need to be able to touch you and be touched, hold and be held. I need to know I am loved not just told. I am an attention whore, meaning I require a lot of attention which I am not ashamed of and completely honest about up front and most likely will require reassurance early on. I also need to feel wanted and cared about. If you aren't able to handle that, that's fine, but it won't work.
I require 100% honesty. NO exceptions.
I love animals of all kinds, I come with two dogs, two snakes.
I find the paranormal intriguing and love to learn more about it, if you don't believe in anything paranormal, then how on earth will you make it all better when I am scared out of my mind? LOL
I am not seeking anything in particular at the moment.
I have recently clawed my way up from a very dark point in my life and am better then ever! I am strong. I do require attention so be warned. Also I have noticed for me every relationship I have been in.. The dynamic is different each and every time. I also do not feel submissive to every Dom, but I do always strive to be respectful.
I am playful and can be naughty. I like to have fun but am fairly easily amused. I do know how to be serious. I also can not press enough that I believe communication is extremely important, as is honesty. I will not lie to you, please don't lie to me.
Yes I am submissive, no I am not your submissive, though I give respect until given a reason not to. Respect is a huge priority in my life. I may be submissive but I am also a brat, a SAM(smart ass masochist). Remember I am submissive, not a door mat.
I am always grateful for all I have learned, and seek to learn more everyday. I know I am lucky to have what I have and experience all I get to.
I am a BBW and love being naked, I think everyone should be naked, everyone has the potential to be beautiful and everyone is beautiful on the outside, sometimes its the insides that aren't so lovely.
I don't play games, other then cards ;) I don't want drama, unless its a soap opera. If you can't take the time to read my profile you definitely can't take the time to be my friend, and especially not more then my friend, I take the time to read your profile take the time to read mine. Don't be offended if your attempt to pick me up fails.
Just because your kink may not be my kink or my kink may not be yours, doesn't make it wrong.
If I haven't scared you off yet and your still interested.. Feel free to drop me a line. (I do not mean that literally, please send me a somewhat intelligent message, with more then once sentence.)
"To have someone give you control of their bodies and minds, to be entrusted with the responsibility to take care of them, to have someone willing to suffer for you, to forsake pride and dignity to please you... what other gift in this world can possibly equate to that? And more importantly, what makes you worthy to receive it?" - Anonymous
"Its the submissive that show to others what type of Dom own them" - Anonymous
"If you think I'm too big, you couldn't handle the job anyways"- Unknown
"There's a skinny girl inside me screaming to get out. I usually shut the bitch up with chocolate" - Unknown
"Go big or go home" - Unknown
4/29/2010 12:45:50 AM
Thanks for the laugh when i needed it loser,
GoFetchtheBelt truly is just like the photo for his profile, a JOKE.
His first message to me was "hey kid i heard from a lil birdie that your a tad underage... whats your real age?"
My Response "Your lil birdie lied darling, who said i was underage? I just celebrated my 22 bday"
His Response "ok whats ok whats yahoo name.. and u have web cam"
My Response(trying to be nice but I won't be walked all over) "umm what?"
His Response (gotta love this) "thats ok play stupid it fits u ill just report pics for underage... so u can umm what that.. non eed to write back i dont speak to jail bait"
I love how well he types and spells. :rolls eyes:
ROFLMAO at least if i am acting stupid I am "playing", he obviously doesn't need to play. I was having a horrible day and this really made it for me LOL I was laughing so hard i couldn't even be offended. I guess he wanted me to be underage and when I wasn't he was disappointed. LOL I hope you all can enjoy this like i did.
1/13/2010 5:21:33 AM
When did my life fall apart? How did I not see it coming?
I sit here for the first time in a very long time, reading old journal entries, I smile for what I had, and yet my heart breaks a bit for what I have lost. I know I have made alot of mistakes, but I have learned from them and thats what counts.
I don't know how I was so blinded, so naive. I guess thats part of trusting someone. How did I allow my life to become so unmanagable? Why didn't I walk away? Is it because I walked away from a relationship in tha past I now realize I never should have? Was I so afraid to make the same mistakes that I put myself through hell? How did I allow an unhealthy relationship, to control my life? I wasn't blind, I saw it wasn't healthy. I wasn't numb, I felt the pain. I wasn't ignorant, I knew the betrayals.
I ask myself now, why did I leave an extremely healthy relationship, for one which caused so much pain, one that caused me to eventually, break. Why did I become that doormat that I said I wasn't? Am I purposely setting myself up for failure? Why did I let myself? I just don't understand.
I look back on the past now and know, I will never make those mistakes again if I can help it. I just wish I knew then, what I know now...
I will never again, fuck up a perfectly good relationship, out of fear. I will love myself enough to remember what I have learned. I will love myself enough to walk away when I know I can't fix it. I will trust my instincts, and not ignore them like before. I WILL be true to myself in all things. I will do my best not to regret the past, but instead learn from my mistakes. This I promise me. When I find the one whom I am meant to be with, I will not allow myself to screw it up. I will not be in any relationship where there is not trust, and communication. I will give myself completely to the One who I am meant to be with. I will listen to my inner voices. If I can't trust the One I am with to know whats best for me even if the choices He/She makes may not be what I want, I will know in my heart of all hearts, that He knows what I need, not i. If I can't do that, if I disregard His choices, I will walk away before causing damage to Him, and myself.
Sorry just some pointless rambling from someone who isn't quite awake yet.
12/16/2008 11:01:47 PM
The Powers Of Butt Sex...
I had my doubts, and after finally experiencing butt sex for the first time with my Daddy who I love unconditionally I knew it was true. After a mind blowing experience and the first time I honestly enjoyed butt sex, my sexy Daddy looked up at me and said.. "I can't remember what you were suppose to be in trouble for," all the stories I had heard became true and I almost died laughing. I can finally say that Butt Sex has amazing mind control powers! I love you Daddy!
9/8/2008 3:54:24 PM
If I don't know you, how can I trust you? If I don't trust you why would I play with you? I am looking for friends, don't just get to know me because you wanna spank me, get to know me, and if you wanna play with me and you think I feel the same way, talk to Daddy, he has the final decisions, but I won't play with you if all I know is your handle, "well Daddy, i know his sn is BigBadDom..." "what else babygirl?" "well Daddy thats about all I do know.. Can I go in a dark room and trust him not to hurt me?" yeeaaaa right.
9/8/2008 1:34:33 PM
My world changed the day I left baltimore, saddness, filled me as I started the long drive to Farmville, VA. Stopping in Stafford I visited with Jen and Jimmy. I got there later then expected due to some Bull shit traffic on 95. I only stayed a bit and continued the treck to Farmville, I had no idea what was in store for me. Visiting my Best Friend and kids for about a week, I head back to spend the night in Stafford, Jen drives me to the airport, and I am refusing to accept feelings I am having. Jen continuously reassures me that nothing is expected of me until I am ready, which I wasn't, though I did want to be, does that count? A week in Iowa, settles my nerves, I have options, PA's an option, one I didn't like but an option none the less. Stafford was an option, one I wanted but was scared of. Jenn had come to mean so much to me I was scared of fucking things up, then there was Daddy in stafford too, it started as a joke, DADDY DADDY DADDY. hmm.. behind every joke there is some truth right? Well Iowa was also an option apparently. So as I land in baltimore my decision is made and I am praying it was the right one. A month later and I am pretty sure it was, between arguments and quiet nights it is beautiful, and once we get a bigger place to ourselve, I'll have no doubts. So a joke turned into a relationship that broadsided me, go figure. I have a wonderful stubborn Daddy and a beautiful Girlfriend.
5/2/2008 8:25:31 AM
My Kind Of Poly
I was very sure of my definition of Poly, that was before I truely experienced it, after experiencing it I came to the conclusion that there is no right or wrong definition of Poly, its all a matter of what Poly means to you.
Poly to me is family, it just depends what kind, a deep connection between the people involved, caring for each other, handling the needs that one of the other family members may not be able to handle. I am very lucky in my Poly family, because it is a very healthy and happy home we have, we help one and other, and communicate on a regular basis, which to me, is a big step in a successful Poly family, if you do nothimg else in Poly, I stand firmly by the need to COMMUNICATE! I originally believed that there can't be jealousy in Poly, how niave I was. Jealousy is inevitable, its all a matter of how you handle it that matters in Poly, don't be bitter, manipulative or angry, COMMUNICATE! When my family first found me, I thought ok cool, I could definitely be happy having a sister, and in some Poly familys thats what I would have gotten, but my family is not your regular BDSM Poly family (ok on that note I don't think there can be a regular BDSM Poly family) and though in a way I did get a sister, in more ways, I didn't. Pretty Cyrptic ey? My Princess, my friend, (when we team up on Sir she's definitely like a sister) and my mentor, and lucky me I don't just have a domme, being the spoiled gurl that I am I also have a Sir, a wonderful, understanding Sir who I also consider my friend, my playmate (heehee) and another important mentor in my life. I am submissive, but they have taught me that my submission is a gift and I gladly submit to my family. We are a very real family, we live together, have a dog and a cat, its the true all American Family, we care about each other, help each other and take care of each other, isn't that what family is all about after all? On April 18th, I signed my contract, and had my collar put on me, as I joined My Sir and Princess in their life, they welcomed me with open arms. So as I go through my day to day life I do so with pride and the reminder that my actions reflect on my family and I will do my best to not dissapoint them. So in the end, of my long drawn out blog, let me just say, I am proud to be Poly, and over the past few months I have seen my view on it change drastically and in my opinion, it has channged for the better, because it is impossible to categorize Poly relationships, so I stopped trying, I am part of a wonderful healthy family and that is more then I could ever have hoped for. So remember, in Poly communitcation is key. Poly isn't right for everyone, but it is perfect for me!
4/20/2008 7:25:06 PM
My First Collar
Sitting at their feet I signed the contract that would effect the next 4 months of my life, hell in the end it will effect the rest of my life. Sir took my left hand and locked the collar/bracelet in place. Princess said at the end of 4 months we talk about wether or not we want something more formal. This occured on my birthdate..
Thursday: After work, I move the rest of my stuff in and become an "official" member of the house, Princess and I go to Towson to get our nails done, and walk the mall, my smart self in heels, ugh. After that we put on my corset (mmm yummy), and go to the melting pot to celebrate my birthday which is tomarrow. Waiting for Sir and Patty, Princess and I talk a bit, and have a great time, once Sir and Patty arrive we are seated and enjoy an evening of joking and eating, we go back to the house, where Sir attempts to get me online so I can renew my certifications, it got to late so we did not get a chance to do so.
Friday my Birthday! I wake up to Sir and Princess bringing me coffee in bed, I take my birthday spankings, and they bring in the baby, Daisy, after warning me about the bed falling apart during sex... we all agree Daisy 135pound baby Mastiff, can get in bed with up and thump, we found the weight limit, so Sir and I fix the bed, I make the bed and get ready to go to PowerXchange by Nina, We take my car since it was hott and I put the top down, we drive to the shop and spend 6 hours preparing for Pirateer Day at the square. I run to Beadazzled for beads for Sirs beard, head back to the house, change, do laundry,n let Daisy out, do my make-up and let Daisy back in, I head to Westminster for Dinner with my parents, I leave around 9 and call Princess to let her know I will be about an hour to pick her up from PowerXchange by Nina, We spend the next few hours getting ready for the vending tomarrow, and have no chance to get me on the internet on my new laptop.
Saturday: Short but sweet, we worked from 7a - 11p. Arriving home exsausted, Princess's family has arrived because they are all heading on vacation for a week bright and early Sunday.. No chance to get internet, Princess's nephew is asleep in Sir's office, so we all crash about 1a, me with my pretty sunburn . Sunday: Waking up at 7a, Sir attempts to get me on the internet to no avail.. and we run out of time before he has to leave, so a quick fix is to plug me in, in his office. I recertify, fill out a job application, do laundry and dishes. I had immediatly medicated with pain meds in the morning so I am crashing.. HARD. i sit down for a moment and wake up a couple hours later to Ryan hacking in my ear, did I mention Daisy is depressed? Well i take a bath, do some more laundry and eats for the first time bout 4p. As soon as I get dressed I head to Pattys to help her out and keep her company. On my way through the store I sell a corset and continue on my way to Pattys. Once done there I head back here, and do some more laundry and help Patty unload. By this time I am exshausted and ready to PASS out! So this is my first weekend as a collared subbie and I couldnt be happier, oh except I work tomarrow! ICK. Thank you Sir, thank you Princess.. for making me a part of your family! MWUAH!
4/12/2008 8:58:07 PM
Lucky
I sit here, happily tired, pondering my life. I was never as happy with my life as I am now, I'm busy, my days are full and I am cared about by many people. I am so lucky to have gone to the PH that day, I don't know were I would be without my mentors, First Knorti, who helped me into the lifestyle, and watched me take my baby steps, to basically holding my hand at my first play date and so much more, Cammy for making me have the balls to get involved in my first demo, Khan for his calm wisdom, Dar for his protection and friendship, Patty for her support and love, Jen I cant thank you enough for everything you've done and do for me, Jimmy I enjoy your smartassness, I hope to get to know you all better, and am amazed at the depth of my feelings for every one of you in such a short time. Lastly I would like to say how truely lucky I am to be collared by 2 great people and mentors, who have already taught me so much and have given me so much confidence, Sir and Princess Nina of PowerXchange By Nina you are both great mentors, friends, playmates, and so much more. I will always consider myself lucky to have met you and plan to enjoy all the wonderful experiences you decide I am ready to experiece. Princess Nina, oh I was so scared of you when I first met you! So beautiful and confident, strong and sexy, I never thought I could be good enough for you, but not only have you and Sir made me know I am, you have shoved so much confidence down my throat, so much more strength, you made me strong enough to know I need no one, you made me confident enough to know I AM good enough, you made me feel at home and I am so very greatful, I hope one day you and Sir can point me out with pride and say "yea we trained her," You are both great people and I will do my best to stay true to myself and continue growing everyday, can't wait to get to baltimore, the city I swore I'd never live near, much less in. Love Always, Your Girl, Your Happy Service Bitch
4/8/2008 8:29:05 PM
Trust
Friday night I had an amazing experience Princess Nina lit me on fire, and it was amazing. I was cocky and excited and had know fear, until oh say about 3 seconds before I got lit. I spoke to my friend Knorti telling her how "Nina was gunna light me on fire" I had no idea what I was in for, but I was excited. I didn't realize how true the next thing I would say was "I trust them" and I do. I accepted that there was risk in what I was going to do, there is risk in all things, its just how much. I honestly sat and thought about it, as I wait to find out what is expected of me. I never feared Nina lighting me on fire, for that 3seconds, I feared the pain, just as quickly I put it aside. I trust both Sir and Princess Nina, explicitly, though I may not like everything (I didn't like Princess Nina telling me I couldn't have just 1 more ciggarette) in the end to be truely submissive to them I must trust and follow some desisions I may not like, that they will make on my behalf. I must in my heart and soul believe that they have my best interests in mind and may even know whats best for me when I don't. It's an amazing feeling to be so honest with myself, because I am happy to hand over that control, I am happy to be lit on fire because I trust them, and fully believe they hold my best interests at heart, and I finally know what it feels like to be truely submissive. I am not around them, I realistically could smoke just 1 more ciggarette and they wouldn't know, but I know that if I smoked just 1 more ciggarette, I would tell them, just like I had Princess Nina's blessing to get ink today, but she wanted to know why I wanted it, and I thought haha because I'm a mascocist, but that was a very small part of it, and I told her the real reasons behind me wanting a tattoo, though I believe she would have taken what I told her, whatever my reasoning may have been. I have seen submissives lie to their dom/domme, I couldn't do that, I go into this with every intention of being completely honest with them in all things and accept that there may be repercussions for it, because in lying I begin lying to myself as well. As long as I am honest in the mistakes I know I will make, I have no fear that I will learn and grow as a person, the second I start lying, I am taking steps backwards and its time to re-evaluate my situation. So Sir and Princess Nina I pledge to you, that I will be true to myself and true in my submission to you both. Thank you so very much for trusting me enough to become part of your family.
4/6/2008 8:41:21 PM
I was surprised Thursday night, pleasantly so. My Sir and His Girl, decided to ask me if I would be interested in something more serious. I think I felt as nervous as I did the first time I sat in Sirs office with him and his Girl. I hate it when I get that nervous because I definitely get all quiet, LUCKILY it was not as hard for me to relax, because I have become very comfortable with them, so this time it was that good kinda butterflies in the stumach feeling. So incase you couldn't already tell I did of course say yes, so I am defintely looking forward to talking to them a bit more about house rules and what not. It was a very busy weekend at the house as they had guests over Friday night so me and Princess Nina (of PowerXchange By Nina) Spent the day getting stuff together, and she ran some errands, so we haven't had much of a chance, though I did do my homework like asked of me. I totally got stood up by my playdate, but it all worked out and how could I be unhappy? So many amazing changes have continued to occur since I was introduced by my best friend Knorti, to the lifestyle, that I am continuously shocked by the changes I see in myself on a regular basis. I am so much happier and healthier, I am more responsible and more reliable. I am going back to school and I have a job I love. I quit smoking and to celebrate I got my tongue pierced. I have become much more emotionally healthly and I can truely say I love myself. I continue looking forward to tomarrow and the many surprises and learning experiences it continues to bring. I just noticed how long this blog is getting, so just remember, how can you expect someone to love you, if you can't even love yourself? You control your own emotions, because it is only as serious as YOU allow it to be. For me? It's NOT that serious, and it's all good. It was easier for me to say those things then to live by them, but once I lived by them, life became so much less painful and depressing and I was finally happy to be living it! Thanks for reading! S,N & P's Bitch.
4/2/2008 6:46:03 PM
I’ve Gotta Be Me (many thanks MMan)
From the Broadway Production. Golden Rainbow, 1968 (Water Marks)
Whether I’m right, or whether I’m wrong,
Whether I find a place in this world or never belong,
I’ve gotta be me. I’ve gotta be me. What else can I be but what I am.
And I won’t give up this dream of life that keeps me alive.
I’ve gotta be me. I’ve gotta be me.
The dream that I see makes me what I am.
Is waiting for me if I heed the call.
I won’t settle down, won’t settle for less, As long as there is a chance that I can have it all.
I’ll go it alone. That’s how it must be.
I can’t be right for somebody else if I’m not right for me.
I’ve gotta be free. I’ve gotta be free.
Daring to try, to do it or die, I’ve gotta be me.
3/31/2008 10:02:14 PM
Family.
Being part of a family, is so very fulfilling, I think this weekend was one of the better as I truely felt I was part of the family. I enjoyed wrestling, it was a wild experience. I always manage to have wonderful experiences when in Baltimore and always leave having learned something new or even if it is just an opinion, it makes me see a point of view I may never have considered before. I find it very stimulating at N's discussion group. Always some great topics and input. I feel myself continuing to grow as a person and as always am amazed at what the lifestyle has opened my eyes too. I truley love being part of the family and grow more and more comfortable with each passing day. I will continue looking forward to the new experiences I find both inside the family and in the community as a whole. I will always know that the time spent being Sir's,N's and P's bitch as a very important step in my lifestyle and will always value their imput and friendship highly, and hope to continue enjoying their company for as long as I can.
1/8/2008 10:35:12 PM
Hanging with and old friend.
It was interesting today, I hung out with my friend and was sitting on the furniture and was uncomfortable, but folded myself up onto the floor and was quite happy and content.. Odd how much things have changed since I was introduced to the lifestyle. Little things, like mannerisms and the way I carry myself. How I think and how I act. It feels so right.
I am going through an interesting problem however now because for over 2 years I have been interested in a friend of mine and I mean the sun set on him. He never showed any interest in me but now that I am so happy and confident it seems to have changed.. I don't know if he is interested or lonely. Its odd because now with my lifestyle choice I hope he's not. I never thought I would feel that way. I just can't believe it. It's amazing.. He actually asked me to be his girlfriend and it was so anti-climatic and disappointing, I didn't answer him. I have to find out more about my current situation with the couple I am interested in. As its not him I desire anymore.. That faded a LONG time ago. I don't want to hurt him but I plan to make things clear tomarrow. Though I don't expect it to be easy. Why would I risk loosing something that has in this short period of time made me feel so happy and so complete, for something that brought me nothing but pain for 2 years.. I won't do that to myself and be it selfish or not. I am FINALLY happy. I am happy within myself.. I guess its shining through.
1/8/2008 12:58:19 PM
Polygamy & my view on it.
Before I start I would like to state this is mearly my opinion, is by no means correct and is not meant to offend.
My experience is limited. What I seek in a poly relationship, for it to work in my opinion.. Is not a man with more then one wife/lover but I man or woman with a family. In a poly relationship I believe if it is a heathy relationship with plenty of open communitcation and love, jealousy should not be a problem. Why be jealous of your sister or daddy? In my opinion of Poly I don't see it as a man going ok I can go be with as many people as I want but you must remain faithful to me. At that point I believe it has the potential to create jealousy, anger, and resentment. I think a poly relationship has the potential to bring great joy, but as in any relationship it aslo has the potential to bring great pain. I believe if care is taken and with the RIGHT people.. Poly can be very successful, but I also believe it is NOT for everyone. Some people can't share and thats ok. It doesn't make them wrong it just means Poly may not be right for them. Just as some people may not be content with the love of one person. It doesnt make then wrong it just means a monogamous relationship may not be for them. At the same time I think some people can be happy either way. I have alot of love, and being able to share that love with more then one person, without hurting someone, seems like a blessing to me. It seems to me that people should worry about whats right for them, not anyone else.. If it feels right and you can handle it great. If not, accept that. I also think that some people may think Poly is easy, I believe, especially for the head of household it is more difficult. Its twice as much work, you have to keep more people happy. If your not willing to commit, buckle down and don't desire to make two people happy. Don't drag them into a relationship where they are just going to end up, hurt, confused and lonely. Polygomy has the potential, with the right mix of people to be a wonderful blessing, but like any relationship it also has the potential to be a very difficult path to follow. Choose carefully, don't rush and communicate and in the end you can't go wrong.
Again that is just my opinion and I have the right to it, just like you have the right to disagree or not like it.
1/2/2008 9:21:31 PM
A Submissives Creed By Unknown
1 I will communicate with complete honesty my needs, desires, limits, and experience. I realize that failing to do so will not only prevent my Top and I from from having the best experience possible, but can also lead to physical and emotional harm.
2 I will not try to manipulate my Top. I will not push to make a scene go the way I feel it should. In other words, I will not top from the bottom.
3 I will keep an open mind about trying things that I am not comfortable with and expanding my limits. I will continue to grow as a submissive and as a human being.
4 I will accept the responsibility of discovering what pleases my Top, and will do my best to fufill his wishes and desires.
5 I will not allow myself to be harmed or abused. I know that submissive does not equal doormat.
6 I will be courteous and helpful to my fellow submissives. I will share my knowledge and experience with others in the hope that they will learn and benefit from where I have been. I will take the time to help those new to the scene start out on the correct path.
7 I will be responsive to my Top. I will not try to hide what my mind and body are feeling so that I may assist him in his responsibilities as my authority. I know that Dominants are not telepaths, and will not expect my Top to know thoughts or feelings which I do not share.
8 I will accept in the responsibility of a scene or relationship gone bad. I will not place total blame on my Top when it is not warranted simply because he is the Dominant. I realize that things may not work out as they should at times, and will do my best to put it behind me and move on.
9 I will give my gift of submission only to those that can responsibly accept and desire to receive. I will not place anyone in the position of Topping me non-consensually, nor will I give my respect to someone that has not earned it.
10 I know that D/s is not a contest, and will never think myself a "better" submissive because I choose to submit on a different level than another. I will not be boastful of the experiences I have had as a bottom.
11 I will be obedient to my Top even if I disagree with what he is requesting. I realize he has my best interests at heart and often knows better than I what I need in a particular situation.
12 I know that my actions reflect upon my Top, and will do my best to help others see him in a positive way. I will not intentionally embarrass or displease my Dominant.
13 Above all, I will wear my title of submissive with honor. I will never cause others to think that being submissive means to be weak or sub-human. I will take pride in who and what I am and will never show myself in a negative way.
1/1/2008 8:49:56 PM
I smile when I please you, As it pleases me as well.. I know I have potential.. I submit... I beg.. Please Let Me Please You.
12/24/2007 11:42:14 PM
I am at his mercy, I quiver at his touch, I seek to please him, I am his in but a word.
Her Beauty Astounds Me. Her Eyes Ensnare Me, Will She Teach Me? Or Merely Pass Me By?
Their Love Is Deep, I See That Well. They Interest Me, Which Makes Me Smile...
I've had a permanent grin since speaking to them both, even when I don't. Will they let me please them? Let me show them? It is what I so desire. At this point it is all I desire...
Family.
