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Still attempting to get out of the emotional hell that has transpired 
May you find what you seek
but I am NOT her!
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During the course of the last three months I have lost three people in my birth family ... so I am not around much and sadly and not in the emotional state to be dealing with those that I do not know and only wish to tell ME what they want ME to do to them ...honestly enough I wish you the best of luck in your search but understand I do NOT opperate that way especially now ... HOWEVER, everyone ,I do hope all is well in your lives and that you find many reasons to smile ....
till our paths cross again ...
be well |
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heads up :
Dealing with yet another death in the family.I will not be around much and am in no sort of a mood to be social
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Annie Lennox's COld.... WONDEFUL and endearing tune!
Come to me
Run to me
Do and be done with me
(Cold Cold Cold)
Don't I exist for you
Don't I still live for you
(Cold cold cold)
Everything I possess
Given with tenderness
Wrapped in a ribbon of glass
Time it may take us but God only knows
How I've paid for those things in the past
Dying is easy it's living that scares me to death
I could be so content hearing the sound of your breath
Cold is the color of crystal the snowlight
That falls from the heavenly skies
Catch me and let me dive under under
For I want to swim in the pools of your eyes
I want to be with you baby
Slip me inside of your heart
Don't I belong to you baby
Don't you know that nothing can tear us apart
Come on now come on now come on now
Telling you that
I loved you right from the start...
But the more I want you the less I get
Ain't that just the way things are...
Winter has frozen us
Let love take hold of us
(Cold cold cold)
Now we are shivering
Blue ice is glittering
(Cold cold cold)
Cold is the colour of crystal the snowlight
That falls from the heavenly skies
Catch me and let me dive under
For I want to swim in the pools of your eyes
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for someone who has taken advantage of good intentions ...
fiona apple's Sleep to dream
I tell you how I feel, but you dont care.
I say tell me the truth, but you dont dare.
You say love is a hell you cannot bare.
And I say gimme mine back and then go there - for all I care.
I got my feet on the ground and I dont go to sleep to dream.
You got your head in the clouds and youre not at all what you seem.
This mind, this body, and this voice cannot be stifled by your deviant ways.
So dont forget what I told you, dont come around, I got my own hell to raise.
I have never been insulted in all my life.
I could swallow the seas to wash down all this pride.
First you run like a fool just to be at my side.
And now you run like a fool, but you just run to hide, and I cant abide.
I got my feet on the ground and I dont go to sleep to dream.
You got this head in the clouds and youre not at all what you seem.
This mind, this body, and this voice cannot be stifled by your deviant ways.
So dont forget what I told you, dont come around, I got my own hell to raise.
Dont make it a big deal, dont be so sensitive.
Were not playing a game anymore, you dont have to be so defensive.
Dont you plead me your case, dont bother to explain.
Dont even show me your face, cuz its a crying shame.
Just go back to the rock from under which you came.
Take the sorrow you gave and all the stakes you claim -
And dont forget the blame.
I got my feet on the ground and I dont go to sleep to dream.
You got this head in the clouds and youre not at all what you seem.
This mind, this body, and this voice cannot be stifled by your deviant ways.
So dont forget what I told you, dont come around, I got my own hell to raise.
isn't it amazing how a song can come on and help cleanse your soul from old BS that was just lying around ?~Grins~ now let's get back to fun !
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Update:
computer is back though empty thus it will take sometime to get it back from crippled status .... back is well still out but nothing can be done about it right now so I am going to move onto a bit of a B*tch session for a second ....
I grow so tired of boys who do not think past their own dicks ..
IF you cannot be human and compassionate for others IF all you think about is how to next get your jimmy waxed ... IF you wish to blame ANYONE but yourself for a situation gone wrong instead of taking a moment and seeing where you played a part and thus hold some responsibility of the outcome ....IF you are looking for a cash cow or a Mommy figure that you raid the coin purse or only use to remain clean from responsibility .....
IF any of that fits your bill....
I AM NOT HER !
I wish to be with those that are into this lifestyle for all that is offers OUTSIDE the bedroom as well as in .....
not those that choose to use the lifestyle as bait to get whatever it is on their list... everyone on this earth hold responsibility for the relationships or lack there of
...bottom line be human ..
think beyond your privates ...
offer as much (if not more) than you take...
and we will get along well ...
Whew,glad I got that off My chest. Now back to your regular scheduled programing ~Laughs~  |
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I am in awe ... last night though a tad different energy than I am used to was amazing .. a brave and tender spirit got ALL Of her piercings for her Chasity ... most who get such done will get two here and there untill done... but not this lil one... no she dug down into her slave spirit and endured such pain for such beauty.. and with every tear that fell and ever scream that escaped her lips .. she became more beautiful to all that witnessed.
Another sweet spirit ... so tender entrusted Me and Mine to allow her to feel the first nip from leather floggers and I have to admit I do so love watching that pink n wine ribbons dance on her panties .. Such trust does not go without notice and from the bottom of My heart... thank you sweet girl .
Now to Mine ... I adore you with all My heart and thank you .. thank you for blessing Me each and everyday with all the wonderment that forms .. each of you ~Blows a kiss ~
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Again I hope everyone is having a wonderful Sunday and finding millions of reasons to smile.Last night was such fun and I adore seeing so many grinning faces of such lovely kinky f*ckers .... ~Smirks~ you all rock .. and to Mine and those I played with last night .. well now .. thank you .. and ~Leans in whispering with such a hunger~ I want some more
now this week I am looking for a massage ~Gentle smile ~ after all the beating these shoulders and back could use a rub down
~Laughs~
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It was quite comical this morning .. I opened My mail and there was a note from someone who as NEVER met Me nor have they even taken the time and patience to get to know Me in any fashion or form ... but yet they assumed to know Me well enough to attempt to degrade Me .. because I wouldn't give them what they wanted... ~Laughs~ so guess it is offical I have a *hater* Note: I am sure I have had other Haters but this one .. made it offical ... to use a phrase that the ever funny Katt Williams said ... "What do you think a "hater's" job is..to hate. if you have someone hating on you right now you better think of how to get 5 more people hating you by Christmas. You need haters to make you stronger.."~smirks~
and if that didn't bring a giggle perhaps the obscure movie reference might
B-Rad said it best "Don't be hatin' *****"
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 If you wish to speak with Me why not try being human and speak about day to day things not how big your *member* is or how much you wish to submit to Me.
I do not like those that are eager to toss their submission My way as it means when the winds change they will toss it to another just as fast.Why invest time and energy into a relationship of that sort honestly?
I have grown so tired of those that believe that I am here to service them .. to be like *insta Domme* instead of adding water simply toss together a message and instantly Microwaved Domme will jump forth and tell you how to jerk off till you reach orgasm ( or don't if in denial) and BAM you are done....
BOTTOM LINE :I am a LIFESTYLE Mistress .. not an instaDomme or Micrawave Dominatrix ...I am NOT One that will respond to some message that is clearly you wishing to read something to jerk off to and then go back to your happy though disfunctional nilla life!I have a Clan filled with wonderful people who I adore to no end and understand the importance of being a person and forming relationships with the One behind the whip .
This all sounds rather bitter ,I am not .. yet.. just tired and venting ~Smirks~ The funny part of it is the reality that those that write such messages will NOT take the timet to read this .. so if you have reached the end of this rant .. thank you and rest assure that ten to one you are NOT such an offender ...~Giggles~ So please take a moment and send a message to the one you fancy ... Hope everyone has a great day and finds many reasons to smile n purr today  |
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