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TJohnson
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*~Profile Currently Undergoing Massive Overhaul~*
I've never been good at writing about myself. I'll add more to this as I think of what to say. As for now...
I'm 23 years old and have been involved in "the lifestyle" since I was way, WAY too young. I am a Psychology Major in college/university.
I love anything artsy - including, but not limited to: writing, drawing, painting, and singing.
I absolutely LOVE to read and good grammar gets me off. LOL!
Physically: I am 5'5" tall. I currently measure 34DD-28-40. My weight goes up and down depending on how I feel/what I'm doing. I have brown eyes, and dark brown hair which often looks blackish. My hair is currently about 3" from touching my knees in length. It's a bit thin, but that's the price I pay for length.
I am currently in a vanilla relationship. I am not seeking romance here.
I have a horrid fixation on vampires
and other such dark beings...
I'm not sure what else to say, really. I listen to metal mostly, but I'm eclectic. I also used to bellydance, if that is somehow relevant.
I'll make this much cooler once I figure out what to say :)
I love the type of man who'll lay his jacket over a puddle for me...on the way to his dungeon.
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Hi all. Just a friendly reminder that just because I'm a sub doesn't mean I'm your sub. It also doesn't mean I'm obligated to do what you say because you're a dominant type personality and I'm not. So quit sending me orders. Thanks.
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Added some new pics, skim through to find them. I replaced randomly instead of putting them all together.
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Please cease and desist from sending me ridiculous copy-paste messages. I don't want you to send me the same "I am blank years old, I have been in THE LIFESTYLE for blank years and expect blankity blank in a submissive" message that you send to every girl you find remotely attractive.
I am thoroughly uninterested in someone who didn't find me intriguing enough to type out a message to me. Obviously, if I'm not worth 2 minutes of your time, you must not be that interested.
P.S. Don't say "tell me more about yourself" or "what are you into?" ... I have a profile, dammit. Read it. If you have a specific question or want to hear more about a particular thing, that's fine. I included everything I could think of in the profile and I'm not just going to spontaneously remember one of my own character traits because you prompt me. Thanks.
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To "DomGentFL" : In case you were wondering, at this particular point in time, I weigh 245 pounds, I'm 5'5", my jeans are a size 18, I wear a 2X in tops, I eat less than 500 calories a day, and people like YOU are the reason ME and people LIKE ME throw up bits of their esophagus! I hope a fat woman crushes your skull with her ROUND, BEAUTIFUL ASS!
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Guess what? I'm fat. Guess what else? I don't really give a flying fuck if you care.
Why is it so hard for someone to comprehend that I may have -MEDICAL- issues that influence my weight? Why doesn't anyone seem to realize that the fact that I wear a size 18 instead of a size 8 DOESNT MEAN that I have no relevant life experience, intellect, or interests? Assholes, shallow pricks, and people who are obsessed with media-influenced beauty standards can stay the FUCK out of my life, thanks.
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I am quite sick of male slaves/submissives contacting me asking me to dominate them. I have NO desire to do so, PLEASE stop! I don't mind chatting or being friends but I'm a subbie myself. Just because you like the way I look (Which, I appreciate) does NOT mean I'm going to change my whole orientation for you. Thanks.
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I feel this must be said:
I AM a BBW. No, I DON'T care if you like it or not.
Enough rude letters already.
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Hello again. I just thought that I would add that I have been interested in (but unable to afford) corsetry since about the age of 8 (I freaked out my father when I saw my first photo of Bettie Page and said "I wanna be THAT when I grow up!"). I'm really an enthusiast and am DYING for my first real corset, and if anyone out there would like to talk about corsetting I'd love to :) Also, if you've trained your own waist I'd love to talk as well.
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In case you don't get the message, I'm not asking you to SEND ME A DEFINITION of the words I use in my profile!!! Everyone mails me the same exact google-returned definitions, and by the way, that DOESNT bring you closer to my heart.
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Put up some new pics... No, I don't wear "white powder" - that's my natural foundation color. It's called "porcelain ivory" :)
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Why did Jesus die on the cross?
... He forgot the safeword!
*cackles*
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Yay! It's that time again folks! That's right! Time to play "Clarification for Dummies!"
Please note that I am a SUBMISSIVE and not a slave, thank you very much. I don't seek to be anyone's 24/7, live-in, powerless doormat, thank you very much. I'm pretty outspoken, loud, and domineering in all places but the bedroom :)
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"Nocturnal poetry,
Dressed in the whitest silver, you'd smile at me
Every night I wait for my sweet Selene
But, still...
Solitude's upon my skin
A life that's bound by the chains of reality
Would you let me be your Endymion?
I would bathe in your moonlight, and slumber in peace
Enchanted by your kiss in forever sleep
But until we unite
I live for that night
Wait for time
Two souls entwine
In the break of new dawn
My hope is forlorn
Shadows, they will fade
But I'm always in the shade
Without you...
Serene and silent sky
Rays of moon are dancing with the tide
A perfect sight, a world divine
And I...
The loneliest child alive
Always waiting, searching for my rhyme
I'm still alone in the dead of night
Silent I lie with smile on my face,
Appearance decieves and the silence betrays
As I wait for the time
My dream comes alive
Always out of sight
But never out of mind
And under waning moon
Still I long for you
Alone against the light
Solitude am I
In the end, I'm enslaved by my dream
In the end, there's no soul who'd bleed for me
Hidden from daylight, I'm sealed in my cave
Trapped in a dream that is slowly turning to a nightmare
Where I'm all alone
Venial is life when you're but a dream
The book is still open, the pages as empty as me...
I cling to a hope that's beginning to fade,
Trying to break the desolation I hate
But until we unite
I live for that night
Wait for time
Two souls entwine
In the break of new dawn
My hope is forlorn
We will never meet
Only misery and me
This is my final call
My evenfall
Drowning into time
I become the night
By the light of new day
I'll fade away
Reality cuts deep
Would you bleed with me
My Selene..?"
(Sonata Arctica - "My Selene") |
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Ugh. i just got into an argument with a friend of mine...
he was insisting that there's no way i could possibly be a submissive if i'm not completely passive in all aspects of life with everything that i do.
Fuck that. i am who and how i am.
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"From lashes to ashes,
And from lust to dust,
In your sweetest torment
I'm lost,
And no heaven can help us.
Ready, willing, and able,
To lose it all,
For a kiss so fatal..."
"...Deeper into your heavenly suffering,
Our fragile souls are falling,
It's heartache every moment, baby with you."
HIM ~ 'Heartache Every Moment' |
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Alright, i hate to do this but i feel i have to.
IF YOU ARE TO CONTACT ME, KNOW THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN A SUBMISSIVE AND A SLAVE.
i am a submissive, not a slave. As in, i submit in the bedroom. i'm not into 24/7 TPE or cleaning your house or any of that crap! So don't ask! |
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We used to swim
The same moonlight waters
Oceans away from the wakeful day
My fall will be for you
My love will be in you
If you be the one to
Cut me I`ll bleed forever
Scent of the sea
Before the waking of the world
Brings me to thee
Into the blue memory
My fall will be for you
My love will be in you
If you be the one to
Cut me I'll bleed forever
Into the blue memory
A siren from the deep came to me
Sang my name my longing
Still I write my songs
About that dream of mine
Worth everything I may ever be
The Child will be born again
That siren carried him to me
First of them true loves
Singing on the shoulders of an angel Without care for love and loss
Bring me home or leave me be
My love in the dark heart of the night
I have lost the path before me
The one behind will lead me
Take me
Cure me
Kill me
Bring me home
Every way
Every day
Just another loop in the hangman`s noose Take me, cure me, kill me, bring me home Every way, every day I keep on watching us sleep
Relive the old sin of Adam and Eve
Of you and me
Forgive the adoring beast
Redeem me into childhood
Show me myself without the shell
Like the advent of May I`ll be there when you say
Time to never hold our love
My fall will be for you
My love will be in you
You were the one to cut me
Somehow I`ll bleed forever
("Ghost Love Score" by Nightwish) |
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This is me for forever
One of the lost ones
The one without a name
Without an honest heart as compass
This is me for forever
One without a name
These lines the last endeavor
To find the missing lifeline
Oh how I wish For soothing rain
All I wish is to dream again
My loving heart Lost in the dark
For hope I`d give my everything
Oh how I wish
For soothing rain
Oh how I wish to dream again
Once and for all And all for once
Nemo my name forevermore
My flower, withered between
The pages 2 and 3
The once and forever
Bloom gone with my sins
Walk the dark path
Sleep with angels
Call the past for help
Touch me with your love
And reveal to me my true name
Oh how I wish For soothing rain
All I wish is to dream again
My loving heart
Lost in the dark
For hope I`d give my everything
Nemo sailing home Nemo letting go
Oh how I wish For soothing rain
All I wish is to dream again
My loving heart
Lost in the dark
For hope I`d give my everything
("Nemo" By Nightwish) ("Nemo" translates to "Nothing") |
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Lead to the river
Midsummer, I waved
A ‘V’ of black swans
On with hope to the grave
All through Red September
With skies fire-paved
I begged you appear
Like a thorn for the holy ones
Cold was my soul
Untold was the pain
I faced when you left me
A rose in the rain
So I swore to the razor
That never, enchained
Would your dark nails of faith
Be pushed through my veins again
Bared on your tomb
I am a prayer for your loneliness
And would you ever soon
Come above unto me?
For once upon a time
From the binds of your lowliness
I could always find
The right slot for your sacred key
Six feet deep is the incision
In my heart, that barless prison
Discolours all with tunnel vision
Sunsetter
Nymphetamine
Sick and weak from my condition
This lust, a vampyric addiction
To her alone in full submission
None better
Nymphetamine
Nymphetamine, nymphetamine
Nymphetamine girl
Nymphetamine, nymphetamine
My nymphetamine girl
Wracked with your charm
I am circled like prey
Back in the forest
Where whispers persuade
More sugar trails
More white lady laid
Than pillars of salt
(Keeping Sodom at night at bay)
Fold to my arms
Hold their mesmeric sway
And dance to the moon
As we did in those golden days
Christening stars
I remember the way
We were needle and spoon
Mislaid in the burning hay
Bared on your tomb
I am a prayer for your loneliness
And would you ever soon
Come above unto me?
For once upon a time
From the binds of your lowliness
I could always find
The right slot for your sacred key
Six feet deep is the incision
In my heart, that barless prison
Discolours all with tunnel vision
Sunsetter
Nymphetamine
Sick and weak from my condition
This lust, a vampyric addiction
To her alone in full submission
None better
Nymphetamine
Sunsetter
Nymphetamine
None better
Nymphetamine
Nymphetamine, nymphetamine
Nymphetamine girl
Nymphetamine, nymphetamine
My nymphetamine girl
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| Age: 30 |
| Peekskill,
New York |
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