5/6/2008 10:00:50 AM: i have decided to journal at blogger.  It is a new beginning for me, after so many journal posts on Yahoo 360.  i hope to make it a positive place.  i have wasted far too much time in angst and regrets.  i choose to enjoy life and the friends that i have been blessed with. 

3/21/2008 10:10:45 AM: To journal, or not to journal....here....that is the question.  i currently journal on yahoo 360.  There are several reasons that Master and i are looking for a change.  The first is that yahoo is being rather finicky of late.  The second is, even though i have an 'adult setting', there have been 'issues' with some of my postings.  'Editing' what i say is something Master works very hard to overcome with me.  i am far too prone to think things through, decide what He wants to hear and discard the rest...or perhaps atleast tuck it away into some more secure 'corner' of my mind or heart.We have been together so many years, you would think that we know everything about each other.  i am not sure anyone will ever know the entire depth of another person.  My sexually biased opinion is that that applies even more so in reference to men understanding women.  So now i must decide where i am interested in blogging and present it to Master for His approval.  i like the freedom i have with yahoo to post pictures (when not sensored) and copy color choices.  i suppose i don't have to journal publicly, though there is a certain exhibitionism to it that appeals to me.   i have always been friends with the written word and Master finds reading what i have to say/think on the computer preferrable to a paper and pen method.i have to indulge my 'inner exhibitionist' where it is 'acceptable', for there aren't too many interested in the aging large woman.  Master being an exception to that rule of course.  Thank you from the very bottom of my reubenesque heart Master.