It is a New Year, and as always new beginnings. I have instructed pig to provide me with his resolutions on how he will renew his committment to total slavery. I await it with great anticipation. I have been blessed this year and am looking forward to the coming year. Brightest Blessings.

We had a most pleasant Friday evening last night. My Pig and I spent a good hour playing. I could tell he was needing some attention. (Side note. We are blessed to have a deeply loving relationship but our love is expressed through the intimacy of our "play". Pig does not cum, and only milks to keep his prostate in fully working order. So intimacy between us is expressed in all of the traditional ways, hand holding, hugging, kissing, touching, but the deepest most bonding intimacy we share is when we have a session.) I began simply enough by putting just a dime sized bit of bengay in the palm of my hand. I rubbed it quite thoroughly into his pig balls. I then had him put his ball stretcher on. I took him up onto the bed for some cuddling. I then got out my lovely rope and gave him a light slapping on cock and balls. Left some pretty little bruises. Then I had him lay across the bed and I beat his shoulders and ass until they were bright red. I took small breaks periodically to soothe him by touching him closely. rubbing his back. By the end of this his back was very tender. Finally I got up and took care of some business, bording things banking etc. I had him use a vibrator to bring himself almost to the point of orgasm, and then stop. I repeated this process 6 or 7 times. Finally, when I was completed with my work I crawled onto the bed with him, whispered how dirty he was into his ear, and allowed him to milk onto his belly. He was so grateful that he asked if we could go for a drive and look at Christmas lights after he had calmed back down. I love my pig!

We have had some pretty stressful things going on over the past few days. Pig has reacted by having a slight attitude, and not asking as often as he should for everything, and not always meeting his deadlines for his scheduled activities. This morning I determined to correct this behavior before it got out of control. I have instructed pig not to touch my penis today at all with his hands. But every time he is late for his scheduled duties he must slapp my cock with a small slapper, video tape it, and send the video to me.  This morning I allowed him to hump on my knee, and while humping I used the rope that he absolutely hates, and marked him on the back and ass. He wriggled, and groaned a little which I absolutely love! It seems to be doing the trick. He is going right back to where he should be. What pigs sometimes forget is that they are most content when they are submitting. During stressful times, a slight amount of leeway is alright. But as soon as it begins to cross the line quick correction is in order. It is the Owners responsibility to take care of this. A pig relys on the Owner to provide structure and reinforcement. Otherwise, just like a child, they become lost and act out for attention. Being intelligent, and worthy of pigs submission, I recognize this and am gladly taking measures to ensure his proper care. I love my pig. Even though he is just a stupid male.

Today I was having a conversation with pig. He was required, every two hours, to video himself in the bathroom at work while he slapped my cock. I made him write a certain number, different, each hour. I got very aroused after the first video, and here is where the conversation got interesting.

I told pig I really enjoyed the video. His response was that he was sure I did, because I knew it hurt him.

I went on to state the following:

"That is definitely part of it. But its more than that. It's watching it. Wanting to touch you and feel the pain as it goes through you. Look into your eyes and see the hate at first. Then acceptance. Then finally the devotion. It makes me physically turned on. And it is emotionally arousing."

I then thought further and have added this.

It brings out the hunt instinct. That desire to kneed my claws into your flesh and watch you as the exquisite pain flows through you. It causes an actual physical ache. And it also bonds us closer than ever. I so value the submission and devotion that you have given to me. And I crave a continuing and ever deepening exchange between us. I love you, for who you are as much as for who I see you will be when I am finished with you. My pig.

Quick update on my world. All is well in Goddess and piggy land. Just a quiet weekend. We spent little time on pain education. For the most part we worked on sexual frustration. I milked piggy 3 times last night, and then allowed him to use the vibrator to milk once this morning. He confesses that he hates this. It builds him up to the point of release in a very quick and intense manner, which makes denial of the orgasm even worse than normal. Note to self. Use the vibrator more often.

An interesting evening. Normal quiet Friday. I made pig put on old blue jeans, a sweatshirt, and sit in the garage over an old blanket. I allowed him his rum and cokes and a cigar, and he just had to text when he had to piss. Everytime he pissed, three times total, he pissed his pants sitting in the chair. He is a very dirty nasty pig. It seemed to do the trick though. His snotty mouth has gotten better than it was earlier in the night.

Trust, that is what he is learning. For he has to trust that I will make sure that everything is calm, and that he will not be discovered by anyone. It was dark, rainy, and cold. No one was out walking, and he was hidden from view by our car. I ensured that our son, who does not know about our lifestyle, stayed inside with me while he enjoyed his cigar. His mouth usually runs the most when he is trying to exert some sort of control over a situation and this is what I am breaking him of. For tonight, at least, he has learned that I am capable and am intelligent enough to make sure that he is cared for, watched over, and that I am totally in control of the situation. Lets see how long this lesson lasts.

Today was a quiet, restful sort of day. Pig took me to work, and picked me up early. Then shopping, where he walked behind me throughout the store. We then went to lunch, then home to our children. Just a common, peaceful day.

One really fun thing though. I left a whole new sort of bruise on him. I allowed him inside my cunt for a short period of time. No orgasm, my pig doesn't cum. Just a teasing fun rhythm. When I made him pull out, he stood next to the bed and placed his piggy cock flat on the bed. I then slapped him sharply several times. The final slap made him stumble and pull back slightly, but he returned right to position quickly. Pigs cock now has a lovely bruise right down the center!

Pig is lying in bed, waiting for me to come to bed. I had him fuck his slut ass today with varirious items. He video taped them all and sent them to my phone while I was at work. He got the day off!

He began with a candle. Then two hours later, a rubber cock. Then two hours after that he used a rubber dildo. Finally, his cigar, which he smoked after fucking himself with it. What a slut ass he has! I love it.

This morning before work I gave pig a nice little wake up. I pulled out the flat little leather belt and slapped his cock and balls, and the inside of his thighs. Just enough to hurt and warm him up. It was a pleasant way to begin the day, and a nice little reminder for him of who and what he is.

All day, every day, he must send me a brief pig check each hour. Today I had him be creative, and put tiny metal binder clips on his nipples several times. I am talking about the very small ones. He then video taped himself with the word pig written in sharpie just above his nipples with the clips on.

He also was not allowed to touch my cock today at all. His is so very inventive. He took plastic tweezers and pulled my cock out of his pants whenever he had to piss, so that his hands would not touch it. Smart little piggy!

Tonight he is lying at my feet, rubbing my cock now, with bengay on his fingers. He hates the bengay treatment. I will let him go for about five minutes, then allow him to take his bath. At the end of each bath I go in and he rolls over onto his belly. I then push his head under the water and hold him there until I feel him just begin to struggle. Then I let him up to breathe. This, done about 5-6 times, puts him in the proper frame of mind before getting out and getting chained in for the night.

my caps button will not work here on my blackberry for some reason so i apologize for my lack of capitalization. having said that on to why i am here. 

i would like to chronicle the journey my pig and i are making. it has been four weeks since he was allowed an orgasm. he has gotten over the initial frustration that always accompanies being cut off. the first two weeks i did not even allow him inside of me. i then began using my own body to up the tension when he proved he was able to behave when given sexual attention. he is now being milked two to three times a week, and is cleaning up after himself every time. i have required that he ask for everything possible. to piss he must ask, and then piss wherever i say. for two weeks now, as it has gotten cooler, overnight if he pisses he must go outside naked into my yard to piss. he is also sleeping at night with a very heavy chain padlocked around his neck and locked to my bedframe. he actually has trouble sleeping now if he is not chained.