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Death of a dragon rider

In this time of greatest sorrow when sadness fills us with much despair when color seems dull food has lost its taste when all of the things that used to have meaning now seem trivial we must remember that only the body has died are soul lives on forever. We keep her alive in are minds and give her energy with are hearts. It is my belief that love creates wings for angles and I know my mama has wings so large now the energy in this room is so great she will be able to fly I made sure she has her pegasus sattle

On that note I am going to take her ashes back to dumas and place it on her table where she spent so much time at. and her trailer will become her tomb. In her words. I worked to hard for this place Im not going to give it up. There it will remain I will stand guard over it until my death. Never to sell it or disgrace her memory never ever to waste time anymore

And every doggie days parade her remains will ride in the parade on a dragon escorted by wings and horn magic creatures

I remember a lot of time spent in her old blue truck. When we bought it did not even have a back bumper that was a extra add on I spent so much time with my shirt over my nose mom would have the wing widow open and curtis would be standing in seat next to her or sitting on a bus purse that looked like a sattle.
I remember curtis singing rhinestone cowboy in his cowboy hat dress sharp.
And if curtis didnt sing that day mom would be there at school in old blue . Reliable dependability.
I remember grandma making a house out of mud.
In 1991 I prayed to God so hard. my mama smokes 4 packs a day please let her live longer. I even offered him my life force energy. make my life shorter so my mama can live longer. So she retired and went to 3 packs. I still thank God for all of those extra years and I thank him for every breath I take.

I believe that ghosts are not encombard by distant I think that she will spend her time between ruidoso and dumas she told me that she seen 2 rocking chairs moving and I believe that.



I would like the same thing for me when I die I plan on spending the rest of eternity hanting my house. Trying to move things around. That is about what I do now anyway. I lost the keys to my handcuffs after Im a ghost Im going to find it.

I have made a soul gem. This is a personal in this case my real teeth and lock of hair are glued in a I made from glass wood metal paper plastic and magnetic it has a picture of a clock on it to represent time. Just remove my truck stereo and put my ashes next to my picture and soul gem. My fake teeth also need to be placed in soul gem.

Im like my mom stubborn as a mule old yawa . I worked to hard for my place and Im not going to give it up. I plan on spending eternity trying to move things around my house. Just about the same thing I do now so there will be no change in my life.
Maybe my house will be a museum what I mean by this is I have stuff that is so old from when I was a kid past memories of a time long forgotten I know that mom kept her 8 track player and I still have the first Atari me and curtis would play.
Curtis my brother is going to get my royalty check when I die so you should have no problem paying for the taxes.

I learned so much from mom . More than school ever taught me.
When i was a kid the most important thing in my life was TV guide now the most important thing to me is time. That is the only thing that cant be replaced. Was it is gone. I learned courage from mom . I dont think anybody in todays world would go up against a wild mountain lion in the woods in the dark on foot with only one bullet and a hand full of matches. Now that is so important.
Next value I would be in bed and hear the lawnmower running. Open one eye and say thats my mama lesson lazy people dont get anywhere.
I remember the first time I learned how to use a clutch. I sad to say that only 4of vehicle have a clutch the new generation will never get this experience. I remember scrunching down in the seat until the steering wheel was above my head I pushed the clutch and pushed it into 1st raise up I was looking through the steering wheel hands were above my head. And off we go. Lesson responsibility
I remember when I first time I put a Sattle on a horse by myself I gave night life some hay then put a 55 gallon barrel next to her I put the sattle on her then jumped off sinch her up then wait until she finished eating put the bridal on climbed up on the barrel again and got on . I remember the belt. Flyswater. shoe. I would run but mama would catch me. I remember getting swats in school for farting mr king old buzzard I thought I would never fart again.

I remember going to Mexico and they gave me a corn cob I said what are I supposed to do with this then they gave me a leaves and Im going to say to you now if you have a leaves in in hand and corn cob in the other what are you going to do?
And then comes time for the once a week bath strip down and get in the river walking into cold slippery rocks cold water now that is rugged. no refredurator microwave washer or dryer. I remember dr jo beecroft put some mud on it what ever it was ant bite. Walk barefoot on goat heads. Mud fix it all. And I know now why Im crazy when we was it Mexico we was eating wild flowers.

If you cant live on fry bread and beans go back to your candy coated world. I think that is the most important thing I learned how to cook.

Mama came from a world where riding horses and shooting outlaws was a normal thing sleeping on the ground without a tent.
She said grandpa would stick his feet in the snow. a life of rounding up cattle where you would put jars of milk in your sattle bag and make butter. This is not a camp out this was a way of life.
When going to the store in town once a month means moving rocks around in a cold river. No we do play around.

Mama didnt understand star trek but the technology is here now we have trycorder and replicator trycorder is just a portal computer with all medical records in it and sensor.
Replicator is called 3d printer they can make anything. Food, livers, a car, a gun, and on and on.
Soon dragons will be coming back to the world. We are on the edge of a new generation. I saw a m.e.m.s. computer chip monitors your health 13 size of tooth pick cost 50.

What Im saying is dont be sad when I die because me and mom are not leaving watch for the rocking chairs I my case small movement my house will be empty so I have plenty of time to prepare myself

The body dies but all of are memories stay with are souls and that is what we take to eternity love is more powerful than any other emotion until we forget that. then hatred greed and all negative emotions take that place. be positive in your mind. negative people will never be happy

Set your goals. keep your word. be honest in your affairs. Dont let negative people bring you down. Remember the past to create a better future. You will find life has more meaning.and you will have Better memories to pass on to next generation.
I would say stop and smell the roses but mom would say lets eat the flowers.

amen.

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ladeefiona
 
 Age: 28
 NYC, New York