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editing profile.. old one in journal
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misc atempt at writing unchecked honest profile blurb
editing profile.. old one in journal
one day i realized inwas wasting time and money
being single
corporations, vanilla people, family
werevtaking away valuable time
i could use unlocking mynprimal self
mastering my spirit
and gaining discipline, dominance, strength
from lifevitself
15 years of project managing multi million dollarvprojects
for companies like citibank, lockheed, new york city, and more
and i had grown soft. a yuppy who had all the training of a "black god" but none of the hunger. i had spent all that time shaping and training slaves, dommes, switches, trans.
hunger to save lives, improve the environment, move technology forward in multiple fields and eventually aim at the protein folding problem and biomechanical nanotechnology.
in the subculture i was born into, to be black meant to explore transhumanity, nietzsche and cognitive science. i discovered bdsm at a young age. my neighboorhood was abysmal. i was celibatevtilmage 19, but death was everywhere growingbup, and so was sex. at agevten instarted gettingbintomfights for being a virgin.
funny because at that age i had read tantra, the hite report, jalal al din rumi, marquis de sade, carl jung, freud, herman hesse, aleister crowley and as much as modern science knew about the female orgasm, not to mention terrance mckenna.. having already made connections between the female orgasm and the psychedelic state.
i ended up hunting dominants, goreans, nazis, revolutionaries, scienyists, and mages my whole childhood. witches, dommes and lesbians too. gangsrers, chessmasters and geniuses. i hunted them too.
of course, my parents split when i was young. one parent philosophically followed louis farrakhan and the nation of islam. the other parent followed warith dean muhammad on the malcolm x path to true religious islam.
growing up down the street from rick james, in new york, i saw lots of deep true spiritual ownership of people. growing up a black genius, son of a prominent community leader, african history professor, i studied and taught world history. i read whole encyclopedia sets, then hunted down professors to ask questions.
i hunted gods and vampires and power, potential in general. every field, every major corporate power. i became the last resort to get things done. millions budgeted to teach me HOW to do anything, everything.
i made a niche as a one stopmshop, like "Khan" in srar trek. better at everything than anyone. by working with the best. by knowing how to communicate with every position, every job. i did them all.
its nit about feeling or thinking superior. i am beyond all that energy waste. i manifest my will in reality. i do this for a living. but that means i am a slave to the corporations. i am vader in a suit that is a prison.
all those hundreds of thousands paid for me to live all over the world and study everything. have doms and subs and hackers and ravers and corporate businessmen and dommes and warriors shape me intomTHEIR ideal tool to manipulate reality with an intent.
now i am on the last year of building a virtual city like "the matrix" and i need women of all bdsm types to populate it. blending reality and fantasy. surreal yet photoreal looking interactive 3d hentai mmorpg.
yes...
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how do i write an honest profile without sounding arrogant? the glass ceiling of my fear in all things reality, kne can focus the will and hack realitybitself to achieve any outcome but attracting, seducing, hunting, knowing a sub, slave, switch or domme can be difficult with honesty without strategy or games polish or sheen in real life there can be chemistry.. energy capabilitybshown herevin the net i cannot detect lie and mynone power to make all mybwords real means nothing in the internet this finelyb tuned beast sounding like anybman
this sculpted lifevover decades can easily bevduplicated in words by any tom dick and intentless garrybpotter
ill play around with words and profile gibberish andcstick it here i have no need forvpolish, sheen i have nonneed forvstrategy, subterfuge, costumevor wealth notbwhile i am single when single my sole function is to gathervpower knowledge awareness what doesnt kill younmakes you stronger |
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recently moved to portland from new york city exploring the idea of moving to las vegas
editing profile
i excel at 3d graphics, and seek a model/muse
i excel at web development and want to build
an award winning bdsm site that focuses on reality
not porn
extreme ownership for life
not play and kink
i excel at writing and want to document
the training and day to day of true dehumanized slaves, extreme dommes and the lifestyle
practical, at the edge
and fulltime
seeking to own a girl and/or partner with a domme
to live, explore, train, teach
and blog our day to day bdsm life
in art and words
seeking to build and teach extreme domme to partner with
seeking real white fuckmeat female slave(s)
and minds to own, shape, use for lust
i want to make art of your dehumanization
for fun and profit
i love the whole range of bdsm and have studied its psychology and mechanics from a young age
expect to have each fetish explored
20 years tpe experience
london tokyo shanghai london
finland vancouver, bc
10" bbc 169 iq no limits lifetime of esoterica non vanilla
engineer and cognitive scientist lifelong nietzschean hacker project manager
tantrist
love driving deep into the cervix
seeking to woo a domme
train a switch
manifest a goddess to share this world i build
from your sacrifice
second gen black panther third gen dominant
experienced findom, cuckhold couple trainer slave trainer dehumanizer objectifier
deep mental psychological fetishes lifetime 247 tpe feminization bimbofication objectification primal animalism
multimedia production surveillance expert
if you seek true deep ownership
mind body soul
without limits
with creative dark thirst
message the blackest darkest heart.. soul..
make me Your Blackest God
i will assume you seek ownership
just say YES.. and assume i seek to Own you
lets start there.. not waste time
no limits
no limitations
no indecision
no short term
real life
no time wasting
no roleplay, just living |
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another exciting web marketing day.. neopangaia on facebook got temporarily locked out. at almost 3000 friends, necessary so that blog and media updates get a lot of traction. targetting primarily female occupy and anonymous members, lightworkers and wiccans.
where they go, bdsm males and other serious fans follow. after spending a few years in their online and offline subculture, the imagery of transhuman, or witch/goddess trainer is pretty accepted.
hard pace to keep up contentvwise.
i also have the page "justhotgirls" which has the url "ouranon" .. which means "kingdom of heaven" in ancient greek. once a firm partnership is established with a sub/switch/domme... that page can then be connected to HER facebook page, and the traffic consolidated/expanded
ultimately, a "black book" sort of blog site should be made, chronicling the dom/domme houses attempts at hunting proper models/subjects for the blog site. by having a public blog with subion only tidnits about the house/church creation (and videogame) small subion fees can cover more of production.
in the past, this has averaged 3000 a month, which covers basics
ultimately, private media group paid me 20000 a month for the complete blog.. sadly the woman who had promised to be part of the project flaked out... the adult video company was so upset
their plan was to sell their video products on the blog, being a real true dom/domme poly house blog, they estimated a few million in sales through it
ultimately, id like to sell our own hardware, toys, clothing and videos
slowly but surely it all comes together.
without a real model/muse in the flesh to collaborate on the sites direction, i can only continue preparing and getting the boring coding out of the way
reaching out to all potential partners now.. manufacturers in china, video game coders, wiccans, bdsm organizers... i want everything ready for when i CAN begin... |
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any virtual world must have hardware, software, and engine, and any needed middleware. middleware can include physics, audio or networking. the engine ive chosen after years of preproduction is "unreal engine 4"
it scales easiest to my target hardware goal, which is slightly in between the very best tech demo or video game cinematic and a typical hollywoood film like "edge of tomorrow". this is because the virtual world is designed to run on custom simulation hardwaee and also becayse the world itself will run from almost a terabyte of ssd space.
that will allow commercial quality 3d objdcts and lighting to run smoothly on the sli workstation class gpus.
portland was chosen for its low population density, small, colorful and varied downton, and wide range of environments, habitars and people types.
the exotic dancer per capita and the genetic affects of this area result in strangely surreal demographics perfect for production
a high witch and hippy count.. and lets not get into sexual dynamics here
a challenge to peer into repression and potential both off the charts
while im single i just
dropped outvof the world and dove deeper into web coding, processing and engine code
i was hoping that there would be more fulll integration of the mmo networking code of the company muchdifferent daht cahm into unreal engine 4 by now, especially now rhat c shsrp integration into the c++ (with bluprint visual ing system) is complete
in the absense of that, the open source kbengine must bevpaired with it. kbengine is a full mmorpg framework modelled adter "bigworld".. that can go well with the open source unreal engine 4, but it must be "ported" over to that engine
one of a million things that must be done...
luckily the entire dungeons and dragons universecwas modernized and then mutants and cyborgs and powers and futuristic star trek, atlantis, star wars stuff was added... it makes a nice sort of "fifth element" detailed james cameron detailed sheen to the whole virtual world..
by having real wold people be sources for characters in world, the adult bdsm and other footage in game will be even more interesting than typical motion capture characters..
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got the domain back at neopangaia doht cahm
experimenting with differentvschemes and templates
when i want inspiration, i goto csszengarden daht cahm
its a shame that flash was not steve jobs' thing... ill check out the new html5 adobe products. fluid websites with unique designs are nice.. but making sure to have a great content and community site is important. for the bdsm mmorpg, ive had several communuty eebsites, using a variety of cms' (content management systems).
ultimately, i believe wordpress, combined with the buddypress social networking olugin offers the best base. with code and plugins almost anything can be achieved at minimal cost.
when the complete site framework is completed, graphic customizations and code extensions can be done.
along thecway, an encyclopedia of bdsm information, combined wuth reviews and products, would be good.. discussion areas....
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when i was 6 i had already read thousands of pages of mythology. written by men. hunting through the female idea of a dark lord, one thing was clear. it was transhuman. limitless creativity, the genius of ironman mixed with the creativity of morgoth more than simple sauron.
i am reminded of the neil gaiman lucifer, a creative in the circles of heaven for an absent project manager god. years of virtual six figure yuppy boredom and i wondered... decades after finding no lord on this planet to serve.. hunting ghosts inside the self
at what point do we obey the universe to the point of doing?
at what point are we the hand of the incomprehensible
as if this reality, lovecraft be correct minus modern minded simple good evil idea
that vast quantum connected sea (see "whst the bleep do we know" read more mckenna perhaps?)
vand by all means, pick up a copy of barbara walker's "women's encyclopedia" of myths and secrets.
a friend the other day mentioned the bene gesserit from "dune"
some cvall me a feminist because i perceive modern men as needlessly weak, bowing always to money, time, space
a delight to be bound by vow no interpreting the home office
whatvloveceaft called azathoth
lets break that down
aza as in azazel
is really Uzza
female lusting prototype of lilith
strongestvof the elohim
thoth
egyp,tian god of magick and so.. duality
in one symbiotic being like a gigercpainting
i hunt power
as nyarlathotep
agent of azathoth in this world bringing balance
many minds imagine photoreal bdsm fantasy friendly sci fi modern noir virtual reality
so i build it hungrily hunting flesh to sculpt in reality bending things to match desire while duplicating that pandora in a glass jar of 3d art
game sells person fame spark male lust sells game
starting small vurtual portland
this city filled to the brim with the most beautiful women on earth
if only i had a girl to shape intomslinky sith lord
teach her the darkest secrets make her an anonymous hacker a soldier mystic soul owner shaper hunter collector cold assasin of her weak human self to be the dark will wrapped in flesh of a thirst for a differentbheat in the air tgan this a virtualmesrth will sell itself looking like a hollywood more than game on a terabyte suze ssd on hardware indesigned myself nomjealousybofvtiny srark after working at lockheed martin i peered inyo the future a bit with work |
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im hunting my wife.. the sort of power hungry witch who would hunt a thing like me waiting for truth to walk up to me literally fuck my human brains out and tell the primal creature that remains my pussy is you leash for a lifetime and my lips are your lifeline to humanity and mean it as clear as the words of a two year old that never grows up to be a spiritually dead adult then ill be able to think straight for a second will this bullshit world away and live in a real one
comprende? |
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when your life is bound by vows you are bound by words.. as if storybook
and so to see where they lead by who summons you with them and how.. for why |
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so much to do....
1 - finishing up preproduction, readying production on the virtual portland, bdsm/fantasy themed gta style rpg using nreal engine 4. nfortunately, with no female domme to play the primary goddess/villain.. and no female slave to play temple harlots and hrntai victims.. the plan to use a bdsm nlog ABOUT the game to fund the gsme itself ... stalled
if a domme or sub agreed to model for it, the nlog about the extreme 247 tpe life behind its history, would be a freat $$$ subscriber blog
private media groupmonce paid 20 grabd a month for the blog about my bdsm house (house nysian) when i was going out with and training tge domme monaleasha on thus site... HOW to iwn a human.. how to train them
2 - recently started a church in portland, oregon. a legal church. called neopangaia. primarily help thevhomeless. its an interfaith church. if infind a domme eager to marry, kne ministry can be tonworship the dark goddess (kali) and thevother mjnistry.. among many.. can be tonthevdark, the black, thevunknown lust, sin, flesh, nature, quantum.... cthulhu...
3 - tired of wasting time and money searching fofr a true goddess to marry, true slave to own.. i joined occupy wall street and moved to portland.. im a nomad, a traveller, a mad max yrban apocalypse warrior.. im a tribe leader.. and a knife carrier
im a beast ready to devour your all.. havkngbleftbyour vanolla world i live wherever i may roam
find me in portland.. green army jacket.. silver bike
skull hat...
4 - crowley said become your acarar.. each day i get stringer, smarter.. tested bybelements and srreet.. i work on a flotilla
my slave willnstart at the nottom with me
or i willnstartbat the bittom with my mate my goddess
either way
onl strongestbhungriest
mostvextreme need apply
i explore the darkest blackest god
not role play |
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how serious is hunger to find what does not exist when you find it crave it when you crave it hunt it when you hunt it capture it youve never known her dream beast dream dom weve never seen that dark goddess that truly dehumanized slave that completely no lkmit owner weve never seen tgat true bimbofied 247 fuckmeat slut
ive hunted and studied your dreams for a lifetime and in this mjnd is the path yo seeing them real i hnt the girl who would be a goddess thevslut who would be a slave the human who would be objectified fuckmeat bimbo knowing if i dont show it myself to the world uoill still be stuck dreamjng wishing role playing fantasizing and science and religion still take you forvfun
bdsm is magick it is not kjnk you can explore human potential life not role play i wait tonshow my second generation school my techniques my dehimanized inhumanity i wait for you tomlive dream not just be dreamers |
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the so called master is always the slave i ask for anything everything nothing
to see who gives what
i seek no less than most no more than any its so easy to sift through fancy words and deflect those with less to give than all
today for the first and last time i spoke what i want people what THEY want? irrelevant you should want me to have what i desire
or back to invisibly hunting your dreams
so many so quick to say to know what i should be search on
the faithful who believe are who i seek
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there is a deepest darkest blackest god a mind unchained a soul carrying no pinnochio strings a will unbreaking focus and devotion to manifesting your dreams not hiding unashamed of always hunting 360 degrees of knowledge, power awareness give me you your body, mind, soul, will life, home, service make of yourself and all you are a temple to your darkest dream s and know, i will like priest like dream made flesh spend all my waking life to build tgat church to reshape this world to match your urges with aert and words and what i shape of you let the world see your dream know true blackest divinity not what you have seen but what you imagine lets build it together
for all those who truly wish to show devotion to manifesting the blackest god give tribute...
i want to create a goddesss so carry out my will by giving to goddessxx
offer her your aid and i will see sincerity
i want your all bring me home to the world we make from my will and your sacrifice |
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when you will it, speak it, vow it make each word true with the power of life and death
be ruthless above all, to yourself be devoured complete and in full by the creature you dream darkest to become
consume the human uou with the slave, the dub, the dom you imagine deepest
little by little, whisper by vow by act
i am deepest slave to dream i am darkest master of will
unlimited creativity intellect inhuman primal animalistic hunger
for the mind the body soul
you crave to become
this is the til now unmanifested
unseen potential of 360 degrees of knowledge
my birth name is dark and intelligent honest and noble prince of the angelus, the elohim
i serve the idea of lust the dark goddess slain
this dark seed dark mind to shape your flesh in her image in my mind
blackest god ill show you darkest goddess through my mknds eye
whitest fuckmeat how to own twist shape and mold
humanity |
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Age: 37 |
Cebu City,
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