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Where are the Rites of Passage for the youth to endure?
Can we be true adults without them?
My journey into self-discovery truly began 7 yrs ago when I stumbled across a website featuring the lifestyle, BDSM. As I read further, I was flooded with feelings of familiarity and belonging; waves of overwelming desire and needs that I felt deep down but never knew how to express........
At this time I was in year three of a six yr relationship with an older man.
He was my first serious partner and I was so eager to finally have understanding of these urges, I blindly devoted myself to him from that point on. I introduced him to BDSM and without hesitation...I let go...I trusted him fully with my life and all aspects of it.......
as a result I learned many many hard lessons .
I gave him complete control when he did not possess the tools as a Dominant and I was screaming inside, waiting to be heard by capable ears. I risked myself to satisfy the urges...which only made the hunger worse as I developed. I realized that I needed more....no longer could I breathe in his torturous constraints.....
I spent the next year developing the skills needed to answer my calling in life, I struggled everyday to discover more of myself...by myself. Testing my boundaries on all levels. Preparing myself for what is still yet to come.
Those experiences changed me in ways I never knew possible. The flame deep inside was becoming a roaring fire....threating to overcome everything I thought I knew. Now I face my newest challenge.. My Health....I can no longer grow into my submission without taking this step next. My body needs attention and that is my focus for the next 12 months. I thought I was ready but I realize now that my journey has just begun.....
I delve inside daily and face my fears and insecurities and am learning to let go of the past. By taking the time to know myself on a deeper, more complex level, I can now identify my wants,needs,desires,hopes,dreams, boundaries, and focus on what really matters to me in life. . .
I am proud to embrace my submissive nature.
I am intensely perverted.
I am an introvertive person
I am dedicated and focused.
I am preparing for my sacred responsibility.
My sole purpose
TO SERVE MASTER
where are u ?????
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